Chapter 12
Matt could sense there was something wrong before he left. when he held me I just stood there rigid & unresponsive! I wanted to hold him, I wanted that more than anything but the seeds of doubt had been planted in my mind & I just couldn't ignore what that sick freak on the phone had told me! He'd eventually left after I tried to assure him it was just because I was tired! Truth was I did need to sleep, I still felt groggy & mt stomach was almost inside out! When I was alone in my room I sat on the edge of the bed & tried to remeber something,anything at all after I'd left the pub.My head was still pounding & I found it hard to concentrate. Things came back but they were all jumbled up & didn't make any sense at all. I remembered falling over, remembered it was dark & cold....must have been outside....on the way to Steve's! I remember telling Jeff something like he wasn't so bad after all....remember falling so hard I knocked him flat on his back! I discovered these things came back quite easilly, it was after I got to Steve's everything was a mystery! What the hell had happened?
"Think girl! Think!"
I was so anngry & frustrated because nothing was there, just a black, empty space!! I lay down on my bed & cried for quite a while! I don't know how long I was there but eventually I was sick of being on my own so I decided to go downstairs to find Mary.
She was in the kitchen in her night dress making a cup of hot chocolate & she smiled when I walked in.
"Hi! Are you feeling any better?"
"Mmm...a bit I guess."
"You want a hot chocolate?"
I shook my head & took a seat at the table, "I don't think my stomach could take it!"
"Well I bet you're better by the morning, it's probably one of those 24 hour things!"
"Yeah probably!"
"So what did you get up to last night? Did you have fun?"
"Errrm....errr....Mary...I...."
"What's the matter? Come on spit it out!"
"Last night...errr..."
"Ok if this is about you & that Matthew maybe you shouldn't be saying anything!" she looked sternly at me.
"It's not...well.....I....maybe it is...I dunno!!" I put my head in my hands.
"What are you trying to tell me?"
I didn't know how or even IF I should be telling her anything but I had to tell someone or I was going to go crazy!
"I went to Steve's....and errr....I think maybe....." I rubbed my eyes, "....well Matt was there....and Jeff too....but Matt & me well......" I sighed, Mary was by now looking very concerned, I figured she'd guessed what I was trying to tell her anyway!"....Well.......Oh Mary!!" I started to cry.
She stood up, "I'll get dressed!" she went for the door but then came straight back & put her hand on my shoulder, "We'll sort this out don't you worry!"
*******
"No names Mary!" I said as we sat in the cab.
"what?"
"No names! Promise me!"
"But you know wh..."
"NO! I don't know anything Mary!"
She hesitated. "If that's what you want then I suppose..."
"It is what I want! Trust me it's for the best, for now anyway."
When we got to the hospital I ws taken to a private room. Once Mary got me into one of those horrible green gowns the nurse came in & took some blood. Then a doctor arrived, with a female detective!
"Why did you call the police?!" I started to panick!
"It's procedure Miss erm...."
"Bec! My name is Bec!"
"Ok Bec! We have to involve the police in cases like yours!"
I looked up at the pure white celing & sighed. "There may not even be a case!"
"Well maybe not, but we'll know more once you've had some tests & been examined."
The tests were horrible & I cried most of the time. All I kept thinking about was Matt! How we'd kissed earlier, how he'd made my knees go weak....and now this!! I couldn't believe this was happening to me!!
There was a lot of questions aswell as the examination - how did I get the bruises?(I fell!) Where did I stay?(At a friends!) did I have any idea who could have done this to me?(NO!) Were we out on a date?(NO!) Did I at any time in the night consent to having sex with anyone?(NO!) When was the last time I did have sex prior to last night?(Can't remember....but not since I'd come to America!) etc etc! It was a total nightmare!
When they had finished the exam & the third degree questioning they left Mary & me alone in the room. I lay in silence, knowing exactly what she was thinking & not wanting to hear it!
"It'll be alright you know!" She touched my arm.
"I wasn't...I mean I'm not seeing him Mary! I didn't lie to you & Sarah! It just came out all wrong!"
She waved a hand dismissively, "Blah! It doesn't matter about all that now! Water under the bridge!" she paused then leaned in close to me, "But if I find out he's layed one finger on you so help me God I'll nail his balls to the damn wall!"
