Title: Darkness Chapter 2
Author: Alcandre
Rating: PG-13
Well, I decided to continue this. And I do realize there is a Rei/Usagi fic out there with the same title. I didn't do this on purpose. I just thought the title "Darkness" fit this really well. And I am an avid reader to the other fic. Besides, this isn't going to be a Rei/Usagi love fic. It's just showing how Rei as to fight the darkness within her.
I don't own Sailor Moon. There. Happy?
Fight the darkness. Those words run through my head all through breakfast and all through the school day. I am constantly hearing the stranger telling me to fight it. And then, I hear Usagi asking me why I didn't help. It drives me crazy!
And then at the study sessions, I can't concentrate. All I can see is Minako, Makoto, and Ami on the ground and Usagi kneeling over them. I feel the tears form in my eyes again. But I push them back. I won't allow myself to cry. That is a sign of weakness.
"Rei-chan?"
The sound of Ami's voice brings me back to the study session a few nights ago. "Hai?"
Makoto raised her eyebrows. "Are you okay, Rei-chan? You really look out of it."
I looked down at the table and nodded. "I'm fine," I muttered, not able to look my friends in the eyes. I don't want to tell them the dream. They'll just worry.
"Rei," Minako said. "You know you can tell us if something is bothering you."
"I know, Minako-chan. I know." I closed my eyes, not wanting to let my friends see the tears I knew were coming back.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked to see Usagi kneeling next to me. "Rei-chan." She began.
I looked back down, ashamed to look her in the face. I betrayed her in my dream by not helping and I felt terrible about it.
"Please. what's wrong?"
I shook my head, afraid to speak. Silence fell in the room and I knew everyone was looking at me. I wanted to tell them, but then again. I didn't. I wanted to get it off my chest but I didn't want them to worry.
"Well," Ami said after a while. "I've got to go home." I heard her stand up and start to gather her stuff.
Makoto cleared her throat. "Hai, I should go to."
The two silently left and I was left with Minako and Usagi.
Minako scooted over to me and patted my back. "We all know something is bothering you, Rei." She hugged me. "And we are ready to listen to you when you're ready to talk about it."
I nodded. "Arigato, Minako-chan, Usagi-chan." I gave a small sigh. "I'm just not ready yet."
"Well, I gotta leave as well." Minako gave me one more hug then got up. "I'll see you guys later!" And she was gone. I was left by myself with the one person I promised I would never betray.
"Rei. listen to me," she stated.
I took a deep breath to settle my emotions and nodded. "Okay, Usagi-chan."
She hugged me around the shoulders. "You can talk to me about this at any time. You know that, ne?"
I nodded and she continued.
"Wake me up in the middle of the night if you want to. I won't mind. Just. get this off your chest. If not for you, then for the rest of us, okay?" She kissed my forehead. "I'm worried about you, Pyro. You look tired and worried about something."
She stood up and I looked up at her. She smiled. "I'll talk to you whenever you need someone to talk to, Rei. I love all of you so much and I hate to see my best friend looking so ragged." She winked. "It doesn't suit you."
And then, she was gone. I was by myself. All alone, with silence surrounding me. I slowly stood up and cleaned the room, then laid on the bed, knowing I needed sleep but afraid of what was waiting for me in my dreams.
And just like the nights before, I had the dark surround me, the silence deafening, and the stranger telling me to fight it.
I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I can feel myself going crazy. The dream is all I think about. I see the stranger everywhere. He is constantly in my thoughts. I am losing sleep. I know I look awful. Grandpa told me so.
"Rei, you look terrible!" He said one morning. "You look like you haven't slept in days!"
I just smiled and didn't say anything. He was right. I didn't sleep that night or the night before for fear of dreaming and having to watch everyone die and Usagi sob and ask me why I didn't help. I stayed up all night playing cards, reading, watching TV or working on shrine stuff. Of course, no one knew all this. No one knew that I was purposefully staying awake. I still hadn't told Usagi or any of the scouts.
And now, here I am, going on the third night without sleep. I'm seriously thinking about lying down for just a minute. What would it hurt, right? I mean, I can wake myself up if the dream starts. Right?
To be continued..
Yes, yes, I should be working on "I am not" but I wanted to get this started. And besides, I haven't gotten anymore reviews on my last chapter! But that's okay; I am really having a writer's block. I'll get it out as soon as I get it written. Thanks to Angel of Peace, katefire002, and SgAltima for reviewing! I loved it!
