Chap. 11: "What kind of proposal is that?!?!"
Author's note: "Hello, hello again!!!!!! Thanks to all ya'll out there that has continued to review and tell me what you think about my story. Please tell me if the chapters are getting less confusing to read because some of you said that some of my sentences were a bit confusing ~_~? I'm working on not making them confusing but it'll take time before I'm perfect at it.
I know that Li is cold right now but you'll start to see a better side of him soon I promise ^_^
Oh, Lin is five not TEN I repeat not TEN. I don't remem if I all ready told you that. LOL, I'm the explanation of what happened to Lin's real mother is coming up soon for those of you who want to know. Ne ways on wit the story.
Everyone in the ballroom watched for a glimpse of the couple but couldn't find one. Tomoyo had told Ashiwa who was obviously watching not to go after them, actually it took a lot of talking, finally ending with Fanfren asking him to dance. Then saying it was not proper for a man to decline so he had no choice Xiefia then Fuutie went after her and Mei Lin and so on. They were all still wondering what was going on with the two who was the main gossip and would be when everyone left here.
Outside.
"Let go of me---" Sakura hissed pulling her hand free when they reached the end of the garden, she was hurt by what he said but didn't Tomoyo tell her he would say that? "You deserved what you got in there so if your going to hit me get it over with" she added raising her chin up defiantly which made Syaoran chuckle. "Why do you always laugh at me?"
"Didn't I all ready tell you the answer, however I don't agree with you? I didn't deserve that slap and I will not now or ever hit you" Syaoran stated resting his shoulder against the tree, with his arms folded across his chest. What was he going to do about this situation? God he had no clue. If it were any other woman he all ready knew the solution to that but this was Sakura and he knew that she was very fragile. He didn't want to be the one to break her spirit, he couldn't take that guilt, no, he couldn't bear that.
"How's that?" Sakura asked placing her hands on her hips.
"Because the day before I left I saw you having lunch with him and I was gone for a week. Now if you were in my shoes what would you think?" Syaoran asked looking at Sakura who seemed to pale, what he said was true and he had every right to think she did that. When after only spending two weeks with him she gave him her innocence, she felt dirty all over. Syaoran was caught off guard when she started to cry that was not what he was expecting at all.
"It's true I would think the same thing if I were in your shoes but I didn't sleep with him. And I don't care if you believe me, but it's the truth you're the only person who I did that with. I haven't even kissed him we're just friends at least that's all he is to me" Sakura stated feeling stupid that she was crying in front of him. Syaoran had the strongest urge to wrap his arms around her and soothe her but instead he asked.
"Why didn't you tell me? And even though you knew you still went out with HIM"
"I didn't know I'm always late. I found out when I passed out, when the doctor told me I wanted to die---I didn't want to keep it" Syaoran felt anger build in him when she said that, why wouldn't she want to kept his child?
"You wanted to kill my unborn child? How selfish can you be?" he bit out savagely, his icy glare penetrating her thoroughly.
"How dare you say that to me?" Sakura hissed venomously. "I wouldn't have care who the father of my child was, I would never kill my unborn baby. I was just scared, upset and confused, so don't you dare jump to stupid conclusions. I didn't want to tell you but Mei Lin and Tomoyo said I had to because you had a right to know. But it was just a waste of time because you don't believe me anyway. And it-it hu--hurts for me to to kno-- know that you think me--me a liar---" Sakura cried but was cut off when she felt her self-being crushed in a tight hug, her shoulders shaking. Syaoran could take it any longer seeing her cry like that all his control broke, and before he could stop himself he was all ready hugging her tightly.
"Shhh.I just wanted to make sure please don't cry like this" Syaoran whispered desperately running his hand down her back, he knew now the only answer to this problem after all in his status there was only one answer. "Please Sakura stop crying, see I'm even calling you by your Japanese name. Sweet heart stop your tears" Sakura listened to his soothing voice, as her tears became few then sniffles finally stopping 'this will make Lin extremely happy, though I don't know about me' he thought grimly. "That's better, let me look at you"
"No, I look awful" Sakura mumbled hiding her face in his chest, Syaoran laughed placing his thumb under her chin raising her tear stained face to his. Leave it up to her to be modest at a time like this but that was one of her many wonderful traits. Sakura's lips trembled feeling his warm soft lips against hers. Her grip on his jacket tightened as she brushed hers across his, Syaoran looked into her sparkling emerald eyes before deepening the kiss making Sakura's whole body flushed as she kissed him back with all the emotion she was feeling.
"You my dear could never look awful," he said huskily when they broke the kiss.
"What do we do now?" Sakura asked when he wiped her tears away; he seemed to consider her question before answering when he smiled Sakura new automatically that she wouldn't at all like his answer.
"I told if I was to ever marry that it would be to you, didn't I?" Sakura's heart stopped hearing what he said but she was sure she didn't hear him.
"Wha---what?" she stuttered looking into his deep amber eyes that sparkled with amusement. She hated how he could be this calm about such a serious matter, when she was trying her hardest to keep standing.
"We have to marry that's the only sensible thing to do or am I mistaken?" Syaoran answered, Sakura moved out of his arms taking a few steps back. She had to think this over clearly; she couldn't just rush into something this serious, could she?
"Surely you're mistaken? How can you talk about marriage like it's a business offer" Sakura asked in bewilderment holding her head. "I won't marry you"
"Why not? I can give you everything you want, security and our child can actually grow up in a real family. Lin will be your daughter, she'd love to have you as her mother and would love to have a sister or brother, don't you want that?" Syaoran replied casually. Sakura was stumped, she didn't know what to say then what Tomoyo said to her came back 'think about your baby'
"A real family?" Sakura echoed she had no idea what a real family was--- she'd never had a real family. Syaoran looked at her wondering why she sounded like she not what a real family was, she was Tomoyo's sister surely she knew what a family was. "You would be a father and a husband?"
"Ying Fa---" Syaoran said taking her small hands in his, he knew she would make him a good wife. A lot better then his first mistake, the only thing he got out of that was his daughter. "Of course I would be, what did you think I meant?"
"I don't know---" Sakura, whispered looking down to sort things out, Lin would be her daughter and they would be together forever. She would be able to watch over her always and her child would have a father and family what she had always wanted. "Would you stop seeing Gwen and every other woman? I don't want to share you. If I agree, I want a real family not a fake one"
"Anything else my dear?" Syaoran teased pulling her to him.
