Silken Plea: Chapter 7
Rayvn angrily shoved away from him, after waking to find herself laying on the couch with him, her head resting on his chest. It had taken her moments to gain the high build-up of heavy emotions that she now barely controlled. Anger at him, anger at Fahrein, anger at him for using her, and anger at her for trusting him.
But most of all, Rayvn was angry because all her work and training to be a Hunter had failed because she had so easily given in to what could have claimed her soul, not only her life. And trailing behind that anger was the anger in some sick part of her, that she had liked the feeling.
Silver stirred beside her as Rayvn slipped away. ~Rayvn?~
Rayvn shook her head. How could she have let herself be such a fool? He had been baiting her from the beginning, preying on her like the predator blood laced so heavily through his blood. The same blood that graced his already liquid movement.
His hand grabbed her wrist gently, but Rayvn threw it off. "Rayvn," He sighed, standing after her.
"No! Don't say anything!" Rayvn hissed, smoothing her clothes to try and calm her anger and think.
Rayvn was relieved when he said nothing, and began walking away. She had to find a door and get out of here. She had to go somewhere. She didn't know where, but she knew from the throbbing persistance in her mind it didn't matter- as long as she got out.
~Rayvn, please,~ Silver whispered in her mind, and she could feel herself unwillingly trying to glance back at him, ~Rayvn, stop!~
Rayvn shook his voice off, and ran as she caught sight of a heavy oaken door. Hearing him call after her, she ran harder, and knew she would slam into the door at her rate. Frantically, she tried to stop by stopping aburbtly, but her legs where slow to comply, and she found herself the next moment clutched to Silver, and his body slam harshly into the door.
"Let me go, now!" Rayvn hissed,trying to move her hands in a wheel to throw his off. ~Hush.~ He hissed back, not budging.
Akwardly, Rayvn stopped fighting, and tried to duck, but he blocked her, his blue eyes angry and oddly blank. "Stop it! Let me go."
~Rayvn, stop it.~ Rayvn angrily stopped moving, and his fingers slipped through her hair softly, ~You do not wish to go.~
Silver's voice had never been so compelling or drawing. That part of her mind that begged for her to stay- the one that had persauded her last night- was seconded with the one that was now curious. Why shouldn't she stay? He wasn't dangerous.
Was he?
Rayvn pressed her hands to her forehead, and screamed, "Stop it!"
~Hush, Rayvn. You are tired.~ Rayvn shook her head in protest, placing her hands over her eyes.
"No. Stop messing with my mind, Silver." Rayvn saw him shake his head through her fingers, and closed them tightly.
"I am not 'messing' with your mind, Rayvn, and you know it. I cannot help it that you wish to stay, nor that I also wish for you to stay. Why are you running?" He scolded softly, and Rayvn shook her head.
"Don't be stupid!" She yelled, "I don't want to stay. You are blocking my way to the door. My way to go on with my life and go back to Brujaa."
"You know I block that also."
"Yes." She whispered, nodding.
"Then you wish to battle me?" He pressed.
Rayvn laughed. "No. I wish to make my way into Brujaa. What else is there for me to do? Life is nothing to me except a fight. I do not understand it, but I will believe it."
He shook his head. "Come and sit down, Rayvn." Silver made his way from the room, and although she was tempted to follow, she quickly placed her hand on the door. "And that door is another to my bed, unless you would rather be there." His voice was a soft snicker, full of laughter.
Heat rose in crimson waves to her cheeks, and she slammed her foot agianst the door rapidly, her anger blinding her until she found herself being shaken lightly by Silver and heard his voice talking to her in soothing tones.
"Get off me! I am not a child!" She screamed, and he released her.
"Then do not act as one, Rayvn. Come, and sit with me." She followed him numbly to the couch once more, and sat next to him, laying her head heavily back and closing her eyes.
~I was once like you, Rayvn. Once proud and head-strong. I did not wish for life, and I did not wish to die even more. So I strived to be the best in everything. I studied so hard cold sweat broke out, I practiced the sword and bow until I bled, I read everything until there was nothing to read that anyone could give or recommend, and I did everything. Everything, Rayvn. And although I gained greatly, I had no passion. Life was bland for me.~ Silver paused with a sigh and looked over to her.
~I knew so much and the questions where much more. What none other cared to question, I questioned. What none other tried to understand, I tried. I was at loss. Because I was young, I was feared. You see, people say they respect knowledge, but because I was barely ten and seven summers, they avoided me. Do not mistake me, the girls thought me 'grand', but my elders looked down on me. I do not fully understand it even now, but I was an outcast and the center of attention. Rayvn, do you understand what happened next?~
Rayvn thought on his question, relaxing. "You became a vampire in your search. It was the best solution to your fear of living and fear of death?"
~Yes, that was what I thought!~ Silver's voice was passionate in her head, ~But you see? There I was wrong! I feared life because it held no potiental for me, I could not control it easily- infact, very little at all. I believed I would be so strong I did not need to practice my bow and sword among other weapons. I believed knowledge was mine automatically. The door would suddendly be thrust wide open to me!
