Somewhere Out There
by: jade_tiger
Disclaimer: I don not own Yu-Gi-Oh. I also do not own 'Somewhere Out There'
it is owned (I think) by Our Lady Peace {who is one of my fave bands}. I am
only borrowing the characters and the song for my fic, so please do not sue
me. I don't have any money, so you wont get anything to begin with. ^_^
Warning: This is slash! Also kinda AU, I think, and some characters are OOC.
LYRICS
Somewhere Out There
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watched the red orange glow,
watch you float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you've gone save your tired soul,
you've gone save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails I'll wait.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity..........
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know....
Five years have passed since I last saw him, five years since he moved on and left me alone. Alone with this empty space inside of me, space that he once filled. I still remember how it began, that day, it was gray and the sun couldn't even find space to pass through the clouds at all. We walked to school, I had started going as his 'cousin', but I sensed something was wrong, because he was being unusually quiet. Later when we got home and finished our homework, also in silence, I confronted him, something I sometimes wish I hadn't done.
He agreed to talk and we went to the roof, the sky had cleared and it was a full moon. I sometimes have dreams of that time, how he looked with the moon's gentle glow on his angelic face. That was when he told me the news; he was moving and he wasn't planning on taking me with him. He said it was for the best, that I needed to learn how to live in this century by myself. Personally I thought it was a load of shit, if he had wanted to get rid of me he could have done it less cold bloodedly, couldn't he? I left then, I went for a walk, I don't remember where I just walked, I heard him try to call me back but I ignored it. I probably shouldn't have, but I felt so betrayed and hurt that he'd give me up so easily. When I returned the next day he was gone, he hadn't even bothered to say goodbye he just left. I haven't spoken with him since that night, but I have seen him.
I look out the large window of my office at Kaiba Corp. and see the high- rise buildings of the city, I had worked here for two years and I still cannot believe what humans are now capable of. To build these great cities and harness electricity so easily, when in the past humans had to do with candles or oil lamps, and that was if they could afford it. I work for Seto Kaiba, he became a good friend after my light left, and he's one of the few people I trust completely. To say the least I think I adapted well to this time period, and I can't help but think he would have been proud of me for my accomplishments. I turn from the sight of the city and pick up my jacket; it's time to go home. Funny, most people would be happy to be going home at night, but I'm not, I don't have a home, my home was with him and ever since he left I've had no home.
I get to the house and turn on the lights; I walk to the living room and turn the TV on. Maybe, I'll see him tonight, the media have been tailing him for some time now. There, on the news they show him. Hhmm, he hasn't changed much, he still has those big eyes and a slight air of innocence around him, but he looks more, I don't know how to describe it, jaded, maybe, or weary; he looks like he's tired of the world around him. I hope to whatever deity there is out there that it isn't the former, he shouldn't begin to look at the world with jaded eyes, and his innocence is what makes him who he is. I turn off the TV and walk up the stairs heading for the roof, the stars are out and I want to watch them for a while before going to bed. I think about him and remind myself that it is useless to even hope that he remembers me. He's too far out of reach now, no matter how much I hope or dream or wish, it's too late, and I can't take him away from the life he's made for himself. It would be cruel of me, and selfish, but gods how I wish I could be selfish, just this one last time.
It's been a week since I last saw him on TV he seems to have disappeared to the media, I just hope he's well. Seto came in to talk to me a few hours ago, he said I've been acting preoccupied lately, he's right. I can't help but think something might be wrong with my light, and here I am unable to do anything when I'm supposed to be protecting him. Seto tried to assure me he was fine, and invited me over for dinner at his home; he said the others were coming as well. I agreed since I haven't seen the others in quite a while.
Well I was the last to arrive, as usual, and like always I was teased for my tardiness. We watched some movies, at Joey's suggestion. They were good, I think, I wasn't really paying too much attention to what I was watching, or eating, or what people were saying to me. Okay, so basically I was zoned out the entire time, but it was justified, I was worried for my light's well being. As the last movie finished and the others were getting ready to leave Seto came to me and asked if he could talk to me, he looked worried about something so I agreed, after all he was there for me when I needed someone.
