It all came to him when he stood in the circle. A flash of images,
an explosion of sound echoing forever in his mind, the same feelings he had
felt that day. Staring down at the ring of endless flowers, pictures, and
thoughts and dreams scattered all over the hallowed ground, flowing
carelessly in the wind, he felt his heart crushed inside. Others around
him cried, hugged, kissed, stared, and spoke silently to themselves a small
prayer of hope or of sorrow. He had not lost a family member, or loved
one, but had lost his soul again, after finding it following the Vietnam
War over twenty years ago in the lush jungles of the Vietnamese wilderness.
He was searching for closure, for guidance, but most of all what to do
next. The wind blew softly through his hair, ruffling the small black
curls, and the black headband which was a mere piece of cloth, as he waited
for the others to finish placing their offerings in the circle. His deep
brown eyes watched, full of pain, showing emotion that was too intense for
anyone else to look at. He wore a pair of faded blue jeans, a pair of old
army boots that had lasted since the war, and his most treasured item: a
green faded Army jacket, with U.S Army stitched on the left pocket, and the
American flag delicately stitched by his own hand on the right pocket. He
also wore his medals, purple heart, bronze star, congressional medal of
honor, and various other sorts of medals that he had collected from Nam.
He was certainly an interesting sight amongst the plainclothes citizens,
and seemed to have a ring of light around him as he stood there, head bowed
down in prayer, people all around him. His presence also seemed to be
unknown as well, as if everyone subconsciously knew he was there and formed
a circle, but denied his presence consciously, only concerned about their
own affairs. Always known as expendable, he felt his presence didn't
really matter, yet was highly acknowledged, and even though it wasn't
necessary, still was appreciated. The others around him didn't look at him
straight in the eye, but through their peripheral vision, wondering about
this strange man, who so tenacious in his stature, beamed heartache
somehow, which showed most of all through his eyes.
Finally his turn came, and with a heavy heart, raised each foot and
moved forward, the images returning with each step. One step, Vietnam,
running through the jungles for his life. Second step, running through
that solitary town, young and vibrant, fighting for his freedom to be able
to walk through a town without opposition. Third step, running through
Vietnam, staring at his old Vietnam POW camp, a lost soldier painfully
running beside him. Fourth step, running through an Afghanistan camp,
silently trying to rescue his best friend from Soviets. Fifth step,
helping the dying and scared escape the collapsing towers. Each step had
brought him to where he was today, shaping who he would become tomorrow,
and helping him remember the man he had once been. As he walked ever so
slowly, the people seemed to instinctually move, making way for this one
solitary man, whom they didn't even know, whom they would never know, so
that he could pass and pay his respects. In his hands he held something
that he had been holding secretly from the rest of the visitors, a
paperweight of the World Trade Centers that he had purchased on a visit to
New York and had thrown aside until he remembered he had it a few days
after the towers collapsed. He had been waiting for the right opportunity
to place it somewhere in remembrance, and as he walked up, he knew the time
was right. That strange air of mystery followed him as he drew closer and
closer to the circle, each person now more curious who he was, and were
about to find out as he finally approached the circle.
He stood in front of the circle
