Cry of Despair/ Song of Joy
Decide
Nothing Nothing Nothing
The silence drives me mad
No noise, none
So empty
Am I going nuts?
My whole life
Centered
Around God
Of course there is a God
There has always been a God
Not sure
Not sure. . .
Maybe. . .
I can't feel God
I've always. . .
Is there a God?
I don't know
I'm not sure
Everything so empty
And yet
I feel crushed
So much weight
Pressure
Is there a God?
Whirling now in circles
Dizzy and disoriented
Sit down
Cry
Scream
For help
No one can help
I'm. . .
So alone. . .
No
There is no God
No God
NO GOD
A lie
Everything is a lie
There is no anything
NOTHING
nothing. . .
everything is nothing
And everything
Everything is not worthy anything
Just
Nothing. . .
Why am I even here?
Why do I even bother
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Stop
Be rational
Just for a moment
And then
You can let go
Stand still
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
Now. . .
Decide
Is there purpose. . .
Is there God
I can't feel God
Nothing is pressing in all around me
Absence of anything
It's hard to breathe. . .
My mind whirls in circle
Passing the question over and over
Inside my head
Is there
Isn't there
Is there
Isn't there
Is there
Isn't there. . .
I CANNOT FEEL HIM
How can he be real!?!
Why would he let me suffer like this???
At the least he would let me feel him
To help me through this darkness
But he doesn't. .
He doesn't
He isn't
Look down
Feel the insanity
Scrabbling madly
At the edges of consciousness
Everything a lie. . .
No
The nothing is so loud
The silence
The absence
It's so loud
But
No
Is very quiet
I cannot feel God
Like having my heart ripped from my body
Leaves me lost and stumbling
In nothing
But. . .
No
I believe
I have no reason
None
Nothing
I have nothing
But
I believe
I believe. . .