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**As you might have guessed... ff.net is probably going to die sooner or later, because of all the banning and junk... soooo... a new site has been discovered... and that would be www.fandomination.net !!!!! I've checked it out before, not too popular, but still very good! Personally, I prefer fanfiction.net because it's simpler and not as confusing... but it still gets the same purpose! Please go check it out and maybe we can make it happen!!!! ^^ Tell friends, tell family!!!! XD But hey... maybe ff.net will do something about all the banning... if not... I think we should all move on. ^^ GO CHECK IT OUT!! www.fandomination.net !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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"Alex?" Trunks looked up from his beverage, (THERE'S THAT WORD AGAIN! WOOHOO!) straightening his back from a slouch.
"Hm?" Alex replied directing her emerald eyes from the dance floor to his. (I'm in need of another world for eyes or eye... .)
"What? I didn't get a word you just said." Alex replied, scrunching up her forehead in confusion and curiosity. (I had the urge (herbal essence!!) to write "dahling" in there somewhere...oO;;; *shudder*)
"Well... Do you think... uh... thatmaybewecouldgoouttodinnerorsomething,sometime?" Trunks muttered the last part quickly, and then heaved a short sigh of relief.
"Wait... are you asking me out?" Alex asked, clarifying what he just said.
**~**~**~**~**~**
Quietly awakening... I always, always wish That these fleeting thoughts Would reach you...
"Uh... yeah... I guess..." Trunks replied softly and shyly. (Shy...? Soft...? Is that him??)
Alex almost wanted to jump for joy. Trunks Brief (Yes people! It's BRIEF! Not BRIEFS! I watched this one episode that proved it ^^... moving on...) is actually asking me out?!?! Loyal, sensitive, handsome, charming, smart, nice, seductive... what more can you ask for??? (emphasizing "seductive" *hint hint*)
She couldn't help but let a weak smile tug at her lips as she thought of the details. (emphasizing "details" *hint hint*)
"Is that a yes...?" He asked unsurely, interrupting her train of thought.
Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance The way I see before me is always blocked Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up, My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.
But what about Pan? What about their engagement? What about their "love"? (emphasizing "love" *hint hint* I know too much emphasizing and *hint hint*- ing ^^)
"Um... I gotta go!" I said in a hurry while taking off. (YAY! She's not a bitch!!!!)
"I guess that's a no..." Trunks muttered to himself while directing his attention back to the bar.
***Alex***
Oh god. What do I do? Trunks just asked me out. He just ASKED ME OUT. And I stormed out on him. And what about Pan? Is their relationship over? Is the engagement off? What do I say to him tomorrow at work? WHAT DO I DO?!!?
Thoughts raced through my head, making it throb with frustration. I sighed as I pulled up the convertible, putting the top up. As I waited for the top to unfold, I thought about the situation more and more.
I had to talk to Pan. No, I NEEDED to talk to Pan.
If there is such a thing as "eternity," I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way. Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.
"Damnit!" I cursed, slamming my fist onto the dashboard. Could the top go down any FASTER?!?!
Finally, the top was in place. I stepped out and sped off inside the building.
"Hurry up, hurry up, hurry up! FUCK!" I yelled, jamming my finger against the elevator button over and over again. The couple others who were also waiting for the elevator, shot me some odd looks as the blood rushed to my cheeks and tried to make myself disappear.
Finding the door unlocked, I burst into the apartment, discovering Pan watching TV while clutching the phone with dull, emotionless eyes.
"What happened?!?" She jumped up, seeing the flushed look on my face.
"Pan, I need to...." I started then finished quickly, "TOGO TO PEE!!!!" (how immature I know)
I dashed to the bathroom and slammed the door behind me. After taking a leak and doing my business, I came out looking for Pan.
I think of you And that alone is enough to make the tears start to flow now I always, always wish That these fleeting thoughts Would reach you...
"Pan, we need to talk." I stated directly.
"Okay." She replied tonelessly.