"Then you agree?" Sakura asked looking up at him, searching his eyes for some form of deceit but found nothing. 'God please make this the right choice' she prayed her hands resting on Syaoran's shoulder.
"Naturally, I should have made a bet with you when I told you I would marry you" Syaoran whispered his eyes dropping to her lips. Soon she would be legally his, she would belong to him and no one else.
"If we did then I would have made sure you lost" Sakura replied matter-of- factly, when he pulled into another kiss. She told her heart that she would be happy with him, and if he didn't love her now she would make him soon enough.
Inside.
"They've been out there too long what if---if Ying Fa knocked him out or even worse?" Mei Lin said worriedly, she was sitting with Yelen and the others. "Even worst what if Ashiwa found them?"
"I doubt he will, Xiao Lang knows that maze very well and that man doesn't" Mrs. Honda stated smiling.
"I just wish they would get back all ready this is nerve wrecking" Tomoyo mumbled, she looked up when Eriol came forward with Renzo.
"Please take your wives for a dance before they have a nervous breakdown" Yelen ordered firmly both nodded and took a reluctant Tomoyo and Mei Lin away. "She is the first female I have ever seen who has enough confidence to slap my son in his face. In a way I admire her for it but I don't want to ever see it happen again"
"I'm sure she had a good reason, I've spoken to her when they were visiting his abandoned home. He needs to spend more time there its better for him and your country home is too far from us"
"I know but its one of my favorites, I plan to stay here for a while until Lin is settled with him. She seems to be better and he's showing her a great deal more interest. Why he even got her pets" Yelen replied when Gwen came walking up with a glass of champagne. "Is there something that you need?" she questioned not hiding her obvious distaste towards the girl.
"Yes I'm looking for your son, have you seen him I grow tired of this party" Gwen answered not hiding the fact that she didn't like both the elderly ladies. "But before I go I want a word with that woman"
"Well here comes both of them now and from the looks of it everything turned out wonderful" Mrs. Honda cheerfully proclaimed, too bad she didn't know how true her words were.
Sakura was fully aware that everyone was looking at them when they walked back into the room. She blushed knowing why they were looking at them but that was the least of her problems as she held unto his hand.
"I'm sorry that I slap you in front of everyone" Sakura whispered regretfully.
"According to you I deserved it" Syaoran replied squeezing her hand reassuringly and to everyone's astonishment and Sakura's he raised her hand to his lips and kissed it. "So don't apologize" Sakura giggled as a tingling sensation moved from her fingers up her arm.
"You've made everyone's mouths hang open and draw more attention to us than needed" Sakura whispered making him smile down at her.
"Here comes Paul now" Syaoran murmured placing his hand on her waist, a sign that she belonged to him.
"Well its good to see that you kept your word, and that was some slap. I hope he deserved it" Paul said smiling.
"She said that I deserved every bit of it" Syaoran explained making Paul laugh light heartedly.
"If I can steal her away for a dance?" he asked with a hint of mischief in his eye as he looked at Syaoran.
"Its up to Ying Fa" he replied, Sakura flashed him a smiled before taking Mr. Honda's offered hand.
"Don't worry dear boy I'll bring her back" he promised leading Sakura away, Syaoran nodded and then headed towards his mother, where an unhappy Gwen was. He gave his mother a kiss on the cheek before looking at Gwen. "Is there something you want?"
"Yes I want to leave, this party bores me" Gwen replied smiling but Syaoran wasn't looking at her he was looking at Ashiwa who was looking at Sakura with rage in his eyes.
"I see, have Wei drop you home I'm not yet ready. If you'll excuse me I have something to deal with," Syaoran stated walking away leaving a fuming Gwen.
"I wish that son of yours will make his mind up" Gwen snapped walking away but not before being escorted by a man.
"I think he all ready has" Yelen commented watching her son talk to Derek.
Syaoran.
"She's lovely, isn't she?" he asked walking up to Derek.
"What were you two doing out there?" Derek snapped looking at Syaoran who smirked.
"I don't believe it's a crime for a man to talk to his fiancée in private, do you?" he replied coolly ignoring the glare Derek shot him. "I don't however like the way you are looking at her so cease to do so"
"I don't believe you, after the slap she gave you publicly" Derek shot back smiling. "Just because she allowed you to kiss her doesn't mean a thing. I intend to take her back to my place tonight where we'll do more then just kissing". He didn't know that he was trotting into dangerous ground, having missed the tightening in Syaoran's jaw with each word he said.
"If you lay one finger on her you'll be sorry Ashiwa, now if you'll excuse me" Syaoran stated walking towards Sakura when the dance ended. Fire raged inside Ashiwa seeing how easily he swept Sakura into his arms for a dance but what got to him was how he made her smile and flush.
"I believe that she has just snagged the most wanted bachelor in all of Hong Kong" a man said stopping beside Ashiwa. "It's a good thing too because at least now we'll have a chance with the females"
"Speak for yourself" Ashiwa growled heading for the doors, he would see her in the morning before school where he would demand to know why she was now ignoring him and now with Li.
"Are you leaving?" Tomoyo asked turning her gaze from Syaoran and Sakura to Derek who looked pissed.
"Surely you know and I know for one that your happy she's with a rich man and not a poor one like me just wait until he hurts her again"
"You don't understand and I don't choose who my sister goes out with, just as long as she's happy. Now if you'll excuse me your being rude" Tomoyo stated walking away only to be pulled back by him. "You'll let go me before I scream" she added in a firm voice but he didn't heed her only tightened his grip.
"You know bloody well that you're happy don't deny it, the same way you denied me seeing her when she was sick. And then when she came back she looked right through me" Derek snapped not realizing he was squeezing Tomoyo's arm so tight until she cried out.
"You'll let go of my wife right now and leave" Eriol said in a calm voice not a all betraying his anger, Derek didn't hear a word Eriol said only tightened his grip on poor Tomoyo's arm. "I warned you" he added punching Derek right in the jaw, pulling Tomoyo into his arms who was trembling.
"Why you" Derek growled getting up off the ground wiping the blood from his jaw, by now everyone was looking at the scene and Sakura and Syaoran came running up. Sakura drew Tomoyo into her arms glaring at Derek with cold eyes.
