Buffy slumped down in the couch and looked up at the azure ceiling. A beautiful star was painted around each light giving the impression of the heavens. As her thoughts faded and her worries were drowned out, clouds seemed to float over and throw shadows across the room.

But then the worries started screeching into her mind. Buffy closed her eyes to hold back tears and held her face in her hands. A small sob wracked her lungs and she began to softly cry. Silent tears dropped down her cheeks. Shudders ran down her back.

Small voices wound around each other in her mind.

he loves you buffy / you need him / get away while you can / angel is the one / angel is tricking you / listen to spike / listen to angel / move on / leave them both / angel loves you still / angel is only jealous / the first love is the best / spike loves you more / angel is true to you / spike would do anything for you / Buffy.

With a groan of protest, she wiped the tears from her face and stood. "Stop it." she pleaded quietly as she clutched her forehead. Buffy jumped slightly as the front door opened and Cordeilia peeked in. "Buff? Are you okay?" Buffy sighed in relief as she realized who it was. "I'm just stressed." She answered.

Cordeilia took a few steps towards Buffy but stopped as a giggling Fred leaned in from the front door. "Cordi!! Come on! We're gonna miss the show!" Cordeilia shoved the door closed and put her weight against it, barring it closed. "Anyways." she continued trying to hide the annoyance in her voice.

"I know what will calm ya down. We're going down to Karitas, Lorne's bar. We're gonna get drunk and happy. Wanna come?" Buffy was about to say no but Cordeilia cut her off. "I'm not taking no for an answer. You need some free time and Spike's gonna be there soon after us." Buffy rolled her eyes with a sigh and let herself be pulled out to the waiting cab.

The driver smiled with a shake of his head, shifted gears, and pulled out into the traffic. Horns honked from every direction. Blinkers flashed. Headlights glared. Brakes screeched. Everything in this city was so loud and hard. Much worse then Sunnydale had ever been. As Buffy's eyes grew accustomed to the dark car she realized this must be an old fashioned hired taxi. Instead of the usual one row back, it had one row facing the other like the old cabs of the 30's.

Conner laughed from across the back as Dawn tickled his neck. Cordeilia sat between Buffy and Fred, and Gun and Wesley sat across from each other deep in talk of the latest monster they killed. Buffy held her hands together between her knees and sighed softly. "Yippee Kai ya." She muttered.

The drive flew by in an instant and before she knew what was what, Cordeilia was pulling her out of the cab again. Wesley pushed a wad of cash into the drivers out stretched hand and took the arm of an auburn haired girl nearby.

Buffy groaned as she was pushed into the packed club. Her slayer senses went into over-drive as the buzz of too many demons in one room found her. Here were arguments. There were drunks. It seemed for the world to be law enforcement's worst nightmare come true.

Cordeilia waved to several demons and slid into a large booth in the corner, dragging Buffy in beside her, as the rest of the fang gang crowded around the table talking and laughing.

Buffy watched as a brown melthagarth demon was booed off of the stage and fell onto a table nearby. Being the size he was, the table was reduced to splinters and the occupants of the table rose from their chairs in anger. Buffy shoved past Cordi and ran to the soon to be fight. "Whoa!" she cautioned. The demons snarled but stopped as her glare showed the power in the small girl. The melthagarth backed away from her and bowed his head. "Sorry Slayer." He grumbled. The trio of angry snake men hissed slightly as they apologized and scrambled out of the club.

Buffy smiled triumphantly to herself and walked back over to the booth, where a tall frosty beer was waiting for her. Lorne sat next to her seat and was laughing as he listened to Gun and Fred sing a sappy song. The slayer sank down into her seat, smiled slightly and picked up the mug. "That there's the strongest beer we have for the moment." Lorne started. Buffy threw the mug back, draining its contents quickly down her parched throat. "More please." She choked. Lorne took the empty cup and stared at Buffy. "How about I just get you a nice shot of iced vodka?" he asked. Buffy nodded and wiped her lips. Lorne shook his head in disbelief and walked back to the bar muttering quietly to himself.

Buffy looked back to the table and her smile dropped as she saw the look of worry on every persons face. "What?" she asked. Cordeilia was about to start on to a lecture but stopped as a hand dropped onto Buffy's shoulder startling her. The slayer turned to see Angel standing right behind her. "Buffy. Can we talk?" quietly she nodded and left from the table following the vampire.

Cordi shook her head as she watched the two go into the storage room and the door close. "That girl needs some serious down time." Fred and Dawn nodded silently in agreement. Dawn leaned onto her elbows and sighed heavily. "Now I'm all sad too."