***Third Person POV***
"Okay," I took in a deep breath, "IwasattheclubandIsawTrunksatthebarsoIwentoverandtalkedtohimandheaskedmeout! ButthenItoldhimIhadtogoandrushed out thedoor.Arethingswithyouandhimokay? ARE YOU LISTENING?"
"Whoa... Whoa!" Pan looked blown away, "Alex, calm down... now... say it again, but this time SLOWLY, I got lost around 'Okay'!"
"Alright..." Alex said while sighing, "I was at the club... and I well... er... saw Trunks... and..." Alex paused.
"Yeah...??? Andddd???" Pan asked eagerly, seeing if he said anything about her.
"Well... then he... er.... askedmeout." Alex mumbled.
Pan sat there and let it sink in for a little before screaming, "WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?"
Alex coughed and sweat dropped.
"So what did you say??? IF YOU SAID YES THEN YOU DIE!!!!!" Pan threatened, waving her fist in front of her green-eyed friend.
"Er... I... Ran away...." Alex said quietly.
"Oh." Pan put her fist down. "Well then that changes it all... hehehehe..."
"But what do I do tomorrow? I haveta go to work, yanno..." Alex asked.
"Er... not quite..." Pan stated informatively.
Alex cocked a brow, "Eh?"
"Don't you have the doctor's appointment... A check up or something?" Pan hinted.
"OH YEAHHHHH!!!" Alex lit up, "But one more question..."
"What's that?" Pan inquired.
"Um... Why would Trunks ask me out when you guys are engaged...?"
"Uh... I dunno........."
"Well... call and ASK!!!!!!!!!"
"ASK? Are you STUPID or something!?"
"Well do SOMETHING to get more info!!!"
"Fine I'll call... but I won't ask." Pan gave in.
"Good." Alex said relieved (I dunno why relieved... I need a thesaurus badly...)
"Tomorrow." Pan said while heading off to her room.
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I've known all too well about pretending to be strong. But since then, my doubts have vanished.
Pan woke up groggily as she reached for the phone that was ringing annoyingly. 'God who the hell calls at 3 am in the morning?!?!?!!?!!??! And why do I always have to answer it?? Why is it that when ALEX sleeps it's like she's dead...???' After fumbling a little she picked up the phone and held it to her ear.
"Hello?" She asked drowsily. There was a short pause, "Hello? Is anyone there?" Her words were slurred and dripped with sleepiness.
Another pause. Pan sighed impatiently while putting the phone back in place.
There are definitely things I want to show you And so many words I want to hear I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry So I'll stop waiting And seize my "chance."
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***Trunks***
What's WRONG with me?!? I finally summed up enough courage to call Pan and tell her that I saw Scott and her at the park. And when she picked up the phone I... DIDN'T ANSWER?? God I'm such a fuckin idiot! Well... it couldn't hurt to try again... would it?
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***Third Person POV***
The phone rang again. Pan growled as she stuffed her ears with her pillow as best as she could. The phone didn't stop ringing.
"WHAT?" She asked impatiently.
Another pause.
Pan took in a breath, getting ready to talk again, but then a voice cut her off, "Hi..."
That voice. So sweet, so familiar. "Trunks?" Pan asked, quite certain it was him.
"Yeah..." Trunks replied softly. The lump in his throat was growing larger and larger by the second.
"What's wrong? Why are you calling at three in the morning? Are you ok?" Pan asked worriedly.
"Well... I just called... because... I need to tell you something." Trunks sighed heavily before continuing. "Pan... I think that we should call the engagement off..."
"What? Why?" Pan asked, clueless.
"Pan. Come on, you know why." Trunks insisted.
"No I don't. Trunks, what's wrong?" She asked him again.
"Pan, it's over. Take off the ring." Trunks stated.
"Trunks! You have to at least explain to me WHY it's over!!!" Pan's voice was rising.
