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the song « Alone I break » by Korn.
Summary : A few days after Malik's funerals, Bakura has a hard time to deal with the ever-increasing pain and decides to put an end to it.
~Alone I Break~
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« Bakura's POV »
~~ Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how ~~
I heard voices. Voices sounding as if they were far, far away. There were hands on me, moving me. More voices. Someone was definitely crying, but why? I was finally somewhat happy for the first time in days. Since. Malik's death. So why are they crying? They said they wanted me to be happy.. I am now.. So why are they crying..!?
~~ I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone ~~
The pain. It's the one thing I couldn't bear in that life, other than being away from my only love. I swear, it felt like I had an anchor in my stomach all the time. And I found the only way possible to make it go away. I probably won't even be missed. My dad sure won't care. Yugi and the gang... Well, they'll get over it. They already seem to have forgotten about Malik, anyway. And it's only been 6 days since he was buried. But to me, it seems like he was just put into the ground an hour ago. It won't be long now.. I can barely hear their voices, or feel their hands on me. The pain will be gone. And so will I..
~~ Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man? ~~
I'll miss them. They were always nice to me. They helped me being happy for a small part of my life. I actually thought they would always be my friends. I was wrong.. How could I have ever being so stupid as to think that! And even more stupid to actually trust them. It wasn't long before they just. Seemed to forget about me. Even at the Duellist Kingdom. They always talked, talked, talked. And I felt as if I was invisible. They did listen to me from time to time, but.
None of it matters now. I found the eternal resting place. They can't stop me, not now. It's already too late. There was never any hope for me. I'll be with Malik now.. The only person who ever cared about me.
Oh, I'm sorry.. Why I bothered to stay with them all that time, you say? It's quite simple. It wouldn't have seemed right for me to always be alone, no? It would have attracted the attention of some. Unwanted people, you see. The school's psychologist, for example. I know she has good intentions, but she would have only wasted her time. I haven't just decided to kill myself in a few minutes. No. I have been planning it for months now. How funny. My suicide. Oh well.
~~ Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own ~~
Gah. Will they just stop shaking me so much!? Groggily, I opened my eyes. What the.? Where am I!? They're not shaking me..I.I'm in an ambulance! NO! They shouldn't be doing this! I was supposed to die! I was supposed to have peace! And be with Malik! No, no, no, NO!!
I was ready to die! I still am! Tears of frustration starts rolling down my cheeks as I struggle to get free from their grasp. They're just there to keep me alive, and let me suffer even more! I want to be free! I want free from this LIFE!
~~ Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm hanging from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come) ~~
I'm sobbing uncontrobally now. I try to curl up in a little ball, but they keep me still on the bed, or stretcher..Whatever is it. A girl is talking to me, but I can't understand.. I don't want to understand. Her blonde hair reminds me of Malik. More tears come rolling down my cheeks as I close my eyes tightly. I just want to die. Is that too much to ask for? Honestly, is it? Some people ask for a million dollars, some ask to be famous. All I ask for is death. Eternal peace. With my love.
.Death. Is that really what I ask for? I honestly don't know anymore. I want peace, I'm sure of that. But death.? I'm so.Pathetic.I open my eyes slowly again, my body still shaking softly as I sob. The girl is still talking to me. By the way her face is going red, I can tell she's pissed off.
I don't care anymore. I don't care if I die, or live. I don't care if I'm hurt, or not. I don't even care if I'm sane or insane. They can keep me locked in that hospital forever, if they feel like it.
I. DON'T. CARE.
I'll find another way. Next time, I won't miss. Next time Malik, I'll be with you.Forever. It's just a matter of time now. A soft smile appear on my lips as I slowly drift off to sleep, not caring about the people all around me, trying to keep me awake. Maybe they fear I'm going to die because of all the pills I've taken.. But I know I won't die.Not today.. But soon, I will. Oh yes, mark my words, I won't miss next time..
