Denial


Author's Notes: Hello everyone! This is my new fanfic, "Denial"....... I hope everyone likes it. Please review!

Disclaimers:

I am not a part of CLAMP.

I do not own CCS.

I do not own any CCS characters.

So, please, DON'T SUE ME!!!!!


Chapter 1


"W-What?!" Exclaimed an extremely surprised twenty-one year old Syaoran Li. His amber eyes were wide open as his hands dropped, not soon after he heard her say those three effective words.

"You're mad! I knew you would be mad!" Sakura cried, turning around so that he wouldn't see her tears that were freely flowing.

"I'm not mad Sakura! I'm just....... Shocked." Syaoran paused for a moment. "A-Are you sure?"

"Either I am, or there's another Sakura Kinomoto at the doctor's office......" Sakura went into her pocket and handed him a piece of paper.

"So..... You're...... Really........ Pregnant?" He asked, looking at the ultra sound picture. There, in the picture, was a black atmosphere, and a little white baby, indicating that that was the baby.

"Y-Yes Syaoran, I'm pregnant...." Sakura sniffled, still not looking behind her. Suddenly, warm arms wrapped around her waist and a head came to the base of her neck.

"I'm happy Sakura......" Syaoran said, kissing her neck. "Now I know I can never lose you......."

"You would never lose me Syaoran, it's too hard to get rid of you......"

"Is that how you really feel about me?"

"It was just a joke!" Syaoran turned her around and kissed her lips.

"Good......"


~3 months later~


Syaoran typed at his computer, at his job that no one knew what he did. He had to wait five more years until he would become become the Li Clan leader. He looked up at the clock. 4:00. One more hour until he could go home to his wife. As soon as he found out Sakura was pregnant, they sped up the wedding to a week instead of a month. Suddenly, his office phone began ringing. He picked up the phone and twirled it in his hands and put it against his ear.

"Li Syaoran's office."

"L-Li-kun?"

"Daidouji-san? What's wrong.......?" Syaoran thought. "Did Eriol do something?" (AN: ^^')

"She had the baby Li-kun."

"Who had the baby."

"Sakura!"

Syaoran's face became pale. "T-That's not possible! She's only 4 months!"

"She miscarried." Came Tomoyo's sobbing reply. "She's a real wreck. The baby is alive, but not for very long, I think you should come down......" Tomoyo didn't hear a reply on the other line. "Li-kun?" Tomoyo waited. "LI-kun?" No answer. "LI-KUN!"

Syaoran drove all the way to the hospital, not caring to tell anyone where he was going, he just needed to get there. Tears began welling up in his eyes. There was only two times he had cried. Once when he told Sakura he loved her and ran away, not believing what he had done. And this. He finally reached the hospital's parking lot. He turned off the car and ran inside. He asked where Sakura Li was, and ran all the way there. In front of her room, stood a crying Tomoyo.

"Is she in there?" Tomoyo only nodded. "Do you think....?"

"Go ahead, it's your baby too, she won't be mad." Tomoyo put her hand on his shoulder and gave a little smile.

Syaoran walked in to see Sakura in one of the hospital beds, crying her eyes out. In her arms was the baby, wrapped up in a pink blanket. Sakura hadn't noticed Syaoran standing there, because she was paying too much attention to their baby. Syaoran could see it's little gills on the sides of it's head, the gills that the baby needed to live off of Sakura's water in her belly.

"Come on baby-girl, be strong for mommy, you can make it....." Even Sakura knew that was a lie. She could feel the baby's light pink aura begin to fade from loss of energy and life. Syaoran could even feel the baby's weak aura.

"S-Sakura?" Sakura's head shot up from looking at the baby girl. Her quenched Emerald eyes met his Amber eyes.

"S-Syaoran....... I'm so-so sorry....."

"Sh....... It's okay, it's not your fault......." Syaoran walked over next to her to look at the baby. "Can I hold her?" Sakura nodded, and lightly handed the baby to Syaoran. "Hi baby-girl, I'm your daddy......."

