Disclaimer: Nope, not mine, none of it. If Jason were mine I'd be too busy to do this.
A/N: Thanks to Rach for betaing.
Diary of the Dumpster
I can't do this anymore.
Trini got hurt yesterday. Bad. I've never been so scared in my life. The worst part was, she got hurt trying to protect me. Which wouldn't have happened at all if I had been a decent leader. Putties are stupid, but they know that if they can cut one of us off from the others they have a better shot at us. I should've known better.
Good leaders are good defensive strategists. They don't get taken in by obvious maneuvers from the enemy, and they sure as shit don't get distracted in the middle of a battle by wondering how to dump their girlfriend because they're in love with the wrong girl.
When I saw Trini hit the ground, and that big armored ape standing over her with his sword in the air… the only thing that kept me from killing Goldar was that he ran.
Trini's got a broken leg, nothing worse. Thank God. Certainly no thanks to me. Which is one of the reasons I've decided to quit.
There's this Peace Conference coming up in Geneva, and they are taking applications for teen representatives. I already put in an app and got accepted, though I hadn't decided for sure what to do. But yesterday put it in perspective for me. Haven't told the others yet. Not looking forward to that guilt trip.
I told Zordon. He understood, or at least he said he did. Then he told me he and Alpha had been working on creating new powers for me. White ones, with a new Tigerzord. The original plan was, I was supposed to give the Red powers to Tommy. But now Zordon's giving Tom these new White powers, along with the leadership of the Rangers, which, in all honesty, is a huge relief. Tom's good at that stuff, and he likes it. I can do it, but I hate putting my friends out there. Kim always says I'm overprotective, and I probably am. Knowing they can handle themselves and actually being able to let them do it are completely different issues.
I don't know who'll be the next Red. I'll always be proud that I was the first, but it's time for me to go. Maybe Trini will realize how much she loves me, drop everything and come to Switzerland with me… yeah right.
I'm not telling anyone that Zordon offered me the White powers first. Tommy'll be a great leader – he doesn't need anyone feeling like he was second choice. Zordon agrees and is going to back me up on that.
Guess I better start looking around for a promising Red. Maybe someone who won't feel so burdened by it all, who'll keep things light. He'll have to be a good fighter, and reasonably smart, maybe one of the guys in my dojo…