Chapter 10
The next morning when I woke up I didn't know where I was! I sat bolt upright, panicking & a pain ripped through my head! I frantically looked around the room for something familliar, anything....but I had no idea where I was or who's bed I was sleeping in! I threw the covers back, swung my legs over the side of the bed & took a deep breath as a wave of nausea washed over me. My head was spinning, I was aching all over & I felt like I was burning up inside! It was a strange feeling like I wasn't really awake after all & this was some weird dream I was having!
"Hello?" Someone knocked on the door. "Are you awake?"
"Who's that?!"
"It's me....Matt!" What the fuck is going on here? I thought to myself & rubbed my aching head! "Can I come in?"
"Erm yeah sure!"
Matt came in carrying two cups of coffee, he handed one to me & sat beside me on the bed. I put mine on the bedside table as the smell of it was churning my stomach!
"Are we at your house?" I said clutching the sheet over my half naked body.
Matt laughed. "No we're at Steve's....don't you remember?!" I shook my head & the pain was almost unbearable, I winced. "You don't look so good!"
"I'm gonna spew where's the bathroom?!?"
Matt stood up, "Out the door to the right!"
I tried to stand but my legs gave way, I'd never felt so bad in my life! I sat back down on the bed with a thump! "SHIT!" I clutched at my head.
"Come on, let me help you!" Matt said looking very worried! He pulled me up and then tied the sheet around me, brushing the hair out of my face. He put his arm around my waist & almost carried me to the bathroom where I kneeled on the floor & proceeded to tip my guts into the toilet! Matt knelt down beside me & rubbed my back, he held my hair out of my face & I got an uneasy feeling of deja vu, only it was dark & cold....and I got the feeling it hadn't been Matt!
"You look like death! he said as he helped me back to the bedroom, "Are all your hangovers this bad?"
"I don't think it's a hangover! I've never felt this bad before, I think maybe I caught a virus or something! I'm burning up!"
"Ok we'll get you home & call a doctor, I'll let you get dressed!" he went for the door.
"Matt...I feel.....can you help me to get dressed please?! I can't stand up! I feel like I'm gonna pass out or something!"
"Sure!" He smiled warmly & gathered my clothes up that were strewn all over the floor. I felt weird, as if I was floating! He helped me to get my mud caked clothes on & I felt so ill I didn't care how naked he saw me!
"Christ what did I do last night?" I said as I looked at the horrible reflection of myself in the mirror.
"Don't you remember falling in the puddle?!" he laughed.
I thought for a while & then I forced a smile. "I kinda remember you trying to rub my face in it!" I laughed & then stopped when I looked into his eyes. I had a flash back but it was vague......I think we'd kissed, but I wasn't sure & felt suddenly embarrassed! Matt must've sensed this as he touched my cheek lightly & smiled. I looked away quickly!
"Did we....did you & me.....well I can't remember but did we..."
He smiled and shook his head. "Nothing happened!" He brushed some hair from my face, "Well thanks to Steve & my baby bro!!"
"Jeff?!"
"I only have one brother!"
"Jeff...is here?!"
"He was but he left for Seattle early this morning! Why?"
=flashback= a leaf in my hand! Why did I have a leaf in my hand?!
"Oh erm...no reason! I just didn't remember him being there last...."
=flashback=dark, me & Jeff in the dark, me on top of Jeff in the dark! Holy shit what have I done?!
"You ok?"
"No! I have to go now!"
"Ok calm down! I'll go for my car & take you home! he went to kiss my cheek & I pulled away quickly. Steve was standing in the doorway, I didn't know how long he'd been there!
"You are not going anywhere near Edbrook man! If Mary sees you with Bec she'll hoist your dick like a fourth of July flag up a pole!!!"
"MARY! THE KIDS!! SHIT!!!" I tried to make for the door but my legs buckled again & I fell into Matt's arms.
=flashback= I fell into Jeff's arms!
I clutched at my head & started to cry! Matt tried to hold me but I held him at arms length.
"Don't worry about Mary! I've sorted it! I told her you stayed here with me last night! Said we went to a movie then a bar & had too much to drink! She's looking sfter the kids! To tell you the truth I think she's enjoying every minute of it!!"
"I have to get back there!" tears streamed down my cheeks - I was so confused!
Matt helped me to Steve's car.
