Chapter 18
The next day went by very slowly indeed! Mick had tried it on all night but I managed to fob him off saying I was tired, felt sick, anything to try & get him to leave me alone! Nothing seemed to work & his hands were all over me for hours so in the end I went into the bathroom then came out & told him I was having my period!! I couldn't believe how easy it was to lie to him, in two years the only lies I'd ever told him were 'No I'm not buying you that stereo for christmas' & 'Trust me there'll be no surprise party!' It worked though & he looked gutted but accepted it & went to sleep!!
By 5pm the next day I thought I was going to hang myself! I kept looking at my watch wondering if Matt was on his way home, or looking out of the window praying he'd be walking up the driveway....but no such luck!! Steve & Mick seemed to be getting along great so I slyly suggested Steve took Mick to the bar for a drink that night! I almost cheered when Mick agreed to go with him! They asked if I wanted to tag along but I made an excuse about watching a movie & having an early night! Later, as Mick got ready to go out I lounged on my bed in my dressing gown!
"Sure you don't want to come with us?"
"No really, I don't really like that pub much anyway - too loud for me!"
"Careful! You're turning into your mother!" he grinned!
"You'll know about it the day I turn into my mother mate!"
"Won't I just!!" he laughed. He came & sat on the edge of the bed & rubbed my leg. I waited for the goosebumps and the shivers up my spine but none came! "You sure there's nothing wrong love? You have been a bit quiet since I got here?!"
"Naah....just erm...period pains!" I rubbed my stomach. "Now go on.....have a good time tonight with Steve & let me watch the movie!" (Que fake closet smile!!)
"Ok hun!" He kissed me, "You enjoy the film! I won't be too late!" He left & I heaved a sigh of relief!!
I peered through the curtains & watched the cab leave & then I quickly went into the bathroom & pulled on my jeans & t-shirt!
As I was walking out of the front door Mary appeared!
"Oh! You changed your mind about going out then?"
"MARY!" I jumped, "Oh erm.....kind of...err...." I scratched my head trying to think of an excuse but Mary saw straight through me!
"I see!" She said drying her hands on her apron, "Well Bec, I hope you know what you're doing!"
"Doing??! I'm not doi..."
"I'm not completely blind you know?!!" She looked at me sternly, "I can see you have it bad for one of those Hardy's!! Just...well just be careful ok?!"
I smiled, "Thankyou mary! And yeah, I'll be careful!"
"Awww...no you won't!" She playfully swiped the corner of her apron on my arm & smiled a little! "If anyone's asking you're erm...?"
"In bed!! Thanks Mary!" I kissed her cheek & then almost ran out of the door! I realised I was acting just like Sarah had been & I laughed to myself! I guess Matt had this affect on both of us!!
I set off to Matt's house not even knowing if he'd be home yet! All the way there I was looking over my shoulder, I knew I shouldn't be out there alone & almost dark but I couldn't help it! The adrenaline pumped through me & nothing was going to prevent me for getting to Matt!!
"Come on you psycho freak! I dare you to stop me now!" I said quietly to myself, still I was a little scared but I was like a woman posessed!! It wasn't until I had my hand raised about to knock on their door that I thought about how pathetic this looked!! God knows he must get this all the time from fans...love struck kids that hounded him everywhere he went!! I probably meant as much to him as they did!! I turned my back to the door....what an idiot!! I sat down on the porch steps & muttered "Silly cow!" to myself! I Put my head in my hands, I couldn't believe I'd been so stupid! I felt even more ridiculous when I heard the door open behind me...I didn't dare turn around!!
"Why in God's name would you be sitting on our porch in the dark?!"
(Jeff!! Thank God!!)
"JEFF!!" I stood up & turned around, "I....err....went for a walk...and I...erm...I....I...ended up here I guess!!
Jeff smirked, "Ok! Well, now that you found your way here would you like to come in....or were you just wanting to use our porch?!"
=Stupid stupid cow!!=
"Oh erm.....naah it's ok! It's getting late anyway..I really should....erm...."
"Oh come in will ya?!!" he grinned, "He's in the shower but he won't be long!!"
"Who's int he shower?!"
=OK shoot me now!!=
Jeff shook his head & chuckled, "Matt? Y'know the ugly guy....lives here too?!"