"Listen you had better get out of here right now before I forget what a gentleman I am. And if I see you near my family again or hear a complaint from Ying Fa you'll regret that day you met me" Eriol spoke in a cool tone but his eyes were on fire.
"Any of us" Syaoran corrected nodding to security.
"You forget that I work with Ying Fa" Derek smiled winking at Sakura, who had to hold back the impulse to punch him.
"We can always fix that" Renzo informed holding back Mei Lin. "Now you should go before I let my wife lose on you" he added when security walked up but Derek shrugged them off as he headed to the door but not before blowing at kiss to Sakura, who turned her head away. Everyone went back to what they were doing except for Sakura and the others.
"I don't like you working with him, he got mad because you were with Xiao Lang. Ying Fa, he's obsess with you its not safe" Tomoyo whispered looking at Sakura with worried eyes.
"Don't worry he won't dare come near me, I have the whole football team ready to beat him up. They too don't like the way he looks at me" Sakura soothed smiling as she made a mental note never to be alone in the school.
"I still don't like the idea of you going home alone he knows where you live" Mei Lin warned.
"Come on guys I don't believe he would be that crazy" Sakura said brushing it aside but Syaoran knew Mei Lin was right but he said nothing.
"Lets just all try and enjoy the rest of the night" Syaoran said resting his hand on Sakura's back.
"We were just here to tell you that we're heading out, we'll see you guys tomorrow" Renzo said holding Mei Lin close. "Mei Lin's tired," he added making them laugh.
"You're a horrible liar for a lawyer," Sakura pointed out.
"Lets hope not, he and Eriol are in charge of my companies affairs," Syaoran said making them laugh.
"We'll be staying for a while longer well at least until Ying Fa is ready. We came together but I've got to go with Maria to school in the morning" Tomoyo said sighing. "She got in another fight"
"With a girl?" Sakura asked worriedly.
"NO with a boy and she won, after Tommy helped" Tomoyo answered making them laugh.
"We're going in the morning too" Mei Lin sighed.
"You guys can go home, I'll drop Ying Fa home," Syaoran offered making them smile.
"The last time you said that she didn't end up home" Mei Lin pointed out getting a glare from Syaoran.
"He has to bring me home because I have class in the morning" Sakura interrupted helping Syaoran out. "I couldn't possibly show up in his clothing they practically engulf me"
"Oh all right, I will need sleep to deal with Maria's principal, poor thing she'll shout alleluia when she leaves" Tomoyo stated smiling.
"I'm surprised she's still there after all most of our families kids go there," Mei Lin inputted. "Any ways we'll see you" she added hugging Sakura and Syaoran before they all left the two.
"Come lets go back I think my mother wants to talk to you, don't be afraid to tell me when your ready" Syaoran said leading Sakura through the crowd. "Would you like something to drink?"
"Hai. But it can't be champagne I've all ready had three glasses. Think they have anything else here?" Sakura asked when they reached Yelen.
"I'm sure they do, I'll be right back" Syaoran said leaving Sakura with Yelen who didn't even smile. Sakura felt self-conscious while she sat with Yelen who was looking at her intently then to her surprise smiled.
"Welcome to the family" she asked shocking Sakura which made her laugh. "I know but I'll act blind until my son tells everyone"
"Thank you I hope I make Xiao Lang and Lin happy and that I make you happy as well" Sakura said trying to calm her nerves. This was her engagement night, even though her finger was still bare.
"I'm sure you will, everyone all ready likes you, I've heard a lot about you my dear. Don't worry"
"Thank you" Sakura stated brightly smiling as she searched the crowd for Syaoran who didn't come back for a while so she talked with Yelen and some other ladies. And enjoyed their conversation immensely, finally Syaoran came back with fruit juice. "Did you get lost?" Sakura teased taking it from him.
"I failed to remember the way I came, if you need me I'll be in the smoky room," Syaoran said giving her a kiss on her temple before leaving a blushing Sakura and laughing ladies.
"Where did he go?" a woman asked Sakura who was taking a sip.
"He went to get me some juice about half n' hour ago I suppose he got lost or side tracked" Sakura answered, to her utter belief they all broke out laughing. "Is something wrong?"
"NO my dear but it took him that long because all they have here is champagne. Did he not tell you that?" another inquired making Sakura pinking.
"No he said that he was sure they had something else, I didn't mean for him to go hunting" Sakura confirmed smiling.
"Well he didn't at all mind and that's a manly thing which if you don't mind me saying so he is a lot of" Gina said smiling, peals of laughter broke out from the group at her comment. "Here comes my husband now, I intend on seeing you again my dear Ying Fa and you too Yelen. Both of you hide too much" she said before taking her leave after a while their group got smaller.
"Ying Fa I think you should go and get my son, it's getting rather late. I'm heading home but I would like to see tomorrow maybe" Yelen said standing up, Sakura stood and smiled.
"Yes Yelen-san, I hope I won't be dragging him from anything important"
"Your more important and my son knows that don't worry he won't mind at all" Yelen said walking. Sakura walked her to the door before heading the smoky room. For how late it was getting there was still a lot of people present. "
"Would you like to dance?" a man asked walking up, she couldn't see his face because she had a mask on.
"I'm sorry, I'm about to leave" Sakura replied softly, her pursed clasped between her hands.
"Understandable, maybe next time" he bowed before leaving. She didn't realize how every male head turned when she walked by, or how much was aimed at her butt. The room Syaoran was in was even more packed but it wasn't hard at all to find just look at where all the males where, when they saw her heading there way all stood.
"I believe she's here to take Li away" a man said making them laugh and Sakura blush.
"That's if your not busy, I could wait" Sakura clarified smiling at him, she didn't want to take him away from his friends.
"No I told you to come for me when you were ready, I take it the only reason you came is because my mother left" Syaoran said smirking, Sakura flushed again. "It was a good game" he added getting up.
"Your heaven sent, he was winning mostly all the games" a man sigh making them laugh.
"In that case I'll hurriedly take him off your hands" Sakura laughed taking Syaoran's offered hand.
"By all means, I'll see you in the morning Li" a man called out Syaoran nodded before leaving with Sakura. Syaoran smiled inside because Sakura and the girls had just landed him three more important deals. Getting her cape, he put it on her before they went out side to meet the limo that was waiting for them.
On the way home.