"See you later maybe?" Matt asked.
"I....I don't...." I was about to say what a bad idea that would be, until I looked into his eyes! "Erm yeah..maybe later!"
*******
Mary took one look at me when I walked in through the door & ordered me to bed! Steve helped me upstairs & halfway he called back.."Mary! Watch her when I've gone will ya? This is no hangover! I think she caught a bug or something!"
When I got upstairs all I wanted to do was have a bath! I was covered in mud & I just felt filthy! Steve sat down on the bed with me while the bath was running.
"Oh my GOD! The guy in the bushes!!"
"What?!"
"Last night!!" I started to panick.
=leaf in my hand=
"I was...I...SHIT! I thought it was Matt!"
"WOAH! Backtrack about thirty minutes or so here!!" Steve put his arm around my shoulders.
"There was a guy, " I took a deep breath, "....someone in the bushes out there & I thought it was Matt messing around but it wasn't!" Tears welled up in my eyes & I put my hands to my head. "It's like I lost a whole night! I don't remember much....Steve I'm scared!"
=leaf in his hair! Who's hair??=
"Come on, have a bath & some sleep & I'm sure you'll feel better!"
"I lost an hour!" I whispered to myself as I recollected the previous night!
"What?! Bec you're babbling! You need some sleep!"
"How did I get home?!"
"I brought you!" I heaved a sigh of releif! Then I realised he hadn't understood what I meant!
"Last night? You brought me home last night?!" He looked at me confused! "I mean back to your place?!"
"Yeah....well me & Jeff got you & Matt back eventually!"
"And you were with me all the time right?!"
"Yeah...what's the matter?!"
"ALL the time Steve?"
"Well I wasn't far away no!"
"No Steve...I mean you could see me all the time?"
He looked away & my stomach flipped. "Jeff got you home!" He sounded sheepish as if he'd done something wrong, "You were a little way behind me & Matt but that's because you could hardly walk! You kept spewing & falling over! Jeff said that's what took you guys so long!"
I felt sick! If only I could remember!! I took a deep breath & tried to act calm! I knew I'd never get rid of Steve if I freaked out & all I wanted to do was be on my own to try to figure this out!
"Ok!"
"Ok?! Are you sure you're ok?!"
"I'll be fine! You're right, I need some sleep! My head hurts!"
Steve eventually left & I was able to have a bath without puking or pasing out! I felt a little better after I got cleaned up but I still had to try to figure out what had happened last night! I remembered falling over...I was covered in bruises! What else? Think! Think! It was dark & I was laughing, ok so laughing is a good sign! I was looking into Jeff's eyes....remember thinking how they weren't like Matt's but just as mezmerizing! There was more, on the fringes of my memory just out of reach! I'd kissed matt I was sure I had! I remembered the feeling it gave me when our lips touched....how totally turned on I'd been yet so scared at the same time! My mind was whirling but my eyes wouldn't stay open! I still felt dizzy & sick & I knew I'd feel better after some sleep.....I couldn't fight it any longer!
*******
I was awakened by shouts from somewhere in the house! It was Sarah.
"...................for me you can shove them up your ass!"
"They're not for you they're for Bec!" A male voice shouted back.
"HA! There's a fuckin' surprise! Didn't take you long to make the moves did it?!"
"Oh get over it Sarah!" It was Matt! I felt a strange excitement at the sound of his voice & hoped he was comming to see me although a sense of dread crept in at the same time! The voices got nearer and there was a knock on my door! Sarah then burst in pushing Matt infront of her. I stood up, still a little unsteady!
"HERE! You're welcome to him!" she shouted & slammed the door. My head throbbed! "I always thought your brother was sexier anyway....ASSHOLE!" She spat from outside the room.
Matt winced. "Ooooh hit me where it hurts bitch!!" he muttered to himself! "Hey you!" he smiled, "How are you?!"
"I'll tell youwhen I wake up!" I smiled. I was so glad to see him!
"Oh I brought you these!" he put a bunch of flowers on the bedside table.
"Thankyou! They're lovely!"
"So are you!" he smiled.
"Matt I...."
"I know! There's a boyfriend back home I Know!...but I can't help it!"
I looked at him and realised I couldn't either! I loved Mick, at least I thought I did 'til I met Matt! Now everything was upside down!! "What he doesn't know....." Matt leaned over to kiss me & I Put my hands on his shoulders to stop him! "You really don't wanna do this?" He asked.
