Chapter 10
I tossed and turned. I sat up, 'Ugh!! Why can't I sleep?'
The last time I couldn't sleep was when I realized I like that self acclaimed tensai, 'It's all because of Sendoh Akira! Him and his skillful tongue, gentle hands…Ugh! Stop thinking about that! That's why I can't get him out of my head? Because he's such a damn good kisser and because it was my first kiss. No other reason. I'm sure if I kissed Hanamichi the feeling would be more powerful. It's make my knees weak, my heart pound, my mind wander too. Only more so!'
My mind kept on flashing to this afternoon's events.
I don't want to admit the impact that kiss had on me. It made my heart pound and ignited something within me. What? I'm not quite sure. It was the mention of Hanamichi that snapped me back to reality. So I had to speak to Sendoh harshly and coldly. It was the only way I could restraint myself from doing or saying something ludicrous. I couldn't let him to know the power he had on me that moment. I've never believed true love or real happiness was something I could attain. But when he held me, said my name the way that he did, it almost felt like love and happiness were within reach.
'I can't believe he actually smiled and laughed when I told him, that kiss meant nothing to me. Like he was glad I wasn't serious. Obviously it meant nothing to him. He wasn't even mad that I used him. If he likes me, he would be mad, angry, annoyed, and hurt. He wouldn't let it pass like that. Like it was nothing,' I frowned and wondered, 'did I want to see him mad?'
I sat up, 'Well it's natural to want to see him mad. I'm just curious. Who wouldn't want to see Mr. Optimistic, mad. I was disappointed. But I was only disappointed because I wanted to wipe that smile off his face. That was it!'
I got up and went to the kitchen, 'Warm milk is suppose to help you sleep, right? I should drink some.'
I poured myself a glass of milk and stuck it into the microwave. I was about to nodding off when Sendoh's grinning face started floating around my head. I opened my eyes and scowled, 'Why does he have to haunt me like that?'
The timer went off and I gulped down the glass of milk instantly, 'I vow I will forget about that smiling baka after tonight's sleep. I will wake up and forget all that has happened today.'
I washed the cup and put it on the rack. I went back to my room to attempt to sleep. For some reason the thought of playing with Sendoh on Saturday made me quite excited.
'That's just from the thrill of the game,' I told myself and turned to the newspaper clipping of Hanamichi from our game against Shoyo, 'Right. I like Hanamichi.'
End of Chapter 10