"Pan... I know that you don't love me! I thought you did, but I guess the truth is you really don't," Trunks' voice was rising also. (cheesy dialogue, I know... but hey it's 12 am... I'm delirious)
"Trunks, I love you! I always have, and I always will!" Pan told him with tears overflowing from her eyes. She didn't see what she did wrong and how he could end this so fast. Was he just playing with her? (God I've been talking to Ryan too much. *scruffles hair* but I still love ya, buddy ^.~)
"Pan I saw you." Trunks told her. This hurt so much. Why me?
"Saw me??" Pan inquired.
"I saw you and that Scott guy at the park." Tears started running down his perfect face, "I saw you kissing."
"What? Trunks, you've got it all wrong! Scott and I were-" Pan tried to explain, but was cut off. (Stupid Trunks! Just listen!!! :O)
"I don't need your explanations." Trunks stated sadly.
"But-" Pan started but was cut off again.
"You'll be much happier with Scott... It's over, Pan." Tears spilled more rapidly down his cheeks, leaving trails of salty liquid.
"Trunks... please... let me explain..." Pan tried as she too had more tears trickling down her pale, creamy cheeks.
"Pan. I just want to let you know. I love you, and I always will." Trunks hung up. He sat on his bed... and cried. For the first time in his adult life, he cried.
I think of you, and I feel like that alone is enough to make my heart grow stronger. I always, always wish that these fleeting thoughts would reach you...
Pan heard the soft click as she placed her phone back to its place. Her eyes dropped to the plush white carpet as her vision blurred with tears, once again. She lay down with her face in her pillow, and cried. (Lotsa cryin goin on!)
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"Pan! Open up!!!" Alex knocked on the door furiously, trying to either break it down or get Pan to open it.
Fed up with the noise, Pan finally got up and unlocked the door, then lay down on her bed again.
Alex heard the lock click and as if it was a reflex, she twisted the knob and swung open the door.
"Pan?" Alex called as she neared the bed with the motionless figure of her friend on it.
Alex now stood at the edge of the mattress. Pan's back was facing her. She could see her body heave with the long deep breaths she took every few seconds.
"Pan?" Alex said, this time quietly, just above a whisper. "We're gonna be late... Are you still going to work? I need to go to the clinic..."
"I'm not going." Pan said breathlessly.
"What?" Alex asked worriedly, "Why, is something wrong? Do you feel ok?"
Pan sat up, turning her body to face Alex. Alex gasped at the sight. She has never, in the several years she's known Pan, seen her like this. Her eyes were bloodshot and red, as if she'd been crying for hours straight, her hair was tangled and messy, her eyes had dark gray rings under them, making her look somewhat like a raccoon would, basically, she looked like a wreck. (Now what could be the cause of that?)
"Pan, what happened???" A shocked Alex asked as she sat on the bed with her.
"Trunks... He and I..." Pan choked out between sobs, "We... broke up." Pan played with the ring she still had on her finger.
"Pan... I'm so sorry," Alex said while hugging her as Pan just sat there, unmoving.
A tear rolled from Pan's eye to her cheek. "It's alright... I'm fine." Pan said, wiping the tear away.
"Are you sure?" Alex asked her again, with the concerned look on her face. "Do you need anything? Can I get you something to drink?"
"I'm fine." Pan stated firmly while removing the engagement ring from her finger. She held it up to her eyes, and taking one last look at it. Alex watched with her mouth agape as she saw Pan threw the ring into her open closet, with messy clothing piled up within. "Let's go."
Pan stood and walked out of the room and into the bathroom to take a cold shower. Alex snapped out of her daze, closed her mouth that was hanging open, and walked out the door.
Pan closed her eyes and sighed as she felt the cold water pouring down her skin. She couldn't get over Trunks. How was she going to live?
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"Ready?" Alex asked cautiously as she watched Pan come from the bathroom.
"Yeah." Pan put a fake cheery smile on her face and walked out of the apartment after Alex. "So where're you going?"
"Uh... doctor check up thing. Just drop me off at the clinic." Alex told her as she got into the convertible.
"Ok." Pan stated simply as she turned on the engine, then sped off.
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"Mr. Brief..." The metallic voice boomed from the intercom, "Mr. Brief... hello?"
