Chapter 1
From Fayes POV



Everything's changing so quickly now. Ed just packed up and left

taking Ein with her, and none of us knew if she'd ever come back or

not. And now Spike's probably dead. Holding his precious Julia up in

heaven, laughing, as I sit her in a pool of my own tears and blood.

He's probably saying that I deserve this life. That I deserve to be

bundled up in this corner, my knees meeting my nose. I never knew the

copper taste of blood, until now. It had all started when Spike had

left. I remember the first time that Jet had touched me. Spike had

just left, gone to fight leaving Jet and I alone. His first attack of

anger had began with him just grabing me by the shirt collar, telling

me that he didn't give a damn about what Spike did or what happened to

him. But I knew it was a lie. Spike's the one who lead us into this

mess. Since the departure I had met the back of Jets hand, at least 20

times. With each hit the force would get stronger, always leaving me

with the dreadful thought that this was what I deserved. At first he

would hit me when I talked back to him, or messed up something on the

Redtail. Then it turned into dumber things like hitting me just

because there weren't any good bounties, or something had gone wrong

with his cooking. It just resuled into random beatings. Hitting me

just because I yawned or cursed when I stubbed my toe. I'm begining to

feel as if the taste of my own blood is what is keeping me alive. Jet

was always like my father and starting to be just like a dad who hit.

I can't talk to Jet anymore without a gun pointed at my head, telling

me that I was scum. I made Spike leave. How could of i had made spike

leave? I told Jet that I had loved him, but he only hit me, saying

that it was my fault! That I ruin everything! so now I just sit here

on the floor. Jets looking at me, the smile that he always flashed



right before a hit. But this time his fingers aren't made into a



first. This time a silver knife just sits there. He's rubbing it back



and forth on his hand, occasionally licking away some of the blood. I





can't help but look and him and think, 'this is how I'm going to die...



this is how Im going to die.'