Chapter 7
Sam sat against the shower wall shaking with rage and hurt, the faint cut on her
stomach and the stinging of her cheek a reminder to how close she had come to
being raped. Raped. Violated. Sam let out a shuddering breath as she once again
picked up the bar of soap and began scrubbing her skin.
Walking home had been horrible. It was one thing to walk 3 ½ hours without a bra
or underwear in blistering hot temperatures but to do so after having had sex was
disgusting. Without anything to soak up her perspiration, the caustic drops
had burned the small cut on her stomach and been a constant reminder of that
ASSHOLE-PERVERTED-PIECE-OF-SHIT Temur. Sam dropped the soap and began to
cry again. What a fucking nightmare!
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Jack was worried. He had been waiting nearly 30 minutes for Sam to come out of
the locker room and knew he was going to have to go inside. Having stood outside
the only entrance/exit nearly the entire time, he was fairly certain no one was in
there but Sam. Enough was enough- he needed to check on her. Cautiously Jack
opened the door and peered inside.
"Hello?" Jack called out. Nothing. "One male Colonel rounding the corner!" Still
nothing. Jack could hear the shower running and could only see one locker (Sam's)
open. He decided to take a chance and walked around the corner into the shower
area. Sam was sitting on the floor of a stall with her back up against a wall and her
knees tucked tightly to her chest. She was rocking silently as the shower continued
to fall around her- it having long since grown cold.
"Oh Sam!" Jack exclaimed as he stepped into the cold shower and turned the water
off. He squatted next to the woman he loved more than life itself. Sam flung herself
onto him and held him as if her very life depended on it.
"I'm so sorry Sam." Jack said gently stroking her wet hair. "So very, very sorry." For
over 10 minutes they sat like that as Sam cried tears of humiliation and fear. Tears
she couldn't dare shed while off world. Jack knew this was only the beginning of her
healing but he was awfully glad she could release it so effectively. He knew he
couldn't. Not like this. Never with tears. He could hear Sam's breathing start to
change and feared she'd fall asleep just like this if he didn't get her up.
"Sam?" Jack said pulling her away from him gently. "We need to get you dressed
and over to see Janet before she sends out a posse looking for us."
"Ok." Sam said nodding slightly. With Jack's help she stood up, although none too
steadily he noticed with unease. Together they walked over to Sam's locker. Slowly
Sam went through the motions of dressing- not once did she say a single word. Jack
knew she was still in shock and briefly wondered how this might look if someone
were to walk in right at this moment. Of course HE was still fully clothed so excuses
could be made. That and the fact that he WAS allowed to see his major naked
anytime he wanted. Well away from the SGC that is.
"Ready?" Jack asked softly as Sam finished pulling on a pair of socks. She didn't
feel up to shoes at the moment.
Sam nodded and together they headed down the hall towards the infirmary.
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The pair had barely made it through the front door before a very angry doctor
pounced on them. "Colonel! What the blazes happened to Daniel!?" Janet Frasier
asked pointing a finger into Jack's chest. She had been so concerned about Daniel
that she hadn't even noticed the sorry physical state of the couple before her. Sam's
eyes instantly filled with tears at hearing of the seriousness of Daniel's injury. She
knew he had been zatted but it never occurred to her that the ancient weapons
might harm him more than the newer models.
"Sam, honey- are you ok?" Janet asked taking a good look at Sam and the Colonel.
Her anger quickly vanished as she critically viewed the two before her. She could
see the formation of what had to be a painful bruise on Sam's left cheek and
wondered what else she would find upon examination. She led Sam to a bed and had
her sit down before she fell down. And it certainly looked like Samantha Carter might
fall down at any moment. Janet could tell she had been crying heavily and took in
Sam's damp hair (not even combed) and the Colonel's wet clothes with growing
apprehension.
Sam just shook her head as she tried to get her emotions under control. Janet took
out the blood pressure cuff and began to go through her usual checklist of post
mission procedures. Sam was shaking slightly as Janet tightened the cuff and read
the number. *This can't be right.* She got another cuff and tried again. Same
number.
"Colonel? Sam? What happened?" Sam's blood pressure always hovered around
110/70. Currently it was 80/55. Way too low. Dangerously low in fact.
"Lie down Sam, please?" Janet said pushing her friend down onto the soft sheets.
Sam sighed as she closed her eyes. She knew she was in safe hands.
"Not yet Sam honey. I'll let you sleep later." Janet quickly pulled the curtain closed
and began to help Sam out of her clothes. Wordlessly Jack helped. The angry red
cut on her stomach testimony to the perversion of some elderly khans.