"Why didn't you tell me that they only had champagne?" Sakura asked resting her head on Syaoran's shoulder stifling a yawn.
"I just had to go down to the corner to get what you needed but it took longer then I thought" Syaoran shrugged wrapping his arm.
"Syaoran?" she whispered playing with his fingers, she didn't want anyone to get hurt by their engagement.
"Hmmm---"he murmured playing with her curls, then straying down to her ear making Sakura shudder.
"How are you going to tell Gwen?" she whispered burying her head in his chest, she didn't know how she was going to be able to stay awake in class tomorrow but she knew now that she wouldn't be able to go to parties on Sunday nights anymore.
"Don't worry about it, I'll tell her" Syaoran replied softly resting his head back, by he time they arrived at her apartment Sakura was fast asleep. Syaoran like the idea of the guard at the gate but didn't like the fencing around the place.
"You don't have to carry me you know" Sakura mumbled cuddling up to him.
"Its too late now don't you think" Syaoran replied placing her on her bed, Sakura slowly opened her eyes and saw him going through her drawers.
"What are you doing?" she asked blankly, sitting up as she slipped her shoes off.
"Looking for your night gown madam" Syaoran answered finding it, he walked back to her and helps her to her feet then started to take of her dress. The only thing she did was raising her hands when he put her nightgown on and then pulled out all the hairpins from her hair.
She didn't like the idea of how he knew how to undress a woman in such an expert manner, but from now on he would only be doing that to her and no one else 'yes no one else' and with that thought a smile adorned her lips.
"Is there anything else your going to do?" Sakura asked lying on her bed with a smiled on her face.
"Yes first I want you to write down the digits for your alarm system" Syaoran said handing her a pen and paper. Sakura complied taking it, she wrote down her alarm code and handed it back to him. Taking it, he leaned closer to her with a smile on his face making Sakura's breath caught. "Now, I'm going to kiss you good night" he added kissing her senseless, when he pulled away Sakura almost cried out for the lost. "I'll see you in the morning" he added giving her a kiss on the forehead before he left, Sakura fell asleep with a smile on her face. Syaoran locked the door and he nodded at someone before heading down the stairs where Wei had the door open for him.
Syaoran home.
"There you are" Gwen said from his bed when he walked into his room, she had on the black teddy she bought especially for him.
"Is there something you need?" Syaoran asked Gwen's surprise quickly turned into anger.
"What do you mean if there is something I need?" she bellowed sitting up on the large bed.
"Yes, I'm tired, I have a long day ahead of me, if there is nothing you need then I bid you good night" Syaoran answered taking off his shirt, thanking god Lin was by Tomoyo's sleeping over.
"I want you, I want to sleep in the same bed with you, I want to make love to you" Gwen stated flabbergasted.
"I don't want you, all I want is sleep" Syaoran retorted coldly pointing at the door. "We'll talk in the morning, if there is anything you don't understand"
"Talk there is nothing to talk about, you want that child. I understand perfectly she's young and has a nice supple body. Well guess what, I'm still young there is nothing she can offer you that I can't you hear me" Gwen hissed not moving from the bed. "You know you want me but your fighting it come and let me sooth your mind" she pleaded opening her arms to him with a seductive smile on her face.
"Get out, your pushing it Gwen," Syaoran growled pointing to the door. "Now" he added through clenched teeth. "Remember something your not my girl friend so don't act like one. You sold me your body for jewels and other things that I gladly paid for. And when I'm finished with you, you'll move on to the next man, just like you did with Renzo" he spat looking at her horrified face. "Oh yes don't think that I didn't know my sweet, I don't want you in my bed tonight now be a good girl and go"
"As you wish" Gwen spat sliding off the bed. "I never want you in my bed again Li Xiao Lang, I love you but it's obvious that you don't love me. We could have been happy together, I could have made you happy, you're a fool" she bellowed.
"NO you're the fool, thinking you could make me happy. Even if by some slim chance we did marry you couldn't even give me children, I know your barren" Syaoran sighed looking at her.
"You lie I can have children, I'm not barren" Gwen denied shaking her head.
"NO I'm not---Gwen it's the truth and you know it, even Renzo knows it" Syaoran yelled making her cry.
"When did you find out?" Gwen asked ashamed as she pulled the covers around her body.
"Last year, I was by house when I came by a medical file, I thought you were sick so I decided to check it. I was going to ask you to marry me but when I read that file, I couldn't" Syaoran answered sitting in the chair, Gwen felt her heart break.
"Because I couldn't have children?" She cried. "How can you be so heartless?"
"I was marrying to produce an heir not out of love, my mother was getting restless but after I found out you were barren I changed my mind. Lin is perfectly capable of taking over what's mine" Syaoran explained casually. "Please leave before I get upset"
"I hate you, just wait she won't make you happy you'll see. When you tire of her, I won't come running back you" Gwen spat hurriedly leaving his room; he got up when he heard his door slam shut.
"I won't ever come back to you, I got what I wanted" Syaoran whispered starting to change.
Gwen.
"You just wait and see Li, you'll come back to me" she whispered filled with tremendous hatred towards Sakura and Lin.
Next morning.
When Sakura arrived at school she didn't see Derek anywhere and made her way to her class for first period, then she would be in the music room for the rest. When she walked into her class it was empty she had not idea that she was that early. She jumped and spun around when her door slammed shut.
"Mr. Ashiwa what are you doing here?" Sakura gasped holding her throat, she unconsciously stepped back when he moved forward.
"Aren't you happy to see me?" Derek asked glancing at her ring less finger, ignoring that fact that she had called him by his last name. "I thought you were engaged?"
"I am" Sakura replied not liking the look in his eyes.
"Are you with him because he's rich?" Derek snapped moving closer to her, fear rose in Sakura when she bumped into the wall.
"That's not your business but no I'm not with Xiao Lang because he's rich" Sakura replied praying that the bell would ring. "Why are you acting this way? I thought we were friends?"
"Friends? I thought want to be more" Derek growled smiling.
"That's impossible and you know it, the only reason I went to lunch with you was because I was trying to be nice. Please don't do this" Sakura stated pressing her self against the wall, her eyes searching for anything that she could use to defend her self.
