Title: Darkness
Rating: PG-13 (really dark)
Author: Alcandre
Okay, this is a random story. I was reciting a monologue I had to learn by memory and I got this idea. It's really depressing and I don't even know if I'm gonna write another chapter. Okay, I don't own Sailor Moon. Yes, it is very upsetting but alas, it is true.
I've been afraid to sleep for years. I'm afraid to sleep because I'm afraid to dream. Night is worse than day, because at night, in my dreams, everything is dark. There are no friends or family to help get me through the terrible darkness or frightening silence. If there is someone else, it's a stranger; a horrible, frightening stranger that I know I should know, but I don't.
There's darkness all around me and I want to scream, I want to yell and shout for help. But I can't. Nothing comes out of my mouth but little gasps. I try to ask the stranger who he is, what does he want, and why is he plaguing my dreams?
He seems to understand but doesn't answer. he never does. And then, the scene always changes. I see all my friends; Usagi, Ami, Makoto, and Minako. They all looked terrified. They are all watching something. I want to see what it is they are watching but I can't. All I see is them and the darkness surrounding us.
Usagi shouts something, I can tell by the way her face becomes strained. She's telling the others something but I can't hear it. I want to hear, I want to be with them but I can't move. I stay rooted in that one spot, in the "observation booth". I feel like I have on ear plugs. I can't hear a thing.
Then, Minako screams so loud I can almost hear it. It's a scream of agony, like she's being ripped apart. I try to move again, but I still can't. I can only watch as Minako falls to the ground, still and not screaming anymore.
Usagi runs over to her. She shakes her. no response. Usagi starts to cry. I can feel my heart breaking as I watch, unable to comfort my princess in her sadness.
I feel a presence next to me. I already know who it is. But every time, I look over, hoping it's not who it is; hoping that my dream can change after all these years. But it never does. It's the stranger. He is watching the scene as well, looking terribly grim.
I look back at Usagi and watch as she slowly stands up and turns to face the unknown thing they are facing. She shouts again, this time at the enemy. Makoto shouts as well and Ami pulls out her trusty computer. This scene is so familiar. It looks like every other fight we have. Usagi looking upset but determined, Makoto screaming at the monster, and Ami typing away. But the thing that ruins this image is Minako on the ground, seemingly dead.
I look back over at the stranger. He glances at me and then disappears. That always startles me, even though I know it's going to happen.
And by the time I look back at the others, Usagi is the only one standing. She has tears running down her face and I can tell she is trying to be strong. Slowly, she falls to her knees and buries her face in her hands. And then, I can hear for the first time.
"Why, Rei?" Usagi asks. "Why weren't you here?"
And then, it all disappears. I'm standing in total darkness once more. I feel the tears on my cheeks and I can tell my heart will never heal.
Yes, why wasn't I there? Why couldn't I help them? Why did I just stand there, looking at them like I was watching a TV show?
And then, I find my voice. I finally fall to my knees, screaming into the darkness. "Why!!!???" I shout. "Why couldn't I help them? What are you doing to me?"
The tears fall faster then and I don't bother wiping them away. I sob into my hands, rocking back and forth in my sorrow.
Suddenly, a heavy hand lies on my shoulder. I look up, terrified once more. It's the stranger.
I jump up and grab him by the neck. "What do you want?" I shout. "Why... why?" My anger leaves me and I break down again. All I can see is the image of all my friends on the ground and Usagi crying.
The stranger calmly pulls my hands from his neck and steps back. "Sailor Mars," he says. "You must learn to fight this darkness." And he disappears again.
I sniff and look up, confused. But the only sight that greets me is of Usagi, on her knees, crying. "Why, Rei-chan? Why?"
I always wake up then, tears streaming down my face. And I can't go back to sleep for the rest of the night. All I can think about is Usagi asking me why. A question even I don't know the answer to.
I don't know whether to end this here or not. Just give me your opinions. I love reviews!!!! And please, read my other stories!! I beg of you!!!