Trunks sat back in his large leather chair, holding a framed picture of the black-haired, brown-eyed beauty.
"MR. BRIEF!!!" The woman's voice screamed from the intercom again, snapping Trunks out of his thoughts.
Trunks jumped, quickly shoving the picture back into his drawer, putting it face down. "Yes?" He asked calming down.
"Your secretary called in today. She said she won't be coming to work." The voice informed, and waited for his reply.
"Oh. Ok..." Trunks said with a bit of gloominess; he wanted to ask how Pan was doing. 'Great Trunks... you dipshit... you scared her away last night... now she's probably gonna quit and never turn back. God I'm such a dickwad.'
"Er... thanks." He said at last before the woman turned off the intercom.
Trunks opened his drawer and took out the picture of Pan again. He blew his hair out of his eyes as he turned toward the huge windows of his office, while holding her picture to his heart. (aww isn't that SWEET!!!!!? ^^)
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"BYE!" She yelled while waving her hand as she sped off kicking up dust from her wheels.
"Bye." Alex said, left behind at the doors of the clinic. She guided herself through the motion-detected doors that swung open before her. She walked through the manila colored walls that were supposedly supposed to be a "calming" color. She hated clinics and all that crap.
She sighed as she stepped up to the check in desk.
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Pan shut the car door behind her and headed up the grassy hill. She stopped when she came to an open plain, decorated with a large rock or two.
Over looking the plain, was the deep blue water. She made herself a seat on the rock and watched the sun set slowly, disappearing beneath the horizon.
The place where he had purposed to her. Everything was so perfect, so great. She wanted it to last for forever, but it looks like she had to move on now.
'But it's so hard.' She thought as tears started to run down her pale cheeks.
I think of you And that alone is enough To make the tears start to flow now My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday It definitely will...
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Pan let herself in the apartment to be welcomed by a very sad Alex.
"OH PAN!" Alex said running to Pan and hugging her. She cried into her shoulder, soaking her in just seconds.
"What's wrong Alex?" Pan stood back and took a look into her eyes. Those cheery green eyes were replaced with sad and lifeless gray eyes.
"I went to my check up today... and..." Alex broke out in sobs.
"And what Alex?" Pan slightly shook her friend's shoulder, "What?"
"The doctor said..." Alex choked out between sobs, "That I have..."
"What do you have? Tell me, Alex!" Pan shook her again, anxious for the answer.
"I have... cancer." She replied breathlessly, answering Pan's questions.
Pan's eyes widened with shock. "How long?"
"Don't know... about a month or so," Silent tears fell from her eyes. "I have to go back to the hospital tomorrow. I've got it bad." A small smile broke out on her face, "But don't worry, we'll make the best of it."
"You are going to be fine." Pan comforted, "You can't die,"
She closed her eyes as tears streamed from them. 'You can't die. I need you. I've already lost Trunks. I can't loose you too.'
Believe. Believe. Believe.
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A/N: THAT'S IT!!! HEHEHEHE! I'm so proud! I actually finished!! *sob sob* now wasn't THIS chapter ::touching::??? XD of course! Heheeh sry about the delay in posting... I know I've been saying to some of you I've been chattin with online that I'd post that day... but things do happen... and writer's block does appear... (once in a while ^.~ yeah right... more like all the time) So I hope you enjoyed this chapter!!! I have no idea if it was sad... or not... but if you found it funny well then... it was SUPPOSED to be sad... please tell me what you think by reviewing on your way out!!!!!
LavenderLily: TWELVE PAGES! BOOYAH!!! Ok I just said booyah... what is the world coming to?!?!
