AN: Sorry for the long wait let's just say WRITER'S BLOCK! This chapter is just a chapter to try to move things along, I just want to say how sorry I know the story is getting a little slow but I am trying to move things along, I just started school so updates will still be a little slow so bear with me PLEASE REVIEW!!!
Buffy cried in Willow's arms for what seemed like forever, she finally looked up at her friend.
Buffy: I will give him a chance Willow, but I'm not promising that I will ever love him like I did when I did before
Willow: (smiles) That's what I wanted to hear so do you want to go talk to him now or wait till tomorrow?
Buffy: Tomorrow
Willow nodded and the two friends headed downstairs.
Dawn: So Spike, you don't remember anything?
Spike: (shakes head)
Dawn: That must really suck
Spike: Tell me about it nibblet
Dawn's face suddenly brightened,
Dawn: You are starting to remember stuff!
Spike looked at the teen confused as did Giles, Xander and Anya.
Anya: How can you tell?
Dawn: He called me Nibblet and he is the only one who ever called me that
Xander: This is good right?
Buffy: (walks in room Willow behind her) What's good?
Giles: It seems Spike is beginning to regain his memory
Buffy tried to hide a look of surprise and happiness on her face, Spike turned and looked at her smiling soon he would remember what he had with her and they would be able to continue it.
Buffy: That's great... why doesn't everyone stay here tonight so we can get a good start on telling Spike what we know, you know to see if anything sparks his memory
Everyone nodded and headed to bed except for Giles, who stayed downstairs with his books trying to figure out a way to stop Uther, who was being surprisingly quiet, not feeding just waiting and watching for the moment he would kill the slayer.
Xander and Anya took Willow's room while Willow slept in Dawn's room, Dawn slept on a cot next to Buffy's Bed, Spike slept downstairs on the couch as Giles kept an eye on him and researched.
***
That night Spike dreamed about things from his forgotten past
A woman in Victorian clothing, a shy man running from laughing men, crying and the weight of rejection in his chest as he ran in a alley, being stopped by a raven haired woman.
Spike gasped and sat up quickly, looking around at his surroundings. It was daylight outside and there were books on the table next to him. A man had a book open on his lap and his head against the wall and was sleeping.
He didn't remember anything
***
Buffy was dreamed but her dreams turned into nightmares
"I'm gonna make you feel it"
"No stop!"
She tossed and turned, moaning, talking in her sleep.
"I love you Buffy always remember that"
"I just want to make you happy"
Buffy to sat up in her bed and said
" NO SPIKE!"
She awoke Dawn who was laying on the cot next to her.
Dawn: (sleepily) You ok Buffy?
Buffy put her face in her hands and nodded, Dawn laid back down but couldn't get back to sleep
Dawn: I'm sure he will remember stuff Buffy, Don't get so stressed over it
Buffy: I'm not stressed Dawn, I'm just a little out of it
Dawn: It will get better I promise, and Buffy I can tell you right now he still does love you, the way he looks at you, he knows that something deep down inside of him loves you, but he's just not able to find it.
Buffy looked at her sister and smiled, she had a lot of wisdom in her for a sixteen-year-old. The monks must have put a little of mom in her too thought Buffy.
Buffy: Thanks Dawn
Dawn: (smiles) No problem, lets go see if any one else is awake.
Buffy shook her head after she glanced at her alarm clock.
Buffy: It's only eight, lets give everyone a little more shuteye
Dawn nodded and yawned. She laid back down, Buffy did the same but she didn't fall back asleep, the memories that she dreamed of, the words that were said, were still ringing in her ears. Tears rolled down her face and she hope she would be able to keep her word about giving Spike another chance.
***
Xander stared at the ceiling of Willow's room. Anya was snoring softly next to him, smiling in her sleep possibly dreaming about all of the men she tortured. Xander smiled then heard a shout from Buffy's room.
"NO SPIKE"
Xander leaped out of the bed and started towards the door, he heard soft talking coming from the room now, Buffy was dreaming. Xander clenched his fists. Spike might have forgotten about all the stuff he did to Buffy but Xander never would and He vowed to make Spike pay one day, when he was back to his old self.
He was acting nice to Spike for Buffy and Dawn's benefit, he didn't want them to get upset that he still wanted to hurt Spike... Badly.
Anya: Xander?
Xander turned to the sound of his lover's voice.
Xander: You ok Ahn?
Anya: (nods) Your not, I can tell
Xander sat on the bed and sighed.
Xander: It's the whole deal with Spike
Anya: Don't fret over him Xander, we have other things to worry about
Xander: I know
Xander looked at her and smiled.
***
Dawn: Buffy? Can we please go downstairs I can't sleep
Buffy: Me neither, let's go
They both charged in the hallway almost knocking into Xander, Anya and Willow who were also heading downstairs.
Xander: Good morning ladies
They all smiled at him and headed to the living room were they found Giles Sleeping but no sign of Spike. Buffy felt a rise of panic
Buffy: Giles? Where is Spike?
Giles opened his eyes and sleepily glanced at his young friends.
Giles: What?
Buffy: Where is Spike?
Giles: Oh I'm sorry... I must have dozed off
Buffy sighed and walked into the kitchen to find Spike huddled in a corner trembling.
Buffy: Spike?
Spike looked up at Buffy, he had tears running down his face.
Spike: Leave me alone
A wave of sadness hit Buffy, she walked closer to him.
Buffy: It's ok Spike, It's me Buffy.
She wasn't sure if he was in a state of shock or not.
Spike: I shouldn't have sneaked out and defied mother... but I had to see her
Buffy: (confused) See who?
Spike: The woman I love why does it matter?
Buffy: Your just confused right now, the whole memory loss thing, you will be back to normal soon Spike
Spike: Who is this Spike you keep referring me too, my name is William and I have never lost my memory
Buffy looked at Spike shocked, he thought he was still in England... before he was turned.
Buffy: H-he's no one, do you know who I am?
William: I do not madam but I would like to be left alone... I need to figure out how to explain everything to mother
Buffy: I am the woman you love right?
William looked at Buffy strangely, then he shook his head. Buffy's heart broke apart, not understanding Spike's sudden change.
William: I love Cecily
AN: I love cliffhangers, well writing them at least, you always get very interesting reviews *Hint Hint* well the next chapter should be up soon since I haven't been bombarded with homework yet, PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!