Fred stood quickly and raced from the table, knocking Wesley and his drink over in the process. Wesley choked on the shot of bourbon as he fell backwards onto the floor. Dawn and Cordi howled with laughter as he stood again coughing. "It's not funny." He gagged. Dawn held her side and quickly said, "What happened? Did you life flash before your eyes?" Dawn looked to Cordeilia who quickly cackled. "What'd it show? Tea, cup of tea and studying?" Both girls fell onto each other laughing again.

Fred came running back to the table and sat down quickly. Dawn looked over at her as the laughter subsided. "Why do you look so innocent?" Fred shrugged and Dawn sat up quickly. "You did something!" she fussed. Fred blushed and looked away. Lorne slid the glass of icy vodka onto the table at the slayers spot and chuckled at the bickering girls.

"Hey Kiddies." he teased knowing how much it annoyed Dawn. "You two behave while I announce the next karaoke singer." Fred nodded and watched as Lorne walked off. Dawn leaned over onto Fred's shoulder and pleaded. "What'd ya do Fred?" she asked. Fred shoved her hard and Dawn shoved her in response. Just as Cordi was about to join in, Lorne came onto the stage and took the microphone in his hand. "And now we at Laritas are proud to present Dawn Summers, Cordeilia Chase and their good prankster Fred! They will be singing a Paula Abdul song entitled Straight up. Let's give these humans a big hand!!"

Cheers and applause rang through the crowd and Dawn turned on Fred. "You little." she started but Cordi pulled them both through the crowds and onto the stage. Fred put her hand over the MIC and whispered quickly to the two girls. "Listen who's the lead?" Dawn glared and took a step forward to fight, but once again Cordi stopped her. "I'll do it." She answered. "Dawn and Fred, you're back up." Cordeilia stepped up to the microphone and motioned to the duo.

Lorne watched as the three stood in a Charlie's angel pose waiting for the music to start. Smiling to himself, he flipped the karaoke button and hummed as the beat began.



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Angel stood over Buffy making her feel small and useless. " I know." he whispered. Buffy whimpered softly as he pulled her closer and whispered into her ear. "I know that you love me still." Buffy shivered slightly as he kissed her lightly on the lips. "I know that Spike was only a temporary thing." a pause filled the small room as he gripped her arms tightly. "I know you couldn't love anyone but me."

The slight euphoria broke as these words escaped his mouth. A cold rage filled inside her body and she pushed him away harshly. The next thing Angel knew, his back met the shelf and he fell with a crack. Ignoring the blinding pain, he stood again and pulled her flush against him. Buffy took a quick breath as she tried to pull away again. His hands were in the crest of her back holding her immobile. "Buffy. I'm not going to hurt you. Let Spike go." A light kiss met Buffy and her mind raced. "GET OUT OF HERE!!!" she shouted to herself. Unfortunately her legs and arms were not responding thanks to his bone crushing hold.

The door slammed open and light flooded the dim room. An outline of a tall figure showed from the doorway and Buffy felt the pure anger swirl around her stomach and turn into fear as she recognized whom it was. "Spike." she whispered with a soft pleading tone. Angel released Buffy's waist immediately and smirked. Spike turned with a furl of his coat and stormed from the room.

Buffy slapped Angel hard enough he stumbled back, blood dripping down his lip. "I will not forget this." she hissed.







Lost in a dream

Don't know which way to go

(Let me tell you that)

You aren't all that you seem

And baby I'm moving' way too slow

I've been a fool before

Wouldn't like to get my love caught

In the slamming' door

How about some information please



The slayer pushed past several demons and grabbed Spike by the forearm. With a snarl he turned and glared. "What are you doing without the poof?" he growled. Buffy looked into his eyes and tried to calm her breathing. "I didn't do it. He was holding me!" Spike shook his head with a slight smirk. "I've seen you get out of worse things. handcuffs, ropes, other forms of bondage." Buffy blushed as she remembered their long ago escapades in his crypt. Boy, those were good memories. "I'm sorry! I." Spike raised his hand to signal silence. "No excuses. Not anymore. I gave everything for you. Everything." his voice cracked slightly as he repeated the word and Buffy felt her heart breaking to see him this way.





Straight up now tell me

Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh?

Or am I caught in a hit and run

Straight up now tell me

Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh

Or are you just having fun?

Time's standing still

Waiting for some small clue

(Let me tell you that)

I keep getting chills

When I think your love is true







Spike dropped his hand to his side and took a step closer to Buffy. "I love you." He whispered. "And I kept hoping you'd do the same. But I'm tired of waiting to see. I said I'd wait for bloody centuries if I had too but now I'm not willing." Buffy's eyes filled with tears as he turned to leave.

Turning to look behind her she saw Angel watching with the all-familiar eyes of her first love. Buffy's lip trembled as her decision was made. Quickly she looked to the vampire who was feet away. "Spike!" she called. "Stop!" his footsteps paused as the music pounded behind them. Quiet and beautiful as an animal of prey, he turned to look at the slayer. His blue eyes burned into hers showing all the rage and pain he felt.





