The sky above
Part 10: The other woman
Author's notes: Oh. My. Gosh. Last chapter was really weird, and I was totally out of it. I'm getting back to the Seiftis Queifer whatsoever thingy next time. In this part I'm explaining why Squall's behaving so strangely. Btw, I met one of my classmates in our hometown cinema today, he was selling the tickets, and he is so cute!!! He kinda reminds me of Squall before he met Rinoa!!! I have to admit, this guy's today my inspiration. Awww. but now: ENJOY THE SHOW!!! Ladies and Gentleman: PART 10 of my epic full of UST, romance and ss (simply sex ^_^)!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ As cold skin sometimes aches when its warmed, lonely hearts sometimes ache when they're filled with love. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~
It had been a dreadful night for him. Rinoa had done her best to cheer him up, but her kind words didn't reach him this time.
He wasn't sure why, but perhaps it was his bad conscience aching, his abused heart telling him, that he had abused Rinoa's too. Not because he had intended to, but because he didn't notice to whom he belonged until it was to late. Was he really in love with Quistis?
Could it be? Rinoa's arms around him suddenly felt very cold and he started shivering. "Squall?", her sleepy voice asked. "You okay?"
"Sure."
"I think we're beyond this. So tell me the truth and don't you dare to lie to me." He did not lie. And he did not tell the truth. He kept quiet, until Rinoa was fully awake and very angry. "Damn you, Squall", she hissed, then sat up in their small bet to look at him.
Moonlight fell through their window, lightening Rinoa's pretty face, silky hair and sad eyes. "I had a fight with Quistis. That's all." He thought a moment, than added: "I called her a whore."
He heard Rinoa gasp. "What?" Squall sat up as well, his shadow fell on her face. "She admitted it!", he exclaimed in sudden anger. "She slept with Seifer!"
No answer. None at all.
Then: "I did that too."
And silence fell upon them again. Squall had known that Rinoa was Seifer's ex-girlfriend right from the start, but for details he had never asked. It was so very easy to ignore such facts, when they were just a small information buried somewhere in his subconscious. Now, it became real.
The dark image of Rinoa in Seifer's arms became so real, he could actually see them when he closed his eyes. It was so painful, he could not look at her, even in darkness. They did not talk, they did not touch. And the rest of the night he felt so lonely again as if dear Ellone had left him once again. He could hear her cry quietly, but as soon as he moved his hand to comfort her, he froze and thought of Seifer, thought of Quistis and Rinoa. And his hand fell to his side. Everything was messed up. Since Seifer had come back to the Garden, since Rinoa had decided to become a SeeD, since Quistis was asked to teach them both. Squall knew he loved Rinoa dearly for what she had done for him, but there also was this dangerous affection for Quistis of which had not been aware until his jealousy had revealed it in such a painful way. And now, he was picturing them both in Seifer's careless arms. In the arms of a man who did not give a damn for either women. It was a dreadful night and his thoughts would not let him sleep until 3 am had long passed by. The morning, however, was even more dreadful, and when he awoke he did not find himself lying next to Rinoa, but to a cold right side of the bed.
Where she should have lied, lay a note.
"I'm not a trophy, nor is she", it said. "We're not simply his or yours. Decide Squall. I will not let you break both our hearts."
'I broke hers long ago. I broke yours last night', he thought, tearing up the note and letting the pieces fall on her side of the bed. 'But I have decided last night. And I see I was wrong.' He dressed in a hurry, leaving the dorm topsy-turvy. It took him some time, but he finally found her at the 'secret spot'. She turned at the sound of his footsteps, and immediately, a soft smile touched her beautiful lips. She opened her mouth to speak, but he did not let her, and instead took a few steps and embraced her so tightly, she had to force herself not to start crying.
"I was wrong", he said, without letting go of her. "I was terribly wrong. I thought I loved her, but I don't. Not this way, not our way. She means very much to me and at first, I didn't realize how much. And when I did, I mistook it for love. And somehow it is. it is a brotherly love. I care for her. I really do. But I love you, I love you, Rinoa." Her eyes were filled with tears as she stepped back and looked at him. "What about Seifer?" "I don't care!", he exclaimed so heartily, she could not help but believe him. "I don't care who your past was, as long as I'm your present."
"I'm glad", she simply said. And she smiled, fell back into his loving arms and smiled.