Author's note: Hey ya, well what did ya'll like this chapter? I can't believe I wrote that much just for the party!!!!!!!!!! Whew, ne ways remember to review and be ready in a week's time for the next update, peace peeps. _
Author's note: "Hello, hello again!!!!!! Thanks to all ya'll out there that has continued to review and tell me what you think about my story. Please tell me if the chapters are getting less confusing to read because some of you said that some of my sentences were a bit confusing ~_~? I'm working on not making them confusing but it'll take time before I'm perfect at it.
I know that Li is cold right now but you'll start to see a better side of him soon I promise ^_^
Oh, Lin is five not TEN I repeat not TEN. I don't remem if I all ready told you that. LOL, I'm the explanation of what happened to Lin's real mother is coming up soon for those of you who want to know. Ne ways on wit the story.
Everyone in the ballroom watched for a glimpse of the couple but couldn't find one. Tomoyo had told Ashiwa who was obviously watching not to go after them, actually it took a lot of talking, finally ending with Fanfren asking him to dance. Then saying it was not proper for a man to decline so he had no choice Xiefia then Fuutie went after her and Mei Lin and so on. They were all still wondering what was going on with the two who was the main gossip and would be when everyone left here.
Outside.
"Let go of me---" Sakura hissed pulling her hand free when they reached the end of the garden, she was hurt by what he said but didn't Tomoyo tell her he would say that? "You deserved what you got in there so if your going to hit me get it over with" she added raising her chin up defiantly which made Syaoran chuckle. "Why do you always laugh at me?"
"Didn't I all ready tell you the answer, however I don't agree with you? I didn't deserve that slap and I will not now or ever hit you" Syaoran stated resting his shoulder against the tree, with his arms folded across his chest. What was he going to do about this situation? God he had no clue. If it were any other woman he all ready knew the solution to that but this was Sakura and he knew that she was very fragile. He didn't want to be the one to break her spirit, he couldn't take that guilt, no, he couldn't bear that.
"How's that?" Sakura asked placing her hands on her hips.
"Because the day before I left I saw you having lunch with him and I was gone for a week. Now if you were in my shoes what would you think?" Syaoran asked looking at Sakura who seemed to pale, what he said was true and he had every right to think she did that. When after only spending two weeks with him she gave him her innocence, she felt dirty all over. Syaoran was caught off guard when she started to cry that was not what he was expecting at all.
"It's true I would think the same thing if I were in your shoes but I didn't sleep with him. And I don't care if you believe me, but it's the truth you're the only person who I did that with. I haven't even kissed him we're just friends at least that's all he is to me" Sakura stated feeling stupid that she was crying in front of him. Syaoran had the strongest urge to wrap his arms around her and soothe her but instead he asked.
"Why didn't you tell me? And even though you knew you still went out with HIM"
"I didn't know I'm always late. I found out when I passed out, when the doctor told me I wanted to die---I didn't want to keep it" Syaoran felt anger build in him when she said that, why wouldn't she want to kept his child?
"You wanted to kill my unborn child? How selfish can you be?" he bit out savagely, his icy glare penetrating her thoroughly.
"How dare you say that to me?" Sakura hissed venomously. "I wouldn't have care who the father of my child was, I would never kill my unborn baby. I was just scared, upset and confused, so don't you dare jump to stupid conclusions. I didn't want to tell you but Mei Lin and Tomoyo said I had to because you had a right to know. But it was just a waste of time because you don't believe me anyway. And it-it hu--hurts for me to to kno-- know that you think me--me a liar---" Sakura cried but was cut off when she felt her self-being crushed in a tight hug, her shoulders shaking. Syaoran could take it any longer seeing her cry like that all his control broke, and before he could stop himself he was all ready hugging her tightly.
"Shhh.I just wanted to make sure please don't cry like this" Syaoran whispered desperately running his hand down her back, he knew now the only answer to this problem after all in his status there was only one answer. "Please Sakura stop crying, see I'm even calling you by your Japanese name. Sweet heart stop your tears" Sakura listened to his soothing voice, as her tears became few then sniffles finally stopping 'this will make Lin extremely happy, though I don't know about me' he thought grimly. "That's better, let me look at you"
"No, I look awful" Sakura mumbled hiding her face in his chest, Syaoran laughed placing his thumb under her chin raising her tear stained face to his. Leave it up to her to be modest at a time like this but that was one of her many wonderful traits. Sakura's lips trembled feeling his warm soft lips against hers. Her grip on his jacket tightened as she brushed hers across his, Syaoran looked into her sparkling emerald eyes before deepening the kiss making Sakura's whole body flushed as she kissed him back with all the emotion she was feeling.
"You my dear could never look awful," he said huskily when they broke the kiss.
"What do we do now?" Sakura asked when he wiped her tears away; he seemed to consider her question before answering when he smiled Sakura new automatically that she wouldn't at all like his answer.
"I told if I was to ever marry that it would be to you, didn't I?" Sakura's heart stopped hearing what he said but she was sure she didn't hear him.
"Wha---what?" she stuttered looking into his deep amber eyes that sparkled with amusement. She hated how he could be this calm about such a serious matter, when she was trying her hardest to keep standing.
"We have to marry that's the only sensible thing to do or am I mistaken?" Syaoran answered, Sakura moved out of his arms taking a few steps back. She had to think this over clearly; she couldn't just rush into something this serious, could she?
"Surely you're mistaken? How can you talk about marriage like it's a business offer" Sakura asked in bewilderment holding her head. "I won't marry you"
"Why not? I can give you everything you want, security and our child can actually grow up in a real family. Lin will be your daughter, she'd love to have you as her mother and would love to have a sister or brother, don't you want that?" Syaoran replied casually. Sakura was stumped, she didn't know what to say then what Tomoyo said to her came back 'think about your baby'
"A real family?" Sakura echoed she had no idea what a real family was--- she'd never had a real family. Syaoran looked at her wondering why she sounded like she not what a real family was, she was Tomoyo's sister surely she knew what a family was. "You would be a father and a husband?"
"Ying Fa---" Syaoran said taking her small hands in his, he knew she would make him a good wife. A lot better then his first mistake, the only thing he got out of that was his daughter. "Of course I would be, what did you think I meant?"
"I don't know---" Sakura, whispered looking down to sort things out, Lin would be her daughter and they would be together forever. She would be able to watch over her always and her child would have a father and family what she had always wanted. "Would you stop seeing Gwen and every other woman? I don't want to share you. If I agree, I want a real family not a fake one"
"Anything else my dear?" Syaoran teased pulling her to him.