I've been a fool before

Wouldn't like to get my love caught

In the slamming' door

How about some information please

Straight up now tell me

Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh?

Or am I caught in a hit and run

Straight up now tell me

Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh

Or are you just having fun?

You are so hard to read

You play hide and seek

With your true intentions

If you're only playing games

I'll just have to say: buh buh buh buh buh buh bye

Do do you love me

Do do you love me

(Hey baby)

Do do you love me

Do do you love me

(Hey baby)

Do do you love me

Do do you love me

(Hey baby)

Do do you love me

Do do you love me

(Tell me baby)

I've been a fool before

Wouldn't like to get my love caught

In the slamming' door

Are you more than hot for me?

Or am I a page in your history?

I don't mean to make demands

But the word and the deed go hand in hand

How about some information please (please please please)

Straight up now tell me x3 Tell me Straight up now tell me Tell me Straight up now tell me x2

Straight up now tell me

Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh?

Or am I caught in a hit and run

Straight up now tell me

Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh

Or are you just having fun?

Buffy began to walk towards him, bridging the gap but a cold hand clamped around her elbow. Spike growled slightly as she turned to look at Angel. Her hand ran along his face for a slight beloved second before pulling away with speed he had never seen or expected. Buffy looked up at Angel with the same look she had given him so many years ago. The "I know what I'm doing and don't mess with me look" was quite familiar to him now. But to see it being shown to him so that she could move on hurt more then any cross or ray of sunlight possibly could. Buffy walked towards Spike again and watched as his mouth began to quiver in fear and pleasure.

Spike watched her slowly stride towards him. It was as if she was trying to make a decision before she got to him. If she should be with him or not.

Buffy finally stood before him and stared lovingly up at him. After all the things they had done. After all the things they had said. After all the things HE had said. She still looked like the innocent girl he had met that very first time in the alley. She still mesmerized him even now.

Buffy's hands rose to his cheeks and slowly moved to his hair brushing through the blonde strands. "You." She whispered softly. A lump formed in the back of his throat making it hard to form words. "Me what?" he breathed. Buffy stared at him, her eyes making him shake. "Guess." she gasped before kissing him. Spike's hand went to her back holding her against him. Smiling against his lips she kissed him again.





Straight up now tell me

Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh

Or am I caught in a hit and run

Straight up now tell me

Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh

Or are you just having fun?



The crowd cheered as the three women finished. Cordeilia laughed as Dawn and Fred bowed behind her.





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Joyce sighed and turned over onto the bed. But once again she couldn't get comfortable. Groaning to herself, she scooted off and walked out into the hall. From this spot, she could hear Willow and Tara in the living room watching the history channel. "15 years and still no one accepted them!" Willow whimpered. "Mean old Salem witch judges."

Anya got started on a speech over how most of the witches accused zapped out of the trial but Joyce didn't stick around to hear it. Walking into the kitchen she opened the fridge and took out the orange juice. Looking around to make sure no one was there; she opened the cap and took a few gulps.

"That's very unsanitary you know?" a voice answered. Joyce choked and covered her mouth. Looking over to the table she saw Skip seated comfortably. "Hi Kid." He laughed. Joyce snapped the cap back on the container, slammed the fridge door shut, and stormed out of the room. "And I said I wanted adventure." she grumbled to herself.

Slowly she crawled back into bed and pulled the covers up to her chin. The soft feeling of a safe place swept over her immediately and she was almost asleep when she heard a soft -screech-. Looking around the room she saw nothing and so thinking it to be a figment of her vivid imagination, she turned over to sleep again.

-Screech-

-screech-

Joyce knew she wasn't imagining it now and so quickly she sat up and looked towards the window again. But again nothing was there. Joyce shivered as the hairs on her neck and arms stood on end. Lying down again, this time she faced the window. waiting. Waiting for the screech maker to come again. For a long time things were quiet. Joyce was about to say the wind had been playing tricks on her when she saw a shadow pass over the floor. Joyce stiffened as a figure came to the window and scratched softly along the base of the glass.

"Who are you?" Joyce called loud enough for the figure to hear. A soft voice answered. "This is Buffy. Please. Let me in." Joyce picked up the flashlight from her nightstand and clicked it to the window. Sure enough there was Buffy. Joyce smiled. "Come on in mom!" she called happily. The window frame was shattered instantly as a fist crashed against it. The flashlight dimmed as the batteries started fading.

Joyce gulped in horror as "buffy" shifted into a different figure. The light clicked off and all was dark in the room. Everything was quiet. Joyce shook the flashlight and hit it against her hand. Clicking the button on again and shining it on the wall, the figure was gone. But then a cold hand grabbed her wrist pulling her towards a girl. Joyce felt fear rip her thoughts as she saw in the light the face. of Drusilla.



TBC