Author's notes: Oh. My. Gosh. Last chapter was really weird, and I was totally out of it. I'm getting back to the Seiftis Queifer whatsoever thingy next time. In this part I'm explaining why Squall's behaving so strangely. Btw, I met one of my classmates in our hometown cinema today, he was selling the tickets, and he is so cute!!! He kinda reminds me of Squall before he met Rinoa!!! I have to admit, this guy's today my inspiration. Awww. but now: ENJOY THE SHOW!!! Ladies and Gentleman: PART 10 of my epic full of UST, romance and ss (simply sex ^_^)!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ As cold skin sometimes aches when its warmed, lonely hearts sometimes ache when they're filled with love. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~
It had been a dreadful night for him. Rinoa had done her best to cheer him up, but her kind words didn't reach him this time.
He wasn't sure why, but perhaps it was his bad conscience aching, his abused heart telling him, that he had abused Rinoa's too. Not because he had intended to, but because he didn't notice to whom he belonged until it was to late. Was he really in love with Quistis?
Could it be? Rinoa's arms around him suddenly felt very cold and he started shivering. "Squall?", her sleepy voice asked. "You okay?"
"Sure."
"I think we're beyond this. So tell me the truth and don't you dare to lie to me." He did not lie. And he did not tell the truth. He kept quiet, until Rinoa was fully awake and very angry. "Damn you, Squall", she hissed, then sat up in their small bet to look at him.
Moonlight fell through their window, lightening Rinoa's pretty face, silky hair and sad eyes. "I had a fight with Quistis. That's all." He thought a moment, than added: "I called her a whore."
He heard Rinoa gasp. "What?" Squall sat up as well, his shadow fell on her face. "She admitted it!", he exclaimed in sudden anger. "She slept with Seifer!"
No answer. None at all.
Then: "I did that too."
And silence fell upon them again. Squall had known that Rinoa was Seifer's ex-girlfriend right from the start, but for details he had never asked. It was so very easy to ignore such facts, when they were just a small information buried somewhere in his subconscious. Now, it became real.
The dark image of Rinoa in Seifer's arms became so real, he could actually see them when he closed his eyes. It was so painful, he could not look at her, even in darkness. They did not talk, they did not touch. And the rest of the night he felt so lonely again as if dear Ellone had left him once again. He could hear her cry quietly, but as soon as he moved his hand to comfort her, he froze and thought of Seifer, thought of Quistis and Rinoa. And his hand fell to his side. Everything was messed up. Since Seifer had come back to the Garden, since Rinoa had decided to become a SeeD, since Quistis was asked to teach them both. Squall knew he loved Rinoa dearly for what she had done for him, but there also was this dangerous affection for Quistis of which had not been aware until his jealousy had revealed it in such a painful way. And now, he was picturing them both in Seifer's careless arms. In the arms of a man who did not give a damn for either women. It was a dreadful night and his thoughts would not let him sleep until 3 am had long passed by. The morning, however, was even more dreadful, and when he awoke he did not find himself lying next to Rinoa, but to a cold right side of the bed.
Where she should have lied, lay a note.
"I'm not a trophy, nor is she", it said. "We're not simply his or yours. Decide Squall. I will not let you break both our hearts."
'I broke hers long ago. I broke yours last night', he thought, tearing up the note and letting the pieces fall on her side of the bed. 'But I have decided last night. And I see I was wrong.' He dressed in a hurry, leaving the dorm topsy-turvy. It took him some time, but he finally found her at the 'secret spot'. She turned at the sound of his footsteps, and immediately, a soft smile touched her beautiful lips. She opened her mouth to speak, but he did not let her, and instead took a few steps and embraced her so tightly, she had to force herself not to start crying.
"I was wrong", he said, without letting go of her. "I was terribly wrong. I thought I loved her, but I don't. Not this way, not our way. She means very much to me and at first, I didn't realize how much. And when I did, I mistook it for love. And somehow it is. it is a brotherly love. I care for her. I really do. But I love you, I love you, Rinoa." Her eyes were filled with tears as she stepped back and looked at him. "What about Seifer?" "I don't care!", he exclaimed so heartily, she could not help but believe him. "I don't care who your past was, as long as I'm your present."
"I'm glad", she simply said. And she smiled, fell back into his loving arms and smiled.