"Then you agree?" Sakura asked looking up at him, searching his eyes for some form of deceit but found nothing. 'God please make this the right choice' she prayed her hands resting on Syaoran's shoulder.
"Naturally, I should have made a bet with you when I told you I would marry you" Syaoran whispered his eyes dropping to her lips. Soon she would be legally his, she would belong to him and no one else.
"If we did then I would have made sure you lost" Sakura replied matter-of- factly, when he pulled into another kiss. She told her heart that she would be happy with him, and if he didn't love her now she would make him soon enough.
Inside.
"They've been out there too long what if---if Ying Fa knocked him out or even worse?" Mei Lin said worriedly, she was sitting with Yelen and the others. "Even worst what if Ashiwa found them?"
"I doubt he will, Xiao Lang knows that maze very well and that man doesn't" Mrs. Honda stated smiling.
"I just wish they would get back all ready this is nerve wrecking" Tomoyo mumbled, she looked up when Eriol came forward with Renzo.
"Please take your wives for a dance before they have a nervous breakdown" Yelen ordered firmly both nodded and took a reluctant Tomoyo and Mei Lin away. "She is the first female I have ever seen who has enough confidence to slap my son in his face. In a way I admire her for it but I don't want to ever see it happen again"
"I'm sure she had a good reason, I've spoken to her when they were visiting his abandoned home. He needs to spend more time there its better for him and your country home is too far from us"
"I know but its one of my favorites, I plan to stay here for a while until Lin is settled with him. She seems to be better and he's showing her a great deal more interest. Why he even got her pets" Yelen replied when Gwen came walking up with a glass of champagne. "Is there something that you need?" she questioned not hiding her obvious distaste towards the girl.
"Yes I'm looking for your son, have you seen him I grow tired of this party" Gwen answered not hiding the fact that she didn't like both the elderly ladies. "But before I go I want a word with that woman"
"Well here comes both of them now and from the looks of it everything turned out wonderful" Mrs. Honda cheerfully proclaimed, too bad she didn't know how true her words were.
Sakura was fully aware that everyone was looking at them when they walked back into the room. She blushed knowing why they were looking at them but that was the least of her problems as she held unto his hand.
"I'm sorry that I slap you in front of everyone" Sakura whispered regretfully.
"According to you I deserved it" Syaoran replied squeezing her hand reassuringly and to everyone's astonishment and Sakura's he raised her hand to his lips and kissed it. "So don't apologize" Sakura giggled as a tingling sensation moved from her fingers up her arm.
"You've made everyone's mouths hang open and draw more attention to us than needed" Sakura whispered making him smile down at her.
"Here comes Paul now" Syaoran murmured placing his hand on her waist, a sign that she belonged to him.
"Well its good to see that you kept your word, and that was some slap. I hope he deserved it" Paul said smiling.
"She said that I deserved every bit of it" Syaoran explained making Paul laugh light heartedly.
"If I can steal her away for a dance?" he asked with a hint of mischief in his eye as he looked at Syaoran.
"Its up to Ying Fa" he replied, Sakura flashed him a smiled before taking Mr. Honda's offered hand.
"Don't worry dear boy I'll bring her back" he promised leading Sakura away, Syaoran nodded and then headed towards his mother, where an unhappy Gwen was. He gave his mother a kiss on the cheek before looking at Gwen. "Is there something you want?"
"Yes I want to leave, this party bores me" Gwen replied smiling but Syaoran wasn't looking at her he was looking at Ashiwa who was looking at Sakura with rage in his eyes.
"I see, have Wei drop you home I'm not yet ready. If you'll excuse me I have something to deal with," Syaoran stated walking away leaving a fuming Gwen.
"I wish that son of yours will make his mind up" Gwen snapped walking away but not before being escorted by a man.
"I think he all ready has" Yelen commented watching her son talk to Derek.
Syaoran.
"She's lovely, isn't she?" he asked walking up to Derek.
"What were you two doing out there?" Derek snapped looking at Syaoran who smirked.
"I don't believe it's a crime for a man to talk to his fiancée in private, do you?" he replied coolly ignoring the glare Derek shot him. "I don't however like the way you are looking at her so cease to do so"
"I don't believe you, after the slap she gave you publicly" Derek shot back smiling. "Just because she allowed you to kiss her doesn't mean a thing. I intend to take her back to my place tonight where we'll do more then just kissing". He didn't know that he was trotting into dangerous ground, having missed the tightening in Syaoran's jaw with each word he said.
"If you lay one finger on her you'll be sorry Ashiwa, now if you'll excuse me" Syaoran stated walking towards Sakura when the dance ended. Fire raged inside Ashiwa seeing how easily he swept Sakura into his arms for a dance but what got to him was how he made her smile and flush.
"I believe that she has just snagged the most wanted bachelor in all of Hong Kong" a man said stopping beside Ashiwa. "It's a good thing too because at least now we'll have a chance with the females"
"Speak for yourself" Ashiwa growled heading for the doors, he would see her in the morning before school where he would demand to know why she was now ignoring him and now with Li.
"Are you leaving?" Tomoyo asked turning her gaze from Syaoran and Sakura to Derek who looked pissed.
"Surely you know and I know for one that your happy she's with a rich man and not a poor one like me just wait until he hurts her again"
"You don't understand and I don't choose who my sister goes out with, just as long as she's happy. Now if you'll excuse me your being rude" Tomoyo stated walking away only to be pulled back by him. "You'll let go me before I scream" she added in a firm voice but he didn't heed her only tightened his grip.
"You know bloody well that you're happy don't deny it, the same way you denied me seeing her when she was sick. And then when she came back she looked right through me" Derek snapped not realizing he was squeezing Tomoyo's arm so tight until she cried out.
"You'll let go of my wife right now and leave" Eriol said in a calm voice not a all betraying his anger, Derek didn't hear a word Eriol said only tightened his grip on poor Tomoyo's arm. "I warned you" he added punching Derek right in the jaw, pulling Tomoyo into his arms who was trembling.
"Why you" Derek growled getting up off the ground wiping the blood from his jaw, by now everyone was looking at the scene and Sakura and Syaoran came running up. Sakura drew Tomoyo into her arms glaring at Derek with cold eyes.