Author: Alcandre
Rating: PG-13
Well, I decided to continue this. And I do realize there is a Rei/Usagi fic out there with the same title. I didn't do this on purpose. I just thought the title "Darkness" fit this really well. And I am an avid reader to the other fic. Besides, this isn't going to be a Rei/Usagi love fic. It's just showing how Rei as to fight the darkness within her.
I don't own Sailor Moon. There. Happy?
Fight the darkness. Those words run through my head all through breakfast and all through the school day. I am constantly hearing the stranger telling me to fight it. And then, I hear Usagi asking me why I didn't help. It drives me crazy!
And then at the study sessions, I can't concentrate. All I can see is Minako, Makoto, and Ami on the ground and Usagi kneeling over them. I feel the tears form in my eyes again. But I push them back. I won't allow myself to cry. That is a sign of weakness.
"Rei-chan?"
The sound of Ami's voice brings me back to the study session a few nights ago. "Hai?"
Makoto raised her eyebrows. "Are you okay, Rei-chan? You really look out of it."
I looked down at the table and nodded. "I'm fine," I muttered, not able to look my friends in the eyes. I don't want to tell them the dream. They'll just worry.
"Rei," Minako said. "You know you can tell us if something is bothering you."
"I know, Minako-chan. I know." I closed my eyes, not wanting to let my friends see the tears I knew were coming back.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked to see Usagi kneeling next to me. "Rei-chan." She began.
I looked back down, ashamed to look her in the face. I betrayed her in my dream by not helping and I felt terrible about it.
"Please. what's wrong?"
I shook my head, afraid to speak. Silence fell in the room and I knew everyone was looking at me. I wanted to tell them, but then again. I didn't. I wanted to get it off my chest but I didn't want them to worry.
"Well," Ami said after a while. "I've got to go home." I heard her stand up and start to gather her stuff.
Makoto cleared her throat. "Hai, I should go to."
The two silently left and I was left with Minako and Usagi.
Minako scooted over to me and patted my back. "We all know something is bothering you, Rei." She hugged me. "And we are ready to listen to you when you're ready to talk about it."
I nodded. "Arigato, Minako-chan, Usagi-chan." I gave a small sigh. "I'm just not ready yet."
"Well, I gotta leave as well." Minako gave me one more hug then got up. "I'll see you guys later!" And she was gone. I was left by myself with the one person I promised I would never betray.
"Rei. listen to me," she stated.
I took a deep breath to settle my emotions and nodded. "Okay, Usagi-chan."
She hugged me around the shoulders. "You can talk to me about this at any time. You know that, ne?"
I nodded and she continued.
"Wake me up in the middle of the night if you want to. I won't mind. Just. get this off your chest. If not for you, then for the rest of us, okay?" She kissed my forehead. "I'm worried about you, Pyro. You look tired and worried about something."
She stood up and I looked up at her. She smiled. "I'll talk to you whenever you need someone to talk to, Rei. I love all of you so much and I hate to see my best friend looking so ragged." She winked. "It doesn't suit you."
And then, she was gone. I was by myself. All alone, with silence surrounding me. I slowly stood up and cleaned the room, then laid on the bed, knowing I needed sleep but afraid of what was waiting for me in my dreams.
And just like the nights before, I had the dark surround me, the silence deafening, and the stranger telling me to fight it.
I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I can feel myself going crazy. The dream is all I think about. I see the stranger everywhere. He is constantly in my thoughts. I am losing sleep. I know I look awful. Grandpa told me so.
"Rei, you look terrible!" He said one morning. "You look like you haven't slept in days!"
I just smiled and didn't say anything. He was right. I didn't sleep that night or the night before for fear of dreaming and having to watch everyone die and Usagi sob and ask me why I didn't help. I stayed up all night playing cards, reading, watching TV or working on shrine stuff. Of course, no one knew all this. No one knew that I was purposefully staying awake. I still hadn't told Usagi or any of the scouts.
And now, here I am, going on the third night without sleep. I'm seriously thinking about lying down for just a minute. What would it hurt, right? I mean, I can wake myself up if the dream starts. Right?
To be continued..
Yes, yes, I should be working on "I am not" but I wanted to get this started. And besides, I haven't gotten anymore reviews on my last chapter! But that's okay; I am really having a writer's block. I'll get it out as soon as I get it written. Thanks to Angel of Peace, katefire002, and SgAltima for reviewing! I loved it!