A.n.-Well, you all asked for another chap and here it is^_^I hope it lives up to your expectations.
Dissclaimer-I do not own Yugioh or this song "Every Minute Of Every Day" By Scorpions.
Dedication-MajorKami, Dark Magician, Tiamet, Vampire Huntress D, Lita, Blue Diamond, and Fan90. Arigatou Minna!^_^
~Well it seems that I was lost
In Intoxicated nights
Following the trace of ecastasy
With no future, and no past
Just the present was alive
Like a presoner chained on a dream~
My Abiou's silence cut through my like a knife causeing tears to form. I missed his constant smile, that innocence that only he and the Pharaoh's Hikari could ever pull off. I missed the way he was always there waiting for me, a willing ear for any problems I had. He was truely a gift from the Ra....and what had I done with such a gift?
I had tried to destroy it, breaking it into a thousand shards at every chance I was presented. I had made a vow though, after my last 'owner' had died. That I would be in controll. That I wouldn't allow another to force me into the sick slavish submission I'd been thrust into through out my long life. Life? Funny....I don't think you can call being locked into a magical Ring and waiting through countless centries of darkness untill someone found you to release you. And even when they did.....Oh Ra...the very memorys of my past owners is enough to make my skin crawl.
But still....I can still rember the first time I'd seen my Abiou. He'd been around eleven I belive. Tall for his age with snow white skin and long silver hair that tended to follow its own whims. Large brown eyes of incredible innocent intensity had stared up at me with curiousety. He'd greated me warmly before asking who I was; how i'd appeared from the Ring.
It turns my stomake even now to rember how i'd struck him hard enough that he fell to the floor. The memory of how his deep brown eyes had filled instently with tears as he held his cheek with utter shock still makes shame fill me. Back then I hadn't cared though. I'd simply glared down at him, dareing him to challange me. I would be ready this time, I thought. I wouldn't allow myself to be controlled by a mere mortal agine.
Threats after that had made him keep his silence, he feared me compleatly. When he got out of line I gave him a reminder of just who was in charge. I knew even then what he was, my Hikari. My lighter half reincarnated. Ironic that the other half of my soul would carry me on a string though.
No matter how hard I pushed him though, he never once fought back. Never. Not even the smallest form of defience had ever filled him back then. Nothing. I think thats what made me so angry. That he simply stood there and toke it. Sure, it made useing him to get the other Sennen Items a lot easier....but Ra, the boy didn't even stand up to me. He was a weakling....and I've always despised the weak. Still....he's *my* weakling.
Something I proved many a time. Before I came along he was the natrul target for any bullys at his school. Shifting through his memorys (I only -skimed- through them though) I saw that he hadn't ever even told anyone about them either. Just stood there, let them take his money and use him as a damn punching bag.
Sure, I won't deni that I had slapped him around a few times by that time..and a little while afterward. But Ryou was *my* Hikari. Mine. And noone trys to touch what is mine. Ever. And when they do....well they never really live to repeat the mistake thats for certine.
~I was drowing in a feeling
That obsession rules till morning
Kills the creature sof the night
And I read your lipstick message
On The mirror of the truth~
~Now that your gone I relize
Without you Lifes a song without music
Without you this world
Won't be the same~
Ryou reminded me too much of how I once was back...back before I was sealed in the Ring. Back when I was so naive...and I had payed many a price for haveing such a weakness. Maybe thats why I'd been so harsh to Ryou. Thinking maybe I could try and stengthin him for the harsh world that awaited for him.
His Soul Room was constently littered with some toys and a white flowing...innocence really that nothing I did ever tainted. Oh, sure he was frightened of me, of what I could have done to him if I choose. His mind was ussualy a scattered mess whever I toke the time to speak to him, and whenever I appeared infront of him he trembled and flinched at my every move.
He never defended himself whenever I called him weak, pathatic, or anything such as that. Though it was really me who was the weak one. I was afraid of Ryou, though I soppose thats really just excuse. He frightned me really, he saw the world with such purity. Saw only the goodness in others untill they proved him wrong, and even then he still belived that their was a shred of kindess lurking in them somewhere.
