9 Fateful  Months

Chapter 3: Suicide

Disclaimer:

I do not own pokemon or any of the affiliated characters, but if I did own pokemon, I would use the power over Japanese children to form a grand army and to RULE THE WORLD, AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.  And I don't have any money, so if I do get sued, you'll get nothing!

Enjoy

Xx Kusanagi xX

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-"I love you - those three words have my life in them"

- Alexandrea to Nicholas III  

Ash felt a breeze blow through his hair. He looked out of the window of his room, and saw the playground that the pokemon center overlooked

"Those children look so happy" he thought to himself, remembering his childhood. "I miss those days" He stood up, and closed the window. Pikachu woke up when he heard the window close.

"Pika pi…." The tiny yellow pokemon said with his eyes half open.

"Im sorry Pikachu, I never meant to wake you up" he said as the tiny pokemon drifted back off to sleep. Ash walked over to the door to his room, and poked his head outside, checking for people.

"Good, no one is around" he said as he walked back inside, reached into his pocket and produced a small note. He took the note and placed it on the empty table, along side his hat and his pokeballs.

"Goodbye Misty"

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"Today is the day I confront Ash" Misty thought to herself as she changed infront of the mirror. She took one final glance at her body, specifically at her stomach, before she slipped her normal yellow top on.

She moved over to her bed, and sat down next to togepi. "I'm sorry togepi, but im going to visit Ash for 15 minutes, I'm going to let uncle Brock take care of you for a while, is that ok?" She said, and in response togepi gave a joyful sound and waved his arms.

She cradled the little pokemon in her arms as she walked down the corridor to brock's room. "Hey Brock, I need you to look after Togepi for me" she said as she opened the door to his room.

"MARLENE!?" she said with a large sweat bead forming on her head. "What are you doing here?" she said as Brock stopped his speech on the "Significance of Pokemon breeding". Marlene sat down on Brocks bed with a fascinated look on her face.

"Oh, heya Misty, I heard you were in the area, and I was passing through, so I thought I would pay you a quick visit, Brock here was explaining how to breed pokemon!" Marlene said swiping one bead of her blonde hair away from her eyes.

"Oh, well its nice to see you Marlene, but I have some things I would like to do, is it ok if you two watch togepi for me?" Misty said with a genuine expression of confusion on her face.

"Sure, we would love to" Brock said before Marlene could even reply. "We can get some breakfast at this café down the road, that is, if you want to Marlene"

"I would love to" Marlene said while taking togepi from Misty "Cya later Mist" she said as she winked at Misty.

Misty walked back down the hall to Ash's room, and stopped just outside his door. "You can do this Misty" she reassured herself.

As the door creaked open, light creeped its way across the dark room. The room was clean, unnaturally clean. The bed was made, the furniture was in order, infact the only thing that was untidy was the small yellow pokemon that was hunched on the carpet, snoring slightly.

"Ash, are you here" Misty said is she stepped inside the room. She walked across the room to where Pikachu was sleeping. "Hey Pikachu, how are you doing boy".

The small pokemon stirred slightly, before letting of a satisfying yawn. It hopped to its feet and leaped into Misty's arms. It had been a few days since they last had a chance to come close to each other.

"Pikachu, have you seen Ash?" Misty asked as Pikachu shook his head. "I wonder where he is." Misty was about to leave with Pikachu, when something caught her eye. On the desk lay Ash's official Pokemon hat, and his pokeballs. She walked over and picked the hat up, and underneath it was a note.

"Whats this?" Misty said as she picked the note up and read it.

To Misty

Misty, this note contains the words I could not say to your face. I know what has happened, I saw the test, I know you are pregnant. What I did was foolish. I have brought a sorrow so deep on you, that I would not wish it on even my worst enemy. I can't face this anymore, so this is my final goodbye. I leave you with my most prized positions, the pokemon hat my father gave me before he disappeared, and my pokemon. Tell my mother, Brock and professor oak that I am sorry for the trouble I have caused. Take good care of Pikachu for me Mist.

I could never have the courage to say the words you are about to read, so I leave this world with them in my mind.

I love you Misty

Ash

All self-control left Misty. She dropped the hat, her vision blurred and tears stained the letter, smudging out some of the words. She dropped to her knees and broke into tears.

"Get up," a voice inside her head said to her " GET UP!!!" It commanded as misty rose to her feet. She had to find him, she wouldn't let him die, no, and she had to tell him. She looked around, wracking her distraught mind for possibilities, and then she saw it, the bathroom. She ran up to the door and tried to open it, but it was locked.