"I don't know! I'm confused!"
"Well....let me put things in perspective for you!" he smiled. My hands slipped over his huge shoulders & around his neck & this time no one was there to stop us! It was so wrong & I felt so guilty but I couldn't stop it - I didn't even try! His lips met mine, he ran his fingers through my hair & it sent shivers down my spine!
I pulled away. "You'll catch whatever it is I seemed to have picked up! I warn you...it feels like hell!"
"Sssshhhhh!" he whispered & pulled me close to him, pressing me against my bathroom door, pressing his whole body against mine & I went weak! He looked into my eyes & I smiled. "If you're gonna stop me do it now & put me out of my misery!"
"I'm not going to stop you Matt!" I said almost whispering.
"Thank GOD!" he grinned!
He kissed me deeply, our tongues exploring each others mouths. He ran his hands down my back & squeezed my ass, gently pressing me against his errection! I was more turned on than I'd ever been with Mick & I wanted to rip his clothes off on the spot! Then a pain in my head reminded me how I was feeling & I knew I couldn't go any further!
I broke the kiss & gasped for air. Matt was breathing heavily, kissing my neck, almost panting! He pulled the shoulder of my tshirt down & kissed my shoulder, my body was tingling all over. His hand squeezed my breast & I gasped. He looked up into my eyes & for what seemed like an eternity we just stared at each other, unblinking.
"You ok with this?" he whispered. I just nodded....no words would come out of my mouth, he took my breath away! I pulled his shirt over his head revealing his well toned torso & I ran my fingers all over his chest. He pulled me against him again & looked into my eyes for a few seconds more before kissing me again, harder than before. I'd never been kissed like that! I couldn't stop myself...couldn't stop him.....
....and then my cell phone rang!
"Ignore it!" Matt said breathing heavily & kissing me even harder than before.
"I can't Matt!"
He sighed & looked at me, "Yeah ok! Ok!" he ran his hand through his hair, "Sorry!" he stepped aside to let me get to the phone.
When I picked it up it had a short sharp jolt back to reality flashing accross the screen...."MICK".
The next morning when I woke up I didn't know where I was! I sat bolt upright, panicking & a pain ripped through my head! I frantically looked around the room for something familliar, anything....but I had no idea where I was or who's bed I was sleeping in! I threw the covers back, swung my legs over the side of the bed & took a deep breath as a wave of nausea washed over me. My head was spinning, I was aching all over & I felt like I was burning up inside! It was a strange feeling like I wasn't really awake after all & this was some weird dream I was having!
"Hello?" Someone knocked on the door. "Are you awake?"
"Who's that?!"
"It's me....Matt!" What the fuck is going on here? I thought to myself & rubbed my aching head! "Can I come in?"
"Erm yeah sure!"
Matt came in carrying two cups of coffee, he handed one to me & sat beside me on the bed. I put mine on the bedside table as the smell of it was churning my stomach!
"Are we at your house?" I said clutching the sheet over my half naked body.
Matt laughed. "No we're at Steve's....don't you remember?!" I shook my head & the pain was almost unbearable, I winced. "You don't look so good!"
"I'm gonna spew where's the bathroom?!?"
Matt stood up, "Out the door to the right!"
I tried to stand but my legs gave way, I'd never felt so bad in my life! I sat back down on the bed with a thump! "SHIT!" I clutched at my head.
"Come on, let me help you!" Matt said looking very worried! He pulled me up and then tied the sheet around me, brushing the hair out of my face. He put his arm around my waist & almost carried me to the bathroom where I kneeled on the floor & proceeded to tip my guts into the toilet! Matt knelt down beside me & rubbed my back, he held my hair out of my face & I got an uneasy feeling of deja vu, only it was dark & cold....and I got the feeling it hadn't been Matt!
"You look like death! he said as he helped me back to the bedroom, "Are all your hangovers this bad?"
"I don't think it's a hangover! I've never felt this bad before, I think maybe I caught a virus or something! I'm burning up!"
"Ok we'll get you home & call a doctor, I'll let you get dressed!" he went for the door.
"Matt...I feel.....can you help me to get dressed please?! I can't stand up! I feel like I'm gonna pass out or something!"
