TITLE : Loving a criminal
AUTHOR : Hollyva
REVIEW AT : Estelle@mic.fr
RATING : PG
PAIRING : Sirius/Remus
SUMMARY : Short vignette about how Remus feel since Sirius has been brought to Azkaban and what sirius feels for Remus while he is in his cell
DISCLAIMER : All the characters in this story belong to JK Rowling
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REMUS' POV
It's been ten years now that he's gone .
Well, he's not really dead but somedays, I find myself wishing he was
Why did he have to be the traitor ? Sirius was the most faithful person I knew . The more I think about it, the less it makes sense
Dumbledore told me they suspected someone close to the Potters was giving information on the other side . I'm sure James never suspected Sirius .
They always were the best of friends and i fit in there somehow .
My worst fear was that, if something ever happened to Sirius, I would be isolated, left alone .
Scared to be just 'the boyfriend'
I didn't know how I get so crazy to start a relationship with Sirius .
We were young and Sirius assured me he loved me . How I wanted to believe that .
But the thing was Sirius loved almost every girl at school too .
I really don't know how he convinced me that I was more important .
I realize now that the whole animagus thing was just a way to impress me . Maybe he thought that , if he could prove me he accepted to wolf in me, I would accept him in my bed .
It worked
How could I be so naive . Being one of his best friends, I should have known that Sirius would make anything to impress somebody .
Sirius was all about experimenting and when no decent girls were left at school in his opinion, he decided to seduce me .
He thought that I would like it . To be with somebody. To feel loved . Even if it's not a promess for life
He didn't understand that I could not have that .
You see, not only I had to change into a werewolf every month, but that damned werewolf controlled my love life too
I had to choose the right person .
A person who wouldn't freak on me when I would tell them that if we have sex, then they will forever be linked to me
Being linked to a werewolf isn't exactly a piece of cake
And to make it worse, I had to like guys
No sweet curves for me . No . Just muscled chest and broad shoulders .
Sirius knew it . I told him a year before because I trusted him . He probably thought that I wouldn't mind .
After all, I was just lonely Moony
He didn't realize that because of his experiments, I fell in love with a criminal
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SIRIUS' POV
My memories are fading away .
Soon, i won't be able to remember the happy memories of my childhood .
Do I have a brother ? or a sister ? What is the name of my mother ? What was she like ?
All those happy memories are gone, I just feel something missing, without knowing what .
Still, there are some memories I don't want to let go
The memoriy of the only person I've ever really loved . More than everything in the world . I hope he knew it . That the only time I said somebody I loved them, and meant it, was with him .
Remus has always been so important to me . I hope he knew it
Every day, i sit in a corner of my cell, and I picture myself escaping from here and seeing him again .
Every time, he takes me in his arms and kisses me, whispering in my ear that he always knew that I was innocent, that deep down, he never believed I killed those people
And he feels good . So good to know that somebody knows me enough to figure out I didn't betray James .
But that sweet dreams go as fast as they come . And once more, I'm left alone .
I fight the dementors . I won't let them take my memories of you, Remus . Our first kiss . The first time we made love . The mating .
It felt so good to be a part of you Remus, to know that we would be linked together forever
The day I won't have those memories anymore will be the day of my death
Cause you are my life , Moony . My reason for living . The reason I'm sane
And I will get out of here
Yes, I will . You know me, I never back out from a challenge . And what a big one it is .
But I will do what no one ever managed to do before . I will escape
For you . Only you . And I will make Peter pay . For taking our happiness away . God Remus I love you so much . I hope you know that .
And I hope you don't think you fell in love with a criminal .
Because that's all I can do now . hope
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I was wondering if I sould write a sequel . So tell me in your reviews
AUTHOR : Hollyva
REVIEW AT : Estelle@mic.fr
RATING : PG
PAIRING : Sirius/Remus
SUMMARY : Short vignette about how Remus feel since Sirius has been brought to Azkaban and what sirius feels for Remus while he is in his cell
DISCLAIMER : All the characters in this story belong to JK Rowling
******************
REMUS' POV
It's been ten years now that he's gone .
Well, he's not really dead but somedays, I find myself wishing he was
Why did he have to be the traitor ? Sirius was the most faithful person I knew . The more I think about it, the less it makes sense
Dumbledore told me they suspected someone close to the Potters was giving information on the other side . I'm sure James never suspected Sirius .
They always were the best of friends and i fit in there somehow .
My worst fear was that, if something ever happened to Sirius, I would be isolated, left alone .
Scared to be just 'the boyfriend'
I didn't know how I get so crazy to start a relationship with Sirius .
We were young and Sirius assured me he loved me . How I wanted to believe that .
But the thing was Sirius loved almost every girl at school too .
I really don't know how he convinced me that I was more important .
I realize now that the whole animagus thing was just a way to impress me . Maybe he thought that , if he could prove me he accepted to wolf in me, I would accept him in my bed .
It worked
How could I be so naive . Being one of his best friends, I should have known that Sirius would make anything to impress somebody .
Sirius was all about experimenting and when no decent girls were left at school in his opinion, he decided to seduce me .
He thought that I would like it . To be with somebody. To feel loved . Even if it's not a promess for life
He didn't understand that I could not have that .
You see, not only I had to change into a werewolf every month, but that damned werewolf controlled my love life too
I had to choose the right person .
A person who wouldn't freak on me when I would tell them that if we have sex, then they will forever be linked to me
Being linked to a werewolf isn't exactly a piece of cake
And to make it worse, I had to like guys
No sweet curves for me . No . Just muscled chest and broad shoulders .
Sirius knew it . I told him a year before because I trusted him . He probably thought that I wouldn't mind .
After all, I was just lonely Moony
He didn't realize that because of his experiments, I fell in love with a criminal
****************
SIRIUS' POV
My memories are fading away .
Soon, i won't be able to remember the happy memories of my childhood .
Do I have a brother ? or a sister ? What is the name of my mother ? What was she like ?
All those happy memories are gone, I just feel something missing, without knowing what .
Still, there are some memories I don't want to let go
The memoriy of the only person I've ever really loved . More than everything in the world . I hope he knew it . That the only time I said somebody I loved them, and meant it, was with him .
Remus has always been so important to me . I hope he knew it
Every day, i sit in a corner of my cell, and I picture myself escaping from here and seeing him again .
Every time, he takes me in his arms and kisses me, whispering in my ear that he always knew that I was innocent, that deep down, he never believed I killed those people
And he feels good . So good to know that somebody knows me enough to figure out I didn't betray James .
But that sweet dreams go as fast as they come . And once more, I'm left alone .
I fight the dementors . I won't let them take my memories of you, Remus . Our first kiss . The first time we made love . The mating .
It felt so good to be a part of you Remus, to know that we would be linked together forever
The day I won't have those memories anymore will be the day of my death
Cause you are my life , Moony . My reason for living . The reason I'm sane
And I will get out of here
Yes, I will . You know me, I never back out from a challenge . And what a big one it is .
But I will do what no one ever managed to do before . I will escape
For you . Only you . And I will make Peter pay . For taking our happiness away . God Remus I love you so much . I hope you know that .
And I hope you don't think you fell in love with a criminal .
Because that's all I can do now . hope
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I was wondering if I sould write a sequel . So tell me in your reviews