A/N: I don't own ne of the harry potter people and im not makin ne money
off this fic.
Alrighty 2 chapters whew whoo!! Go me! There's murder in this chapter so if you're queezy or somethin don't ready. Sorry but I need it in there lol adios!
"This is a really bad idea Lucius." Severus hissed, pulling his robes closer to him.
"Oh quit complaining, we're almost there." Lucius panted. They were far deeper in the Forbidden Forest than Severus ever wanted to be. He vaguely wondered how they were going to get out.
"How far do we have to go?" Severus grumbled again. Lucius didn't bother answering and just continued making his way through the snow on the ground, head down.
'How could I let him talk me into this. We're going to get caught and I'm going to have detention for the rest of my educational career! Either that or Voldermort is going to take one look at me and kill me right on the spot! And if that doesn't happen, I'm probably going to get eaten by some seven foot tall three hundred pound-'
"Three hundred pound what boy?" asked a cold voice in front of him. Both Severus and Lucius snapped their heads up. A tall man in emerald green robes stood in front of them. His eyes flashed a brilliant red color and his complexion was rather sullen and pale. Scarier than his appearance was the feeling that ran through Severus upon being so close to this man. He seemed to radiate power and hate and death.
Lucius recovered first and dropped to his knees, respectfully bowing his head. Severus, wanting to return to the castle as soon as possible and in one piece, did the same.
"Very nice my children, you may rise." Voldermort said silkily. In three steps he was standing before them. The absurdity of the situation finally hit Severus. He was standing in front of quite possibly, the most dangerous man in the world, about to become a Death Eater, and he wanted absolutely no part in it! Damn Malfoy!
"Now, I take it that you both wish to join the ranks of my Death Eaters?" Voldermort asked.
"Yes my Lord." Lucius answered. Severus stood dumbfounded for a moment until Voldermort's eyes fell on him.
"Yes my Lord." he said dumbly. Voldermort regarded him for a moment.
"There is something about you child." he said thoughtfully, looking into his eyes. Severus tensed for a moment. 'Please don't let him know about Lily.'
"Now, if you are both absolutely sure that you want this honor, you must perform a simple task. You can not turn this down. Are you willing to do this?" Severus and Lucius slowly nodded as The Dark Lord shut his eyes and began muttering under his breath.
When he opened his eyes two figures appeared at the boys' feet. Severus looked down and had to fight the bile rising in his throat. They were Muggle teenage girls, about the same age as them. Their hands were bound tightly behind their backs and their mouths were gagged. Beside them sat two shiny athames. Ceremonial knifes.
"Kill them." Voldermort said simply. Severus glanced at Lucius. He had gone noticeably more pale. However, he leaned down and picked up the knife swiftly. With a look of determination he brought the knife down and plunged it into the girl's chest without hesitation. Severus turned his head and tried to block out the strangled noise the girl made deep in her throat. When he opened his eyes Lucius was kneeling in front of the body, Voldermort standing over him. Severus didn't bother watching what was going on. All he could see was the girl lying bound on the ground before him, pleading eyes looking up at him.
With trembling hands he reached down and picked up the knife, holding it uncertainly in his hands.
"Why are you hesitating Severus?" came a silky voice in front of him. Severus clinched his jaw tight and gripped the knife harder. 'She's just a muggle. She doesn't mean anything. Her life is pointless.' He said over and over. Perhaps a week ago he could have convinced himself that was true. But not since meeting Lily.
"Do it Severus."
'Just do it quickly and get it over with, Don't look in her eyes.' he thought. Severus raised the athame higher over his head. In one swift motion he shut his eyes and brought the knife straight down. He felt the skin break and the warm blood soak over his hand. Suddenly he felt unbelievably powerful, as if a spark went through him. He had just taken someone's life. He should have felt bad but he just felt oddly powerful and detached from his body.
Severus kneeled next to the body and looked up at his new master. Voldermort kneeled down and dipped his thumb in the blood of the Muggle girl. Severus watched as Voldermort pushed up his cloak and robe. He brought his thumb down and pressed the blood into Severus' right forearm and shut his eyes.
A painful burning sensation slowly spread throughout his arm and Severus bit his lip to avoid screaming out. In a minute it was over and Voldermort removed his thumb, In it's place was the same image that was on the seal of his letter. The skull and the snake. He had been branded with the dark mark. He was a Death Eater.