Oh yeah... the song I used was "My Will" by Dream... it's the ending theme to Inu Yasha!!! ^^ Of course it's Japanese... but that's what the translation is... so yeah... you should all download it!!! IT ROCKS THE WORLD!!! (along with many other songs... ^^)
Tune in next time ^^ if you want me to email you when I post... TELL ME!!! XD
**As you might have guessed... ff.net is probably going to die sooner or later, because of all the banning and junk... soooo... a new site has been discovered... and that would be www.fandomination.net !!!!! I've checked it out before, not too popular, but still very good! Personally, I prefer fanfiction.net because it's simpler and not as confusing... but it still gets the same purpose! Please go check it out and maybe we can make it happen!!!! ^^ Tell friends, tell family!!!! XD But hey... maybe ff.net will do something about all the banning... if not... I think we should all move on. ^^ GO CHECK IT OUT!! www.fandomination.net !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So anyway... I hope you enjoy the chapter!!!! ^^
Disclaimer: *snicker snicker* IT'S NOT MINE!!!
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"Alex?" Trunks looked up from his beverage, (THERE'S THAT WORD AGAIN! WOOHOO!) straightening his back from a slouch.
"Hm?" Alex replied directing her emerald eyes from the dance floor to his. (I'm in need of another world for eyes or eye... .)
"What? I didn't get a word you just said." Alex replied, scrunching up her forehead in confusion and curiosity. (I had the urge (herbal essence!!) to write "dahling" in there somewhere...oO;;; *shudder*)
"Well... Do you think... uh... thatmaybewecouldgoouttodinnerorsomething,sometime?" Trunks muttered the last part quickly, and then heaved a short sigh of relief.
"Wait... are you asking me out?" Alex asked, clarifying what he just said.
**~**~**~**~**~**
Quietly awakening... I always, always wish That these fleeting thoughts Would reach you...
"Uh... yeah... I guess..." Trunks replied softly and shyly. (Shy...? Soft...? Is that him??)
Alex almost wanted to jump for joy. Trunks Brief (Yes people! It's BRIEF! Not BRIEFS! I watched this one episode that proved it ^^... moving on...) is actually asking me out?!?! Loyal, sensitive, handsome, charming, smart, nice, seductive... what more can you ask for??? (emphasizing "seductive" *hint hint*)
She couldn't help but let a weak smile tug at her lips as she thought of the details. (emphasizing "details" *hint hint*)
"Is that a yes...?" He asked unsurely, interrupting her train of thought.
Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance The way I see before me is always blocked Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up, My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.
But what about Pan? What about their engagement? What about their "love"? (emphasizing "love" *hint hint* I know too much emphasizing and *hint hint*- ing ^^)
"Um... I gotta go!" I said in a hurry while taking off. (YAY! She's not a bitch!!!!)
"I guess that's a no..." Trunks muttered to himself while directing his attention back to the bar.
***Alex***
Oh god. What do I do? Trunks just asked me out. He just ASKED ME OUT. And I stormed out on him. And what about Pan? Is their relationship over? Is the engagement off? What do I say to him tomorrow at work? WHAT DO I DO?!!?
Thoughts raced through my head, making it throb with frustration. I sighed as I pulled up the convertible, putting the top up. As I waited for the top to unfold, I thought about the situation more and more.
I had to talk to Pan. No, I NEEDED to talk to Pan.
If there is such a thing as "eternity," I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way. Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.
"Damnit!" I cursed, slamming my fist onto the dashboard. Could the top go down any FASTER?!?!
Finally, the top was in place. I stepped out and sped off inside the building.
"Hurry up, hurry up, hurry up! FUCK!" I yelled, jamming my finger against the elevator button over and over again. The couple others who were also waiting for the elevator, shot me some odd looks as the blood rushed to my cheeks and tried to make myself disappear.
Finding the door unlocked, I burst into the apartment, discovering Pan watching TV while clutching the phone with dull, emotionless eyes.
"What happened?!?" She jumped up, seeing the flushed look on my face.
"Pan, I need to...." I started then finished quickly, "TOGO TO PEE!!!!" (how immature I know)
I dashed to the bathroom and slammed the door behind me. After taking a leak and doing my business, I came out looking for Pan.
I think of you And that alone is enough to make the tears start to flow now I always, always wish That these fleeting thoughts Would reach you...
"Pan, we need to talk." I stated directly.
"Okay." She replied tonelessly.