"What's up?" I asked after the others had left and the two of us were standing on the balcony. "I received a call today," he said in a quiet voice, as if he was worried about what he was going to say. "Okay, was it bad news? Did something happen?" I asked once again beginning to really worry as he hesitated to reply, he never hesitated on anything, in all the years I knew him he never lost his self-confidence on any subject or problem. It was one of the things I admired most about the tall brunet, he never let other people's opinions change the way he saw things, and he always said what was on his mind, he never kissed anybody's ass or spouted off bullshit to please someone. "No, nothing's wrong," Seto said quickly assuring me, "It's just I'll be having a guest here in a few days. And I just wanted you to know." I gave him a questioning look at his comment. I mean okay, he's having a guest over, then why is he so nervous? Or better yet, why the heck is he telling me as if he were asking for my permission? "Seto, why are you telling me this?" I asked him smiling at him, trying to ease the tension a bit; he looked like he wished to be anywhere but here. "Because, I thought you should know, " he replied in low tones. "Why?" I asked I was beginning to get a bit impatient, since we started the conversation I haven't done anything but ask why. "It's him, he's coming back." he finally informed me. Seto didn't have to elaborate who HE was I knew. "When?" I ask, but this time I really needed the answer. "I'm sorry," Seto said looking me in the eyes, conveying his regret, "But he asked me not to tell you anything. As it is, I've already broken that promise, but I can't tell you when or where. He said he needed to get away for a while, and I have a few properties that are pretty remote, so I offered." Seto looked really sorry, but I wasn't angry with him, actually I was glad, at least now I knew my light wasn't dead or anything. "It's no problem, as long as he's safe," I reassured him smiling, "He needs rest, you can tell when you see him on TV he looks ready to fall. I just want to thank you for offering him your place and for telling me. I was getting worried there." "Yeah, I could tell, you kept on photocopying that document this afternoon, remember?" he teased.
It's been a week since Seto told me about my light's plans, and since then I've gotten less and less sleep. Every time I lie down to go to sleep and close my eyes I see him, and, even though I know it's just a game my mind is playing with me, I reach out to him only to have him retreat. Getting farther and farther away, until all that I can hear is his voice telling me that he loves me. I can't help but give a cynical snort to that whenever I think about it, it's true I care about him and miss him, but I really can't help it. I mean if he really did love me why the fuck did he leave me here to be alone once again after being freed from that Millennium Item, I figured if he really did care about me he wouldn't have left me right? I sigh and moved to away from my bedroom window and turned to my bed, gods how I wished I could fall into a deep sleep and not think about him for once, I know he's near but I wont come near him, it's obvious he doesn't want to see me. After all it's already been a couple of days since he arrived and not once did he try to contact me, not that I can blame him. He's an ambassador of peace and I'm just a misplaced Yami who creates monsters for a child's game. However, even with these grim thoughts I still hope beyond all else for my light to just be happy.
I ran into Joey at the park today, and it's never been a secret that that guy isn't the sharpest knife in the drawer but I gotta say that he never ceases to amaze me at his demonstrations of his stupidity. Okay, I know that I'm being a bit harsh saying all that but I'm venting so give me a break. Anyway, I was just sitting on a park bench thinking about my light and he comes by and sits next to me. He stay pretty quiet, which surprised me but I didn't mind, but like I said before he isn't the sharpest knife in the, and the minute he opened his mouth I wanted to shut it for him. "Hey have you talked to him yet? We had a party last night and I talked to him. He's changed a lot ya know?" he said to me and I had to stop myself from strangling the idiot, I mean here I am dying to see my light but not going 'cause he didn't want to see me. Then this moron comes here and starts telling me how much my light has changed and how happy he was. But I guess it put things in a different perspective and it proved to me that I should move on and stop dreaming of the past, obviously my light has. In the five years he's been gone I've always hoped he missed me, even just a small part of him, but I guess Joey answered my questions for me. For my other I'm just part of a past best left forgotten.
I sit in my living room and stare at the item that brought me into this time, all those centuries that I was trapped in it I saw it as a prison a curse; but when I was freed and I saw my light I couldn't help but think that being locked up in this piece of gold was the best thing that could have happened to me. Now I look at it and can't help but feel sorrow, five years ago if I had wanted to talk to him while he was away I would just talk to him through our soul link but when he left he didn't bring the item with him so our link was broken. We were totally separated body, mind and soul, and it tore me up inside. Now, well now, it's time for me to go back to where I belong, this time was not meant to hold the two of us separately, it was meant to be the two of us as one. Since that isn't going to happen any time soon I'll just wait, wait until someone want me again until I don't have to be alone anymore. Until the pain have faded from memory, just as I have faded from my light's memory. I pick it up and hold it close, memories of the day I was sealed in begin to resurface and I begin to chant slowly, the spell that sealed my soul slowly slipping from my lips as slowly as the tears that fall from my eyes. The room begins to darken and I feel a familiar sensation that begins in my chest where my heart is and spreads slowly until all I see is black and white and a light engulf my body. The last thought in my mind was of my light's face and his voice calling my name.
!!to be continued!!
tiger: Okay, that was longer than I planned it to be. It was only supposed to be one chapter but I got carried away. I'll start working on the next chapter as soon as I can find a song to do, and hopefully have it out soon. Can anyone guess who's P.O.V. I wrote this in? Oh and to those who are reading By Shadows and Lights I promise tohave the next chapter out soon. I promise! ^_^
PLEASE REVIEW!!