"Matt's home already?!" I smiled nervously!
=Now would be a good time for the ground to open up & swallow me please!=
"Yeah...or how could he be in the shower?!"
"Huh?!"
"COME IN!!!"
"Oh...er....right ok but only for a few minutes maybe!"
Jeff shook his head again & stepped aside for me to go indoors! "Whatever!" he muttered as I went past him!
He made us a coffee & just as he put it down infront of me Matt came in, no shirt on & drying his hair with a towel! (I tried very hard to stop my jaw hitting off the table but it was difficult!!)
'Bec! Hi! I erm just got back....you're lucky you caught me!"
=What am I doing here??!=
"Hi! Oh sorry! I was just out for a walk and.."
"And animal magnetism pulled her right onto our porch!! Amazing huh!?" Jeff laughed. "I'll erm...go order a pizza or something.......leave you two..." Matt glared at him & he held up his hand & left!
"Seriously Matt I don't know why I came over...I'll go! I'm sorry!" I stood up.
"Hey wait up!" He grabbed hold of my arm, "What's the hurry you just got here!! Is something wrong?!"
I stopped & turned to look at him, "Nothing's wrong I just....." I sighed, "I dunno Matt I feel like such an idiot!!"
"Why would you feel like an idiot?!" He smiled.
"Well because you just got home...and here I am on your doorstep!! Really, I'll just go!!"
"Don't go!" He smiled, "Really I don't mind that you're here!"
"Really?"
"Yes really!! I'm happy you're here!" I looked at him unconvinced, "I'm glad you're here!! Seriously!!" He laughed, "Finish your coffee at least! Oh wait no, you didn't actually drink any of that did you?!" I laughed! "There see that's better!!" He playfully punched my chin! "Now, if you'd like me to make you a fresh cup I can just tip this down the sink!?" He raised his eyebrows & smirked.
"Oh I'm sure it will be fine!!" I laughed.
"Sit down yeah?"
"Ok ok! But only for a few minutes....tell me when you want me to leave!"
We sat down & Matt told me what he'd been up to at work & we talked for quite a while!
"Well I'm sorry but clotheslines are to hang up your washing & tombstones are something you see in cemetary's!!"
"Heathan!" Matt laughed.
"Well I have heard of that one guy, the Rock! Jake is always going on about how cool he is! Oh & I saw The Mummy Returns but only cause Brendan Frasier's hot!!" I giggled!
"Everyone's heard of the Rock!" Matt rolled his eyes!
"So what's he like then?"
"Who Dwayne? He's a pretty cool guy!"
"Who?!"
"Dwa....The Rock!!"
"DWAYNE!!? You are telling me his name is Dwayne?!" I laughed.
"Yeah...and???!"
"Oh sorry! Nothin' really it's just...well it doesn't seem like the right sort of name for a big tough guy like him!!" I laughed & drank some more coffee.
"So, has Mick gone home yet?!"
The smile quickly faded from my face & I shook my head. "I got Steve to take him out!"
"Ah right!"
=awkward silence!=
'He's driving me fucking crazy matt!!" I blurted out! Matt just nodded. "It's not gonna work...this spending time with him crap! I just don't feel the same about him anymore! I can't even stand him touching me & I feel like such a bitch! I mean he hasn't done anything wrong.....he just hasn't done anything right!!"
"Good!"
"And I just can.....what?"
"Huh?"
"What did you just say?!"
Matt put his cup down & came over to me. He took hold of both of my hands & puled me from the seat. When we were face to face he spoke.
"I said good! I'm glad!"
"Wh....why?!"
"I'm glad you know what you want!"
"Oh...yeah right!"
(For a minute I thought he'd meant he was glad I wasn't with Mick anymore!! How stupid could I get in one night?!?!)
"I know what I want....right now!!" He grinned & pulled me roughly!
"Matt!" I laughed.
"Any objections can be taken up with my lawyer...and he lives in Siberia & has no phone.....what a shame!" he winked!
I looked into his gorgeous eyes & his smile faded. He held my face in his & pressed his lips against mine. I was trembling & my heart was going faster than a train! He broke the kiss & gently took my hand, leading me up to his room....I had no cell phone this time & nothing would interrupt us!!
