A.n.-Well, here it is. The next chapter jus' as ya'all asked^_^heh, I hope ya'all like it. Also, sorry its so short....I didn't mean for it to be it just kinda turned out that way...if I write another chapter, depending on your reviews, it'll be long like the other two.....promise^_~
Dissclaimer-I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh nor do I own this song: "Forgive" by Rebecca Lynn Howard.
Dedication-Lita, Fyredra, Dark Magician, Meredith T. Tasaki, Lunatic Lisa, Vampire Huntress D, Fan90, Ashley, --NC-- of the Unholy Quintet, Kako, Ruby, Tenshi-Dragon. Domo Arigatou minna!^_~
~I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around
If it ever came to this
Yet here I am so confused
How am I suppose to leave
When I can't even move?~
I stared at the darkened walls of my Soul Room for I didn't know how long. My heart and soul ached vibrantly though I couldn't bring myself to speak again with my Yami. To once again hear his voice through my mind.....its torture. Sweet, cold torment. A personal hell that I've brought myself to. Though maybe I deserve it for burdening every one with my memory for so long.
My Yami had said that Yami Yuugi and Yuugi were working hard on finding a way to force me from the Ring...How selfish of me to drag them away from each other and their lives...Can't they see the reason why I'm doing this? Can't they see that I am doing this for my Yami? So he can truly be happy...as long as he's happy then I will survive.
No matter what happens I can live with it. I can never truly leave him, even if I desired to. He is my dark, the missing piece of my soul...without him I am nothing. I used to tell myself that as soon as my Yami was happy then.....then I'd lock myself even farther into the Ring so he hopefully would no longer feel me....but maybe i'd still be able to sense him....
That the instant he found love beyond bounds then I'd leave at least a little farther into the Ring, because then my role would be complete. I told myself all I was doing was watching over him....Making certain he was okay without me. Of course, he doesn't really need me. He never did aside from having a body to use once in a while...but I needed him then, and I do now. I love him. I always will. And in the end, its as simple as that.
Slowly I stood up, falling to my knees to the white carpet of my soul room as a wave of energy shot through me painfully. I struggled to breath, feeling beads of sweat make their way down my face as I did so. The Ring was finally doing exactly what my Yami had warned: It was rejecting my presence within it.
I held no Shadow Powers, and that was what the Ring was. An Item that feed off and used the powers of the Shadow Realm. Yami was the only one of us with such a connection, his power could sustain it while I was within it for a little while; but not eternally I suppose. No matter how much I desired to remain within the Ring safe from all harm and out of the way of Yami; I can't.
The realization of this struck me like thunder. I'd never really given it much thought before. Preferring to shove it far from my thoughts, unwilling to dwell on the moment when I'd be forced to leave the sanctuary I'd built around myself....
But now, my silent world i'd built was falling away and I have to face the music.....apparently......as they say.....no sanctuary is forever....
~In the time in which it toke to say
"Honey I'm home how was your day?"
You dropped a bomb right where we live
And just expect me to forgive~
Spots of light danced before my eyes as I struggled fruitlessly against the power of the Ring. A foolish endeavor perhaps, my mental powers and such mayhapes have improved during my time locked away, but they are nothing truly compared to theSennen Ring's will. It had been tolerant of my presence for long enough perhaps, and now it was making me leave.
I scrambled against the force, feeling tears fall down my cheeks. I'm not ready, I'm simply not ready to face him. What will I say? What can I say? Its been so long....so very long....what if he's angry that I'm back? What if everyone's angry that I've returned? They all most have been better off without me anyway....
I felt hard, unyielding wood beneath my hands and two gasps steal the air. My eyes snapped open, a rush of tears falling. I stood up slowly, realizing abruptly that I was in my old room......nothing had been moved, not a single object disturbed by the passage of time. I turned around slowly, what I saw making my voice catch in my throat, my eyes widen with anguish beyond anything imaginable; betrayle cutting deeper then any blade tore through me without a second thought.
Laying entwined in my sheets were two figures. One unmistakably female, the other one I knew by soul and heart. One I loved without limitations. My world shattered beneath me, though I'd thought I'd come to terms with the fact that my Yami was with another....seeing it.......hurt....
"Hikari!"he breathed, those same dark orbs I remembered so very well traced over me.
I backed away slightly, feeling tears fall over my cheeks as the woman I recognized as Anzu slithered an arm over his chest, using his back to hide her nudeness as she stared up at me with shock and anger.
Obviously she'd never thought i'd come back--but then neither had I....
~Well, that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
Its too soon for me to say, forgive~
He started to stand up, only to be pulled back by Anzu who looked at him with an expression I couldn't quite make out through my tear-fuzzed vision.
