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There is violence, some situation related to rape, strong language, and probably lemon in future chapters (if there will be some)
"I couldn't tell him no"
by Channonix
Part III
A beeping sound woke him up from the forced sleep he had been in to get healed. Slowly he opened his eyes only to see overwhelming green, all around, enveloping him, pervading, making him feel warm inside. He reached his hand through the green liquid to the button pushing transparent dome he was in up. Holding on it, he got out, his wet boots making a silent splash on the floor. He looked down his body; green strays were covering black spandex. He was completely soaked, he was feeling soaked even inside him. But, yet again, it was the feeling he knew very, very well. It was always like this after coming out of the regeneration tank. He turned to the machine and watched as the green liquid along with dark strays of his blood disappeared, consumed by a mechanism in the floor. He breathed deeply, letting his ki rise and dry him, letting fresh air fill his lungs and clear his dazed mind. He had been on the edge of death... It had been close thing and if chibi hadn't been there he would have been dead by now.
He looked down his body again, examining it. There weren't any wounds,
all missing flesh was replaced, there weren't any bruise left. He smirked.
He should be way stronger now, as Saiya-jins tended to be after being close
to death.
He approached the computer that was steering the machine and discarded
the information that it had left in its memory. He didn't want anyone to
know that he had been in there. He came to an exit, feeling the need to
think somewhere outside. He had a lot of thinking to do.
He got out. It was already night outside, full moon. If only he still had his tail he would have turned Oozaru and beat Kakkarotsu with ease. He jumped on the branch of a nearby tree. He tended to come sit on that branch, to think or meditate, throughout all these years he had been living it this compound. He concentrated a bit and scanned the environment for familiar ki's. Woman and both his brats were home, along with Kakkarotsu and his brat. Chibi was nowhere to be found. It puzzled him. He searched newly obtained parts of his mind, which he shared with her, to look for her further. He saw only blackness there and felt fear, terrible fear that made his guts squeeze painfully. He saw Freeza in there, his white fingers... Damn... Maybe he shouldn't have been doing this. Maybe, after he had blamed himself once again by letting Kakkarotsu beat him with that ease, virtually kill him with one simple blast, he should have die. What was his life worth anyway if he was still a loser, still wasn't the strongest. What awaited him in the future ? Another ten years of harsh training driving him to the edge of his endurance only to lose once again ?! Was it what he wanted ? He made mental a promise he wouldn't fight, anymore, he would rather be a weakling than experience that kind of shame again, than lay down at Kakkarotsu's feet, him, his prince.
" Damn you, Kakkarotsu..." He hissed under his breath. Once again the dumb moron had tricked him, proved better, stronger... Why ? He had the power big enough to stomp him like a bug buried inside him, he just couldn't reach it. Damn, why ? Why had life always been so easy on that fucking baka and fate still seemed to like him more ? Why Kakkarotsu had had his happy childhood, while he had been beaten like an animal, raped, forced to do things dumbass had been never ever thinking of ? Why then he had turned Super Saiya-jin and defeated Freeza while he had died at the hands of his old master, being no match for the lizard ? Why now couldn't he win ? Why ? If pain and hate were what was making the Saiya-jin stronger, then why wasn't he the strongest ? Kakkarotsu hadn't experienced in his life 1/10 the pain he had had. Yet, baka was stronger... he had said because he was capable of loving... No wonder he was considering his past, but if he had lived through the nightmare that was his childhood his heart would have been ripped into pieces a long time ago, it wouldn't have stood the pain... It is possible to beat out everything from a living being, if only one is trying hard enough, if only one has that kind of experience in the matter Freeza had had...
It hurts. It hurts when you're hearing constantly about love and then look inside you and find nothing but hate and sorrow in there. It hurts when you're seeing people smile and you find out you're no longer capable of doing so. It hurts when you see others are happy and have that knowledge that you will nothing but suffer forever.
All his life after Freeza had been one long search of something that
could help him ease that pain... but he found nothing. Woman, his family,
his so-called friend - Kakkarotsu, it wasn't what he was looking for. They
weren't helping, only annoying and frustrating him more, trying hard to
find something in him he knew wasn't there... no more, after Freeza...
There was only thing that left him to check as a possible cure. He
had never been the strongest, so he couldn't know if becoming another Freeza
would help him, but he knew that in the past causing pain to others had
been helping him to ease his own... and Freeza had never seemed to suffer...
so maybe this was the key...
But, there was still Kakkarotsu. Still stronger than him. Still saying that only because he was capable of loving... like if telling him to do the same... like if this was that easy... maybe for the moron it was, but not for him...
He stood up and jumped down from the branch onto the ground.
So, it was settled, he wouldn't try to beat Kakkarotsu anymore. He would try instead, however confusing it was, to go looking for that thing Earthlings and few other species he had met before seemed to value so high... that thing they called love...
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