The world is harsh, the world is cruel. Its a place where the weak wither and die and the strong take their places. I've known that for a long time, Ryou though never seemed to learn that simple lesson. He never hated the bullies who picked on him, and he never really hated me. Strange, isn't it? It would seem that he should hate them, and if not them he should have at least hated me. But he didn't. Though I soppose thats why he's my Hikari. I always see the worst while he only sees the good. I see the darkness, he sees the light. Ironic, isn't it?
The only thing I belive he ever showed any form of backbone about was Yuugi, Honda, Jou, and.....Anzu. He told me that he wouldn't allow me to hurt them. I hadn't belived him then, beliveing I'd already driven the boy back so far that he wouldn't -dare- try anything even if he disagreed.
I was wrong though.
As passive as my Hikari is, he's very protective of those who are is friends. Something I relized a little too late. But then, Ryou had never really kown Yuugi and his friends all that well. Sure they talked once in a while, but not really that often. I hadn't thought that he'd have such loyalty to them. Or maybe it was never loyalty, but a desire to protect others. Ra knows the boy'll protect everyone but himself. Even those who don't give a damn about him.
It was, and still is, so infurating. That he cares for everyone and forgives so easily. I....I drove my Hikari to sucide once, I've sent him to the hospital more then once in the past, and yet.....He forgave even me. Its mind blowing really, how easily he forgive something. So patient, so loveing.....and I never really saw it. Never saw much of a reason to look for it.
When I returned from the Shadow Realm not long after the Pharaoh had sealed me in it either, avoideing the Reaper of Cards was no easy feat -belive- me. My abiou had been terrorfied of my return, yes, but he was also somewhat......relived more or less I soppose. He was punished, a little severely maybe, for his defience dureing the Shadow Game.......but for some reason he was still happy more or less that I was back. He hadn't felt whole with me gone.
I soppose have a strong, extremly negative persone in his life had simply got to him. Or maybe the bond between a Yami and their Hikari runs deeper then one thinks. Its true that I hadn't felt compleatly right myself without Ryou near. We were one and couldn't be otherwise. Light to balance the dark, darkness to balance the light. They are one and the same, can never truely be apart. And when they are....chaos is really the reaction.
Darkness needs light to somewhat filter it from doing too much, a counienses of sort I soppose. Light needs darkness to keep it whole, to protect it more or less from other forces....Though I soppose I failed miserbly at that. I was never really much of a protecter or gaurdian for my chibi Hikari at all. I hurt him more then anyone....Though I never relized really how much I was hurting him...how much I was trampling over that pure soul......untill Yami Malik gave me a call saying he needed to have a little 'talk' with me, and for me to meet him at his house.
~I need your love
I need your love every minute
I need your love every day
I need your love every minute
Come back and stay~
~Well I know that I was lost
In the nightmare of my life
Following the flash of fantasy
In a feeling that exploded
I'd left reality behind~
~Addicted to the power of a dream
Without you life's like a road
That leads nowehere
Without you
The world don't feel the same~
When I got there he'd been sitting on the couch silently, his face locked in no expression. Wrongness seemed to fill the air as I walked in, makeing my every nerve scream for me to turn around and walk out. That the secoud I sat down and listened to what Yami Malik had to say my entire universe was going to be turned upsidedown and smashed into a thousand peices.
But I didn't run, I walked in and closed the door behind me. I sat down next to him and waited for him to begine. He'd called me, not the other way around. He'd asked me what I thought of my Hikari....I was stunned really. I didn't really understand the question. He'd gone on without waiting for answer, however, pulling up memories of my past that only he had ever really known about.
