Chapter 19
It was everything I had expected it to be and then some!! Matt was like a dream...someone you think you'll meet someday but never do!! Only I HAD met the dream & it was amazing!! He was very gentle, seemed to know exactly what I wanted & how I wanted it!! I never wanted the night to end, never wanted our body's to become two separate things again....never wanted to have to go back to Mick!! My skin tingled all over just when he touched me, lying next to him with our naked bodies together was a sensation I'd never experianced before! I didn't want to leave, but when I saw the time I knew I had to go! As I got dressed Matt came up behind me & kissed my neck.
"You ok with all of this?!"
I smiled, I was more than ok....if only he knew!! "Yeah why wouldn't I be?!"
"Oh I don't know...just you going back to Edbrook.....and Mick will be there.."
"Yeah," I sighed, "I'll have to handle Mick as soon as possible...I don't even want him to touch me anymore Matt!"
"It's not because of me is it?!" He said, backing off slightly.
"No..no it isn't!" (What a liar!) "It's to do with me & Mick & I need to get it sorted! I can't let it go on any longer!"
Later that night after Matt had walked me home I lay in my bed dreading Mick comming back! Why did he have to come here now...in the middle of all of this shit?! The more I thought about him the angrier I became, he hadn't done anything wrong but I just couldn't help myself!! Since comming to the States my life had been turned on it's head & I seemed to be losing the control I once had over my destiny! When Matt had made love to me earlier it was like nothing I'd ever felt before in my life! He was the total opposite of Mick, he was more concerned with getting himself off & I found it hard to believe I'd put up with that for two years!! In the back of my mind there was this nagging doubt that I'd just made the single biggest mistake ever! I was in too deep now & it wasn't good! What I had felt for Matt before tonight had now increased ten fold!! I knew Matt didn't feel the same way about me so I shouldn't have let it get so far, I'd left my heart wide open for a good swift kicking!! But if I'd stopped it, if I'd just resisted, I would be forever wondering what it would have been like & I would have missed out on the best sex I'd ever had!!!
My thoughts were interrupted when Mick came crashing through the door totally wasted!!
"Hey babe!!" he said as he sat on the edge of the bed trying to pull off his shoes.
"Hi."
"Woah! What a great night!! I think I had a little too much to drink!!" He giggled stupidly!
"You think huh?!" I said coldly & turned away!
"Steve is one hell of a guy!"
"Mmm yeah."
He went into the bathroom to pee & when his back was turned I childishly gave him the finger!!
"You enjoy your movie then?" He shouted.
"Yes thankyou!"
"What did you watch?"
=SHIT!=
"Oh.....erm........."
=Think! Think!!=
".........erm something with Sandra Bullock in!!"
"What was it called?"
"What?"
=Oh Christ think quickly girl!!=
"I said what was it called??!"
"I.....erm.....I can't remember!"
=Think! Think! Think!=
"............erm.........Feeling Minnisota!"
"Oh right!" He came out of the bathroom naked & I looked away! God how I wished he just wasn't here!! "Feeling Minnisota huh?!"
"Yeah!"
"Where have you been?!" He sat onn the bed & my stomach churned.
"What do you mean where have I been?! I've been right here......watching a movie!! I just told you that!" I snapped.
"Oh you have huh?!"
"Yes!"
"That's strange!"
"Mick you're drunk! Go to sleep!"
"I didn't know Sandra Bullock was in Feeling Minnisota!"
My heart pounded, my mind raced!
=Keanu Reeves.....Keanu Reeves and....and who? THINK!!........Cameron Diaz!!!! SHIT! Not Sandra Bullock!!=
"I erm....I meant it was Cameron Diaz.......I always get those 2 mixed up!"
"Right!" He nodded. I didnt like his manner, it scared me!! "So you didnt go anywhere at all tonight?"
"Mick why the 20 questions?! I told you already I ws here all night watching a movie for fucks sake!!"
"So where were you when I came back here earlier?!" I gulped.
=Now what?!=
"What?"
