Chapter 20
When it was over, which seemed like hours when actually it had only gone on for 30 minutes, I lay there staring at the celing. This wasn't happening to me.....it was something that went on in movies or to poors cows on the Sally Jesse show!! I didnt know what to do next! I felt numb, stunned and the pain in my cheek & my eye was almost unbearable! I looked over at Mick who was snoring & I wanted to kill him! Literally just put the pillow on his head & hold it there until I'd squashed the last breath from his body!!
Carefully I slipped out of bed & put my clothes on. My heart was pounding in my ears & I barely dared to breath incase I woke him up! I went downstairs, out of the front door & ran! Tears streamed down my cheeks & my legs felt like they would buckle at any moment but still I ran as fast as I could, as if my life depended on it!
I got to Matt's & hammered on the door!
"Somebody let me in PLEASE!!" I was gasping for air & my lungs were burning! Jeff opened the door still half asleep!
"What's the...JESUS WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU!?" He ushered me inside.
"I have to see Matt!"
"Ok calm down!"
Matt walked into the kitchen, "Where's the fire?" He stopped mid-yawn when he saw me, "BEC?! What happened to your face?!" He held me.
"Oh Matt!!" I sobbed, "I have to go home! Back to England!!"
"Hey! Hey wait a minute!! What?!"
"Tomorrow! I'm leaving!! I came to say goodbye!!"
"What happened to your face?!" he asked again. I reached up & took hold of his face with both of my hands.
"Listen to me Matt! I need to tell you......I........I love you!" He looked stunned!! "I love you, but I have to go and I'm sorry!!"
"What happened to your face Bec!? Who hit you!?"
"I have to go NOW!!" I pulled away but he pulled me back. "Matt please!! This is hard enough for me!! I have to go now before he wakes up!!"
"Bec........." he looked so confused! I grabbed hold of him & kissed his lips, I never wanted it to end but time wasn't exactly on my side!! Things would be much worse if he woke up & I was gone!
I broke the kiss & looked into his eyes.
"Why are you leaving?!"
"I cant explain right now...I dont have time Matt please!! Just know that I'm in love with you & I'll never forget you! I have to go!!"
"But Bec!!"
"You'll understand someday! Look I know you cant feel for me what I feel for you....thats ok.....it doesnt matter!! But I wanted you to know how I felt before I left! I have to go now!" I sobbed. Matt stood there looking like he'd just been hit by a bus!! I grabbed the door handle then went back & kissed Jeff on the cheek! "Bye Jeff!" He looked as stunned as Matt did!! I took one last look at Matt through my tears & then ran out of the door!
All the way home I cried! My stomach hurt, my legs were on fire & my heart was broken! I didnt think a broken heart could cause you physical pain....but it did!!
When I got inside I prayed Mick hadn't woken up or there'd be hell to pay! I quickly undressed as I ran up the stairs and thankfully when I got into my room he hadn't moved! I felt sick sliding back into the bed with him, I turned over & cried into my pillow! This was it! No way out!!
Next morning Mick was full of appologies for hitting me, but insisted it was for my own good & the only way he could get me to see sense! I went along with everything, quietly packing my things into my cases, again I wasnt really in my body, I was watching a movie about some silly bitch who was too dumb to leave a guy that hit her!!
Mary was devastated & confused when we walked downstairs with our bags! I hugged her & prominsed to keep in touch & she kept asking me if I was ok! I just forced a smile & nodded.
Steve came & picked up our bags & put them into his car, he didnt say a word! As we drove along the road I saw two figures getting closer, and realised it was Matt & Jeff on their way to Edbrook! As we drove past them they stared at the car dumbfounded! I turned and looked through the rear window, tears welling up in my eyes!
"Forget about him!!" Mick said harshly & turned my head around.
At the airport I excused myself & went to the bathroom. I was shocked when I looked in the mirror.......my eye was swollen shut & all one side of my face was black & purple! I went into a cubicle & sobbed like I hadnt done since my grandfather had died!