~And I was pitiful. No knowledge of every weapon came to me, and though I handled every weapon very nicely on my first try, I had to learn to become an abosolute expert. Knowledge came to me however, but because I was bitter and so much wiser. Pain and loss makes some wiser, and I believe that was my case.
~Anyhow, I have at least the odd compromise for my fears. I do not fear life nor hate it, really. I take it and control it in a twisted way, to live. And I do not fear death, but I will not let myself die. Human ways wither even less when you live as long as I have.~
"Silver-" He cut her off as she began.
~I am not finished, Rayvn. I am coming to the point,~ Silver sighed agian, ~You did not know that door led to my bedroom, as I did, yet you wished to go there. I knew it, Rayvn, so think back on our conversation. It has new meaning now, does it not?
~As the conversation has new meaning knowing what you relied on now to be a trap; a trap another knew of -knew you set for yourself- think of what you are doing. No, nevermind, do not. You have thought of our conversation, and I will explain this for you.
~When I said you are like me, I explained. Knowing all that I explained, think of this, alright? You said life is a fight, and you do not understand it but believe it. I will not talk you out of that, Rayvn, but listen to me. Do not think that there is nothing more in life than Brujaa, or just living to fight. Brujaa is no bad goal, but you are a human, and you have that gift. You still have that innocence of life, Rayvn. That innocence that you do not have the bitter knowledge I have, that innocence you might fear death, because you have little life.
~You see? Thinking life has to be one way is setting a trap for you, and I among others know it. But thinking that also is something you may truly wish to think, Rayvn.~ Rayvn listened intently, and sat thinking on what he had said comtenplativly.
"And when you told me you have an odd compromise of your fears now. What does that mean for me in my case?" She asked aburbtly.
~Escaping both may be bitter for you. In other words, going into that trap could be better for you. Rayvn, life is a puzzle that fits and never fits. It is also shadowed and played upon by death, and although it is one of the hardest and bitterest things, it is undoubtably the sweestest.~ He whispered gently, as if thinking on it himself.
"You have not figured it out yet." Rayvn said softly, watching how his eyes noted everything around for some inspiration of thought while he reviewed what he knew.
Silver sighed and shook his head with a tender smile. "No, I have not. The door is up stairs- the door I before said was my room. If you truly wish to exit, do so there."
He did not seem surprised when Rayvn flinched and did not move, and laid back down on the couch. ~Suit yourself. If you wish, you may sleep in the room you slept before,~ With a smile he added, ~But I would much rather you slept here.~
Silver likewise seemed unspurprised when Rayvn stood to go to that room, growling a curse at him angrily.
Rayvn angrily shoved away from him, after waking to find herself laying on the couch with him, her head resting on his chest. It had taken her moments to gain the high build-up of heavy emotions that she now barely controlled. Anger at him, anger at Fahrein, anger at him for using her, and anger at her for trusting him.
But most of all, Rayvn was angry because all her work and training to be a Hunter had failed because she had so easily given in to what could have claimed her soul, not only her life. And trailing behind that anger was the anger in some sick part of her, that she had liked the feeling.
Silver stirred beside her as Rayvn slipped away. ~Rayvn?~
Rayvn shook her head. How could she have let herself be such a fool? He had been baiting her from the beginning, preying on her like the predator blood laced so heavily through his blood. The same blood that graced his already liquid movement.
His hand grabbed her wrist gently, but Rayvn threw it off. "Rayvn," He sighed, standing after her.
"No! Don't say anything!" Rayvn hissed, smoothing her clothes to try and calm her anger and think.
Rayvn was relieved when he said nothing, and began walking away. She had to find a door and get out of here. She had to go somewhere. She didn't know where, but she knew from the throbbing persistance in her mind it didn't matter- as long as she got out.
~Rayvn, please,~ Silver whispered in her mind, and she could feel herself unwillingly trying to glance back at him, ~Rayvn, stop!~
Rayvn shook his voice off, and ran as she caught sight of a heavy oaken door. Hearing him call after her, she ran harder, and knew she would slam into the door at her rate. Frantically, she tried to stop by stopping aburbtly, but her legs where slow to comply, and she found herself the next moment clutched to Silver, and his body slam harshly into the door.
"Let me go, now!" Rayvn hissed,trying to move her hands in a wheel to throw his off. ~Hush.~ He hissed back, not budging.
Akwardly, Rayvn stopped fighting, and tried to duck, but he blocked her, his blue eyes angry and oddly blank. "Stop it! Let me go."
~Rayvn, stop it.~ Rayvn angrily stopped moving, and his fingers slipped through her hair softly, ~You do not wish to go.~
Silver's voice had never been so compelling or drawing. That part of her mind that begged for her to stay- the one that had persauded her last night- was seconded with the one that was now curious. Why shouldn't she stay? He wasn't dangerous.
Was he?
Rayvn pressed her hands to her forehead, and screamed, "Stop it!"
~Hush, Rayvn. You are tired.~ Rayvn shook her head in protest, placing her hands over her eyes.
"No. Stop messing with my mind, Silver." Rayvn saw him shake his head through her fingers, and closed them tightly.