The doctor came back into the room engrossed in my notes & test results that were pinned to a clip board.
"Well doctor? Is everything ok?" Mary asked imaptiently! The female officer followed behind the doctor.
"Could you leave us alone with Bec for a few moments please?"
Mary looked to me for intervention, but I simply didn't have the strength to argue with the doctor! I was physically & emotionally drained & I was preparing myself for the worst!
"There's a coffee machine down the hall!" he said when Mary still hadn't made a move! Reluctantly she got up & left.
"Well come on then! Hit me with it!" I laughed sarcastically.
"Rebecca we've got all of the test results in and....well there appears to be no evidence of rape!" I started to cry with relief! "However..." he paused, "Your blood tests do show high levels of Rohypnol!"
I looked at him blankly! "Sorry what?"
"Erm...it's sometimes known as Flunitrazapam." I shook my head still totally oblivious to what he was talking about! "It's the ahhh...it's the date rape drug Rebecca!"
I took a deep breath, "Jesus!"
"Do you take any medicines...anything to help you sleep?" I almost laughed out loud! I couldn't remember the last time I'd slept!I shook my head.
"This bar you went to last night....can you remember it's name?" Again I shook my head.
"Rebecca.." the female detective stood forward, "...did you at any time leave your drinks unattended?"
"No! Not that I know of!"
"And did anyone, any strangers try to buy you a drink or even sit at your table with a drink?"
"No! Why?"
"They could have switched drinks & given you a spiked one! That's how these guys usually work!"
I thought long & hard but no, we had only talked to each other all night!"I don't see what the problem is if I haven't been raped! I just want to go home now please!"
"Raped or not, if you haven't knowing taken this substance then someone must have given it to you!We need to know who!"
"Look I have no idea who it was or why they're doing this to me but..." I proceeded to tell them everything that had been going on! From being followed by the river to the arm in the bushes! Eventually they let me go & told me there would be someone out to see me as soon as possible!
I was exhausted when we got back to edbrook! Mary ushered me stright upstairs & I crawled into bed ready to sleep the clock 'round! After she left me there I tried to block everything out of my mind & just sleep, but I couldnt! The phone call, the rocks through my window, Jeff, Matt...it all raced through my mind at 100 miles an hour & I tried to put some pieces of this jigsaw together! Firstly Jeff.....he was in Seattle, so nothing would happen if it was him! The phone call....well Matt wasn't here but it couldn't have been him! I refused to believe he had anything to do with any of this shit! And it can't have been Jeff because he doesn't even have my nu.........I sat bolt upright in bed! "HOLY SHIT!!" I was gasping for air as something just hit my mind like a ton of bricks!! Jeff brought my phone back to me!! My number was on their caller display!! He'd used my phone top call his house.....to get my number!!!! "Ok, Ok....deep breaths girl!" i said to myself! "Don't go getting all Miss Marple here!" I reached to the bedside table & grabbed my phone. I coould hardly press the buttons my hands were shaking so much, but eventually I found what I was looking for.....'Last Number Dialed'! It was a number I didn't recognise so I nervously pressed 'CALL' & held my breath!
"Hello?" said a voice sleepilly...a voice I recognised! I bit on my lip!
"Matt?'
"Yeah?" I let out a breath, "Hello?"
"Yeah....hi it's me! It's Bec."
"Bec? Are you ok? It's 5am what's happened?"
"oh shit Matt I'm sorry! I didn't realise the time!"
"It's ok! What's happened?"
"Oh ermm...I'm fine! Well...it's a long story but one I guess you should hear some time!"
"Want me to come over?" he yawned.
"Yeah that would be good!" I closed my eyes. I had to tell him about the phone call from the local psycho if nothing else!
"Ok, give me 20 minutes!"
"No Matt! Not now! It's ok! Go back to bed! Just come over later today! I didn't realise what time it was, sorry!"
He yawned again, "Bec listen if you want me to come over now I'll get dressed & come over!"
"No really! Later will be fine!"
"Ok then! If you're sure!"
"I am! Bye!"
"Bye then!"
"Oh Matt wait...!!!"
"Huh?"
"Do you take sugar in your coffee?!"
