**Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I do not own any of these characters. This is just fiction.

Summary: My outtake on what should have happened if Susan would never have left.

Last time on ER. Flashes to Susan, head hanging out of train. "I love you, Bye!" She shouts to Mark. Flashes to Mark staring at ground and then walking away. Flashes to Mark purchasing a bottle of vodka.

Flashes to Mark sitting on his couch unscrewing a bottle of Demerol, a bottle of vodka on the coffee table. Flashes to door knob rattling and Mark looking up."Susan?!?!".

"Hello Mark, what were you doing."

"Uhhhh I was just uhm."

Susan approaches where Mark is sitting. She sits down next to him. "Uhm Demerol and vodka??"

"Yeah uhm I wasn't gonna take it."

"Sure you weren't."

"I wasn't. I thought about it but I just couldn't do it. Something inside me told me I shouldn't."

"No," Susan laughs, "that was me."

Mark laughs. "What are you doing here anyway? I thought you'd be halfway to Phoenix by now."

"Yeah well, I got to the next station and took the next train back to Chicago. I realized en route that you were what really mattered to me. Mark, I'm in love with you. I've been in love with you for the longest time, for as long as I can remember. Even when you were married to Jen, secretly, I wished it was me. I wanted to be the one you went home to every night. I wanted to be the one you kissed goodnight."

"It's not too late." Mark faces Susan. He cups her face in his hands. Then he kisses her softly. His hands move to the back of her head, ruffling her hair. She puts her arms around his neck and pulls of his sweater. There's a knock at the door.

"Erhm who is it?" says Mark, muffled through the kisses.

"It's Doug. I was concerned about you. I know Susan got on the train. I wanted to see if you were okay."

"Yeah I'm :kisses: fine"

Susan giggles loudly.

"Is someone in there with you Mark?"

"Uhm :kisses: no :kisses: why?"

"Come on Mark let me in."

"Oh let him in Mark, we might as well tell him. If I'm gonna stay here, I mean stay in Chicago and we're gonna fall madly in love, get married and have lots of kids.

"Wait.I didn't say anything about kids." Mark grins.

"Then we may as well tell him now."

"Come on Mark let me in dammit. What's going on?"

Mark and Susan's lips part. Mark puts his sweater back on. Susan is sitting there with ruffled hair and smeared lipstick. Her lipstick is also smeared on Mark's lips. Mark opens the door.

"Well it's about time," says Doug. He notices the smeared lipstick but does not yet see Susan. "Mmm sorry, busy night?" pointing to his lips. Indicating that Mark has something on his lips.

"Yeah..well." Mark stammers, wiping lipstick from his face.

Susan turns around and faces Doug. "Hey Doug, what's up?"

"What's up? Uhm hi. I thought you were on your way to Phoenix?"

"Yeah, well I was. But I got to my next station and I just couldn't get on the final train. I'm in love with Mark. He's in love with me. We belong together. So, I got back on a train to Chicago and Mark and I have been.well."

"Yes well I noticed that." Doug grins his famous Doug grin. "We'll I let you two lovebirds be and go annoy Carol for awhile. I'm sure she'll be pleased." He grins again. "Goodnighttt Mark." Nods in Susan's direction. "Susan, goodnight, welcome back."

Susan grins, "Thanks."

Doug sees himself out. Mark turns around to face his best friend, Susan. "So where were we?"

Please R and R



TO BE CONTINUED.