Warning: This is slash! Also kinda AU, I think, and some characters are OOC.
LYRICS
Somewhere Out There
Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.
Watched the red orange glow,
watch you float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you've gone save your tired soul,
you've gone save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
to find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails I'll wait.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity..........
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know....
Five years have passed since I last saw him, five years since he moved on and left me alone. Alone with this empty space inside of me, space that he once filled. I still remember how it began, that day, it was gray and the sun couldn't even find space to pass through the clouds at all. We walked to school, I had started going as his 'cousin', but I sensed something was wrong, because he was being unusually quiet. Later when we got home and finished our homework, also in silence, I confronted him, something I sometimes wish I hadn't done.
He agreed to talk and we went to the roof, the sky had cleared and it was a full moon. I sometimes have dreams of that time, how he looked with the moon's gentle glow on his angelic face. That was when he told me the news; he was moving and he wasn't planning on taking me with him. He said it was for the best, that I needed to learn how to live in this century by myself. Personally I thought it was a load of shit, if he had wanted to get rid of me he could have done it less cold bloodedly, couldn't he? I left then, I went for a walk, I don't remember where I just walked, I heard him try to call me back but I ignored it. I probably shouldn't have, but I felt so betrayed and hurt that he'd give me up so easily. When I returned the next day he was gone, he hadn't even bothered to say goodbye he just left. I haven't spoken with him since that night, but I have seen him.
I look out the large window of my office at Kaiba Corp. and see the high- rise buildings of the city, I had worked here for two years and I still cannot believe what humans are now capable of. To build these great cities and harness electricity so easily, when in the past humans had to do with candles or oil lamps, and that was if they could afford it. I work for Seto Kaiba, he became a good friend after my light left, and he's one of the few people I trust completely. To say the least I think I adapted well to this time period, and I can't help but think he would have been proud of me for my accomplishments. I turn from the sight of the city and pick up my jacket; it's time to go home. Funny, most people would be happy to be going home at night, but I'm not, I don't have a home, my home was with him and ever since he left I've had no home.
I get to the house and turn on the lights; I walk to the living room and turn the TV on. Maybe, I'll see him tonight, the media have been tailing him for some time now. There, on the news they show him. Hhmm, he hasn't changed much, he still has those big eyes and a slight air of innocence around him, but he looks more, I don't know how to describe it, jaded, maybe, or weary; he looks like he's tired of the world around him. I hope to whatever deity there is out there that it isn't the former, he shouldn't begin to look at the world with jaded eyes, and his innocence is what makes him who he is. I turn off the TV and walk up the stairs heading for the roof, the stars are out and I want to watch them for a while before going to bed. I think about him and remind myself that it is useless to even hope that he remembers me. He's too far out of reach now, no matter how much I hope or dream or wish, it's too late, and I can't take him away from the life he's made for himself. It would be cruel of me, and selfish, but gods how I wish I could be selfish, just this one last time.
It's been a week since I last saw him on TV he seems to have disappeared to the media, I just hope he's well. Seto came in to talk to me a few hours ago, he said I've been acting preoccupied lately, he's right. I can't help but think something might be wrong with my light, and here I am unable to do anything when I'm supposed to be protecting him. Seto tried to assure me he was fine, and invited me over for dinner at his home; he said the others were coming as well. I agreed since I haven't seen the others in quite a while.
Well I was the last to arrive, as usual, and like always I was teased for my tardiness. We watched some movies, at Joey's suggestion. They were good, I think, I wasn't really paying too much attention to what I was watching, or eating, or what people were saying to me. Okay, so basically I was zoned out the entire time, but it was justified, I was worried for my light's well being. As the last movie finished and the others were getting ready to leave Seto came to me and asked if he could talk to me, he looked worried about something so I agreed, after all he was there for me when I needed someone.