When I came out again I could see Steve & Mick having some sort of heated discussion, arms waving around & right up in each others faces!!
"............my money you son of a bitch!!" Steve yelled.
"I did it myself in the end!" Mick shouted back!
"Whats going on?!"
"NOTHING!" Mick snapped at me. "Go and sit down!"
"No.....Bec maybe you should hear this!" Steve said raising his eyebrows at Mick! "Well? Do you want me to tell her or are you going to pay me right now!?"
"Tell me what? Whats going o........" Mick squeezed my arm hard in the same place as the bruise from the night before!
"I said go and SIT DOWN NOW!!" He said through clenched teeth!
"Pay me now or I tell her everything!"
I looked from one of them to the other, totally confused! "Mick tell me whats going on here!!"
"You didnt earn any money!! What am I paying you for?!"
"you're paying me for....." Steve looked at me then back at Mick and cleared his throat, "....You're paying me for..the phonecalls!!"
"Wh....what?!!" I rubbed my head.
"The fact that I hid in the damn bushes!"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP NOW!!" Mick shoved Steve.
"Steve??!" I gasped for air & everything was spinning!
"Yeah thats right Bec!! It was me!! It was all me!!"
"NO!"
"YES!! He told me to do it! He wanted you scared enough to make you go home!!"
I reached for something solid to stop me from collapsing to the ground but there was nothing! The only thing stopping me falling was Mick's grip on my arm!
"I SAID SHUT UP ASS HOLE!!" he punched Steve who went sprawling on the floor & then he yanked me towards the boarding gate!
"You?! You did this to me?!"
"We're going home!" He was almost running & my legs couldnt keep up with his pace & I fell! Everyone was staring at us as Mick pulled my arm so hard he lifted me from the floor!
"LET ME GO!!" I screamed but he just kept on running!! We were through the gate before I heard a shout from behind!
"STOP RIGHT THERE YOU SON OF A BITCH!!"
MATT!
When it was over, which seemed like hours when actually it had only gone on for 30 minutes, I lay there staring at the celing. This wasn't happening to me.....it was something that went on in movies or to poors cows on the Sally Jesse show!! I didnt know what to do next! I felt numb, stunned and the pain in my cheek & my eye was almost unbearable! I looked over at Mick who was snoring & I wanted to kill him! Literally just put the pillow on his head & hold it there until I'd squashed the last breath from his body!!
Carefully I slipped out of bed & put my clothes on. My heart was pounding in my ears & I barely dared to breath incase I woke him up! I went downstairs, out of the front door & ran! Tears streamed down my cheeks & my legs felt like they would buckle at any moment but still I ran as fast as I could, as if my life depended on it!
I got to Matt's & hammered on the door!
"Somebody let me in PLEASE!!" I was gasping for air & my lungs were burning! Jeff opened the door still half asleep!
"What's the...JESUS WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU!?" He ushered me inside.
"I have to see Matt!"
"Ok calm down!"
Matt walked into the kitchen, "Where's the fire?" He stopped mid-yawn when he saw me, "BEC?! What happened to your face?!" He held me.
"Oh Matt!!" I sobbed, "I have to go home! Back to England!!"
"Hey! Hey wait a minute!! What?!"
"Tomorrow! I'm leaving!! I came to say goodbye!!"
"What happened to your face?!" he asked again. I reached up & took hold of his face with both of my hands.
"Listen to me Matt! I need to tell you......I........I love you!" He looked stunned!! "I love you, but I have to go and I'm sorry!!"
"What happened to your face Bec!? Who hit you!?"
"I have to go NOW!!" I pulled away but he pulled me back. "Matt please!! This is hard enough for me!! I have to go now before he wakes up!!"
"Bec........." he looked so confused! I grabbed hold of him & kissed his lips, I never wanted it to end but time wasn't exactly on my side!! Things would be much worse if he woke up & I was gone!