"I forgot my wallet so I came back......only you werent here!"
"Oh I...er...I.......erm........."
"I would say you've been busted wouldnt you?!"
I put my head down. "Mick I..........look....." I clasped my hands together on my lap frantically trying to put this into words!
"You're comming back to England with me............Tomorrow!"
"EXCUSE ME??!!" I sat up.
"You heard me! Pack your shit we're leaving in the morning!!"
"I'm not going anywhere with you!" I got out of bed & made for the bathroom but he roughly caught hold of my arm. "Ow! Mick!!!" I tried to free myself from his grip but I couldnt!
"You're comming home with me tomorrow like it or not!" His grip tightened on my arm & it hurt like hell!
"You're hurting me Mick! Please let go!!"
He threw me on the bed & it knocked the wind out of me! I lay there coughing & trying to get up! I had to get out of there fast, but it was too late, he was on top of me! He hit me in the face with a clenched fist & I was stunned!! Mick had never laid a finger on me in all the time we'd been together!!! He was always gentle & loving!! I couldnt believe this was happening!!
'You're going to give me what I want or I'm going to the press about your little boyfriend!!"
"WHAT!?" I was dazed & didn't know what he was talking about! The pain ripped through my cheek & I winced.
"How much damage would it do to his thriving carreer if his boss found out that he was screwing around with another man's woman?!"
Suddenly the penny dropped & I realised he was talking about Matt!! What the hell would it have to do with his boss who he was screwing anyway?!! Then I thought about it....thought how enthusiastic Matt had been when he was talking about his job! He loved his work more than anything....maybe a story like this would damage his reputation?! I couldnt take the risk!! He didnt care that much about me anyway, he'd care even less if he ruined his carreer for someone he couldnt give two shits about!!!
"You cant do this Mick its over!!"
"No. it's not over by a long shot Rebecca!! We're going home tomorrow....then it will be over!" I started to cry! "Don't cry!" He wiped a tear gently from my cheek, "We were meant to be together, you & me! I came here to take you home!" I sniffed, maybe he was calming down, maybe I could reason with him? I'd never seen him like this before & I was terrified!! "You'll forget all about Matt Hardy in time...once we are home! I love you Bec & I forgive you for getting caught up in this whole 'Superstar' thing!"
"Mick....please.I dont want to go ho..........." He yanked my hair & I cried out so he covered my mouth with his other hand! Tears streamed down my face & soaked the bed cover!
"I told you.....forget about the wrestler ok?!" He yanked my hair again & I winced...it was hard to breathe with his huge hand covering half of my face! "OK!?" He spat in my face. I nodded, "Good girl! Now then...." He started to pull of my dressing gown & then my nightdress, when he couldnt undo the buttons he ripped it off! I was shaking & sobbing, I'd been through hell & now Mick was going to do this to me?!?! Why me? What did I ever do to deserve this?!
"Mick please...I dont want this! Please dont do this!!"
"What are you going to do about it? Cry rape....AGAIN!?" he laughed, "Who's gonna believe yout his time Bec?!"
"No.how did you......"
"Oh I had a very interesting conversation with Steve tonight! He told me everything that's been going on! That's another reason you're comming home with me...for your own safety! I'm trying to look after you dammit!!"
"Please let me go!!"
"NO you UNGREATFUL BITCH!! Is this how you're gonna treat me when all I want to do is protect you?! You think that Hardy Boy gives a shit about someone like you?!"
"What's happened to you!?"
He laughed, "Do you realise how pathetic you sound? Whats happened to you!?'" he mocked me in a high pitched voice, "What's wrong is I'm hard.....and you're going to blow me.or your pissant little boyfriend will probably get fired!!"
He sat above me & thrust his penis into my mouth & I gagged! He was right, Matt would probably get fired & I cared too much about him to let that happen! He'd hate me for it & I couldn't stand that! So I did something I didn't know I was capable of....I left my body!! I just floated away so it wasn't really me on the bed at all....and my body was raped by a guy I was in love with for two years!! But no way was he having my soul aswell!!