"Listen you had better get out of here right now before I forget what a gentleman I am. And if I see you near my family again or hear a complaint from Ying Fa you'll regret that day you met me" Eriol spoke in a cool tone but his eyes were on fire.
"Any of us" Syaoran corrected nodding to security.
"You forget that I work with Ying Fa" Derek smiled winking at Sakura, who had to hold back the impulse to punch him.
"We can always fix that" Renzo informed holding back Mei Lin. "Now you should go before I let my wife lose on you" he added when security walked up but Derek shrugged them off as he headed to the door but not before blowing at kiss to Sakura, who turned her head away. Everyone went back to what they were doing except for Sakura and the others.
"I don't like you working with him, he got mad because you were with Xiao Lang. Ying Fa, he's obsess with you its not safe" Tomoyo whispered looking at Sakura with worried eyes.
"Don't worry he won't dare come near me, I have the whole football team ready to beat him up. They too don't like the way he looks at me" Sakura soothed smiling as she made a mental note never to be alone in the school.
"I still don't like the idea of you going home alone he knows where you live" Mei Lin warned.
"Come on guys I don't believe he would be that crazy" Sakura said brushing it aside but Syaoran knew Mei Lin was right but he said nothing.
"Lets just all try and enjoy the rest of the night" Syaoran said resting his hand on Sakura's back.
"We were just here to tell you that we're heading out, we'll see you guys tomorrow" Renzo said holding Mei Lin close. "Mei Lin's tired," he added making them laugh.
"You're a horrible liar for a lawyer," Sakura pointed out.
"Lets hope not, he and Eriol are in charge of my companies affairs," Syaoran said making them laugh.
"We'll be staying for a while longer well at least until Ying Fa is ready. We came together but I've got to go with Maria to school in the morning" Tomoyo said sighing. "She got in another fight"
"With a girl?" Sakura asked worriedly.
"NO with a boy and she won, after Tommy helped" Tomoyo answered making them laugh.
"We're going in the morning too" Mei Lin sighed.
"You guys can go home, I'll drop Ying Fa home," Syaoran offered making them smile.
"The last time you said that she didn't end up home" Mei Lin pointed out getting a glare from Syaoran.
"He has to bring me home because I have class in the morning" Sakura interrupted helping Syaoran out. "I couldn't possibly show up in his clothing they practically engulf me"
"Oh all right, I will need sleep to deal with Maria's principal, poor thing she'll shout alleluia when she leaves" Tomoyo stated smiling.
"I'm surprised she's still there after all most of our families kids go there," Mei Lin inputted. "Any ways we'll see you" she added hugging Sakura and Syaoran before they all left the two.
"Come lets go back I think my mother wants to talk to you, don't be afraid to tell me when your ready" Syaoran said leading Sakura through the crowd. "Would you like something to drink?"
"Hai. But it can't be champagne I've all ready had three glasses. Think they have anything else here?" Sakura asked when they reached Yelen.
"I'm sure they do, I'll be right back" Syaoran said leaving Sakura with Yelen who didn't even smile. Sakura felt self-conscious while she sat with Yelen who was looking at her intently then to her surprise smiled.
"Welcome to the family" she asked shocking Sakura which made her laugh. "I know but I'll act blind until my son tells everyone"
"Thank you I hope I make Xiao Lang and Lin happy and that I make you happy as well" Sakura said trying to calm her nerves. This was her engagement night, even though her finger was still bare.
"I'm sure you will, everyone all ready likes you, I've heard a lot about you my dear. Don't worry"
"Thank you" Sakura stated brightly smiling as she searched the crowd for Syaoran who didn't come back for a while so she talked with Yelen and some other ladies. And enjoyed their conversation immensely, finally Syaoran came back with fruit juice. "Did you get lost?" Sakura teased taking it from him.
"I failed to remember the way I came, if you need me I'll be in the smoky room," Syaoran said giving her a kiss on her temple before leaving a blushing Sakura and laughing ladies.
"Where did he go?" a woman asked Sakura who was taking a sip.
"He went to get me some juice about half n' hour ago I suppose he got lost or side tracked" Sakura answered, to her utter belief they all broke out laughing. "Is something wrong?"
"NO my dear but it took him that long because all they have here is champagne. Did he not tell you that?" another inquired making Sakura pinking.
"No he said that he was sure they had something else, I didn't mean for him to go hunting" Sakura confirmed smiling.
"Well he didn't at all mind and that's a manly thing which if you don't mind me saying so he is a lot of" Gina said smiling, peals of laughter broke out from the group at her comment. "Here comes my husband now, I intend on seeing you again my dear Ying Fa and you too Yelen. Both of you hide too much" she said before taking her leave after a while their group got smaller.
"Ying Fa I think you should go and get my son, it's getting rather late. I'm heading home but I would like to see tomorrow maybe" Yelen said standing up, Sakura stood and smiled.
"Yes Yelen-san, I hope I won't be dragging him from anything important"
"Your more important and my son knows that don't worry he won't mind at all" Yelen said walking. Sakura walked her to the door before heading the smoky room. For how late it was getting there was still a lot of people present. "
"Would you like to dance?" a man asked walking up, she couldn't see his face because she had a mask on.
"I'm sorry, I'm about to leave" Sakura replied softly, her pursed clasped between her hands.
"Understandable, maybe next time" he bowed before leaving. She didn't realize how every male head turned when she walked by, or how much was aimed at her butt. The room Syaoran was in was even more packed but it wasn't hard at all to find just look at where all the males where, when they saw her heading there way all stood.
"I believe she's here to take Li away" a man said making them laugh and Sakura blush.
"That's if your not busy, I could wait" Sakura clarified smiling at him, she didn't want to take him away from his friends.
"No I told you to come for me when you were ready, I take it the only reason you came is because my mother left" Syaoran said smirking, Sakura flushed again. "It was a good game" he added getting up.
"Your heaven sent, he was winning mostly all the games" a man sigh making them laugh.
"In that case I'll hurriedly take him off your hands" Sakura laughed taking Syaoran's offered hand.
"By all means, I'll see you in the morning Li" a man called out Syaoran nodded before leaving with Sakura. Syaoran smiled inside because Sakura and the girls had just landed him three more important deals. Getting her cape, he put it on her before they went out side to meet the limo that was waiting for them.
On the way home.
"Why didn't you tell me that they only had champagne?" Sakura asked resting her head on Syaoran's shoulder stifling a yawn.
