I'm ba-ack! That was fast...
*~*~*~*
Don't get me wrong or anything, I wasn't even thinking of breaking up that night - if someone had said that, I would've thought they were mental. And I've good a pretty good tolerance for that sorta thing.
But that has nothing to do with anything. What is important comes in October. My life by then was really busy - It was wierd, playing phone tag with James when I used to see him every day. And I was feeling odd about having a boyfriend. I felt like the class "popular" girl: All the other girls were geeky compared to me. I mean, in Hogwarts, it was all right that I could be Head Girl, get top grades, AND be one of the prettiest girls in the school. Trying to mix it in college just wasn't working. And I really really wanted to be a teacher, so...
~~~~~~~~
Lily flopped on her bed at the University, exausted. She was so tired of hanging on to her old life (and love) while turning to her new one (life, not love). She loved James, but... We've been going out since I was fifteen. Relationships aren't supposed to last forever.
She got up and picked up her phone, not really thinking about what she was doing.
Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by...
Ring, ring, ring... "Hello, this is James Potter. I'm off practicing Quidditch, or sleeping, or something. Anyway, leave a message, and I'll get back to you ASAP." Beep.
"James, I... look, I've been feeling really down about this new school, and seeing you is really straining my work load. It's been so strange. Anyway, I think we should break up. Goodbye." she put down the receiver, and started to cry. What have I done?
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing I tried to hold onto
The next day, Lily came back from classes to find a message on her machine. Knowing who it was from, she dreaded listening to it. But, she had to.
"Hey, Lily. Listen... we need to talk. Stop playing phone tag, stop this every-now-and-then bit. I really don't want to break it up... Please, just give us both one more chance!" Beep-beep-beep.
Lily shook her head, tears running down her face. No. I will not give in. I will not give in...
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Close my eyes, and you chase my thought away
To a place where I am blinded by the light...
But it's not right!
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing I tried to hold onto
She didn't call back. Now, or ever.
~~~~~~~~
James knew it was over when he hadn't heard from Lily in a week. He was heartbroken. He wondered what had gone wrong. He knew that the college was certainly a barrier, but...
He was so wrapped up in his thoughts, he didn't notice who ran into him. He turned to apologise, and found himself looking back into a pair of painfully familiar emerald-green eyes. Lily gave him a blank stare and turned away, her soul crying but her eyes dry and distant. She was all cried out. There were no more tears left.
James watched her with a stricken expression on his face. Turn around, he thought, as she walked down te street. See how much you've hurt me! But she didn't. He closed his eyes and turned back. I will not cry. I will not cry....
Since you left that day I realize my mind's made up on you
My heart is capsized and I don't know what I'm gonna do
Oooh
Pick me up, tape me together... Dot dat data da
Paper pieces on the floor
Oooh
Pick me up, tape me together... Dot dat data da
Paper pieces on the floor (paper pieces on the floor)
And I call out to you...
Lily turned at the end of the street, and saw a figure disappearing around the corner. She sighed. Already life was worse without James.
~~~~~~~~
To her classmates, she seemed distant and far away, not really paying attention. To Lily, she felt like she was floating... It's not really happening... It all looks so surreal...
Like a doorway on my heart
All the leaves are falling down
Although I try to pick them up
There's so many I think I'll drown
It was week later. She spent Saturday writing a long letter to her two pen pals, not mentioning James at all. Then she owled Morgana back, again not mentioning James. She was avoiding anyone named James, or anyone who had black hair. It was hard, but she put herself through it. She couldn't bear to think about him...
Ten days have come and gone
Ten days and I'm all alone
And all that I can do is pray, and pray
Ten days I've seen the rain
Coming down on a sunny day
But all I gotta do is pray, and pray...
Aweek later, Lily walked cheerily into the Creamery. She waved and sat next to Morgana. As she talked, her eyes caught James' in the corner. She smiled and waved, looking happier than she really was. He didn't get up, or wave back.
And if you're going my way
Don't think that I'll bend
'Cause this is where I'll stay
I think it's the end
~~~~~~~~
Oh how the mighty had fallen...
*~*~*~*
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared
Beneath the stars above
For a moment
All the world was right
How could I have know
That you'd ever say goodbye
And I am glad I didn't know
The way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss
The dance
*~*~*~*
I love that song... Anyway the songs in this chapter were by Michelle Branch, Celine Dion, and Garth Brooks.