It was everything I had expected it to be and then some!! Matt was like a dream...someone you think you'll meet someday but never do!! Only I HAD met the dream & it was amazing!! He was very gentle, seemed to know exactly what I wanted & how I wanted it!! I never wanted the night to end, never wanted our body's to become two separate things again....never wanted to have to go back to Mick!! My skin tingled all over just when he touched me, lying next to him with our naked bodies together was a sensation I'd never experianced before! I didn't want to leave, but when I saw the time I knew I had to go! As I got dressed Matt came up behind me & kissed my neck.
"You ok with all of this?!"
I smiled, I was more than ok....if only he knew!! "Yeah why wouldn't I be?!"
"Oh I don't know...just you going back to Edbrook.....and Mick will be there.."
"Yeah," I sighed, "I'll have to handle Mick as soon as possible...I don't even want him to touch me anymore Matt!"
"It's not because of me is it?!" He said, backing off slightly.
"No..no it isn't!" (What a liar!) "It's to do with me & Mick & I need to get it sorted! I can't let it go on any longer!"
Later that night after Matt had walked me home I lay in my bed dreading Mick comming back! Why did he have to come here now...in the middle of all of this shit?! The more I thought about him the angrier I became, he hadn't done anything wrong but I just couldn't help myself!! Since comming to the States my life had been turned on it's head & I seemed to be losing the control I once had over my destiny! When Matt had made love to me earlier it was like nothing I'd ever felt before in my life! He was the total opposite of Mick, he was more concerned with getting himself off & I found it hard to believe I'd put up with that for two years!! In the back of my mind there was this nagging doubt that I'd just made the single biggest mistake ever! I was in too deep now & it wasn't good! What I had felt for Matt before tonight had now increased ten fold!! I knew Matt didn't feel the same way about me so I shouldn't have let it get so far, I'd left my heart wide open for a good swift kicking!! But if I'd stopped it, if I'd just resisted, I would be forever wondering what it would have been like & I would have missed out on the best sex I'd ever had!!!
My thoughts were interrupted when Mick came crashing through the door totally wasted!!
"Hey babe!!" he said as he sat on the edge of the bed trying to pull off his shoes.
"Hi."
"Woah! What a great night!! I think I had a little too much to drink!!" He giggled stupidly!
"You think huh?!" I said coldly & turned away!
"Steve is one hell of a guy!"
"Mmm yeah."
He went into the bathroom to pee & when his back was turned I childishly gave him the finger!!
"You enjoy your movie then?" He shouted.
"Yes thankyou!"
"What did you watch?"
=SHIT!=
"Oh.....erm........."
=Think! Think!!=
".........erm something with Sandra Bullock in!!"
"What was it called?"
"What?"
=Oh Christ think quickly girl!!=
"I said what was it called??!"
"I.....erm.....I can't remember!"
=Think! Think! Think!=
"............erm.........Feeling Minnisota!"
"Oh right!" He came out of the bathroom naked & I looked away! God how I wished he just wasn't here!! "Feeling Minnisota huh?!"
"Yeah!"
"Where have you been?!" He sat onn the bed & my stomach churned.
"What do you mean where have I been?! I've been right here......watching a movie!! I just told you that!" I snapped.
"Oh you have huh?!"
"Yes!"
"That's strange!"
"Mick you're drunk! Go to sleep!"
"I didn't know Sandra Bullock was in Feeling Minnisota!"
My heart pounded, my mind raced!
=Keanu Reeves.....Keanu Reeves and....and who? THINK!!........Cameron Diaz!!!! SHIT! Not Sandra Bullock!!=
"I erm....I meant it was Cameron Diaz.......I always get those 2 mixed up!"
"Right!" He nodded. I didnt like his manner, it scared me!! "So you didnt go anywhere at all tonight?"
"Mick why the 20 questions?! I told you already I ws here all night watching a movie for fucks sake!!"
"So where were you when I came back here earlier?!" I gulped.
=Now what?!=
"What?"