***Third Person POV***
"Okay," I took in a deep breath, "IwasattheclubandIsawTrunksatthebarsoIwentoverandtalkedtohimandheaskedmeout! ButthenItoldhimIhadtogoandrushed out thedoor.Arethingswithyouandhimokay? ARE YOU LISTENING?"
"Whoa... Whoa!" Pan looked blown away, "Alex, calm down... now... say it again, but this time SLOWLY, I got lost around 'Okay'!"
"Alright..." Alex said while sighing, "I was at the club... and I well... er... saw Trunks... and..." Alex paused.
"Yeah...??? Andddd???" Pan asked eagerly, seeing if he said anything about her.
"Well... then he... er.... askedmeout." Alex mumbled.
Pan sat there and let it sink in for a little before screaming, "WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?"
Alex coughed and sweat dropped.
"So what did you say??? IF YOU SAID YES THEN YOU DIE!!!!!" Pan threatened, waving her fist in front of her green-eyed friend.
"Er... I... Ran away...." Alex said quietly.
"Oh." Pan put her fist down. "Well then that changes it all... hehehehe..."
"But what do I do tomorrow? I haveta go to work, yanno..." Alex asked.
"Er... not quite..." Pan stated informatively.
Alex cocked a brow, "Eh?"
"Don't you have the doctor's appointment... A check up or something?" Pan hinted.
"OH YEAHHHHH!!!" Alex lit up, "But one more question..."
"What's that?" Pan inquired.
"Um... Why would Trunks ask me out when you guys are engaged...?"
"Uh... I dunno........."
"Well... call and ASK!!!!!!!!!"
"ASK? Are you STUPID or something!?"
"Well do SOMETHING to get more info!!!"
"Fine I'll call... but I won't ask." Pan gave in.
"Good." Alex said relieved (I dunno why relieved... I need a thesaurus badly...)
"Tomorrow." Pan said while heading off to her room.
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I've known all too well about pretending to be strong. But since then, my doubts have vanished.
Pan woke up groggily as she reached for the phone that was ringing annoyingly. 'God who the hell calls at 3 am in the morning?!?!?!!?!!??! And why do I always have to answer it?? Why is it that when ALEX sleeps it's like she's dead...???' After fumbling a little she picked up the phone and held it to her ear.
"Hello?" She asked drowsily. There was a short pause, "Hello? Is anyone there?" Her words were slurred and dripped with sleepiness.
Another pause. Pan sighed impatiently while putting the phone back in place.
There are definitely things I want to show you And so many words I want to hear I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry So I'll stop waiting And seize my "chance."
**~**~**~**~**~**
***Trunks***
What's WRONG with me?!? I finally summed up enough courage to call Pan and tell her that I saw Scott and her at the park. And when she picked up the phone I... DIDN'T ANSWER?? God I'm such a fuckin idiot! Well... it couldn't hurt to try again... would it?
**~**~**~**~**~**
***Third Person POV***
The phone rang again. Pan growled as she stuffed her ears with her pillow as best as she could. The phone didn't stop ringing.
"WHAT?" She asked impatiently.
Another pause.
Pan took in a breath, getting ready to talk again, but then a voice cut her off, "Hi..."
That voice. So sweet, so familiar. "Trunks?" Pan asked, quite certain it was him.
"Yeah..." Trunks replied softly. The lump in his throat was growing larger and larger by the second.
"What's wrong? Why are you calling at three in the morning? Are you ok?" Pan asked worriedly.
"Well... I just called... because... I need to tell you something." Trunks sighed heavily before continuing. "Pan... I think that we should call the engagement off..."
"What? Why?" Pan asked, clueless.
"Pan. Come on, you know why." Trunks insisted.
"No I don't. Trunks, what's wrong?" She asked him again.
"Pan, it's over. Take off the ring." Trunks stated.
"Trunks! You have to at least explain to me WHY it's over!!!" Pan's voice was rising.