His sudden careing in my personal treatment of Ryou suprised me, after all, he'd never really been all that gentel with his own hikari. Though, apparently, things had changed on that end of things. Ironic. Hours pasted, though I didn't really notice. After a while I'd finaly left, my mind mess really. I'd never tell anyone -what- exactly Yami Malik had spoken to me about--somethings are simply not ment to be known you know. There are some secrets never ment to leave the shadows of darkness. Ever.
I'd wandered around for hours aimlessly through Domino, deep in thought. Somehow I found myself infront of my Abiou's home....our home I soppose really. I'd walked in to find him sitting on the couch. His eye was was swelling, his lip was busted as well--though he was more cleaned up then how I'd left him.
He'd looked up at me the secoud i'd entered. Those melted-chocolate orbs peirceing through me gently. Fear had flashed over his face, his body tensed and he quickly adverted his gaze from me. He was afraid of me obviousely, though and for the first time it hurt. Sure, I'd always felt somewhat guilty for harming him....but I had balanced it out thinking I was only prepareing him for what layed ahead. But when I looked at him, at his terrofied, rigid form.....I felt nothing but shame. Tears had builded in my eyes. The sensation was nearly foregin in itself. I had not cried since I was a child. And, counting the years in that blasted Ring, was a long time ago.
I'd walked forward, and kneeled down infront of him. Slowly raiseing my hand to his face, feeling my insides twist as he tensed at the touch...but didn't move away. I'd tilted his face so he was looking me in the eye. Those glories shining orbs had widened with suprise...most likely at the tears that were building in my eyes.
Unable to hold it back I'd thrown my arms around him and started to sob. Clutching him close as though he would disspear if I didn't. I'd chocked out an apology...hearing sharply over my own cries his forgiveness. That he forgived me for everything. The pain, the lonelyness, the possive controll i'd always held over him.....
It frightened me, but still I didn't allow my usale reaction to fear and confusion to take over....which was normaly haughty stubbern pride. We'd stayed like that for hours at least. Morning came and he convinced me to go see the Pharaoh and his Hikari...along with his friends. Said he wanted them all to accept me.
I'd agreed....mainly just to make him happy. To see him smile so brightly. So we went. They, of course, distrusted me on the spot. I do belive that Jounouchi Katsuya even tried to take a swing at me at first. Though Ryou and the Pharaoh's Abiou stopped that from happining. Weeks past and me and my Hikari became closer. It was nice really....I never realized just how wonderful Ryou was untill those few preciouse weeks.
Then all hell broke loose.....the end of our little pardasise begane to crumble when Mazaki Anzu asked me out on a date. I hadn't thought much of it at the time. And the only reason i'd really done it was to try and get to the Pharaoh's light a little. I mean, it was blantently obviouse that the Pharaoh was in love with his light....and that Yuugi had feelings for him as well....though he was hideing it well by useing Anzu as an excuse since he didn't think his dark would ever feel the same.
So I gave them a little nudge by going out with Anzu. I hadn't thought anything would come of it, boy was I wrong. Anzu was....so much like Ryou in many ways. She had the same qualitys in a since....though not the same purity that he held. That he would always have I soppose. The thing with her went on and one...she drug me out of the house more often....I often ended up staying at her places through the night and through most of the morning...I never really saw my Hikari that much anymore.
Closeing my eyes slightly I walked into Ryou's old bedroom. My bedroom now I soppose......though I was the only one who ever came into it anymore. I touched nothing, for everything was still as he left it. To move something....would only be announceing just how far he was from me....even when our souls were so very closely linked by the power of the Ring....
~I need your love
I need your love every minute
I need your love every day
I need your love every minute
Come back and stay~
Then came the day that changed everything....turned my world upsidedown...more so then when Yami Malik and I had our little 'talk'. My Abiou sealed himself into the Ring. Locked the door to his Soul Room so tight that I can't enter it even useing my superour mental powers. It'd almost be funny if it wasn't so damn irrtating and....sad really.
Anzu urged me to belive that he would come out when he was ready. That he simply needed to get away for a little while.....that he would come out when he felt like it. I didn't belive her really....though in my broken state (he had mostly cut off all telepathy contact) I wanted to clutch a tattered hope. And tha was what she brought.....sort of.