Matt could sense there was something wrong before he left. when he held me I just stood there rigid & unresponsive! I wanted to hold him, I wanted that more than anything but the seeds of doubt had been planted in my mind & I just couldn't ignore what that sick freak on the phone had told me! He'd eventually left after I tried to assure him it was just because I was tired! Truth was I did need to sleep, I still felt groggy & mt stomach was almost inside out! When I was alone in my room I sat on the edge of the bed & tried to remeber something,anything at all after I'd left the pub.My head was still pounding & I found it hard to concentrate. Things came back but they were all jumbled up & didn't make any sense at all. I remembered falling over, remembered it was dark & cold....must have been outside....on the way to Steve's! I remember telling Jeff something like he wasn't so bad after all....remember falling so hard I knocked him flat on his back! I discovered these things came back quite easilly, it was after I got to Steve's everything was a mystery! What the hell had happened?
"Think girl! Think!"
I was so anngry & frustrated because nothing was there, just a black, empty space!! I lay down on my bed & cried for quite a while! I don't know how long I was there but eventually I was sick of being on my own so I decided to go downstairs to find Mary.
She was in the kitchen in her night dress making a cup of hot chocolate & she smiled when I walked in.
"Hi! Are you feeling any better?"
"Mmm...a bit I guess."
"You want a hot chocolate?"
I shook my head & took a seat at the table, "I don't think my stomach could take it!"
"Well I bet you're better by the morning, it's probably one of those 24 hour things!"
"Yeah probably!"
"So what did you get up to last night? Did you have fun?"
"Errrm....errr....Mary...I...."
"What's the matter? Come on spit it out!"
"Last night...errr..."
"Ok if this is about you & that Matthew maybe you shouldn't be saying anything!" she looked sternly at me.
"It's not...well.....I....maybe it is...I dunno!!" I put my head in my hands.
"What are you trying to tell me?"
I didn't know how or even IF I should be telling her anything but I had to tell someone or I was going to go crazy!
"I went to Steve's....and errr....I think maybe....." I rubbed my eyes, "....well Matt was there....and Jeff too....but Matt & me well......" I sighed, Mary was by now looking very concerned, I figured she'd guessed what I was trying to tell her anyway!"....Well.......Oh Mary!!" I started to cry.
She stood up, "I'll get dressed!" she went for the door but then came straight back & put her hand on my shoulder, "We'll sort this out don't you worry!"
*******
"No names Mary!" I said as we sat in the cab.
"what?"
"No names! Promise me!"
"But you know wh..."
"NO! I don't know anything Mary!"
She hesitated. "If that's what you want then I suppose..."
"It is what I want! Trust me it's for the best, for now anyway."
When we got to the hospital I ws taken to a private room. Once Mary got me into one of those horrible green gowns the nurse came in & took some blood. Then a doctor arrived, with a female detective!
"Why did you call the police?!" I started to panick!
"It's procedure Miss erm...."
"Bec! My name is Bec!"
"Ok Bec! We have to involve the police in cases like yours!"
I looked up at the pure white celing & sighed. "There may not even be a case!"
"Well maybe not, but we'll know more once you've had some tests & been examined."
The tests were horrible & I cried most of the time. All I kept thinking about was Matt! How we'd kissed earlier, how he'd made my knees go weak....and now this!! I couldn't believe this was happening to me!!
There was a lot of questions aswell as the examination - how did I get the bruises?(I fell!) Where did I stay?(At a friends!) did I have any idea who could have done this to me?(NO!) Were we out on a date?(NO!) Did I at any time in the night consent to having sex with anyone?(NO!) When was the last time I did have sex prior to last night?(Can't remember....but not since I'd come to America!) etc etc! It was a total nightmare!
When they had finished the exam & the third degree questioning they left Mary & me alone in the room. I lay in silence, knowing exactly what she was thinking & not wanting to hear it!
"It'll be alright you know!" She touched my arm.
"I wasn't...I mean I'm not seeing him Mary! I didn't lie to you & Sarah! It just came out all wrong!"
She waved a hand dismissively, "Blah! It doesn't matter about all that now! Water under the bridge!" she paused then leaned in close to me, "But if I find out he's layed one finger on you so help me God I'll nail his balls to the damn wall!"