"Pan... I know that you don't love me! I thought you did, but I guess the truth is you really don't," Trunks' voice was rising also. (cheesy dialogue, I know... but hey it's 12 am... I'm delirious)
"Trunks, I love you! I always have, and I always will!" Pan told him with tears overflowing from her eyes. She didn't see what she did wrong and how he could end this so fast. Was he just playing with her? (God I've been talking to Ryan too much. *scruffles hair* but I still love ya, buddy ^.~)
"Pan I saw you." Trunks told her. This hurt so much. Why me?
"Saw me??" Pan inquired.
"I saw you and that Scott guy at the park." Tears started running down his perfect face, "I saw you kissing."
"What? Trunks, you've got it all wrong! Scott and I were-" Pan tried to explain, but was cut off. (Stupid Trunks! Just listen!!! :O)
"I don't need your explanations." Trunks stated sadly.
"But-" Pan started but was cut off again.
"You'll be much happier with Scott... It's over, Pan." Tears spilled more rapidly down his cheeks, leaving trails of salty liquid.
"Trunks... please... let me explain..." Pan tried as she too had more tears trickling down her pale, creamy cheeks.
"Pan. I just want to let you know. I love you, and I always will." Trunks hung up. He sat on his bed... and cried. For the first time in his adult life, he cried.
I think of you, and I feel like that alone is enough to make my heart grow stronger. I always, always wish that these fleeting thoughts would reach you...
Pan heard the soft click as she placed her phone back to its place. Her eyes dropped to the plush white carpet as her vision blurred with tears, once again. She lay down with her face in her pillow, and cried. (Lotsa cryin goin on!)
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"Pan! Open up!!!" Alex knocked on the door furiously, trying to either break it down or get Pan to open it.
Fed up with the noise, Pan finally got up and unlocked the door, then lay down on her bed again.
Alex heard the lock click and as if it was a reflex, she twisted the knob and swung open the door.
"Pan?" Alex called as she neared the bed with the motionless figure of her friend on it.
Alex now stood at the edge of the mattress. Pan's back was facing her. She could see her body heave with the long deep breaths she took every few seconds.
"Pan?" Alex said, this time quietly, just above a whisper. "We're gonna be late... Are you still going to work? I need to go to the clinic..."
"I'm not going." Pan said breathlessly.
"What?" Alex asked worriedly, "Why, is something wrong? Do you feel ok?"
Pan sat up, turning her body to face Alex. Alex gasped at the sight. She has never, in the several years she's known Pan, seen her like this. Her eyes were bloodshot and red, as if she'd been crying for hours straight, her hair was tangled and messy, her eyes had dark gray rings under them, making her look somewhat like a raccoon would, basically, she looked like a wreck. (Now what could be the cause of that?)
"Pan, what happened???" A shocked Alex asked as she sat on the bed with her.
"Trunks... He and I..." Pan choked out between sobs, "We... broke up." Pan played with the ring she still had on her finger.
"Pan... I'm so sorry," Alex said while hugging her as Pan just sat there, unmoving.
A tear rolled from Pan's eye to her cheek. "It's alright... I'm fine." Pan said, wiping the tear away.
"Are you sure?" Alex asked her again, with the concerned look on her face. "Do you need anything? Can I get you something to drink?"
"I'm fine." Pan stated firmly while removing the engagement ring from her finger. She held it up to her eyes, and taking one last look at it. Alex watched with her mouth agape as she saw Pan threw the ring into her open closet, with messy clothing piled up within. "Let's go."
Pan stood and walked out of the room and into the bathroom to take a cold shower. Alex snapped out of her daze, closed her mouth that was hanging open, and walked out the door.
Pan closed her eyes and sighed as she felt the cold water pouring down her skin. She couldn't get over Trunks. How was she going to live?
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"Ready?" Alex asked cautiously as she watched Pan come from the bathroom.
"Yeah." Pan put a fake cheery smile on her face and walked out of the apartment after Alex. "So where're you going?"
"Uh... doctor check up thing. Just drop me off at the clinic." Alex told her as she got into the convertible.
"Ok." Pan stated simply as she turned on the engine, then sped off.