"Hikari...."His voice....how can he call me that now? After he's done....-that- with her?"I'm...sorry...I didn't...I didn't think you'd really be back so soon....please...just...wait...I've so many....so many things to tell you!"
Tell me? Tell me what? That he and Anzu had gotten back together despite all the odds? That he was sleeping with her again and my mere presence was but another burden. Pain, pain, pain tore through me heart.....battering the shattered remains that still resided. How? How could this have happened? Why? Why does God hate me so? Hate me to force me out of sanctuary to see this?
To see him laying sated in the bed after being -with ANZU-! I choked on a scream of pain that rose in me and ran out of the room, vaugly hearing my Yami's yelled apology after me. That it was all just a misunderstanding, and for me to come back.
How can I? My heart bleed for me to stop and listen to him, that as long as he's happy I should be happy. But......the pain......the anger at seeing them together...the envy...those emotions by far outweigh that of my blistered heart. Heart? What heart can I have now? For surely now its gone....vanquished in his hands for an eternity. Shattered it far beyond recognition...
~I should ask, but I won't
Was it love or just her touch
'Cause I don't think I want to know~
~So get you some things
And get out
Don't call me for a day or two
So I can sort this out~
I ran out of my house, feeling a hollow ache fill me as I rushed through the darkened streets of Domino with no true destination. What was left for me now? How could he be back with her? Did he love her? Or did he simply desire her? NO!......I can't.....I don't want to know....I can't....take this....it hurts....so much...
I love him....yet I suppose he loves her......what is left in this world for me then? If he loves her......then nothing in this world is left for me. I can hear footsteps following me now....quickly I sped up my pace, nearly tripping over my own feet as I went. Sobs wracked my body as I ran.....maybe if I ran far enough then maybe the pain would go away....maybe this blinding hole in my soul will vanish...
~Well you might has ripped the life
Right out of me here tonight
Through the fallen tears you said
"Can you ever just forgive?~
Abruptly I felt someone tackle me from behind. I looked up to see a blinding mane of long silver hair a few shades darker then my own, cruel brown eyes that always held malice at first glance stared down at me. A dove soft hand ran down my face, tears splashed onto me; mixing with my own.
"....I'm so sorry, Hikari.....I didn't mean.....I don't....forgive me please....."he stumbled over his words, unable to get them strait.
Forgive? I'd give him anything, the stars if he asked and all he wants is my forgiveness? That was all? Why were we doing this anyway? I love him....I'd give him whatever he wants....he should know that.
"B-bakura......did.....you get him"A breathy voice asks.
I stiffened instantly. Images of them laying in bed together, her arms laying so possessively over him flash through my mind causing tears of the deepest pain to form.
No pain devised by man or god could have reached this depth.....I felt like a broken toy long since cast aside and only just realizing it. I felt like such a fool for not realizing he loved her and she him sooner......
~Well, that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even known now
Who I am
Its too soon for me to say, forgive~
~You know what they say
Forgive and forget
Relive and regret~
I wanted to die just then, life held nothing but a blank emptiness that consumed me so completely. Solid ground I thought I stood upon had proved to be nothing more then a mere illusion. I stared up at him with betrayle, my eyes shifting to Anzu with a hate to deep it burned my very soul.
With a strength gifted only though adrenaline I'd shoved my darker half off me and taken off once more through the darkened streets of Domino. I had nothing left anymore, no reason to live. To die is bliss, so that's what I shall do. Maybe I'll throw myself off the Domino bridge. End my lousy existence once and for all.
I felt someone grab my arm from behind, I jerked and struggled angrily. How dare they try to rob me from completing the only thing that will end my pain. End my sorry life is what I desire.
I saw a flash of louse blonde hair and lavender eyes that flashed at me. Malik. Tears rushed through my eyes as I felt a foreign feeling enter my mind and a command for me to sleep riveted through me. He was using the power of the Sennen Rod on me, I realized distantly.
Still, against is superior powers of the Shadow Realm and mental powers, I had no real choice but to comply. I felt my world slowly begin fade away as I slouched against the strong figure that held me so close. I heard a pitiful whimper of sadness and fear escape my lips as two arms embraced me strongly.
As conscious thought began to leave me I heard my Yami's heart-felt cry asking for forgiveness rivet through my memories.
I can't though....it hurts.....hurts too much.....I need time perhaps....maybe in the future...maybe...but right now...its too soon....The pain is too fresh....the image of them together still to permanent in my mind....
A comforting nothingness engulfed as I embraced the crowning oblivion joyously.
~Forgive
Well, that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know
Who I am~
~Ooh, its too soon for me to say
Forgive~
A.n.-Ack, did that suck as much as I think it did? I've re-written this chapter several times...and this was the best out of the others...though each time I read over it, it seems kinda choppy, y'know? Mm, was it really bad? If it really sucked I'll take it down and try to re-write it I guess......