The next day went by very slowly indeed! Mick had tried it on all night but I managed to fob him off saying I was tired, felt sick, anything to try & get him to leave me alone! Nothing seemed to work & his hands were all over me for hours so in the end I went into the bathroom then came out & told him I was having my period!! I couldn't believe how easy it was to lie to him, in two years the only lies I'd ever told him were 'No I'm not buying you that stereo for christmas' & 'Trust me there'll be no surprise party!' It worked though & he looked gutted but accepted it & went to sleep!!
By 5pm the next day I thought I was going to hang myself! I kept looking at my watch wondering if Matt was on his way home, or looking out of the window praying he'd be walking up the driveway....but no such luck!! Steve & Mick seemed to be getting along great so I slyly suggested Steve took Mick to the bar for a drink that night! I almost cheered when Mick agreed to go with him! They asked if I wanted to tag along but I made an excuse about watching a movie & having an early night! Later, as Mick got ready to go out I lounged on my bed in my dressing gown!
"Sure you don't want to come with us?"
"No really, I don't really like that pub much anyway - too loud for me!"
"Careful! You're turning into your mother!" he grinned!
"You'll know about it the day I turn into my mother mate!"
"Won't I just!!" he laughed. He came & sat on the edge of the bed & rubbed my leg. I waited for the goosebumps and the shivers up my spine but none came! "You sure there's nothing wrong love? You have been a bit quiet since I got here?!"
"Naah....just erm...period pains!" I rubbed my stomach. "Now go on.....have a good time tonight with Steve & let me watch the movie!" (Que fake closet smile!!)
"Ok hun!" He kissed me, "You enjoy the film! I won't be too late!" He left & I heaved a sigh of relief!!
I peered through the curtains & watched the cab leave & then I quickly went into the bathroom & pulled on my jeans & t-shirt!
As I was walking out of the front door Mary appeared!
"Oh! You changed your mind about going out then?"
"MARY!" I jumped, "Oh erm.....kind of...err...." I scratched my head trying to think of an excuse but Mary saw straight through me!
"I see!" She said drying her hands on her apron, "Well Bec, I hope you know what you're doing!"
"Doing??! I'm not doi..."
"I'm not completely blind you know?!!" She looked at me sternly, "I can see you have it bad for one of those Hardy's!! Just...well just be careful ok?!"
I smiled, "Thankyou mary! And yeah, I'll be careful!"
"Awww...no you won't!" She playfully swiped the corner of her apron on my arm & smiled a little! "If anyone's asking you're erm...?"
"In bed!! Thanks Mary!" I kissed her cheek & then almost ran out of the door! I realised I was acting just like Sarah had been & I laughed to myself! I guess Matt had this affect on both of us!!
I set off to Matt's house not even knowing if he'd be home yet! All the way there I was looking over my shoulder, I knew I shouldn't be out there alone & almost dark but I couldn't help it! The adrenaline pumped through me & nothing was going to prevent me for getting to Matt!!
"Come on you psycho freak! I dare you to stop me now!" I said quietly to myself, still I was a little scared but I was like a woman posessed!! It wasn't until I had my hand raised about to knock on their door that I thought about how pathetic this looked!! God knows he must get this all the time from fans...love struck kids that hounded him everywhere he went!! I probably meant as much to him as they did!! I turned my back to the door....what an idiot!! I sat down on the porch steps & muttered "Silly cow!" to myself! I Put my head in my hands, I couldn't believe I'd been so stupid! I felt even more ridiculous when I heard the door open behind me...I didn't dare turn around!!
"Why in God's name would you be sitting on our porch in the dark?!"
(Jeff!! Thank God!!)
"JEFF!!" I stood up & turned around, "I....err....went for a walk...and I...erm...I....I...ended up here I guess!!
Jeff smirked, "Ok! Well, now that you found your way here would you like to come in....or were you just wanting to use our porch?!"
=Stupid stupid cow!!=
"Oh erm.....naah it's ok! It's getting late anyway..I really should....erm...."
"Oh come in will ya?!!" he grinned, "He's in the shower but he won't be long!!"
"Who's int he shower?!"
=OK shoot me now!!=
Jeff shook his head & chuckled, "Matt? Y'know the ugly guy....lives here too?!"