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"Mr. Brief..." The metallic voice boomed from the intercom, "Mr. Brief... hello?"
Trunks sat back in his large leather chair, holding a framed picture of the black-haired, brown-eyed beauty.
"MR. BRIEF!!!" The woman's voice screamed from the intercom again, snapping Trunks out of his thoughts.
Trunks jumped, quickly shoving the picture back into his drawer, putting it face down. "Yes?" He asked calming down.
"Your secretary called in today. She said she won't be coming to work." The voice informed, and waited for his reply.
"Oh. Ok..." Trunks said with a bit of gloominess; he wanted to ask how Pan was doing. 'Great Trunks... you dipshit... you scared her away last night... now she's probably gonna quit and never turn back. God I'm such a dickwad.'
"Er... thanks." He said at last before the woman turned off the intercom.
Trunks opened his drawer and took out the picture of Pan again. He blew his hair out of his eyes as he turned toward the huge windows of his office, while holding her picture to his heart. (aww isn't that SWEET!!!!!? ^^)
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"BYE!" She yelled while waving her hand as she sped off kicking up dust from her wheels.
"Bye." Alex said, left behind at the doors of the clinic. She guided herself through the motion-detected doors that swung open before her. She walked through the manila colored walls that were supposedly supposed to be a "calming" color. She hated clinics and all that crap.
She sighed as she stepped up to the check in desk.
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Pan shut the car door behind her and headed up the grassy hill. She stopped when she came to an open plain, decorated with a large rock or two.
Over looking the plain, was the deep blue water. She made herself a seat on the rock and watched the sun set slowly, disappearing beneath the horizon.
The place where he had purposed to her. Everything was so perfect, so great. She wanted it to last for forever, but it looks like she had to move on now.
'But it's so hard.' She thought as tears started to run down her pale cheeks.
I think of you And that alone is enough To make the tears start to flow now My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday It definitely will...
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Pan let herself in the apartment to be welcomed by a very sad Alex.
"OH PAN!" Alex said running to Pan and hugging her. She cried into her shoulder, soaking her in just seconds.
"What's wrong Alex?" Pan stood back and took a look into her eyes. Those cheery green eyes were replaced with sad and lifeless gray eyes.
"I went to my check up today... and..." Alex broke out in sobs.
"And what Alex?" Pan slightly shook her friend's shoulder, "What?"
"The doctor said..." Alex choked out between sobs, "That I have..."
"What do you have? Tell me, Alex!" Pan shook her again, anxious for the answer.
"I have... cancer." She replied breathlessly, answering Pan's questions.
Pan's eyes widened with shock. "How long?"
"Don't know... about a month or so," Silent tears fell from her eyes. "I have to go back to the hospital tomorrow. I've got it bad." A small smile broke out on her face, "But don't worry, we'll make the best of it."
"You are going to be fine." Pan comforted, "You can't die,"
She closed her eyes as tears streamed from them. 'You can't die. I need you. I've already lost Trunks. I can't loose you too.'
Believe. Believe. Believe.
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A/N: THAT'S IT!!! HEHEHEHE! I'm so proud! I actually finished!! *sob sob* now wasn't THIS chapter ::touching::??? XD of course! Heheeh sry about the delay in posting... I know I've been saying to some of you I've been chattin with online that I'd post that day... but things do happen... and writer's block does appear... (once in a while ^.~ yeah right... more like all the time) So I hope you enjoyed this chapter!!! I have no idea if it was sad... or not... but if you found it funny well then... it was SUPPOSED to be sad... please tell me what you think by reviewing on your way out!!!!!
LavenderLily: TWELVE PAGES! BOOYAH!!! Ok I just said booyah... what is the world coming to?!?!
Oh yeah... the song I used was "My Will" by Dream... it's the ending theme to Inu Yasha!!! ^^ Of course it's Japanese... but that's what the translation is... so yeah... you should all download it!!! IT ROCKS THE WORLD!!! (along with many other songs... ^^)
Tune in next time ^^ if you want me to email you when I post... TELL ME!!! XD