Baby-girl smiled, as if she knew who he was. She opened her eyes, revealing dazzling, shining emerald eyes, mimicking her mother's eyes. Her tiny hand reached out and clasped one of Syaoran's long, big fingers, with all the strength she had. Then, all the strength left, as her last breath came out, taking away her life. Sakura burst out crying, as she felt Baby-girl's aura disappear into oblivion. One of the nurses came in, and took the baby away, knowing Sakura and Syaoran needed time alone. Syaoran climbed into the hospital bed next to Sakura and cuddled with her, while also shedding tears.

The funeral took place a week later. It seemed as if the happy and pleasant atmosphere was taken over by an evil clow card or spirit. Everyone was dressed in black, the girls were crying on their man's shoulder's handkerchiefs to their eyes. Sakura walked up to the tiny coffin. Syaoran tried to stop her, but decided against it, knowing he had to let her be. Sakura's hand went over on top of the coffin as the tears flowed down. It seemed as if the tears hadn't stopped all week. Her eyes were red and swollen from all the tears she had shed, that she was surprised she hadn't died of dehydration..... Sakura sniffled and tried to speak to her baby, but she couldn't. So, she did the only thing she could really do....... She sang.

"In the arms of the angel,
fly away from here,
from this dark, cold hotel room,
and the endlessness that you feel.
You are pulled from the wreckage,
Of your silent reverie.
You're in the arms of the angel,
may you find some comfort here."


Sakura then went limp and began to cry even harder, if possible. Syaoran walked over and picked her whole body up and began carrying her away, even though she whispered pleads for her to stay. Everyone understood, and one after another, left, after the baby was barried. Syaoran had locked her inside the car and drove to their Condo on the beach. (AN: What?! They're supposed to be rich!) He carried her all the way up the stairs, Sakura still crying her eyes out. He laid her on their bed softly and went into their bathroom. He turned on the faucet to a warm bath, and let it begin to fill. When it was about halfway, he went back into their bedroom to find Sakura still on the bed, crying. He picked her back up, she grummbled as he did so, and carried her into the bathroom, laying her in the tub.

"S-Syaoran! W-what are you doing?!" She pulled him in with her to get him wet too.

"I'm trying to calm you down!"

"Well, instead, you pissed me off!"

"Better than you crying! You know how much I'm hurt just to see you crying your heart out and know I can't do anything about it? It hurts like HELL!" Syaoran exclaimed. Sakura flinched and looked the other side.

"Well, I'm sorry that YOU feel that way because YOU fell in love with ME!"

"I'm not Sorry Sakura......." Syaoran said. "I love you.... I care about you.... When you're hurt, I'm hurt...." Syaoran bent down and kissed Sakura's lips.

Sakura laid on top of Syaoran, asleep. Syaoran stroked her bare back, (AN: Don't tell me you haven't realized what they've done yet.........? ^^') and kissed her forehead. She shifted a bit, making him blush a bit. Her long hair cascaded down her back, but was moved aside when Syaoran's hand drifted across her back. Sakura then began to wake up, feeling a tickling sensation on her back. She looked up to find Syaoran lying below her. He gave her a little smile when he saw her emerald eyes glimmering up at him.

"Hi......." He said.

"Hi...." Sakura replied sleepily.

"Are you hungry?"

"Yes, actually, I feel like i haven't eaten in days....."

"You haven't...... I'll go make you something......." Syaoran got out of bed and put on his pants, then waked out of the room. Sakura sighed and laid back in bed. Yesterday her baby had been laid to rest, and she seemed to be getting better.

"All because of Syaoran......"

"Well, that's just for now, you know, he'll leave you as soon as you're better."

"Will not! He loves me! Why would he do that?"

"Because, you miscarried his child. He doesn't love you anymore because you couldn't produce a heir, especially a MALE heir, why would he still love you? As soon as you're over the miscarrige, you two will have a divorce and he'll have another girl. A better girl. Brace yourself."

"No! Syaoran wouldn't do that to me!" Sakura thought. "Would he?"


AN: And so it begins! Please review!