"I am not 'messing' with your mind, Rayvn, and you know it. I cannot help it that you wish to stay, nor that I also wish for you to stay. Why are you running?" He scolded softly, and Rayvn shook her head.
"Don't be stupid!" She yelled, "I don't want to stay. You are blocking my way to the door. My way to go on with my life and go back to Brujaa."
"You know I block that also."
"Yes." She whispered, nodding.
"Then you wish to battle me?" He pressed.
Rayvn laughed. "No. I wish to make my way into Brujaa. What else is there for me to do? Life is nothing to me except a fight. I do not understand it, but I will believe it."
He shook his head. "Come and sit down, Rayvn." Silver made his way from the room, and although she was tempted to follow, she quickly placed her hand on the door. "And that door is another to my bed, unless you would rather be there." His voice was a soft snicker, full of laughter.
Heat rose in crimson waves to her cheeks, and she slammed her foot agianst the door rapidly, her anger blinding her until she found herself being shaken lightly by Silver and heard his voice talking to her in soothing tones.
"Get off me! I am not a child!" She screamed, and he released her.
"Then do not act as one, Rayvn. Come, and sit with me." She followed him numbly to the couch once more, and sat next to him, laying her head heavily back and closing her eyes.
~I was once like you, Rayvn. Once proud and head-strong. I did not wish for life, and I did not wish to die even more. So I strived to be the best in everything. I studied so hard cold sweat broke out, I practiced the sword and bow until I bled, I read everything until there was nothing to read that anyone could give or recommend, and I did everything. Everything, Rayvn. And although I gained greatly, I had no passion. Life was bland for me.~ Silver paused with a sigh and looked over to her.
~I knew so much and the questions where much more. What none other cared to question, I questioned. What none other tried to understand, I tried. I was at loss. Because I was young, I was feared. You see, people say they respect knowledge, but because I was barely ten and seven summers, they avoided me. Do not mistake me, the girls thought me 'grand', but my elders looked down on me. I do not fully understand it even now, but I was an outcast and the center of attention. Rayvn, do you understand what happened next?~
Rayvn thought on his question, relaxing. "You became a vampire in your search. It was the best solution to your fear of living and fear of death?"
~Yes, that was what I thought!~ Silver's voice was passionate in her head, ~But you see? There I was wrong! I feared life because it held no potiental for me, I could not control it easily- infact, very little at all. I believed I would be so strong I did not need to practice my bow and sword among other weapons. I believed knowledge was mine automatically. The door would suddendly be thrust wide open to me!
~And I was pitiful. No knowledge of every weapon came to me, and though I handled every weapon very nicely on my first try, I had to learn to become an abosolute expert. Knowledge came to me however, but because I was bitter and so much wiser. Pain and loss makes some wiser, and I believe that was my case.
~Anyhow, I have at least the odd compromise for my fears. I do not fear life nor hate it, really. I take it and control it in a twisted way, to live. And I do not fear death, but I will not let myself die. Human ways wither even less when you live as long as I have.~
"Silver-" He cut her off as she began.
~I am not finished, Rayvn. I am coming to the point,~ Silver sighed agian, ~You did not know that door led to my bedroom, as I did, yet you wished to go there. I knew it, Rayvn, so think back on our conversation. It has new meaning now, does it not?
~As the conversation has new meaning knowing what you relied on now to be a trap; a trap another knew of -knew you set for yourself- think of what you are doing. No, nevermind, do not. You have thought of our conversation, and I will explain this for you.
~When I said you are like me, I explained. Knowing all that I explained, think of this, alright? You said life is a fight, and you do not understand it but believe it. I will not talk you out of that, Rayvn, but listen to me. Do not think that there is nothing more in life than Brujaa, or just living to fight. Brujaa is no bad goal, but you are a human, and you have that gift. You still have that innocence of life, Rayvn. That innocence that you do not have the bitter knowledge I have, that innocence you might fear death, because you have little life.
~You see? Thinking life has to be one way is setting a trap for you, and I among others know it. But thinking that also is something you may truly wish to think, Rayvn.~ Rayvn listened intently, and sat thinking on what he had said comtenplativly.
"And when you told me you have an odd compromise of your fears now. What does that mean for me in my case?" She asked aburbtly.
~Escaping both may be bitter for you. In other words, going into that trap could be better for you. Rayvn, life is a puzzle that fits and never fits. It is also shadowed and played upon by death, and although it is one of the hardest and bitterest things, it is undoubtably the sweestest.~ He whispered gently, as if thinking on it himself.
"You have not figured it out yet." Rayvn said softly, watching how his eyes noted everything around for some inspiration of thought while he reviewed what he knew.
Silver sighed and shook his head with a tender smile. "No, I have not. The door is up stairs- the door I before said was my room. If you truly wish to exit, do so there."
He did not seem surprised when Rayvn flinched and did not move, and laid back down on the couch. ~Suit yourself. If you wish, you may sleep in the room you slept before,~ With a smile he added, ~But I would much rather you slept here.~
Silver likewise seemed unspurprised when Rayvn stood to go to that room, growling a curse at him angrily.