"No sign of serious blood loss." Janet mumbled to herself lightly touching Sam's
gash. Sam didn't react in the slightest. Janet shined a small light into Sam's eyes
and was disturbed by Sam's lack of reaction. Rapid pulse, low BP, paleness despite
an obvious sunburn. Sam was in shock. Why?
"Sam? Can you tell me what happened?" Janet said wrapping the BP cuff around
her once again. The number didn't make her happy- Sam was also seriously
dehydrated. Janet efficiently began a saline IV and patted her friend's arm gently.
"We'll have you feeling better in no time honey." Sam just looked at her friend
tiredly and nodded.
"You can sleep now Sam, I am just going to talk to the Colonel for a little bit, ok?"
Sam's eyes filled with tears and she nodded. Janet took a step forward. "Do you
NOT want me to talk to the Colonel?" Jack took a step back out of the curtained
area to give the two women some privacy. Sam shook her head. Janet was
confused. Was Sam saying not to talk to Jack, or was she merely objecting to Jack's
stepping away?
"Talk to Jack Janet." Sam said in a husky voice struggling not to cry again. She
failed miserably and large tears fell from her eyes as she angrily wiped them away.
"I can't tell you about it. Not now. Talk to Jack."
"I'll do that Sam." Janet said squeezing her friend's hand. "You rest."
"Colonel." Janet said putting on her doctor face. "Your turn." Jack nodded and took
a seat on the bed next to Sam.
"How's Daniel?" Jack asked finding his voice again.
"He'll be ok. I was just surprised by the amount of damage. I had expected a basic
zat burn and instead faced a nasty 2nd degree burn that just might need a little skin
graft. His muscle tissues seem intact so I think he'll recover fully. He seemed just
as surprised as I was about it."
"You know Daniel. If his mind is one other things, he tends to forget the basics.
Eating, painful zat burns- things like that." The words were classic Colonel Jack
O'Neill but the delivery was woefully lacking.
"Uh huh." Janet said taking Jack's blood pressure. "Not you as well Colonel!" Janet
said as she lowered the bed and asked Jack to lie down for a second BP check. It
was official- Jack was also dehydrated and dammit he also showed signs of shock.
"Colonel, excuse my language but what the hell happened to you guys?"
"Janet, I promise to tell you everything, but for the moment can I please take a
quick shower? I swear I'll be back in 10 minutes." Janet looked at him skeptically.
"You have everyone figured out already. Me and Sam ARE dehydrated and both
suffering from some shock and probably a little PTST. Sam more than me. Danny
got zatted, but not before he heard enough to be overly worried about Sam. Teal'c's
still Teal'c and I betcha dollars to donuts he'll be in here checking on both Sam and
Daniel before the evening is through. Can I please take a shower?"
Janet nodded. "10 minutes Colonel. If you aren't back here in 10 minutes, I'm
sending in the MPs."
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True to his word, Jack returned showered and somber 10 minutes later. "Can I see
Sam for a sec first?" Jack asked looking as if the weight of the world rested on this
shoulders.
"That would be fine Colonel." Janet said not really fathoming what was happening
here. Both Daniel and Sam were sleeping so Janet had been unable to get any of
her questions answered. Whatever it was it must have gotten to Teal'c as well
because he wasn't in here to check on his teammates' health. Janet remembered
him pausing only long enough to ensure that Daniel was being looked at before
leaving to Kel No Reem. Kel No Reem was like a deep state of meditation and if
Teal'c felt the need to enter it so abruptly after a mission.. well it couldn't have been
good.
Jack quietly pulled the curtain back and pulled up a chair next to Sam's still form.
Even sleeping she looked troubled. And it was all his fault. All of it. He should have
seen the writing on the wall (or lack thereof) and pulled his team out of there before
any of this happened. Jack took one of Sam's warm hands and held it up to his
cheek. "I'm so sorry Sam."
"Colonel?" Janet said touching him lightly on his shoulder.
"I'm coming." Jack stood up and after placing a gentle kiss on Sam's forehead.
Jack closed the curtain and walked over to the empty bed near Dr. Fraiser.
"Everyone still going to be ok?" Jack asked sitting down and rolling up his sleeve.
"Just fine Colonel." Janet said taking his BP once again. Still a bit low. Janet noted
the bruising around his ribs and figured the Colonel had gone ahead and pissed
someone off. Again. Otherwise he appeared to be ok. She had Jack lie back down
and gave him a saline drip to get his fluids back up.