~~**~~
Instead of heading to his dorm room to face his fellow Slytherins, Severus felt the need to be alone. He often had that feeling but tonight it was exceptionally strong. His emotions were running on an all time high and he had no idea where he stood. He had done something terribly wrong. He had murdered, and yet it didn't feel like that was what he did. Without even noticing it, Severus found himself at the library doors.
Lily.
He was supposed to meet her. What was he going to tell her? Was he going to tell her anything at all? Severus pushed open the heavy door and sighed. Apparently the library was empty and he could be alone to sort through the events of that night. He made his way to an overstuffed couch and sank into it with a sigh.
"You're really late." said a voice from behind him. Startled, Severus jumped to see Lily sitting on a chair behind him.
"Lily." he breathed. She regarded him for a moment with something he couldn't read written all over her face.
"I know." was all she said. She knew. He detected so many emotions in her voice. Pain, betrayal, pity. Severus swallowed hard.
"How?" he asked. She looked into his eyes and held his gaze.
"Peter told me. He saw you and Malfoy leave and he followed you. He saw what you did. I made him promise he wouldn't tell anyone else. Why Severus?" she said, her voice wavering at the last comment.
"I....I don't know." he answered truthfully.
"You don't know. You killed an innocent girl and you don't know why?! What if it was me out there Severus? Would you have done the same to me?" Severus flinched as she raised her voice and his anger began to swell.
"No." he managed to say.
"You're sick." she said. Severus stood up quickly then, eyes blazing. Lily instinctively pushed back in her chair. He walked over to stand directly before her, and she vaguely wondered if he was going to strike her. But then his face fell and his shoulders sagged back.
"Get out then." was all he said, turning his back to her and returning to the couch. Lily realized she had stopped breathing and took in a few breathes to steady herself. She took one look at the hunched, defensive form sitting on the couch before her.
Severus put his head in his hands to try and steady himself. The touch on his shoulder was gentle and unexpected, causing him to jump. He felt Lily sit next to him on the couch and sighed. What was she doing? Slowly, his hands were brought down from his face and he turned his head to look at her.
"No." she said simply. Those eyes were bearing into her, pleading with her to understand.
"Just leave Lily, you'll only get hurt." he said, pain in his voice. Lily's arms wrapped around him and pulled him into her.
"I love you Severus. And I'm going to make sure you get out of this mess."
Alrighty 2 chapters whew whoo!! Go me! There's murder in this chapter so if you're queezy or somethin don't ready. Sorry but I need it in there lol adios!
"This is a really bad idea Lucius." Severus hissed, pulling his robes closer to him.
"Oh quit complaining, we're almost there." Lucius panted. They were far deeper in the Forbidden Forest than Severus ever wanted to be. He vaguely wondered how they were going to get out.
"How far do we have to go?" Severus grumbled again. Lucius didn't bother answering and just continued making his way through the snow on the ground, head down.
'How could I let him talk me into this. We're going to get caught and I'm going to have detention for the rest of my educational career! Either that or Voldermort is going to take one look at me and kill me right on the spot! And if that doesn't happen, I'm probably going to get eaten by some seven foot tall three hundred pound-'
"Three hundred pound what boy?" asked a cold voice in front of him. Both Severus and Lucius snapped their heads up. A tall man in emerald green robes stood in front of them. His eyes flashed a brilliant red color and his complexion was rather sullen and pale. Scarier than his appearance was the feeling that ran through Severus upon being so close to this man. He seemed to radiate power and hate and death.
Lucius recovered first and dropped to his knees, respectfully bowing his head. Severus, wanting to return to the castle as soon as possible and in one piece, did the same.
"Very nice my children, you may rise." Voldermort said silkily. In three steps he was standing before them. The absurdity of the situation finally hit Severus. He was standing in front of quite possibly, the most dangerous man in the world, about to become a Death Eater, and he wanted absolutely no part in it! Damn Malfoy!
"Now, I take it that you both wish to join the ranks of my Death Eaters?" Voldermort asked.
"Yes my Lord." Lucius answered. Severus stood dumbfounded for a moment until Voldermort's eyes fell on him.
"Yes my Lord." he said dumbly. Voldermort regarded him for a moment.
"There is something about you child." he said thoughtfully, looking into his eyes. Severus tensed for a moment. 'Please don't let him know about Lily.'
"Now, if you are both absolutely sure that you want this honor, you must perform a simple task. You can not turn this down. Are you willing to do this?" Severus and Lucius slowly nodded as The Dark Lord shut his eyes and began muttering under his breath.