So I stayed with her. She moved into Ryou's house, though I locked the door to Ryou's room with sevral different locks to keep her out. Noone entered that room. Noone would enter it untill he was back. Each day was torture really. Despite the fact that the house was just as sparkly clean and homey as it had always been since Anzu toke care of all that.
But it was different really. Ryou wasn't there.....so it was more empty I soppose. I'm slipping away more and more each day really. I can't sleep at night, I can sometimes barely breath becouse my heart hurts so much. I miss him. I never loved Anzu, though I was pretty sure she'd fallen for me and I was more or less useing her as a semi-replacement for Ryou.......not fair perhapes but she never really seemed to care. As long as I was around, ate her food, smiled, laughed once in a while even and shared my bed with her I probably could have ran down the streets stark naked for all she cared.
Perhapes thats a little harsh of me to say. Though to tell the truth i'm not really thinking that highly of her at the momment. Nor am I of Yami Malik.
~Well I know that I was lost
In the nightmare of my life
Folliwng the flash of fantasy
In a feeling that exploded
I'd left reality behind~
~Addicted to the power of a dream
Without you life's like a road
That leads nowehere
Without you
The world don't feel the same~
I won't say that he and I hadn't shared lovers in the past, we were lovers in the past before even. But damnit, we were always straitforward about it instead of sneaking around behind eachothers backs! One night when I was feeling far more depressed about the distance between Ryou and I, I decied to head over to Yami Malik and see if he had come up with anything new to get Ryou out of the Ring or atleast to unlock his friggen Soul Room.
So far both he and the Pharaoh had tried and failed miserbly at it.....saying that Ryou had sealed himself to far in and that unless he had the will to get out--he might not ever really come out. Well, that is untill the Ring sucked most of his life-force out of him and forced him back out of the Ring becouse it couldn't hold a mortal soul forever.
So, I'd walked to Yami Malik's appartment. I didn't bother leaveing a message at Ryou's and my house for Anzu since she said she said she'd be working late and after work she was going to do some practiceing or her danceing lessons. Flimsy excuse I see now, though I hadn't really been paying much attention at the time so i'd bought it without question.
What I found when I walked through door was deffinetly not what I'd been expecting. Yami Malik and Anzu makeing passanite love on the kitchen table. The secoud they saw me, guilt had flashed over both their faces though i'd left before Either of them could say anything. In my anger I'd gone to her work place to find that she hadn't been working for nearly 2 weeks and that she had been fired for haveing sex in the broom closet with some boy with short brown hair and dark eyes and who ussualy wore a large light brown coat. Honda.
Now that royaly pissed me off more then anything. Okay, so she had sex with Malik. We'd shared lovers before and I didn't really have many feelings for her anyway. But damnit, she had slept with Ra-knows how many people while she was with ME. Now that, was just wrong damnit. Wrong wrong wrong.
Though I soppose i'm no saint in this delima either. I had been useing her as a simple subestitue for Ryou.....Ra, I miss him so much.
Silently I turned off the lights to his bedroom and shut the door. Walking back over to his bed I slowly layed down on it, inhaleing deep of the sweet scent that lingered their. Ryou's scent. Tears rolled down my cheeks.
I'd give anything to see him one more time.......anything.....I need him...I need to be with him. I need to see his smile...I need to hear his voice...I need to be able to touch him....I need to tell him the truth of my emotions.....tell him just how much he means to me....
~I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Every day I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Come back and stay~
~I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Every day I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Come back and stay~
A.n.-And we stop there. What didja all think? You all wanted a sequel, ya got it. Heh, probably not exactly what ya'all were hopein' for though was it? Hmm, well.....if you all REALLY want another chapter......i'll write one. Only if you ask though^_~Also.....for all you Anzu lovers.......I really really don't like her charecter all that much...and I'm sorry if you all thought maybe I was bashing her or something. *shruggs*sorry.....flame me about if ya wanna, I don't care.