"Ready to tell me some details?" Janet asked gently taking a seat beside the
Colonel.
With his free hand Jack rubbed his face and sighed. "Not really. But I will."
Slowly Jack told his friend and doctor what had happened on the Goa'uld planet.
Janet was horrified that her friends had to go through that and could only imagine
what it must have been like for Sam.
"I raped her Janet. I love Sam with all my heart and I raped her." Jack said in
anguish shutting his eyes tightly in hopes of stopping the images from replaying
themselves. "And then I had to stand there while that slimy snake touched her."
"Jack, listen to me." Janet said touching his arm. "You and Sam did what needed to
be done to get the team home safely. I am certain you didn't physically hurt her in
the least." Janet said adamantly. A ghost of a smile crossed Jack's lips as he
remembered just how he had insured it wouldn't hurt.
"It doesn't matter Janet, we were still forced to have sex!"
"That's right Jack. Forced. Both of you. Remember that." Janet could see her
words really weren't getting through to him. "Jack," she said in a softer voice, "just
think how different this would have been if you and Sam hadn't already gotten
permission to be in a relationship off base."
"But that's just it Janet!" Jack said his voice rising in frustration. "We weren't off
base. We were on a frickin' desert world when it was just Major and Colonel and
suddenly we were forced to.." Jack was spent. They were forced and that's all there
was to it.
The pint bag of saline was empty and Janet quietly pulled out the needle and gave
Jack a Band-Aid.
"Janet, I need to be with Sam tonight. Can I please take her home?" Jack look like
a lost soul sitting there with his hands clasped tightly between his knees.
Janet thought for a long moment before answering. "Jack, I know you and Sam
promised the General you wouldn't have any form of inappropriate behavior while on
base but I think an exception can be made in this case. It's nearly 7 o'clock, and
you really aren't in the best shape to drive and Sam certainly shouldn't be vertical
for the next 12 hours. So here's what I am going to do- you and Sam can stay
together in one of your rooms. I'll clear it with the General before I leave tonight. I
know he is still around."
"Thank you Janet." Jack said letting out a breath he didn't know he had been
holding. Jack could only hope this would be all right with Sam as well. So far she
hadn't reacted negatively to his presence but Jack would not be surprised at all if she
did. *God- what a fucking nightmare.*
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Tbc.
Sam sat against the shower wall shaking with rage and hurt, the faint cut on her
stomach and the stinging of her cheek a reminder to how close she had come to
being raped. Raped. Violated. Sam let out a shuddering breath as she once again
picked up the bar of soap and began scrubbing her skin.
Walking home had been horrible. It was one thing to walk 3 ½ hours without a bra
or underwear in blistering hot temperatures but to do so after having had sex was
disgusting. Without anything to soak up her perspiration, the caustic drops
had burned the small cut on her stomach and been a constant reminder of that
ASSHOLE-PERVERTED-PIECE-OF-SHIT Temur. Sam dropped the soap and began to
cry again. What a fucking nightmare!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jack was worried. He had been waiting nearly 30 minutes for Sam to come out of
the locker room and knew he was going to have to go inside. Having stood outside
the only entrance/exit nearly the entire time, he was fairly certain no one was in
there but Sam. Enough was enough- he needed to check on her. Cautiously Jack
opened the door and peered inside.
"Hello?" Jack called out. Nothing. "One male Colonel rounding the corner!" Still
nothing. Jack could hear the shower running and could only see one locker (Sam's)
open. He decided to take a chance and walked around the corner into the shower
area. Sam was sitting on the floor of a stall with her back up against a wall and her
knees tucked tightly to her chest. She was rocking silently as the shower continued
to fall around her- it having long since grown cold.
"Oh Sam!" Jack exclaimed as he stepped into the cold shower and turned the water
off. He squatted next to the woman he loved more than life itself. Sam flung herself
onto him and held him as if her very life depended on it.
"I'm so sorry Sam." Jack said gently stroking her wet hair. "So very, very sorry." For
over 10 minutes they sat like that as Sam cried tears of humiliation and fear. Tears
she couldn't dare shed while off world. Jack knew this was only the beginning of her
healing but he was awfully glad she could release it so effectively. He knew he
couldn't. Not like this. Never with tears. He could hear Sam's breathing start to
change and feared she'd fall asleep just like this if he didn't get her up.
"Sam?" Jack said pulling her away from him gently. "We need to get you dressed
and over to see Janet before she sends out a posse looking for us."