"I just had to go down to the corner to get what you needed but it took longer then I thought" Syaoran shrugged wrapping his arm.
"Syaoran?" she whispered playing with his fingers, she didn't want anyone to get hurt by their engagement.
"Hmmm---"he murmured playing with her curls, then straying down to her ear making Sakura shudder.
"How are you going to tell Gwen?" she whispered burying her head in his chest, she didn't know how she was going to be able to stay awake in class tomorrow but she knew now that she wouldn't be able to go to parties on Sunday nights anymore.
"Don't worry about it, I'll tell her" Syaoran replied softly resting his head back, by he time they arrived at her apartment Sakura was fast asleep. Syaoran like the idea of the guard at the gate but didn't like the fencing around the place.
"You don't have to carry me you know" Sakura mumbled cuddling up to him.
"Its too late now don't you think" Syaoran replied placing her on her bed, Sakura slowly opened her eyes and saw him going through her drawers.
"What are you doing?" she asked blankly, sitting up as she slipped her shoes off.
"Looking for your night gown madam" Syaoran answered finding it, he walked back to her and helps her to her feet then started to take of her dress. The only thing she did was raising her hands when he put her nightgown on and then pulled out all the hairpins from her hair.
She didn't like the idea of how he knew how to undress a woman in such an expert manner, but from now on he would only be doing that to her and no one else 'yes no one else' and with that thought a smile adorned her lips.
"Is there anything else your going to do?" Sakura asked lying on her bed with a smiled on her face.
"Yes first I want you to write down the digits for your alarm system" Syaoran said handing her a pen and paper. Sakura complied taking it, she wrote down her alarm code and handed it back to him. Taking it, he leaned closer to her with a smile on his face making Sakura's breath caught. "Now, I'm going to kiss you good night" he added kissing her senseless, when he pulled away Sakura almost cried out for the lost. "I'll see you in the morning" he added giving her a kiss on the forehead before he left, Sakura fell asleep with a smile on her face. Syaoran locked the door and he nodded at someone before heading down the stairs where Wei had the door open for him.
Syaoran home.
"There you are" Gwen said from his bed when he walked into his room, she had on the black teddy she bought especially for him.
"Is there something you need?" Syaoran asked Gwen's surprise quickly turned into anger.
"What do you mean if there is something I need?" she bellowed sitting up on the large bed.
"Yes, I'm tired, I have a long day ahead of me, if there is nothing you need then I bid you good night" Syaoran answered taking off his shirt, thanking god Lin was by Tomoyo's sleeping over.
"I want you, I want to sleep in the same bed with you, I want to make love to you" Gwen stated flabbergasted.
"I don't want you, all I want is sleep" Syaoran retorted coldly pointing at the door. "We'll talk in the morning, if there is anything you don't understand"
"Talk there is nothing to talk about, you want that child. I understand perfectly she's young and has a nice supple body. Well guess what, I'm still young there is nothing she can offer you that I can't you hear me" Gwen hissed not moving from the bed. "You know you want me but your fighting it come and let me sooth your mind" she pleaded opening her arms to him with a seductive smile on her face.
"Get out, your pushing it Gwen," Syaoran growled pointing to the door. "Now" he added through clenched teeth. "Remember something your not my girl friend so don't act like one. You sold me your body for jewels and other things that I gladly paid for. And when I'm finished with you, you'll move on to the next man, just like you did with Renzo" he spat looking at her horrified face. "Oh yes don't think that I didn't know my sweet, I don't want you in my bed tonight now be a good girl and go"
"As you wish" Gwen spat sliding off the bed. "I never want you in my bed again Li Xiao Lang, I love you but it's obvious that you don't love me. We could have been happy together, I could have made you happy, you're a fool" she bellowed.
"NO you're the fool, thinking you could make me happy. Even if by some slim chance we did marry you couldn't even give me children, I know your barren" Syaoran sighed looking at her.
"You lie I can have children, I'm not barren" Gwen denied shaking her head.
"NO I'm not---Gwen it's the truth and you know it, even Renzo knows it" Syaoran yelled making her cry.
"When did you find out?" Gwen asked ashamed as she pulled the covers around her body.
"Last year, I was by house when I came by a medical file, I thought you were sick so I decided to check it. I was going to ask you to marry me but when I read that file, I couldn't" Syaoran answered sitting in the chair, Gwen felt her heart break.
"Because I couldn't have children?" She cried. "How can you be so heartless?"
"I was marrying to produce an heir not out of love, my mother was getting restless but after I found out you were barren I changed my mind. Lin is perfectly capable of taking over what's mine" Syaoran explained casually. "Please leave before I get upset"
"I hate you, just wait she won't make you happy you'll see. When you tire of her, I won't come running back you" Gwen spat hurriedly leaving his room; he got up when he heard his door slam shut.
"I won't ever come back to you, I got what I wanted" Syaoran whispered starting to change.
Gwen.
"You just wait and see Li, you'll come back to me" she whispered filled with tremendous hatred towards Sakura and Lin.
Next morning.
When Sakura arrived at school she didn't see Derek anywhere and made her way to her class for first period, then she would be in the music room for the rest. When she walked into her class it was empty she had not idea that she was that early. She jumped and spun around when her door slammed shut.
"Mr. Ashiwa what are you doing here?" Sakura gasped holding her throat, she unconsciously stepped back when he moved forward.
"Aren't you happy to see me?" Derek asked glancing at her ring less finger, ignoring that fact that she had called him by his last name. "I thought you were engaged?"
"I am" Sakura replied not liking the look in his eyes.
"Are you with him because he's rich?" Derek snapped moving closer to her, fear rose in Sakura when she bumped into the wall.
"That's not your business but no I'm not with Xiao Lang because he's rich" Sakura replied praying that the bell would ring. "Why are you acting this way? I thought we were friends?"
"Friends? I thought want to be more" Derek growled smiling.
"That's impossible and you know it, the only reason I went to lunch with you was because I was trying to be nice. Please don't do this" Sakura stated pressing her self against the wall, her eyes searching for anything that she could use to defend her self.
Author's note: Hey ya, well what did ya'll like this chapter? I can't believe I wrote that much just for the party!!!!!!!!!! Whew, ne ways remember to review and be ready in a week's time for the next update, peace peeps. _