"I forgot my wallet so I came back......only you werent here!"
"Oh I...er...I.......erm........."
"I would say you've been busted wouldnt you?!"
I put my head down. "Mick I..........look....." I clasped my hands together on my lap frantically trying to put this into words!
"You're comming back to England with me............Tomorrow!"
"EXCUSE ME??!!" I sat up.
"You heard me! Pack your shit we're leaving in the morning!!"
"I'm not going anywhere with you!" I got out of bed & made for the bathroom but he roughly caught hold of my arm. "Ow! Mick!!!" I tried to free myself from his grip but I couldnt!
"You're comming home with me tomorrow like it or not!" His grip tightened on my arm & it hurt like hell!
"You're hurting me Mick! Please let go!!"
He threw me on the bed & it knocked the wind out of me! I lay there coughing & trying to get up! I had to get out of there fast, but it was too late, he was on top of me! He hit me in the face with a clenched fist & I was stunned!! Mick had never laid a finger on me in all the time we'd been together!!! He was always gentle & loving!! I couldnt believe this was happening!!
'You're going to give me what I want or I'm going to the press about your little boyfriend!!"
"WHAT!?" I was dazed & didn't know what he was talking about! The pain ripped through my cheek & I winced.
"How much damage would it do to his thriving carreer if his boss found out that he was screwing around with another man's woman?!"
Suddenly the penny dropped & I realised he was talking about Matt!! What the hell would it have to do with his boss who he was screwing anyway?!! Then I thought about it....thought how enthusiastic Matt had been when he was talking about his job! He loved his work more than anything....maybe a story like this would damage his reputation?! I couldnt take the risk!! He didnt care that much about me anyway, he'd care even less if he ruined his carreer for someone he couldnt give two shits about!!!
"You cant do this Mick its over!!"
"No. it's not over by a long shot Rebecca!! We're going home tomorrow....then it will be over!" I started to cry! "Don't cry!" He wiped a tear gently from my cheek, "We were meant to be together, you & me! I came here to take you home!" I sniffed, maybe he was calming down, maybe I could reason with him? I'd never seen him like this before & I was terrified!! "You'll forget all about Matt Hardy in time...once we are home! I love you Bec & I forgive you for getting caught up in this whole 'Superstar' thing!"
"Mick....please.I dont want to go ho..........." He yanked my hair & I cried out so he covered my mouth with his other hand! Tears streamed down my face & soaked the bed cover!
"I told you.....forget about the wrestler ok?!" He yanked my hair again & I winced...it was hard to breathe with his huge hand covering half of my face! "OK!?" He spat in my face. I nodded, "Good girl! Now then...." He started to pull of my dressing gown & then my nightdress, when he couldnt undo the buttons he ripped it off! I was shaking & sobbing, I'd been through hell & now Mick was going to do this to me?!?! Why me? What did I ever do to deserve this?!
"Mick please...I dont want this! Please dont do this!!"
"What are you going to do about it? Cry rape....AGAIN!?" he laughed, "Who's gonna believe yout his time Bec?!"
"No.how did you......"
"Oh I had a very interesting conversation with Steve tonight! He told me everything that's been going on! That's another reason you're comming home with me...for your own safety! I'm trying to look after you dammit!!"
"Please let me go!!"
"NO you UNGREATFUL BITCH!! Is this how you're gonna treat me when all I want to do is protect you?! You think that Hardy Boy gives a shit about someone like you?!"
"What's happened to you!?"
He laughed, "Do you realise how pathetic you sound? Whats happened to you!?'" he mocked me in a high pitched voice, "What's wrong is I'm hard.....and you're going to blow me.or your pissant little boyfriend will probably get fired!!"
He sat above me & thrust his penis into my mouth & I gagged! He was right, Matt would probably get fired & I cared too much about him to let that happen! He'd hate me for it & I couldn't stand that! So I did something I didn't know I was capable of....I left my body!! I just floated away so it wasn't really me on the bed at all....and my body was raped by a guy I was in love with for two years!! But no way was he having my soul aswell!!