"Ok." Sam said nodding slightly. With Jack's help she stood up, although none too
steadily he noticed with unease. Together they walked over to Sam's locker. Slowly
Sam went through the motions of dressing- not once did she say a single word. Jack
knew she was still in shock and briefly wondered how this might look if someone
were to walk in right at this moment. Of course HE was still fully clothed so excuses
could be made. That and the fact that he WAS allowed to see his major naked
anytime he wanted. Well away from the SGC that is.
"Ready?" Jack asked softly as Sam finished pulling on a pair of socks. She didn't
feel up to shoes at the moment.
Sam nodded and together they headed down the hall towards the infirmary.
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The pair had barely made it through the front door before a very angry doctor
pounced on them. "Colonel! What the blazes happened to Daniel!?" Janet Frasier
asked pointing a finger into Jack's chest. She had been so concerned about Daniel
that she hadn't even noticed the sorry physical state of the couple before her. Sam's
eyes instantly filled with tears at hearing of the seriousness of Daniel's injury. She
knew he had been zatted but it never occurred to her that the ancient weapons
might harm him more than the newer models.
"Sam, honey- are you ok?" Janet asked taking a good look at Sam and the Colonel.
Her anger quickly vanished as she critically viewed the two before her. She could
see the formation of what had to be a painful bruise on Sam's left cheek and
wondered what else she would find upon examination. She led Sam to a bed and had
her sit down before she fell down. And it certainly looked like Samantha Carter might
fall down at any moment. Janet could tell she had been crying heavily and took in
Sam's damp hair (not even combed) and the Colonel's wet clothes with growing
apprehension.
Sam just shook her head as she tried to get her emotions under control. Janet took
out the blood pressure cuff and began to go through her usual checklist of post
mission procedures. Sam was shaking slightly as Janet tightened the cuff and read
the number. *This can't be right.* She got another cuff and tried again. Same
number.
"Colonel? Sam? What happened?" Sam's blood pressure always hovered around
110/70. Currently it was 80/55. Way too low. Dangerously low in fact.
"Lie down Sam, please?" Janet said pushing her friend down onto the soft sheets.
Sam sighed as she closed her eyes. She knew she was in safe hands.
"Not yet Sam honey. I'll let you sleep later." Janet quickly pulled the curtain closed
and began to help Sam out of her clothes. Wordlessly Jack helped. The angry red
cut on her stomach testimony to the perversion of some elderly khans.
"No sign of serious blood loss." Janet mumbled to herself lightly touching Sam's
gash. Sam didn't react in the slightest. Janet shined a small light into Sam's eyes
and was disturbed by Sam's lack of reaction. Rapid pulse, low BP, paleness despite
an obvious sunburn. Sam was in shock. Why?
"Sam? Can you tell me what happened?" Janet said wrapping the BP cuff around
her once again. The number didn't make her happy- Sam was also seriously
dehydrated. Janet efficiently began a saline IV and patted her friend's arm gently.
"We'll have you feeling better in no time honey." Sam just looked at her friend
tiredly and nodded.
"You can sleep now Sam, I am just going to talk to the Colonel for a little bit, ok?"
Sam's eyes filled with tears and she nodded. Janet took a step forward. "Do you
NOT want me to talk to the Colonel?" Jack took a step back out of the curtained
area to give the two women some privacy. Sam shook her head. Janet was
confused. Was Sam saying not to talk to Jack, or was she merely objecting to Jack's
stepping away?
"Talk to Jack Janet." Sam said in a husky voice struggling not to cry again. She
failed miserably and large tears fell from her eyes as she angrily wiped them away.
"I can't tell you about it. Not now. Talk to Jack."
"I'll do that Sam." Janet said squeezing her friend's hand. "You rest."
"Colonel." Janet said putting on her doctor face. "Your turn." Jack nodded and took
a seat on the bed next to Sam.
"How's Daniel?" Jack asked finding his voice again.
"He'll be ok. I was just surprised by the amount of damage. I had expected a basic
zat burn and instead faced a nasty 2nd degree burn that just might need a little skin
graft. His muscle tissues seem intact so I think he'll recover fully. He seemed just
as surprised as I was about it."
"You know Daniel. If his mind is one other things, he tends to forget the basics.
Eating, painful zat burns- things like that." The words were classic Colonel Jack
O'Neill but the delivery was woefully lacking.
"Uh huh." Janet said taking Jack's blood pressure. "Not you as well Colonel!" Janet
said as she lowered the bed and asked Jack to lie down for a second BP check. It
was official- Jack was also dehydrated and dammit he also showed signs of shock.
"Colonel, excuse my language but what the hell happened to you guys?"