Mm, other then that what did you think of the plot turn? Should I leave it there or what? ^_^Please review^_~
Ja ne
Dissclaimer-I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh nor do I own this song: "Forgive" by Rebecca Lynn Howard.
Dedication-Lita, Fyredra, Dark Magician, Meredith T. Tasaki, Lunatic Lisa, Vampire Huntress D, Fan90, Ashley, --NC-- of the Unholy Quintet, Kako, Ruby, Tenshi-Dragon. Domo Arigatou minna!^_~
~I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around
If it ever came to this
Yet here I am so confused
How am I suppose to leave
When I can't even move?~
I stared at the darkened walls of my Soul Room for I didn't know how long. My heart and soul ached vibrantly though I couldn't bring myself to speak again with my Yami. To once again hear his voice through my mind.....its torture. Sweet, cold torment. A personal hell that I've brought myself to. Though maybe I deserve it for burdening every one with my memory for so long.
My Yami had said that Yami Yuugi and Yuugi were working hard on finding a way to force me from the Ring...How selfish of me to drag them away from each other and their lives...Can't they see the reason why I'm doing this? Can't they see that I am doing this for my Yami? So he can truly be happy...as long as he's happy then I will survive.
No matter what happens I can live with it. I can never truly leave him, even if I desired to. He is my dark, the missing piece of my soul...without him I am nothing. I used to tell myself that as soon as my Yami was happy then.....then I'd lock myself even farther into the Ring so he hopefully would no longer feel me....but maybe i'd still be able to sense him....
That the instant he found love beyond bounds then I'd leave at least a little farther into the Ring, because then my role would be complete. I told myself all I was doing was watching over him....Making certain he was okay without me. Of course, he doesn't really need me. He never did aside from having a body to use once in a while...but I needed him then, and I do now. I love him. I always will. And in the end, its as simple as that.
Slowly I stood up, falling to my knees to the white carpet of my soul room as a wave of energy shot through me painfully. I struggled to breath, feeling beads of sweat make their way down my face as I did so. The Ring was finally doing exactly what my Yami had warned: It was rejecting my presence within it.
I held no Shadow Powers, and that was what the Ring was. An Item that feed off and used the powers of the Shadow Realm. Yami was the only one of us with such a connection, his power could sustain it while I was within it for a little while; but not eternally I suppose. No matter how much I desired to remain within the Ring safe from all harm and out of the way of Yami; I can't.
The realization of this struck me like thunder. I'd never really given it much thought before. Preferring to shove it far from my thoughts, unwilling to dwell on the moment when I'd be forced to leave the sanctuary I'd built around myself....
But now, my silent world i'd built was falling away and I have to face the music.....apparently......as they say.....no sanctuary is forever....
~In the time in which it toke to say
"Honey I'm home how was your day?"
You dropped a bomb right where we live
And just expect me to forgive~
Spots of light danced before my eyes as I struggled fruitlessly against the power of the Ring. A foolish endeavor perhaps, my mental powers and such mayhapes have improved during my time locked away, but they are nothing truly compared to theSennen Ring's will. It had been tolerant of my presence for long enough perhaps, and now it was making me leave.
I scrambled against the force, feeling tears fall down my cheeks. I'm not ready, I'm simply not ready to face him. What will I say? What can I say? Its been so long....so very long....what if he's angry that I'm back? What if everyone's angry that I've returned? They all most have been better off without me anyway....
I felt hard, unyielding wood beneath my hands and two gasps steal the air. My eyes snapped open, a rush of tears falling. I stood up slowly, realizing abruptly that I was in my old room......nothing had been moved, not a single object disturbed by the passage of time. I turned around slowly, what I saw making my voice catch in my throat, my eyes widen with anguish beyond anything imaginable; betrayle cutting deeper then any blade tore through me without a second thought.
Laying entwined in my sheets were two figures. One unmistakably female, the other one I knew by soul and heart. One I loved without limitations. My world shattered beneath me, though I'd thought I'd come to terms with the fact that my Yami was with another....seeing it.......hurt....
"Hikari!"he breathed, those same dark orbs I remembered so very well traced over me.
I backed away slightly, feeling tears fall over my cheeks as the woman I recognized as Anzu slithered an arm over his chest, using his back to hide her nudeness as she stared up at me with shock and anger.
Obviously she'd never thought i'd come back--but then neither had I....
~Well, that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
Its too soon for me to say, forgive~
He started to stand up, only to be pulled back by Anzu who looked at him with an expression I couldn't quite make out through my tear-fuzzed vision.
"Hikari...."His voice....how can he call me that now? After he's done....-that- with her?"I'm...sorry...I didn't...I didn't think you'd really be back so soon....please...just...wait...I've so many....so many things to tell you!"