"Matt's home already?!" I smiled nervously!
=Now would be a good time for the ground to open up & swallow me please!=
"Yeah...or how could he be in the shower?!"
"Huh?!"
"COME IN!!!"
"Oh...er....right ok but only for a few minutes maybe!"
Jeff shook his head again & stepped aside for me to go indoors! "Whatever!" he muttered as I went past him!
He made us a coffee & just as he put it down infront of me Matt came in, no shirt on & drying his hair with a towel! (I tried very hard to stop my jaw hitting off the table but it was difficult!!)
'Bec! Hi! I erm just got back....you're lucky you caught me!"
=What am I doing here??!=
"Hi! Oh sorry! I was just out for a walk and.."
"And animal magnetism pulled her right onto our porch!! Amazing huh!?" Jeff laughed. "I'll erm...go order a pizza or something.......leave you two..." Matt glared at him & he held up his hand & left!
"Seriously Matt I don't know why I came over...I'll go! I'm sorry!" I stood up.
"Hey wait up!" He grabbed hold of my arm, "What's the hurry you just got here!! Is something wrong?!"
I stopped & turned to look at him, "Nothing's wrong I just....." I sighed, "I dunno Matt I feel like such an idiot!!"
"Why would you feel like an idiot?!" He smiled.
"Well because you just got home...and here I am on your doorstep!! Really, I'll just go!!"
"Don't go!" He smiled, "Really I don't mind that you're here!"
"Really?"
"Yes really!! I'm happy you're here!" I looked at him unconvinced, "I'm glad you're here!! Seriously!!" He laughed, "Finish your coffee at least! Oh wait no, you didn't actually drink any of that did you?!" I laughed! "There see that's better!!" He playfully punched my chin! "Now, if you'd like me to make you a fresh cup I can just tip this down the sink!?" He raised his eyebrows & smirked.
"Oh I'm sure it will be fine!!" I laughed.
"Sit down yeah?"
"Ok ok! But only for a few minutes....tell me when you want me to leave!"
We sat down & Matt told me what he'd been up to at work & we talked for quite a while!
"Well I'm sorry but clotheslines are to hang up your washing & tombstones are something you see in cemetary's!!"
"Heathan!" Matt laughed.
"Well I have heard of that one guy, the Rock! Jake is always going on about how cool he is! Oh & I saw The Mummy Returns but only cause Brendan Frasier's hot!!" I giggled!
"Everyone's heard of the Rock!" Matt rolled his eyes!
"So what's he like then?"
"Who Dwayne? He's a pretty cool guy!"
"Who?!"
"Dwa....The Rock!!"
"DWAYNE!!? You are telling me his name is Dwayne?!" I laughed.
"Yeah...and???!"
"Oh sorry! Nothin' really it's just...well it doesn't seem like the right sort of name for a big tough guy like him!!" I laughed & drank some more coffee.
"So, has Mick gone home yet?!"
The smile quickly faded from my face & I shook my head. "I got Steve to take him out!"
"Ah right!"
=awkward silence!=
'He's driving me fucking crazy matt!!" I blurted out! Matt just nodded. "It's not gonna work...this spending time with him crap! I just don't feel the same about him anymore! I can't even stand him touching me & I feel like such a bitch! I mean he hasn't done anything wrong.....he just hasn't done anything right!!"
"Good!"
"And I just can.....what?"
"Huh?"
"What did you just say?!"
Matt put his cup down & came over to me. He took hold of both of my hands & puled me from the seat. When we were face to face he spoke.
"I said good! I'm glad!"
"Wh....why?!"
"I'm glad you know what you want!"
"Oh...yeah right!"
(For a minute I thought he'd meant he was glad I wasn't with Mick anymore!! How stupid could I get in one night?!?!)
"I know what I want....right now!!" He grinned & pulled me roughly!
"Matt!" I laughed.
"Any objections can be taken up with my lawyer...and he lives in Siberia & has no phone.....what a shame!" he winked!
I looked into his gorgeous eyes & his smile faded. He held my face in his & pressed his lips against mine. I was trembling & my heart was going faster than a train! He broke the kiss & gently took my hand, leading me up to his room....I had no cell phone this time & nothing would interrupt us!!