[Duo slumped against the wall. It was because of one of these "phases" that
Hilde had gotten to him. Her care for him had gotten through his heart's
barrier when his guard had been done due to an emotional wave, and stuck
there. Two days she had ripped it back out and the hole was filling with
what would be nightmares in a few mere hours. These 'phases' had happened
before, enough times for him to know to well that he had to avoid human
company unless it was Heero. It wasn't like the soldier was really there,
so he figured it wouldn't affect his emotions and make his anger rise if he
happened to be in "mood- mode." Seeing all the death in the war had kept
Duo under the shadows and kept him in his 'phases' for extended amounts of
time. Heero was also the only one physically strong enough to restrain Duo,
lest he try something rash during one of his fits. If it had been the
Arabian as his partner, Quatra might still, now after the war was over, be
frightened by him.]
[Duo hated having to trap himself alone. But until he knew he could control the high stream of ugly emotions that ran with him during the relapses, the dark parts of his soul where he saw Sister Helen, and everyone who had been killed by the war or by his gundam, he could not leave. Once he had almost hurled himself form a building I a search for peace form his ghosts. It wasn't fair that all those people he had loved, the innocents, had to suffer because of a battle with a crazy man and his ideals. It wasn't fair that one man caused that war and sacrificed so many lives with one command. Was peace worth all those lives? Surely, but who would be brave enough to give them? He and the other pilots had tried doing exactly that, and yet, it still wasn't fair that he had to remember them all, every life taken, while knowing he had been powerless to stop their demise, to save them. Pounding his fist into the wall, duo tried to hold back the oncoming wave of raw, mixed, emotions; Anger, despair, and the confused need to be rescued. ]
[He needed to talk to Heero, well, not 'talk', but to be in the proximity of his friend just in case he did act up. The man had once saved him from detonating a line of company buildings after seeing a small girl crushed by one of the company's fighting MS. He had run straight for the machine with no weapons and would have gotten himself and the entire inhabitants of the buildings, innocent or not, killed. Opening his door a crack, he saw Hilde busily cleaning and settling things up with a small smile gracing her lips. Once more a brief jealousy, which he had tried to vow from, sprang up in his demeanor and stirred his heart. Closing his eyes, he waited for the sound of her moving away to go and change her attire. Duo then quickly exited the building and headed towards the garage to grab his motorcycle. Pulling on a leather jacket (courtesy of Heero and a certain birthday present), he jumped on and sped off.]
[Duo hated having to trap himself alone. But until he knew he could control the high stream of ugly emotions that ran with him during the relapses, the dark parts of his soul where he saw Sister Helen, and everyone who had been killed by the war or by his gundam, he could not leave. Once he had almost hurled himself form a building I a search for peace form his ghosts. It wasn't fair that all those people he had loved, the innocents, had to suffer because of a battle with a crazy man and his ideals. It wasn't fair that one man caused that war and sacrificed so many lives with one command. Was peace worth all those lives? Surely, but who would be brave enough to give them? He and the other pilots had tried doing exactly that, and yet, it still wasn't fair that he had to remember them all, every life taken, while knowing he had been powerless to stop their demise, to save them. Pounding his fist into the wall, duo tried to hold back the oncoming wave of raw, mixed, emotions; Anger, despair, and the confused need to be rescued. ]
[He needed to talk to Heero, well, not 'talk', but to be in the proximity of his friend just in case he did act up. The man had once saved him from detonating a line of company buildings after seeing a small girl crushed by one of the company's fighting MS. He had run straight for the machine with no weapons and would have gotten himself and the entire inhabitants of the buildings, innocent or not, killed. Opening his door a crack, he saw Hilde busily cleaning and settling things up with a small smile gracing her lips. Once more a brief jealousy, which he had tried to vow from, sprang up in his demeanor and stirred his heart. Closing his eyes, he waited for the sound of her moving away to go and change her attire. Duo then quickly exited the building and headed towards the garage to grab his motorcycle. Pulling on a leather jacket (courtesy of Heero and a certain birthday present), he jumped on and sped off.]