"I WONT LET YOU DIE ASH!" She said as she began to hit the door with all the might she had. Pikachu, who by now had picked up on what was happening, also helped misty Ram at the door. Finally, with both of their strength combined, the door collapsed. Misty ran inside the bathroom, only to see Ash lying on the floor, with an empty bottle of sleeping pills next to him.

"ASH" she said as she ran to his side

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Brock paced up and down the corridor, Pikachu sat with togepi, looking really unhappy. Misty say with her head hung low, next to her Marlene was trying her best to comfort her. Misty was not listening though, all that was running through her mind was the sight of Ash laying on the floor, with a small smile on his face, a smile as though he was happy with this decision.

"Its all my fault!" Misty shouted as she jumped to her feet, knocking Marlene over in the process.

"Misty, there was nothing you could have done" Marlene said, attempting to help her distraught friend. "He did something stupid, but this is not your faul….."

"Shut up!" Misty shouted, "You know nothing, he did this because of me, he did this because, im, what im trying to day is, he did this because im pregnant, with his baby!"

The corridor went silent, Marlene was speechless, Brock lowered his head in sorrow, and other patients muttered things under their voices. Pikachu finally understood now, why his friend was acting so strange, why he refused to talk to misty, or let Pikachu visit togepi. Misty collapsed down to her knees, and began crying. Marlene got her to her feet, and with brocks help, escorted her back to the cafeteria in the Pokemon Center.

"Misty, I know this isn't the best time to ask, but how did this, accident, happen" Marlene asked holding onto Misty's hand.

"Marlene, do you remember your birthday a few weeks ago?" Misty said between tears.

************* FLASHBACK ***************

They stood kissing for minutes, hours , days, or so it seemed. When their lips finally broke contact,  their eyes opened and focused on one another.

"Misty, I love you" Ash said as he brought his hand meet with Misty's

"Ash, I love you too" Misty said as she tightened her grip on his hand.

They kissed once again, but embraced each other this time, holding on tight, as though they were afraid the other would disappear. During this kissing, Sabrina had regained consciousness, got to her feet (with great difficulty, mind you!) and stumbled over to the table.

"THAT'S SOOO CUTE! I KNEW YOU HAD THE HOTS FOR HIM!" Sabrina shouted out, in her drunken state. Both Ash and Misty turned a bright red, and immediately broke their grasp.

"HOW DARE YOU TRY FEEL ME UP!" Misty shouted at a confused Ash, as she pulled out her traditional "Mallet" and proceeded to hit Ash into the sky ("Love Hina" style).  She then stormed off to Marlene's house, passing a blushing Brock and Marlene on the way.

The house was huge, she had to ask for directions to her room, three times. Finally after going through most of the house, she found her room. Inside it was beautiful, each piece of furniture had a wooden finish, there was a beautiful man sized mirror on the wall, paintings of famous artists hung everywhere, and a grand looking bed with posts and everything.

"This is, amazing!" she said to herself as she flung herself onto the bed and began bouncing on it. "God it feels good to be on a bed like this, instead of those small beds at the pokemon centers." She spent the next twenty minutes exploring her room, looking in all the drawers, trying on all the bathrobes and finally moving onto the fridge where she found a few expensive bottles of whine. She soon discovered that the cupboard above the fridge also contained fine liquors, such as whisky, scotch and her personal favorite, sake. Just as she was about to settle down and go into bed, the door to the bathroom opened, and Ash's head popped out.

"Hey, whats going on here, I heard a noise so I decided to check it out" Ash said looking around the room, and developed a severe nosebleed as he caught a glimpse of Misty undressing in the mirror.

Misty stopped changing when she noticed the intruder, pulled her top on, and got the mallet ready! "ASH KETCHUM, what the hell do you think you are doing!" She shouted at ash, raising her mallet up, ready to clobber him.

"Sorry Mist, I heard noises coming from here, and there was a strange door in the bathroom, so I decided to look" He said, cowering down awaiting the strike. Misty lowered her hand and thought to herself. "Why isn't Ash fighting back, especially after what I did to him earlier"

Misty walked back to her bed and sat down. Ash, surprised by her lack of aggression, stood up, straightened his jacket and walked over to her. "So I guess we have to share the same bathroom then, so long as you don't peep at me while im showering" he said in a play full voice.

"Hey, that's my line" Misty responded, laughing. They were still slightly tipsy from the champagne they had earlier. They both continued laughing, which eventually developed into Ash and Misty talking about all their mishaps in their previous adventures.