Thanks for reading, Alcandre
Okay, this is a random story. I was reciting a monologue I had to learn by memory and I got this idea. It's really depressing and I don't even know if I'm gonna write another chapter. Okay, I don't own Sailor Moon. Yes, it is very upsetting but alas, it is true.
I've been afraid to sleep for years. I'm afraid to sleep because I'm afraid to dream. Night is worse than day, because at night, in my dreams, everything is dark. There are no friends or family to help get me through the terrible darkness or frightening silence. If there is someone else, it's a stranger; a horrible, frightening stranger that I know I should know, but I don't.
There's darkness all around me and I want to scream, I want to yell and shout for help. But I can't. Nothing comes out of my mouth but little gasps. I try to ask the stranger who he is, what does he want, and why is he plaguing my dreams?
He seems to understand but doesn't answer. he never does. And then, the scene always changes. I see all my friends; Usagi, Ami, Makoto, and Minako. They all looked terrified. They are all watching something. I want to see what it is they are watching but I can't. All I see is them and the darkness surrounding us.
Usagi shouts something, I can tell by the way her face becomes strained. She's telling the others something but I can't hear it. I want to hear, I want to be with them but I can't move. I stay rooted in that one spot, in the "observation booth". I feel like I have on ear plugs. I can't hear a thing.
Then, Minako screams so loud I can almost hear it. It's a scream of agony, like she's being ripped apart. I try to move again, but I still can't. I can only watch as Minako falls to the ground, still and not screaming anymore.
Usagi runs over to her. She shakes her. no response. Usagi starts to cry. I can feel my heart breaking as I watch, unable to comfort my princess in her sadness.
I feel a presence next to me. I already know who it is. But every time, I look over, hoping it's not who it is; hoping that my dream can change after all these years. But it never does. It's the stranger. He is watching the scene as well, looking terribly grim.
I look back at Usagi and watch as she slowly stands up and turns to face the unknown thing they are facing. She shouts again, this time at the enemy. Makoto shouts as well and Ami pulls out her trusty computer. This scene is so familiar. It looks like every other fight we have. Usagi looking upset but determined, Makoto screaming at the monster, and Ami typing away. But the thing that ruins this image is Minako on the ground, seemingly dead.
I look back over at the stranger. He glances at me and then disappears. That always startles me, even though I know it's going to happen.
And by the time I look back at the others, Usagi is the only one standing. She has tears running down her face and I can tell she is trying to be strong. Slowly, she falls to her knees and buries her face in her hands. And then, I can hear for the first time.
"Why, Rei?" Usagi asks. "Why weren't you here?"
And then, it all disappears. I'm standing in total darkness once more. I feel the tears on my cheeks and I can tell my heart will never heal.
Yes, why wasn't I there? Why couldn't I help them? Why did I just stand there, looking at them like I was watching a TV show?
And then, I find my voice. I finally fall to my knees, screaming into the darkness. "Why!!!???" I shout. "Why couldn't I help them? What are you doing to me?"
The tears fall faster then and I don't bother wiping them away. I sob into my hands, rocking back and forth in my sorrow.
Suddenly, a heavy hand lies on my shoulder. I look up, terrified once more. It's the stranger.
I jump up and grab him by the neck. "What do you want?" I shout. "Why... why?" My anger leaves me and I break down again. All I can see is the image of all my friends on the ground and Usagi crying.
The stranger calmly pulls my hands from his neck and steps back. "Sailor Mars," he says. "You must learn to fight this darkness." And he disappears again.
I sniff and look up, confused. But the only sight that greets me is of Usagi, on her knees, crying. "Why, Rei-chan? Why?"
I always wake up then, tears streaming down my face. And I can't go back to sleep for the rest of the night. All I can think about is Usagi asking me why. A question even I don't know the answer to.
I don't know whether to end this here or not. Just give me your opinions. I love reviews!!!! And please, read my other stories!! I beg of you!!!
Thanks for reading, Alcandre