"Sure!" He smiled warmly & gathered my clothes up that were strewn all over the floor. I felt weird, as if I was floating! He helped me to get my mud caked clothes on & I felt so ill I didn't care how naked he saw me!
"Christ what did I do last night?" I said as I looked at the horrible reflection of myself in the mirror.
"Don't you remember falling in the puddle?!" he laughed.
I thought for a while & then I forced a smile. "I kinda remember you trying to rub my face in it!" I laughed & then stopped when I looked into his eyes. I had a flash back but it was vague......I think we'd kissed, but I wasn't sure & felt suddenly embarrassed! Matt must've sensed this as he touched my cheek lightly & smiled. I looked away quickly!
"Did we....did you & me.....well I can't remember but did we..."
He smiled and shook his head. "Nothing happened!" He brushed some hair from my face, "Well thanks to Steve & my baby bro!!"
"Jeff?!"
"I only have one brother!"
"Jeff...is here?!"
"He was but he left for Seattle early this morning! Why?"
=flashback= a leaf in my hand! Why did I have a leaf in my hand?!
"Oh erm...no reason! I just didn't remember him being there last...."
=flashback=dark, me & Jeff in the dark, me on top of Jeff in the dark! Holy shit what have I done?!
"You ok?"
"No! I have to go now!"
"Ok calm down! I'll go for my car & take you home! he went to kiss my cheek & I pulled away quickly. Steve was standing in the doorway, I didn't know how long he'd been there!
"You are not going anywhere near Edbrook man! If Mary sees you with Bec she'll hoist your dick like a fourth of July flag up a pole!!!"
"MARY! THE KIDS!! SHIT!!!" I tried to make for the door but my legs buckled again & I fell into Matt's arms.
=flashback= I fell into Jeff's arms!
I clutched at my head & started to cry! Matt tried to hold me but I held him at arms length.
"Don't worry about Mary! I've sorted it! I told her you stayed here with me last night! Said we went to a movie then a bar & had too much to drink! She's looking sfter the kids! To tell you the truth I think she's enjoying every minute of it!!"
"I have to get back there!" tears streamed down my cheeks - I was so confused!
Matt helped me to Steve's car.
"See you later maybe?" Matt asked.
"I....I don't...." I was about to say what a bad idea that would be, until I looked into his eyes! "Erm yeah..maybe later!"
*******
Mary took one look at me when I walked in through the door & ordered me to bed! Steve helped me upstairs & halfway he called back.."Mary! Watch her when I've gone will ya? This is no hangover! I think she caught a bug or something!"
When I got upstairs all I wanted to do was have a bath! I was covered in mud & I just felt filthy! Steve sat down on the bed with me while the bath was running.
"Oh my GOD! The guy in the bushes!!"
"What?!"
"Last night!!" I started to panick.
=leaf in my hand=
"I was...I...SHIT! I thought it was Matt!"
"WOAH! Backtrack about thirty minutes or so here!!" Steve put his arm around my shoulders.
"There was a guy, " I took a deep breath, "....someone in the bushes out there & I thought it was Matt messing around but it wasn't!" Tears welled up in my eyes & I put my hands to my head. "It's like I lost a whole night! I don't remember much....Steve I'm scared!"
=leaf in his hair! Who's hair??=
"Come on, have a bath & some sleep & I'm sure you'll feel better!"
"I lost an hour!" I whispered to myself as I recollected the previous night!
"What?! Bec you're babbling! You need some sleep!"
"How did I get home?!"
"I brought you!" I heaved a sigh of releif! Then I realised he hadn't understood what I meant!
"Last night? You brought me home last night?!" He looked at me confused! "I mean back to your place?!"
"Yeah....well me & Jeff got you & Matt back eventually!"
"And you were with me all the time right?!"
"Yeah...what's the matter?!"
"ALL the time Steve?"
"Well I wasn't far away no!"
"No Steve...I mean you could see me all the time?"
He looked away & my stomach flipped. "Jeff got you home!" He sounded sheepish as if he'd done something wrong, "You were a little way behind me & Matt but that's because you could hardly walk! You kept spewing & falling over! Jeff said that's what took you guys so long!"
I felt sick! If only I could remember!! I took a deep breath & tried to act calm! I knew I'd never get rid of Steve if I freaked out & all I wanted to do was be on my own to try to figure this out!
"Ok!"