"Hey Misty, I meant what I said earlier" Ash said, completely out of the blue. A puzzled look came across Misty's face, but she knew exactly what he meant. "Misty, I do love you"

They both suddenly went quiet, they both knew what they felt, but were still unsure of what the other felt. They both sat in silence, waiting for the other person to say something. Misty was the first to break the silence.

"Hey Ash, I saw something in the cupboard which might be some fun." She said with a mischievous look on her face. She turned around, and ran towards the cupboard, and slowly pulled out a large bottle of sake. "wanna try some?"

"Misty, we really shouldn't……."
"Awww, c'mon Ash, live a little"

Misty gently poured out two tiny glasses of sake, and soon they had downed them. Seconds were poured, then thirds, then fourths, and pretty soon the bottle was finished.

"Hey Ash," Misty barely managed to slur out. "I enjoyed toonight a lot!"

"Yeah, me too!" Ash slurred out in response.

They both burst into a fit of laughter, and collapsed onto the bed, and after a few minutes, managed to calm themselves down, barely though.

"Ide better go and try get some sleep" Ash muttered as he tried to get to his feet, Misty also slowly rose to her feet to try help him, but as she put her arm around him, they lost balance and came crashing down onto the mattress. They began laughing hysterically again.

When they finally stopped laughing, they both realized that they hadn't bothered to move after falling, and misty still had her arm around Ash's shoulder. They stared at each other for a while, before Misty spoke.

"Hey Ash, I meant what I said back there too"

Seconds later they began holding each other, and kissing  all over.

(Sorry all hentai fans, I'm no porno star, ill leave the rest up to your imagination!!!)

************ END OF FLASHBACK***********

After all had been explained to Marlene, mostly from Brock, because misty was in no condition to be explaining why the person she loved tried to kill himself. Marlene sat there sighing, feeling sorry for her crying friend. Brock was about to offer to take misty to lie down, when a nurse ran down the hallway, until she stopped at their table.

"He's awake!"

It had been a few hours now, since they got the news that Ash was going to be fine. He was allowed to have visitors soon

"Hey Brock" Misty said in a hushed voice. "Please let me go and see him, alone"

Brock just nodded his head, he did not want to interfere with Misty's feelings. He bowed his head as he saw the swinging doors close behind Misty as she walked through to go see Ash.

The room was quite well lit, the windows were closed and there were little machines next to the bed to monitor various conditions. When Misty entered the room, the nurse glanced at her, and left the room for the two to talk.

"Ash, there is so much I have to say to you, so much that wants to come out, but just can't" Misty said to Ash as he sat upright on his bed looking at the floor. "Why, why did you do something like that to us, to me, to our child!?" Tears began to swell in her eyes.

"Looking back on what I have achieved in my life, on the sorrow I have caused, the pain I have brought, the people I have hurt, you, especially, those are the reasons I did what I did." Ash said still looking at the floor. "If I am gone, I can no longer bring sorrow to those I meet."

"But your wrong Ash, you have brought pleasure to many people, the only way you could bring sorrow to us is by doing what you just tried to do!" Misty said, no longer holding her tears back.

"And what of the dreams I have shattered for those pokemon trainers, the pain my mother felt when I packed up and left, just like my father did, before he disappeared, for all the trainers dreams I shattered when I mercilessly beat them without any encouragement, but most of all, what I did to you" Ash said as his tears began to fall to the ground. " I don't deserve to live, I don't deserve friends like Pikachu, but most of all, I didn't deserve those three words I said to you, you hate me now, hate me for what I have done to you!"

Ash raised his head, and he looked up into her teary eyes, they stood staring at each others eyes, when Misy said something while crying.

"I love you ash"

She ran forward and grabbed Ash, and kissed him.

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Authors Incoherent Babbling

Well, this was a tough one to write, damn, possibly the most difficult thing ive ever written. I hope I didn't mess up! Its been soooo busy these last few days, went to the jameriquai concert, had endless amounts of assignments, and got very scared with my little cousin!

I had a few things in mind when I wrote this, when I finished this chapter, I had just finished watching the anime's hand maid may and love hina, and to anyone who hasn't watched either of these should go out and watch them NOW!!!! Important,

Well, keep on READING AND REVIEWING and if u need to contact me, send an e-mail to:

Asukakusanagi@hotmail.com

Keep on supporting me fans, peace!

Xx Kusanagi xX

P.S. DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW, the more u review, the more I write, simple hey? And also, if you have the time, and if you want to read some other REALLY good fics, read "Reasons of Heart" by Virgowriter, it's a really good story worth anyones time!