"What's up?" I asked after the others had left and the two of us were standing on the balcony. "I received a call today," he said in a quiet voice, as if he was worried about what he was going to say. "Okay, was it bad news? Did something happen?" I asked once again beginning to really worry as he hesitated to reply, he never hesitated on anything, in all the years I knew him he never lost his self-confidence on any subject or problem. It was one of the things I admired most about the tall brunet, he never let other people's opinions change the way he saw things, and he always said what was on his mind, he never kissed anybody's ass or spouted off bullshit to please someone. "No, nothing's wrong," Seto said quickly assuring me, "It's just I'll be having a guest here in a few days. And I just wanted you to know." I gave him a questioning look at his comment. I mean okay, he's having a guest over, then why is he so nervous? Or better yet, why the heck is he telling me as if he were asking for my permission? "Seto, why are you telling me this?" I asked him smiling at him, trying to ease the tension a bit; he looked like he wished to be anywhere but here. "Because, I thought you should know, " he replied in low tones. "Why?" I asked I was beginning to get a bit impatient, since we started the conversation I haven't done anything but ask why. "It's him, he's coming back." he finally informed me. Seto didn't have to elaborate who HE was I knew. "When?" I ask, but this time I really needed the answer. "I'm sorry," Seto said looking me in the eyes, conveying his regret, "But he asked me not to tell you anything. As it is, I've already broken that promise, but I can't tell you when or where. He said he needed to get away for a while, and I have a few properties that are pretty remote, so I offered." Seto looked really sorry, but I wasn't angry with him, actually I was glad, at least now I knew my light wasn't dead or anything. "It's no problem, as long as he's safe," I reassured him smiling, "He needs rest, you can tell when you see him on TV he looks ready to fall. I just want to thank you for offering him your place and for telling me. I was getting worried there." "Yeah, I could tell, you kept on photocopying that document this afternoon, remember?" he teased.
It's been a week since Seto told me about my light's plans, and since then I've gotten less and less sleep. Every time I lie down to go to sleep and close my eyes I see him, and, even though I know it's just a game my mind is playing with me, I reach out to him only to have him retreat. Getting farther and farther away, until all that I can hear is his voice telling me that he loves me. I can't help but give a cynical snort to that whenever I think about it, it's true I care about him and miss him, but I really can't help it. I mean if he really did love me why the fuck did he leave me here to be alone once again after being freed from that Millennium Item, I figured if he really did care about me he wouldn't have left me right? I sigh and moved to away from my bedroom window and turned to my bed, gods how I wished I could fall into a deep sleep and not think about him for once, I know he's near but I wont come near him, it's obvious he doesn't want to see me. After all it's already been a couple of days since he arrived and not once did he try to contact me, not that I can blame him. He's an ambassador of peace and I'm just a misplaced Yami who creates monsters for a child's game. However, even with these grim thoughts I still hope beyond all else for my light to just be happy.
I ran into Joey at the park today, and it's never been a secret that that guy isn't the sharpest knife in the drawer but I gotta say that he never ceases to amaze me at his demonstrations of his stupidity. Okay, I know that I'm being a bit harsh saying all that but I'm venting so give me a break. Anyway, I was just sitting on a park bench thinking about my light and he comes by and sits next to me. He stay pretty quiet, which surprised me but I didn't mind, but like I said before he isn't the sharpest knife in the, and the minute he opened his mouth I wanted to shut it for him. "Hey have you talked to him yet? We had a party last night and I talked to him. He's changed a lot ya know?" he said to me and I had to stop myself from strangling the idiot, I mean here I am dying to see my light but not going 'cause he didn't want to see me. Then this moron comes here and starts telling me how much my light has changed and how happy he was. But I guess it put things in a different perspective and it proved to me that I should move on and stop dreaming of the past, obviously my light has. In the five years he's been gone I've always hoped he missed me, even just a small part of him, but I guess Joey answered my questions for me. For my other I'm just part of a past best left forgotten.
I sit in my living room and stare at the item that brought me into this time, all those centuries that I was trapped in it I saw it as a prison a curse; but when I was freed and I saw my light I couldn't help but think that being locked up in this piece of gold was the best thing that could have happened to me. Now I look at it and can't help but feel sorrow, five years ago if I had wanted to talk to him while he was away I would just talk to him through our soul link but when he left he didn't bring the item with him so our link was broken. We were totally separated body, mind and soul, and it tore me up inside. Now, well now, it's time for me to go back to where I belong, this time was not meant to hold the two of us separately, it was meant to be the two of us as one. Since that isn't going to happen any time soon I'll just wait, wait until someone want me again until I don't have to be alone anymore. Until the pain have faded from memory, just as I have faded from my light's memory. I pick it up and hold it close, memories of the day I was sealed in begin to resurface and I begin to chant slowly, the spell that sealed my soul slowly slipping from my lips as slowly as the tears that fall from my eyes. The room begins to darken and I feel a familiar sensation that begins in my chest where my heart is and spreads slowly until all I see is black and white and a light engulf my body. The last thought in my mind was of my light's face and his voice calling my name.
!!to be continued!!
tiger: Okay, that was longer than I planned it to be. It was only supposed to be one chapter but I got carried away. I'll start working on the next chapter as soon as I can find a song to do, and hopefully have it out soon. Can anyone guess who's P.O.V. I wrote this in? Oh and to those who are reading By Shadows and Lights I promise tohave the next chapter out soon. I promise! ^_^
PLEASE REVIEW!!