The doctor came back into the room engrossed in my notes & test results that were pinned to a clip board.
"Well doctor? Is everything ok?" Mary asked imaptiently! The female officer followed behind the doctor.
"Could you leave us alone with Bec for a few moments please?"
Mary looked to me for intervention, but I simply didn't have the strength to argue with the doctor! I was physically & emotionally drained & I was preparing myself for the worst!
"There's a coffee machine down the hall!" he said when Mary still hadn't made a move! Reluctantly she got up & left.
"Well come on then! Hit me with it!" I laughed sarcastically.
"Rebecca we've got all of the test results in and....well there appears to be no evidence of rape!" I started to cry with relief! "However..." he paused, "Your blood tests do show high levels of Rohypnol!"
I looked at him blankly! "Sorry what?"
"Erm...it's sometimes known as Flunitrazapam." I shook my head still totally oblivious to what he was talking about! "It's the ahhh...it's the date rape drug Rebecca!"
I took a deep breath, "Jesus!"
"Do you take any medicines...anything to help you sleep?" I almost laughed out loud! I couldn't remember the last time I'd slept!I shook my head.
"This bar you went to last night....can you remember it's name?" Again I shook my head.
"Rebecca.." the female detective stood forward, "...did you at any time leave your drinks unattended?"
"No! Not that I know of!"
"And did anyone, any strangers try to buy you a drink or even sit at your table with a drink?"
"No! Why?"
"They could have switched drinks & given you a spiked one! That's how these guys usually work!"
I thought long & hard but no, we had only talked to each other all night!"I don't see what the problem is if I haven't been raped! I just want to go home now please!"
"Raped or not, if you haven't knowing taken this substance then someone must have given it to you!We need to know who!"
"Look I have no idea who it was or why they're doing this to me but..." I proceeded to tell them everything that had been going on! From being followed by the river to the arm in the bushes! Eventually they let me go & told me there would be someone out to see me as soon as possible!
I was exhausted when we got back to edbrook! Mary ushered me stright upstairs & I crawled into bed ready to sleep the clock 'round! After she left me there I tried to block everything out of my mind & just sleep, but I couldnt! The phone call, the rocks through my window, Jeff, Matt...it all raced through my mind at 100 miles an hour & I tried to put some pieces of this jigsaw together! Firstly Jeff.....he was in Seattle, so nothing would happen if it was him! The phone call....well Matt wasn't here but it couldn't have been him! I refused to believe he had anything to do with any of this shit! And it can't have been Jeff because he doesn't even have my nu.........I sat bolt upright in bed! "HOLY SHIT!!" I was gasping for air as something just hit my mind like a ton of bricks!! Jeff brought my phone back to me!! My number was on their caller display!! He'd used my phone top call his house.....to get my number!!!! "Ok, Ok....deep breaths girl!" i said to myself! "Don't go getting all Miss Marple here!" I reached to the bedside table & grabbed my phone. I coould hardly press the buttons my hands were shaking so much, but eventually I found what I was looking for.....'Last Number Dialed'! It was a number I didn't recognise so I nervously pressed 'CALL' & held my breath!
"Hello?" said a voice sleepilly...a voice I recognised! I bit on my lip!
"Matt?'
"Yeah?" I let out a breath, "Hello?"
"Yeah....hi it's me! It's Bec."
"Bec? Are you ok? It's 5am what's happened?"
"oh shit Matt I'm sorry! I didn't realise the time!"
"It's ok! What's happened?"
"Oh ermm...I'm fine! Well...it's a long story but one I guess you should hear some time!"
"Want me to come over?" he yawned.
"Yeah that would be good!" I closed my eyes. I had to tell him about the phone call from the local psycho if nothing else!
"Ok, give me 20 minutes!"
"No Matt! Not now! It's ok! Go back to bed! Just come over later today! I didn't realise what time it was, sorry!"
He yawned again, "Bec listen if you want me to come over now I'll get dressed & come over!"
"No really! Later will be fine!"
"Ok then! If you're sure!"
"I am! Bye!"
"Bye then!"
"Oh Matt wait...!!!"
"Huh?"
"Do you take sugar in your coffee?!"