Dissclaimer-I do not own Yugioh or this song "Every Minute Of Every Day" By Scorpions.
Dedication-MajorKami, Dark Magician, Tiamet, Vampire Huntress D, Lita, Blue Diamond, and Fan90. Arigatou Minna!^_^
~Well it seems that I was lost
In Intoxicated nights
Following the trace of ecastasy
With no future, and no past
Just the present was alive
Like a presoner chained on a dream~
My Abiou's silence cut through my like a knife causeing tears to form. I missed his constant smile, that innocence that only he and the Pharaoh's Hikari could ever pull off. I missed the way he was always there waiting for me, a willing ear for any problems I had. He was truely a gift from the Ra....and what had I done with such a gift?
I had tried to destroy it, breaking it into a thousand shards at every chance I was presented. I had made a vow though, after my last 'owner' had died. That I would be in controll. That I wouldn't allow another to force me into the sick slavish submission I'd been thrust into through out my long life. Life? Funny....I don't think you can call being locked into a magical Ring and waiting through countless centries of darkness untill someone found you to release you. And even when they did.....Oh Ra...the very memorys of my past owners is enough to make my skin crawl.
But still....I can still rember the first time I'd seen my Abiou. He'd been around eleven I belive. Tall for his age with snow white skin and long silver hair that tended to follow its own whims. Large brown eyes of incredible innocent intensity had stared up at me with curiousety. He'd greated me warmly before asking who I was; how i'd appeared from the Ring.
It turns my stomake even now to rember how i'd struck him hard enough that he fell to the floor. The memory of how his deep brown eyes had filled instently with tears as he held his cheek with utter shock still makes shame fill me. Back then I hadn't cared though. I'd simply glared down at him, dareing him to challange me. I would be ready this time, I thought. I wouldn't allow myself to be controlled by a mere mortal agine.
Threats after that had made him keep his silence, he feared me compleatly. When he got out of line I gave him a reminder of just who was in charge. I knew even then what he was, my Hikari. My lighter half reincarnated. Ironic that the other half of my soul would carry me on a string though.
No matter how hard I pushed him though, he never once fought back. Never. Not even the smallest form of defience had ever filled him back then. Nothing. I think thats what made me so angry. That he simply stood there and toke it. Sure, it made useing him to get the other Sennen Items a lot easier....but Ra, the boy didn't even stand up to me. He was a weakling....and I've always despised the weak. Still....he's *my* weakling.
Something I proved many a time. Before I came along he was the natrul target for any bullys at his school. Shifting through his memorys (I only -skimed- through them though) I saw that he hadn't ever even told anyone about them either. Just stood there, let them take his money and use him as a damn punching bag.
Sure, I won't deni that I had slapped him around a few times by that time..and a little while afterward. But Ryou was *my* Hikari. Mine. And noone trys to touch what is mine. Ever. And when they do....well they never really live to repeat the mistake thats for certine.
~I was drowing in a feeling
That obsession rules till morning
Kills the creature sof the night
And I read your lipstick message
On The mirror of the truth~
~Now that your gone I relize
Without you Lifes a song without music
Without you this world
Won't be the same~
Ryou reminded me too much of how I once was back...back before I was sealed in the Ring. Back when I was so naive...and I had payed many a price for haveing such a weakness. Maybe thats why I'd been so harsh to Ryou. Thinking maybe I could try and stengthin him for the harsh world that awaited for him.
His Soul Room was constently littered with some toys and a white flowing...innocence really that nothing I did ever tainted. Oh, sure he was frightened of me, of what I could have done to him if I choose. His mind was ussualy a scattered mess whever I toke the time to speak to him, and whenever I appeared infront of him he trembled and flinched at my every move.
He never defended himself whenever I called him weak, pathatic, or anything such as that. Though it was really me who was the weak one. I was afraid of Ryou, though I soppose thats really just excuse. He frightned me really, he saw the world with such purity. Saw only the goodness in others untill they proved him wrong, and even then he still belived that their was a shred of kindess lurking in them somewhere.