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Summary : A few days after Malik's funerals, Bakura has a hard time to deal with the ever-increasing pain and decides to put an end to it.
~Alone I Break~
- - -
« Bakura's POV »
~~ Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how ~~
I heard voices. Voices sounding as if they were far, far away. There were hands on me, moving me. More voices. Someone was definitely crying, but why? I was finally somewhat happy for the first time in days. Since. Malik's death. So why are they crying? They said they wanted me to be happy.. I am now.. So why are they crying..!?
~~ I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone ~~
The pain. It's the one thing I couldn't bear in that life, other than being away from my only love. I swear, it felt like I had an anchor in my stomach all the time. And I found the only way possible to make it go away. I probably won't even be missed. My dad sure won't care. Yugi and the gang... Well, they'll get over it. They already seem to have forgotten about Malik, anyway. And it's only been 6 days since he was buried. But to me, it seems like he was just put into the ground an hour ago. It won't be long now.. I can barely hear their voices, or feel their hands on me. The pain will be gone. And so will I..
~~ Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man? ~~
I'll miss them. They were always nice to me. They helped me being happy for a small part of my life. I actually thought they would always be my friends. I was wrong.. How could I have ever being so stupid as to think that! And even more stupid to actually trust them. It wasn't long before they just. Seemed to forget about me. Even at the Duellist Kingdom. They always talked, talked, talked. And I felt as if I was invisible. They did listen to me from time to time, but.
None of it matters now. I found the eternal resting place. They can't stop me, not now. It's already too late. There was never any hope for me. I'll be with Malik now.. The only person who ever cared about me.
Oh, I'm sorry.. Why I bothered to stay with them all that time, you say? It's quite simple. It wouldn't have seemed right for me to always be alone, no? It would have attracted the attention of some. Unwanted people, you see. The school's psychologist, for example. I know she has good intentions, but she would have only wasted her time. I haven't just decided to kill myself in a few minutes. No. I have been planning it for months now. How funny. My suicide. Oh well.
~~ Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own ~~
Gah. Will they just stop shaking me so much!? Groggily, I opened my eyes. What the.? Where am I!? They're not shaking me..I.I'm in an ambulance! NO! They shouldn't be doing this! I was supposed to die! I was supposed to have peace! And be with Malik! No, no, no, NO!!
I was ready to die! I still am! Tears of frustration starts rolling down my cheeks as I struggle to get free from their grasp. They're just there to keep me alive, and let me suffer even more! I want to be free! I want free from this LIFE!
~~ Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm hanging from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come) ~~
I'm sobbing uncontrobally now. I try to curl up in a little ball, but they keep me still on the bed, or stretcher..Whatever is it. A girl is talking to me, but I can't understand.. I don't want to understand. Her blonde hair reminds me of Malik. More tears come rolling down my cheeks as I close my eyes tightly. I just want to die. Is that too much to ask for? Honestly, is it? Some people ask for a million dollars, some ask to be famous. All I ask for is death. Eternal peace. With my love.
.Death. Is that really what I ask for? I honestly don't know anymore. I want peace, I'm sure of that. But death.? I'm so.Pathetic.I open my eyes slowly again, my body still shaking softly as I sob. The girl is still talking to me. By the way her face is going red, I can tell she's pissed off.
I don't care anymore. I don't care if I die, or live. I don't care if I'm hurt, or not. I don't even care if I'm sane or insane. They can keep me locked in that hospital forever, if they feel like it.
I. DON'T. CARE.
I'll find another way. Next time, I won't miss. Next time Malik, I'll be with you.Forever. It's just a matter of time now. A soft smile appear on my lips as I slowly drift off to sleep, not caring about the people all around me, trying to keep me awake. Maybe they fear I'm going to die because of all the pills I've taken.. But I know I won't die.Not today.. But soon, I will. Oh yes, mark my words, I won't miss next time..
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