Does Everybody Sleep Alone ?
Here it comes again.Another night , again and again , follows the same pattern.She pulls the sheets away from her body ,showing the T-Shirt with a small teddybear on it. She stood for a couple of seconds on the edge of the bed.She could go back to sleep , but it would be a troubeled sleep.She knew it.
She pulled a old pair of house pants up and headed for the window.No one was around , not even the usual lovers on the streets or hidden between the bushes.Nothing at all. Something moved between the sheets and a silent moan was heard. After that, silence again. Selphie looked towards the bed and saw Irvine's hand over her pillow.She sighed and turned back on watching the Garden.
Only various neon lights and the moon were with her tonight.Everything seemes so cold , so electrical , nothing was natural anymore.Not even love.Maybe it was for some , but not for her anyway. First her parents that abandonned her and now Irvine.She just wasn't born under a lucky star huh?
One of those nights.....the hardest part of all , between the loving and the leaving.
Carefree child they used to say . Cute , adorable, hyper, nice and all those adjectives existent.Yes , the happiness was real.Sometimes.It's hard to be the good-at-everything girl around here,taking care of so many celebrations and parties takes most of your time.And that she wanted , mostly because she liked to make people laugh and see theme happy, and parties were always fun , weren't they? But also to be occupied most of her time.Too much time to think made her feel sick because there was never something happy to think about.
Not even the dark haired boy sleeping in her bed.She knew he was a ladies man, since the first time she saw him.She fell for him , just like so many girls, and he took advantage of that.No , she can't say that he didn't treated her right.Oh no ! That would be the biggest lie ever! He is nice and caring , it's enough to look into those eyes, gaze in theme and you forget about everything,even the fact that everyone talks about another girl, the fact that you just saw him with a brunette , kissing in a empty classroom.
Even that.
Why is she still here with him , why does she continue to hold his hand, or sleep in his arms ?
Protection.The thing no one ever gave her,the thing she always needed when she was a child.She was still a child...even though they all wanted to be grown men and women she didn't.Because she didn't experienced yet the true meaning of childhood.And she only wanted that.
Between the leaving and the loving.
She looked again at the silhouette laying in her bed.Even tough he was there , even though he slept in the same bed , hugging her, she still slept alone.Because there really wasn't any love from him. She was never strong enough to let him go.
Selphie headed for the bed and sat down on the edge once again.Leaving or loving ? She always did her best to try and please him,but , still , nothing lasts forever anymore?
Between the leaving and the loving.
Her body fell down on the bed , her head resting on the pillow,eyes resting on the moonlight outside.She pulled the sheets on her body , crouching slowly her knees closer to her chest.
There she stood,crouched like a small child in a corner of the bed , the pale light of the moon lighting her face, the window leaving a shadow to fall on the bed. Irvine was there . And he just put his hand on hers, but he's still sleeping.Who could he be dreaming of tonight?Who cares?She cares.....
Even tough the warmth of his hand is here , even tough he's laying next to her , she is sleeping alone.
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Here it comes again.Another night , again and again , follows the same pattern.She pulls the sheets away from her body ,showing the T-Shirt with a small teddybear on it. She stood for a couple of seconds on the edge of the bed.She could go back to sleep , but it would be a troubeled sleep.She knew it.
She pulled a old pair of house pants up and headed for the window.No one was around , not even the usual lovers on the streets or hidden between the bushes.Nothing at all. Something moved between the sheets and a silent moan was heard. After that, silence again. Selphie looked towards the bed and saw Irvine's hand over her pillow.She sighed and turned back on watching the Garden.
Only various neon lights and the moon were with her tonight.Everything seemes so cold , so electrical , nothing was natural anymore.Not even love.Maybe it was for some , but not for her anyway. First her parents that abandonned her and now Irvine.She just wasn't born under a lucky star huh?
One of those nights.....the hardest part of all , between the loving and the leaving.
Carefree child they used to say . Cute , adorable, hyper, nice and all those adjectives existent.Yes , the happiness was real.Sometimes.It's hard to be the good-at-everything girl around here,taking care of so many celebrations and parties takes most of your time.And that she wanted , mostly because she liked to make people laugh and see theme happy, and parties were always fun , weren't they? But also to be occupied most of her time.Too much time to think made her feel sick because there was never something happy to think about.
Not even the dark haired boy sleeping in her bed.She knew he was a ladies man, since the first time she saw him.She fell for him , just like so many girls, and he took advantage of that.No , she can't say that he didn't treated her right.Oh no ! That would be the biggest lie ever! He is nice and caring , it's enough to look into those eyes, gaze in theme and you forget about everything,even the fact that everyone talks about another girl, the fact that you just saw him with a brunette , kissing in a empty classroom.
Even that.
Why is she still here with him , why does she continue to hold his hand, or sleep in his arms ?
Protection.The thing no one ever gave her,the thing she always needed when she was a child.She was still a child...even though they all wanted to be grown men and women she didn't.Because she didn't experienced yet the true meaning of childhood.And she only wanted that.
Between the leaving and the loving.
She looked again at the silhouette laying in her bed.Even tough he was there , even though he slept in the same bed , hugging her, she still slept alone.Because there really wasn't any love from him. She was never strong enough to let him go.
Selphie headed for the bed and sat down on the edge once again.Leaving or loving ? She always did her best to try and please him,but , still , nothing lasts forever anymore?
Between the leaving and the loving.
Her body fell down on the bed , her head resting on the pillow,eyes resting on the moonlight outside.She pulled the sheets on her body , crouching slowly her knees closer to her chest.
There she stood,crouched like a small child in a corner of the bed , the pale light of the moon lighting her face, the window leaving a shadow to fall on the bed. Irvine was there . And he just put his hand on hers, but he's still sleeping.Who could he be dreaming of tonight?Who cares?She cares.....
Even tough the warmth of his hand is here , even tough he's laying next to her , she is sleeping alone.
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