When he opened his eyes two figures appeared at the boys' feet. Severus looked down and had to fight the bile rising in his throat. They were Muggle teenage girls, about the same age as them. Their hands were bound tightly behind their backs and their mouths were gagged. Beside them sat two shiny athames. Ceremonial knifes.
"Kill them." Voldermort said simply. Severus glanced at Lucius. He had gone noticeably more pale. However, he leaned down and picked up the knife swiftly. With a look of determination he brought the knife down and plunged it into the girl's chest without hesitation. Severus turned his head and tried to block out the strangled noise the girl made deep in her throat. When he opened his eyes Lucius was kneeling in front of the body, Voldermort standing over him. Severus didn't bother watching what was going on. All he could see was the girl lying bound on the ground before him, pleading eyes looking up at him.
With trembling hands he reached down and picked up the knife, holding it uncertainly in his hands.
"Why are you hesitating Severus?" came a silky voice in front of him. Severus clinched his jaw tight and gripped the knife harder. 'She's just a muggle. She doesn't mean anything. Her life is pointless.' He said over and over. Perhaps a week ago he could have convinced himself that was true. But not since meeting Lily.
"Do it Severus."
'Just do it quickly and get it over with, Don't look in her eyes.' he thought. Severus raised the athame higher over his head. In one swift motion he shut his eyes and brought the knife straight down. He felt the skin break and the warm blood soak over his hand. Suddenly he felt unbelievably powerful, as if a spark went through him. He had just taken someone's life. He should have felt bad but he just felt oddly powerful and detached from his body.
Severus kneeled next to the body and looked up at his new master. Voldermort kneeled down and dipped his thumb in the blood of the Muggle girl. Severus watched as Voldermort pushed up his cloak and robe. He brought his thumb down and pressed the blood into Severus' right forearm and shut his eyes.
A painful burning sensation slowly spread throughout his arm and Severus bit his lip to avoid screaming out. In a minute it was over and Voldermort removed his thumb, In it's place was the same image that was on the seal of his letter. The skull and the snake. He had been branded with the dark mark. He was a Death Eater.
~~**~~
Instead of heading to his dorm room to face his fellow Slytherins, Severus felt the need to be alone. He often had that feeling but tonight it was exceptionally strong. His emotions were running on an all time high and he had no idea where he stood. He had done something terribly wrong. He had murdered, and yet it didn't feel like that was what he did. Without even noticing it, Severus found himself at the library doors.
Lily.
He was supposed to meet her. What was he going to tell her? Was he going to tell her anything at all? Severus pushed open the heavy door and sighed. Apparently the library was empty and he could be alone to sort through the events of that night. He made his way to an overstuffed couch and sank into it with a sigh.
"You're really late." said a voice from behind him. Startled, Severus jumped to see Lily sitting on a chair behind him.
"Lily." he breathed. She regarded him for a moment with something he couldn't read written all over her face.
"I know." was all she said. She knew. He detected so many emotions in her voice. Pain, betrayal, pity. Severus swallowed hard.
"How?" he asked. She looked into his eyes and held his gaze.
"Peter told me. He saw you and Malfoy leave and he followed you. He saw what you did. I made him promise he wouldn't tell anyone else. Why Severus?" she said, her voice wavering at the last comment.
"I....I don't know." he answered truthfully.
"You don't know. You killed an innocent girl and you don't know why?! What if it was me out there Severus? Would you have done the same to me?" Severus flinched as she raised her voice and his anger began to swell.
"No." he managed to say.
"You're sick." she said. Severus stood up quickly then, eyes blazing. Lily instinctively pushed back in her chair. He walked over to stand directly before her, and she vaguely wondered if he was going to strike her. But then his face fell and his shoulders sagged back.
"Get out then." was all he said, turning his back to her and returning to the couch. Lily realized she had stopped breathing and took in a few breathes to steady herself. She took one look at the hunched, defensive form sitting on the couch before her.
Severus put his head in his hands to try and steady himself. The touch on his shoulder was gentle and unexpected, causing him to jump. He felt Lily sit next to him on the couch and sighed. What was she doing? Slowly, his hands were brought down from his face and he turned his head to look at her.
"No." she said simply. Those eyes were bearing into her, pleading with her to understand.
"Just leave Lily, you'll only get hurt." he said, pain in his voice. Lily's arms wrapped around him and pulled him into her.
"I love you Severus. And I'm going to make sure you get out of this mess."