There is a reason that this story moves EXTREMELY FAST. I'll explain in the next chapter.
liacoraginger@yahoo.com
http://www.geocities.com/liacoraginger
*~*~*~*
Don't get me wrong or anything, I wasn't even thinking of breaking up that night - if someone had said that, I would've thought they were mental. And I've good a pretty good tolerance for that sorta thing.
But that has nothing to do with anything. What is important comes in October. My life by then was really busy - It was wierd, playing phone tag with James when I used to see him every day. And I was feeling odd about having a boyfriend. I felt like the class "popular" girl: All the other girls were geeky compared to me. I mean, in Hogwarts, it was all right that I could be Head Girl, get top grades, AND be one of the prettiest girls in the school. Trying to mix it in college just wasn't working. And I really really wanted to be a teacher, so...
~~~~~~~~
Lily flopped on her bed at the University, exausted. She was so tired of hanging on to her old life (and love) while turning to her new one (life, not love). She loved James, but... We've been going out since I was fifteen. Relationships aren't supposed to last forever.
She got up and picked up her phone, not really thinking about what she was doing.
Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by...
Ring, ring, ring... "Hello, this is James Potter. I'm off practicing Quidditch, or sleeping, or something. Anyway, leave a message, and I'll get back to you ASAP." Beep.
"James, I... look, I've been feeling really down about this new school, and seeing you is really straining my work load. It's been so strange. Anyway, I think we should break up. Goodbye." she put down the receiver, and started to cry. What have I done?
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing I tried to hold onto
The next day, Lily came back from classes to find a message on her machine. Knowing who it was from, she dreaded listening to it. But, she had to.
"Hey, Lily. Listen... we need to talk. Stop playing phone tag, stop this every-now-and-then bit. I really don't want to break it up... Please, just give us both one more chance!" Beep-beep-beep.
Lily shook her head, tears running down her face. No. I will not give in. I will not give in...
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Close my eyes, and you chase my thought away
To a place where I am blinded by the light...
But it's not right!
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing I tried to hold onto
She didn't call back. Now, or ever.
~~~~~~~~
James knew it was over when he hadn't heard from Lily in a week. He was heartbroken. He wondered what had gone wrong. He knew that the college was certainly a barrier, but...
He was so wrapped up in his thoughts, he didn't notice who ran into him. He turned to apologise, and found himself looking back into a pair of painfully familiar emerald-green eyes. Lily gave him a blank stare and turned away, her soul crying but her eyes dry and distant. She was all cried out. There were no more tears left.
James watched her with a stricken expression on his face. Turn around, he thought, as she walked down te street. See how much you've hurt me! But she didn't. He closed his eyes and turned back. I will not cry. I will not cry....
Since you left that day I realize my mind's made up on you
My heart is capsized and I don't know what I'm gonna do
Oooh
Pick me up, tape me together... Dot dat data da
Paper pieces on the floor
Oooh
Pick me up, tape me together... Dot dat data da
Paper pieces on the floor (paper pieces on the floor)
And I call out to you...
Lily turned at the end of the street, and saw a figure disappearing around the corner. She sighed. Already life was worse without James.
~~~~~~~~
To her classmates, she seemed distant and far away, not really paying attention. To Lily, she felt like she was floating... It's not really happening... It all looks so surreal...
Like a doorway on my heart
All the leaves are falling down
Although I try to pick them up
There's so many I think I'll drown
It was week later. She spent Saturday writing a long letter to her two pen pals, not mentioning James at all. Then she owled Morgana back, again not mentioning James. She was avoiding anyone named James, or anyone who had black hair. It was hard, but she put herself through it. She couldn't bear to think about him...
Ten days have come and gone
Ten days and I'm all alone
And all that I can do is pray, and pray
Ten days I've seen the rain
Coming down on a sunny day
But all I gotta do is pray, and pray...
Aweek later, Lily walked cheerily into the Creamery. She waved and sat next to Morgana. As she talked, her eyes caught James' in the corner. She smiled and waved, looking happier than she really was. He didn't get up, or wave back.
And if you're going my way
Don't think that I'll bend
'Cause this is where I'll stay
I think it's the end
~~~~~~~~
Oh how the mighty had fallen...
*~*~*~*
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared
Beneath the stars above
For a moment
All the world was right
How could I have know
That you'd ever say goodbye
And I am glad I didn't know
The way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss
The dance
*~*~*~*
I love that song... Anyway the songs in this chapter were by Michelle Branch, Celine Dion, and Garth Brooks.
There is a reason that this story moves EXTREMELY FAST. I'll explain in the next chapter.
liacoraginger@yahoo.com
http://www.geocities.com/liacoraginger