"Ok?! Are you sure you're ok?!"
"I'll be fine! You're right, I need some sleep! My head hurts!"
Steve eventually left & I was able to have a bath without puking or pasing out! I felt a little better after I got cleaned up but I still had to try to figure out what had happened last night! I remembered falling over...I was covered in bruises! What else? Think! Think! It was dark & I was laughing, ok so laughing is a good sign! I was looking into Jeff's eyes....remember thinking how they weren't like Matt's but just as mezmerizing! There was more, on the fringes of my memory just out of reach! I'd kissed matt I was sure I had! I remembered the feeling it gave me when our lips touched....how totally turned on I'd been yet so scared at the same time! My mind was whirling but my eyes wouldn't stay open! I still felt dizzy & sick & I knew I'd feel better after some sleep.....I couldn't fight it any longer!
*******
I was awakened by shouts from somewhere in the house! It was Sarah.
"...................for me you can shove them up your ass!"
"They're not for you they're for Bec!" A male voice shouted back.
"HA! There's a fuckin' surprise! Didn't take you long to make the moves did it?!"
"Oh get over it Sarah!" It was Matt! I felt a strange excitement at the sound of his voice & hoped he was comming to see me although a sense of dread crept in at the same time! The voices got nearer and there was a knock on my door! Sarah then burst in pushing Matt infront of her. I stood up, still a little unsteady!
"HERE! You're welcome to him!" she shouted & slammed the door. My head throbbed! "I always thought your brother was sexier anyway....ASSHOLE!" She spat from outside the room.
Matt winced. "Ooooh hit me where it hurts bitch!!" he muttered to himself! "Hey you!" he smiled, "How are you?!"
"I'll tell youwhen I wake up!" I smiled. I was so glad to see him!
"Oh I brought you these!" he put a bunch of flowers on the bedside table.
"Thankyou! They're lovely!"
"So are you!" he smiled.
"Matt I...."
"I know! There's a boyfriend back home I Know!...but I can't help it!"
I looked at him and realised I couldn't either! I loved Mick, at least I thought I did 'til I met Matt! Now everything was upside down!! "What he doesn't know....." Matt leaned over to kiss me & I Put my hands on his shoulders to stop him! "You really don't wanna do this?" He asked.
"I don't know! I'm confused!"
"Well....let me put things in perspective for you!" he smiled. My hands slipped over his huge shoulders & around his neck & this time no one was there to stop us! It was so wrong & I felt so guilty but I couldn't stop it - I didn't even try! His lips met mine, he ran his fingers through my hair & it sent shivers down my spine!
I pulled away. "You'll catch whatever it is I seemed to have picked up! I warn you...it feels like hell!"
"Sssshhhhh!" he whispered & pulled me close to him, pressing me against my bathroom door, pressing his whole body against mine & I went weak! He looked into my eyes & I smiled. "If you're gonna stop me do it now & put me out of my misery!"
"I'm not going to stop you Matt!" I said almost whispering.
"Thank GOD!" he grinned!
He kissed me deeply, our tongues exploring each others mouths. He ran his hands down my back & squeezed my ass, gently pressing me against his errection! I was more turned on than I'd ever been with Mick & I wanted to rip his clothes off on the spot! Then a pain in my head reminded me how I was feeling & I knew I couldn't go any further!
I broke the kiss & gasped for air. Matt was breathing heavily, kissing my neck, almost panting! He pulled the shoulder of my tshirt down & kissed my shoulder, my body was tingling all over. His hand squeezed my breast & I gasped. He looked up into my eyes & for what seemed like an eternity we just stared at each other, unblinking.
"You ok with this?" he whispered. I just nodded....no words would come out of my mouth, he took my breath away! I pulled his shirt over his head revealing his well toned torso & I ran my fingers all over his chest. He pulled me against him again & looked into my eyes for a few seconds more before kissing me again, harder than before. I'd never been kissed like that! I couldn't stop myself...couldn't stop him.....
....and then my cell phone rang!
"Ignore it!" Matt said breathing heavily & kissing me even harder than before.
"I can't Matt!"
He sighed & looked at me, "Yeah ok! Ok!" he ran his hand through his hair, "Sorry!" he stepped aside to let me get to the phone.
When I picked it up it had a short sharp jolt back to reality flashing accross the screen...."MICK".