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Chapter 5
What's Lost? What's Gained?
A Few Months Later.
Heero found himself in the same bar he had been in every night after every mission. The same thing every time, five shots of vodka. He never knew how he made it home each time with out getting in a car accident. He paid the bartender and stood up to leave.
Relena was starting to swell quite large now. She was in her seventh month of pregnancy. By now she could feel the child moving inside of her. Milliardo and Noin had been so kind to her; they provided her with her own apartment in the Mars colony dome. But she still thought of him almost every night. What would have happened if he hadn't left? Would she be curled up in his arms in bed right now if he were still around? Would he place his palm on her swollen abdomen and feel the child kick? Sometimes she regretted her decision to leave earth. What if he had come back while she was gone? Then the truly haunting question came. What if he never came back at all?
He was on another mission, taking out jury-rigged Leos. They didn't stand a chance against a Gundam. When he was finished, he landed the mobile suit in the hanger and was about to get out when the ZERO system turned it self on. Images flashed before his eyes. Relena. An infant. Himself. He was confused and lost. He opened the cockpit and went to the same old bar to lose him self again.
The next day he arrived at the small office he had and there was a message on his desk.
Report to my office immediately. -Une
We did as it was told and walked to her office.
"Do you know why I called you up here Heero?" she said with her back to him as she looked out the window.
"No"
"I'll tell you why. Your performance as of late has come into question, as well as driving home every night intoxicated. Clean your self up Yuy, or your fired. You are suspended until you get your act together. Get out of my office."
"Ma'am" He walked out with out a second glance back.
Yet again he some how found himself at the bar. The only difference was that now it was a bottle of whisky to take home.
Duo was the one that found him. Passed out on the floor with the remainder of liquor soaked into the carpet. He didn't tell any one. He just helped his friend through the hangover and told him to pick up the pieces of his shattered life.
"Heero, I know Relena is dead. But you have to move on. You can't live like this. You have a whole lifetime ahead of you, don't toss it away."
"She was my life Duo. Leave."
He was at the bar once again.
"Pour." But this time to bartender said something.
"I think you've had enough." It was the first time he had ever denied him a drink. He knew after nearly two years of the same thing and he suddenly changed it, something was wrong.
"One more, to kill the pain." Maybe this man who he had never actually talked to had lost a woman or something, it wasn't his place to inquire. The man paid and walked out.
The memory of the burning house came back to him. The thought ran its course like a movie then ended.
He pushed the key in the slot as he climbed onto the bike. They never found her body he remembered, if she was alive, he would find her.
Chapter 5
What's Lost? What's Gained?
A Few Months Later.
Heero found himself in the same bar he had been in every night after every mission. The same thing every time, five shots of vodka. He never knew how he made it home each time with out getting in a car accident. He paid the bartender and stood up to leave.
Relena was starting to swell quite large now. She was in her seventh month of pregnancy. By now she could feel the child moving inside of her. Milliardo and Noin had been so kind to her; they provided her with her own apartment in the Mars colony dome. But she still thought of him almost every night. What would have happened if he hadn't left? Would she be curled up in his arms in bed right now if he were still around? Would he place his palm on her swollen abdomen and feel the child kick? Sometimes she regretted her decision to leave earth. What if he had come back while she was gone? Then the truly haunting question came. What if he never came back at all?
He was on another mission, taking out jury-rigged Leos. They didn't stand a chance against a Gundam. When he was finished, he landed the mobile suit in the hanger and was about to get out when the ZERO system turned it self on. Images flashed before his eyes. Relena. An infant. Himself. He was confused and lost. He opened the cockpit and went to the same old bar to lose him self again.
The next day he arrived at the small office he had and there was a message on his desk.
Report to my office immediately. -Une
We did as it was told and walked to her office.
"Do you know why I called you up here Heero?" she said with her back to him as she looked out the window.
"No"
"I'll tell you why. Your performance as of late has come into question, as well as driving home every night intoxicated. Clean your self up Yuy, or your fired. You are suspended until you get your act together. Get out of my office."
"Ma'am" He walked out with out a second glance back.
Yet again he some how found himself at the bar. The only difference was that now it was a bottle of whisky to take home.
Duo was the one that found him. Passed out on the floor with the remainder of liquor soaked into the carpet. He didn't tell any one. He just helped his friend through the hangover and told him to pick up the pieces of his shattered life.
"Heero, I know Relena is dead. But you have to move on. You can't live like this. You have a whole lifetime ahead of you, don't toss it away."
"She was my life Duo. Leave."
He was at the bar once again.
"Pour." But this time to bartender said something.
"I think you've had enough." It was the first time he had ever denied him a drink. He knew after nearly two years of the same thing and he suddenly changed it, something was wrong.
"One more, to kill the pain." Maybe this man who he had never actually talked to had lost a woman or something, it wasn't his place to inquire. The man paid and walked out.
The memory of the burning house came back to him. The thought ran its course like a movie then ended.
He pushed the key in the slot as he climbed onto the bike. They never found her body he remembered, if she was alive, he would find her.