"Janet, I promise to tell you everything, but for the moment can I please take a
quick shower? I swear I'll be back in 10 minutes." Janet looked at him skeptically.
"You have everyone figured out already. Me and Sam ARE dehydrated and both
suffering from some shock and probably a little PTST. Sam more than me. Danny
got zatted, but not before he heard enough to be overly worried about Sam. Teal'c's
still Teal'c and I betcha dollars to donuts he'll be in here checking on both Sam and
Daniel before the evening is through. Can I please take a shower?"
Janet nodded. "10 minutes Colonel. If you aren't back here in 10 minutes, I'm
sending in the MPs."
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True to his word, Jack returned showered and somber 10 minutes later. "Can I see
Sam for a sec first?" Jack asked looking as if the weight of the world rested on this
shoulders.
"That would be fine Colonel." Janet said not really fathoming what was happening
here. Both Daniel and Sam were sleeping so Janet had been unable to get any of
her questions answered. Whatever it was it must have gotten to Teal'c as well
because he wasn't in here to check on his teammates' health. Janet remembered
him pausing only long enough to ensure that Daniel was being looked at before
leaving to Kel No Reem. Kel No Reem was like a deep state of meditation and if
Teal'c felt the need to enter it so abruptly after a mission.. well it couldn't have been
good.
Jack quietly pulled the curtain back and pulled up a chair next to Sam's still form.
Even sleeping she looked troubled. And it was all his fault. All of it. He should have
seen the writing on the wall (or lack thereof) and pulled his team out of there before
any of this happened. Jack took one of Sam's warm hands and held it up to his
cheek. "I'm so sorry Sam."
"Colonel?" Janet said touching him lightly on his shoulder.
"I'm coming." Jack stood up and after placing a gentle kiss on Sam's forehead.
Jack closed the curtain and walked over to the empty bed near Dr. Fraiser.
"Everyone still going to be ok?" Jack asked sitting down and rolling up his sleeve.
"Just fine Colonel." Janet said taking his BP once again. Still a bit low. Janet noted
the bruising around his ribs and figured the Colonel had gone ahead and pissed
someone off. Again. Otherwise he appeared to be ok. She had Jack lie back down
and gave him a saline drip to get his fluids back up.
"Ready to tell me some details?" Janet asked gently taking a seat beside the
Colonel.
With his free hand Jack rubbed his face and sighed. "Not really. But I will."
Slowly Jack told his friend and doctor what had happened on the Goa'uld planet.
Janet was horrified that her friends had to go through that and could only imagine
what it must have been like for Sam.
"I raped her Janet. I love Sam with all my heart and I raped her." Jack said in
anguish shutting his eyes tightly in hopes of stopping the images from replaying
themselves. "And then I had to stand there while that slimy snake touched her."
"Jack, listen to me." Janet said touching his arm. "You and Sam did what needed to
be done to get the team home safely. I am certain you didn't physically hurt her in
the least." Janet said adamantly. A ghost of a smile crossed Jack's lips as he
remembered just how he had insured it wouldn't hurt.
"It doesn't matter Janet, we were still forced to have sex!"
"That's right Jack. Forced. Both of you. Remember that." Janet could see her
words really weren't getting through to him. "Jack," she said in a softer voice, "just
think how different this would have been if you and Sam hadn't already gotten
permission to be in a relationship off base."
"But that's just it Janet!" Jack said his voice rising in frustration. "We weren't off
base. We were on a frickin' desert world when it was just Major and Colonel and
suddenly we were forced to.." Jack was spent. They were forced and that's all there
was to it.
The pint bag of saline was empty and Janet quietly pulled out the needle and gave
Jack a Band-Aid.
"Janet, I need to be with Sam tonight. Can I please take her home?" Jack look like
a lost soul sitting there with his hands clasped tightly between his knees.
Janet thought for a long moment before answering. "Jack, I know you and Sam
promised the General you wouldn't have any form of inappropriate behavior while on
base but I think an exception can be made in this case. It's nearly 7 o'clock, and
you really aren't in the best shape to drive and Sam certainly shouldn't be vertical
for the next 12 hours. So here's what I am going to do- you and Sam can stay
together in one of your rooms. I'll clear it with the General before I leave tonight. I
know he is still around."
"Thank you Janet." Jack said letting out a breath he didn't know he had been
holding. Jack could only hope this would be all right with Sam as well. So far she
hadn't reacted negatively to his presence but Jack would not be surprised at all if she
did. *God- what a fucking nightmare.*
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Tbc.