Tell me? Tell me what? That he and Anzu had gotten back together despite all the odds? That he was sleeping with her again and my mere presence was but another burden. Pain, pain, pain tore through me heart.....battering the shattered remains that still resided. How? How could this have happened? Why? Why does God hate me so? Hate me to force me out of sanctuary to see this?
To see him laying sated in the bed after being -with ANZU-! I choked on a scream of pain that rose in me and ran out of the room, vaugly hearing my Yami's yelled apology after me. That it was all just a misunderstanding, and for me to come back.
How can I? My heart bleed for me to stop and listen to him, that as long as he's happy I should be happy. But......the pain......the anger at seeing them together...the envy...those emotions by far outweigh that of my blistered heart. Heart? What heart can I have now? For surely now its gone....vanquished in his hands for an eternity. Shattered it far beyond recognition...
~I should ask, but I won't
Was it love or just her touch
'Cause I don't think I want to know~
~So get you some things
And get out
Don't call me for a day or two
So I can sort this out~
I ran out of my house, feeling a hollow ache fill me as I rushed through the darkened streets of Domino with no true destination. What was left for me now? How could he be back with her? Did he love her? Or did he simply desire her? NO!......I can't.....I don't want to know....I can't....take this....it hurts....so much...
I love him....yet I suppose he loves her......what is left in this world for me then? If he loves her......then nothing in this world is left for me. I can hear footsteps following me now....quickly I sped up my pace, nearly tripping over my own feet as I went. Sobs wracked my body as I ran.....maybe if I ran far enough then maybe the pain would go away....maybe this blinding hole in my soul will vanish...
~Well you might has ripped the life
Right out of me here tonight
Through the fallen tears you said
"Can you ever just forgive?~
Abruptly I felt someone tackle me from behind. I looked up to see a blinding mane of long silver hair a few shades darker then my own, cruel brown eyes that always held malice at first glance stared down at me. A dove soft hand ran down my face, tears splashed onto me; mixing with my own.
"....I'm so sorry, Hikari.....I didn't mean.....I don't....forgive me please....."he stumbled over his words, unable to get them strait.
Forgive? I'd give him anything, the stars if he asked and all he wants is my forgiveness? That was all? Why were we doing this anyway? I love him....I'd give him whatever he wants....he should know that.
"B-bakura......did.....you get him"A breathy voice asks.
I stiffened instantly. Images of them laying in bed together, her arms laying so possessively over him flash through my mind causing tears of the deepest pain to form.
No pain devised by man or god could have reached this depth.....I felt like a broken toy long since cast aside and only just realizing it. I felt like such a fool for not realizing he loved her and she him sooner......
~Well, that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even known now
Who I am
Its too soon for me to say, forgive~
~You know what they say
Forgive and forget
Relive and regret~
I wanted to die just then, life held nothing but a blank emptiness that consumed me so completely. Solid ground I thought I stood upon had proved to be nothing more then a mere illusion. I stared up at him with betrayle, my eyes shifting to Anzu with a hate to deep it burned my very soul.
With a strength gifted only though adrenaline I'd shoved my darker half off me and taken off once more through the darkened streets of Domino. I had nothing left anymore, no reason to live. To die is bliss, so that's what I shall do. Maybe I'll throw myself off the Domino bridge. End my lousy existence once and for all.
I felt someone grab my arm from behind, I jerked and struggled angrily. How dare they try to rob me from completing the only thing that will end my pain. End my sorry life is what I desire.
I saw a flash of louse blonde hair and lavender eyes that flashed at me. Malik. Tears rushed through my eyes as I felt a foreign feeling enter my mind and a command for me to sleep riveted through me. He was using the power of the Sennen Rod on me, I realized distantly.
Still, against is superior powers of the Shadow Realm and mental powers, I had no real choice but to comply. I felt my world slowly begin fade away as I slouched against the strong figure that held me so close. I heard a pitiful whimper of sadness and fear escape my lips as two arms embraced me strongly.
As conscious thought began to leave me I heard my Yami's heart-felt cry asking for forgiveness rivet through my memories.
I can't though....it hurts.....hurts too much.....I need time perhaps....maybe in the future...maybe...but right now...its too soon....The pain is too fresh....the image of them together still to permanent in my mind....
A comforting nothingness engulfed as I embraced the crowning oblivion joyously.
~Forgive
Well, that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know
Who I am~
~Ooh, its too soon for me to say
Forgive~
A.n.-Ack, did that suck as much as I think it did? I've re-written this chapter several times...and this was the best out of the others...though each time I read over it, it seems kinda choppy, y'know? Mm, was it really bad? If it really sucked I'll take it down and try to re-write it I guess......
Mm, other then that what did you think of the plot turn? Should I leave it there or what? ^_^Please review^_~
Ja ne