I broke the kiss & looked into his eyes.
"Why are you leaving?!"
"I cant explain right now...I dont have time Matt please!! Just know that I'm in love with you & I'll never forget you! I have to go!!"
"But Bec!!"
"You'll understand someday! Look I know you cant feel for me what I feel for you....thats ok.....it doesnt matter!! But I wanted you to know how I felt before I left! I have to go now!" I sobbed. Matt stood there looking like he'd just been hit by a bus!! I grabbed the door handle then went back & kissed Jeff on the cheek! "Bye Jeff!" He looked as stunned as Matt did!! I took one last look at Matt through my tears & then ran out of the door!
All the way home I cried! My stomach hurt, my legs were on fire & my heart was broken! I didnt think a broken heart could cause you physical pain....but it did!!
When I got inside I prayed Mick hadn't woken up or there'd be hell to pay! I quickly undressed as I ran up the stairs and thankfully when I got into my room he hadn't moved! I felt sick sliding back into the bed with him, I turned over & cried into my pillow! This was it! No way out!!
Next morning Mick was full of appologies for hitting me, but insisted it was for my own good & the only way he could get me to see sense! I went along with everything, quietly packing my things into my cases, again I wasnt really in my body, I was watching a movie about some silly bitch who was too dumb to leave a guy that hit her!!
Mary was devastated & confused when we walked downstairs with our bags! I hugged her & prominsed to keep in touch & she kept asking me if I was ok! I just forced a smile & nodded.
Steve came & picked up our bags & put them into his car, he didnt say a word! As we drove along the road I saw two figures getting closer, and realised it was Matt & Jeff on their way to Edbrook! As we drove past them they stared at the car dumbfounded! I turned and looked through the rear window, tears welling up in my eyes!
"Forget about him!!" Mick said harshly & turned my head around.
At the airport I excused myself & went to the bathroom. I was shocked when I looked in the mirror.......my eye was swollen shut & all one side of my face was black & purple! I went into a cubicle & sobbed like I hadnt done since my grandfather had died!
When I came out again I could see Steve & Mick having some sort of heated discussion, arms waving around & right up in each others faces!!
"............my money you son of a bitch!!" Steve yelled.
"I did it myself in the end!" Mick shouted back!
"Whats going on?!"
"NOTHING!" Mick snapped at me. "Go and sit down!"
"No.....Bec maybe you should hear this!" Steve said raising his eyebrows at Mick! "Well? Do you want me to tell her or are you going to pay me right now!?"
"Tell me what? Whats going o........" Mick squeezed my arm hard in the same place as the bruise from the night before!
"I said go and SIT DOWN NOW!!" He said through clenched teeth!
"Pay me now or I tell her everything!"
I looked from one of them to the other, totally confused! "Mick tell me whats going on here!!"
"You didnt earn any money!! What am I paying you for?!"
"you're paying me for....." Steve looked at me then back at Mick and cleared his throat, "....You're paying me for..the phonecalls!!"
"Wh....what?!!" I rubbed my head.
"The fact that I hid in the damn bushes!"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP NOW!!" Mick shoved Steve.
"Steve??!" I gasped for air & everything was spinning!
"Yeah thats right Bec!! It was me!! It was all me!!"
"NO!"
"YES!! He told me to do it! He wanted you scared enough to make you go home!!"
I reached for something solid to stop me from collapsing to the ground but there was nothing! The only thing stopping me falling was Mick's grip on my arm!
"I SAID SHUT UP ASS HOLE!!" he punched Steve who went sprawling on the floor & then he yanked me towards the boarding gate!
"You?! You did this to me?!"
"We're going home!" He was almost running & my legs couldnt keep up with his pace & I fell! Everyone was staring at us as Mick pulled my arm so hard he lifted me from the floor!
"LET ME GO!!" I screamed but he just kept on running!! We were through the gate before I heard a shout from behind!
"STOP RIGHT THERE YOU SON OF A BITCH!!"
MATT!