The world is harsh, the world is cruel. Its a place where the weak wither and die and the strong take their places. I've known that for a long time, Ryou though never seemed to learn that simple lesson. He never hated the bullies who picked on him, and he never really hated me. Strange, isn't it? It would seem that he should hate them, and if not them he should have at least hated me. But he didn't. Though I soppose thats why he's my Hikari. I always see the worst while he only sees the good. I see the darkness, he sees the light. Ironic, isn't it?
The only thing I belive he ever showed any form of backbone about was Yuugi, Honda, Jou, and.....Anzu. He told me that he wouldn't allow me to hurt them. I hadn't belived him then, beliveing I'd already driven the boy back so far that he wouldn't -dare- try anything even if he disagreed.
I was wrong though.
As passive as my Hikari is, he's very protective of those who are is friends. Something I relized a little too late. But then, Ryou had never really kown Yuugi and his friends all that well. Sure they talked once in a while, but not really that often. I hadn't thought that he'd have such loyalty to them. Or maybe it was never loyalty, but a desire to protect others. Ra knows the boy'll protect everyone but himself. Even those who don't give a damn about him.
It was, and still is, so infurating. That he cares for everyone and forgives so easily. I....I drove my Hikari to sucide once, I've sent him to the hospital more then once in the past, and yet.....He forgave even me. Its mind blowing really, how easily he forgive something. So patient, so loveing.....and I never really saw it. Never saw much of a reason to look for it.
When I returned from the Shadow Realm not long after the Pharaoh had sealed me in it either, avoideing the Reaper of Cards was no easy feat -belive- me. My abiou had been terrorfied of my return, yes, but he was also somewhat......relived more or less I soppose. He was punished, a little severely maybe, for his defience dureing the Shadow Game.......but for some reason he was still happy more or less that I was back. He hadn't felt whole with me gone.
I soppose have a strong, extremly negative persone in his life had simply got to him. Or maybe the bond between a Yami and their Hikari runs deeper then one thinks. Its true that I hadn't felt compleatly right myself without Ryou near. We were one and couldn't be otherwise. Light to balance the dark, darkness to balance the light. They are one and the same, can never truely be apart. And when they are....chaos is really the reaction.
Darkness needs light to somewhat filter it from doing too much, a counienses of sort I soppose. Light needs darkness to keep it whole, to protect it more or less from other forces....Though I soppose I failed miserbly at that. I was never really much of a protecter or gaurdian for my chibi Hikari at all. I hurt him more then anyone....Though I never relized really how much I was hurting him...how much I was trampling over that pure soul......untill Yami Malik gave me a call saying he needed to have a little 'talk' with me, and for me to meet him at his house.
~I need your love
I need your love every minute
I need your love every day
I need your love every minute
Come back and stay~
~Well I know that I was lost
In the nightmare of my life
Following the flash of fantasy
In a feeling that exploded
I'd left reality behind~
~Addicted to the power of a dream
Without you life's like a road
That leads nowehere
Without you
The world don't feel the same~
When I got there he'd been sitting on the couch silently, his face locked in no expression. Wrongness seemed to fill the air as I walked in, makeing my every nerve scream for me to turn around and walk out. That the secoud I sat down and listened to what Yami Malik had to say my entire universe was going to be turned upsidedown and smashed into a thousand peices.
But I didn't run, I walked in and closed the door behind me. I sat down next to him and waited for him to begine. He'd called me, not the other way around. He'd asked me what I thought of my Hikari....I was stunned really. I didn't really understand the question. He'd gone on without waiting for answer, however, pulling up memories of my past that only he had ever really known about.
His sudden careing in my personal treatment of Ryou suprised me, after all, he'd never really been all that gentel with his own hikari. Though, apparently, things had changed on that end of things. Ironic. Hours pasted, though I didn't really notice. After a while I'd finaly left, my mind mess really. I'd never tell anyone -what- exactly Yami Malik had spoken to me about--somethings are simply not ment to be known you know. There are some secrets never ment to leave the shadows of darkness. Ever.
I'd wandered around for hours aimlessly through Domino, deep in thought. Somehow I found myself infront of my Abiou's home....our home I soppose really. I'd walked in to find him sitting on the couch. His eye was was swelling, his lip was busted as well--though he was more cleaned up then how I'd left him.
He'd looked up at me the secoud i'd entered. Those melted-chocolate orbs peirceing through me gently. Fear had flashed over his face, his body tensed and he quickly adverted his gaze from me. He was afraid of me obviousely, though and for the first time it hurt. Sure, I'd always felt somewhat guilty for harming him....but I had balanced it out thinking I was only prepareing him for what layed ahead. But when I looked at him, at his terrofied, rigid form.....I felt nothing but shame. Tears had builded in my eyes. The sensation was nearly foregin in itself. I had not cried since I was a child. And, counting the years in that blasted Ring, was a long time ago.
I'd walked forward, and kneeled down infront of him. Slowly raiseing my hand to his face, feeling my insides twist as he tensed at the touch...but didn't move away. I'd tilted his face so he was looking me in the eye. Those glories shining orbs had widened with suprise...most likely at the tears that were building in my eyes.
Unable to hold it back I'd thrown my arms around him and started to sob. Clutching him close as though he would disspear if I didn't. I'd chocked out an apology...hearing sharply over my own cries his forgiveness. That he forgived me for everything. The pain, the lonelyness, the possive controll i'd always held over him.....
It frightened me, but still I didn't allow my usale reaction to fear and confusion to take over....which was normaly haughty stubbern pride. We'd stayed like that for hours at least. Morning came and he convinced me to go see the Pharaoh and his Hikari...along with his friends. Said he wanted them all to accept me.
I'd agreed....mainly just to make him happy. To see him smile so brightly. So we went. They, of course, distrusted me on the spot. I do belive that Jounouchi Katsuya even tried to take a swing at me at first. Though Ryou and the Pharaoh's Abiou stopped that from happining. Weeks past and me and my Hikari became closer. It was nice really....I never realized just how wonderful Ryou was untill those few preciouse weeks.
Then all hell broke loose.....the end of our little pardasise begane to crumble when Mazaki Anzu asked me out on a date. I hadn't thought much of it at the time. And the only reason i'd really done it was to try and get to the Pharaoh's light a little. I mean, it was blantently obviouse that the Pharaoh was in love with his light....and that Yuugi had feelings for him as well....though he was hideing it well by useing Anzu as an excuse since he didn't think his dark would ever feel the same.
So I gave them a little nudge by going out with Anzu. I hadn't thought anything would come of it, boy was I wrong. Anzu was....so much like Ryou in many ways. She had the same qualitys in a since....though not the same purity that he held. That he would always have I soppose. The thing with her went on and one...she drug me out of the house more often....I often ended up staying at her places through the night and through most of the morning...I never really saw my Hikari that much anymore.
Closeing my eyes slightly I walked into Ryou's old bedroom. My bedroom now I soppose......though I was the only one who ever came into it anymore. I touched nothing, for everything was still as he left it. To move something....would only be announceing just how far he was from me....even when our souls were so very closely linked by the power of the Ring....
~I need your love
I need your love every minute
I need your love every day
I need your love every minute
Come back and stay~
Then came the day that changed everything....turned my world upsidedown...more so then when Yami Malik and I had our little 'talk'. My Abiou sealed himself into the Ring. Locked the door to his Soul Room so tight that I can't enter it even useing my superour mental powers. It'd almost be funny if it wasn't so damn irrtating and....sad really.
Anzu urged me to belive that he would come out when he was ready. That he simply needed to get away for a little while.....that he would come out when he felt like it. I didn't belive her really....though in my broken state (he had mostly cut off all telepathy contact) I wanted to clutch a tattered hope. And tha was what she brought.....sort of.
So I stayed with her. She moved into Ryou's house, though I locked the door to Ryou's room with sevral different locks to keep her out. Noone entered that room. Noone would enter it untill he was back. Each day was torture really. Despite the fact that the house was just as sparkly clean and homey as it had always been since Anzu toke care of all that.
But it was different really. Ryou wasn't there.....so it was more empty I soppose. I'm slipping away more and more each day really. I can't sleep at night, I can sometimes barely breath becouse my heart hurts so much. I miss him. I never loved Anzu, though I was pretty sure she'd fallen for me and I was more or less useing her as a semi-replacement for Ryou.......not fair perhapes but she never really seemed to care. As long as I was around, ate her food, smiled, laughed once in a while even and shared my bed with her I probably could have ran down the streets stark naked for all she cared.
Perhapes thats a little harsh of me to say. Though to tell the truth i'm not really thinking that highly of her at the momment. Nor am I of Yami Malik.
~Well I know that I was lost
In the nightmare of my life
Folliwng the flash of fantasy
In a feeling that exploded
I'd left reality behind~
~Addicted to the power of a dream
Without you life's like a road
That leads nowehere
Without you
The world don't feel the same~
I won't say that he and I hadn't shared lovers in the past, we were lovers in the past before even. But damnit, we were always straitforward about it instead of sneaking around behind eachothers backs! One night when I was feeling far more depressed about the distance between Ryou and I, I decied to head over to Yami Malik and see if he had come up with anything new to get Ryou out of the Ring or atleast to unlock his friggen Soul Room.
So far both he and the Pharaoh had tried and failed miserbly at it.....saying that Ryou had sealed himself to far in and that unless he had the will to get out--he might not ever really come out. Well, that is untill the Ring sucked most of his life-force out of him and forced him back out of the Ring becouse it couldn't hold a mortal soul forever.
So, I'd walked to Yami Malik's appartment. I didn't bother leaveing a message at Ryou's and my house for Anzu since she said she said she'd be working late and after work she was going to do some practiceing or her danceing lessons. Flimsy excuse I see now, though I hadn't really been paying much attention at the time so i'd bought it without question.
What I found when I walked through door was deffinetly not what I'd been expecting. Yami Malik and Anzu makeing passanite love on the kitchen table. The secoud they saw me, guilt had flashed over both their faces though i'd left before Either of them could say anything. In my anger I'd gone to her work place to find that she hadn't been working for nearly 2 weeks and that she had been fired for haveing sex in the broom closet with some boy with short brown hair and dark eyes and who ussualy wore a large light brown coat. Honda.
Now that royaly pissed me off more then anything. Okay, so she had sex with Malik. We'd shared lovers before and I didn't really have many feelings for her anyway. But damnit, she had slept with Ra-knows how many people while she was with ME. Now that, was just wrong damnit. Wrong wrong wrong.
Though I soppose i'm no saint in this delima either. I had been useing her as a simple subestitue for Ryou.....Ra, I miss him so much.
Silently I turned off the lights to his bedroom and shut the door. Walking back over to his bed I slowly layed down on it, inhaleing deep of the sweet scent that lingered their. Ryou's scent. Tears rolled down my cheeks.
I'd give anything to see him one more time.......anything.....I need him...I need to be with him. I need to see his smile...I need to hear his voice...I need to be able to touch him....I need to tell him the truth of my emotions.....tell him just how much he means to me....
~I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Every day I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Come back and stay~
~I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Every day I need your love
Every minute I need your love
Come back and stay~
A.n.-And we stop there. What didja all think? You all wanted a sequel, ya got it. Heh, probably not exactly what ya'all were hopein' for though was it? Hmm, well.....if you all REALLY want another chapter......i'll write one. Only if you ask though^_~Also.....for all you Anzu lovers.......I really really don't like her charecter all that much...and I'm sorry if you all thought maybe I was bashing her or something. *shruggs*sorry.....flame me about if ya wanna, I don't care.