Fireflies
Digi*girl: Here it is folks! Sorry for the long delay¡Kcan¡¦t think of a good ending there. Don¡¦t sue me!! I changed my writing btw¡K
Disclaimers- Rurouni Kenshin does not belong to me, you know the drill!
*** different POV¡¦s
Epilogue- being with you
What if I were to tell you a story? A story about a girl, who lost her love. In her eyes, the stars no longer smiled? Would you listen?
I stared out the window, the rain danced on the streets. Life was not fair. Nothing was. So here I am, sitting in the empty hospital room, without the lights¡Kthe darkness was soothing.
She sits one day, trying to give life a meaning with her broken heart. Seconds turned to minutes, minutes became hours. And still she sat, hopeless still.
What will happen after? My life has no future. Kenshin¡¦s gone. I died with him a long time ago. All that is left was the useless shell of my body. What will happen?
In desperation she finds comfort in the rain. Hidden in the corner, she wept. All the time stopped in existence then, as she lifted her tear streaked face. The moment came, when everything is black and white.
In my dream, I dreamt of Kenshin. Of how things used to be. I dreamt of his smile, of our first kiss. I dreamt of him, alive and breathing, standing in front of me, smiling.
¡§Kaoru¡K¡¨
¡§Kenshin,¡¨ I smiled, ¡§Kenshin.¡¨
¡§Believe, Kaoru.¡¨ He told me.
¡§Believe?¡¨ I asked, confused. ¡§Believe in what Kenshin?¡¨
¡§If you believe, then maybe we¡¦ll meet again someday.¡¨
Then realization hit me. ¡§Kenshin¡Konegai. Come back to me!¡¨ I tried to reach him, but the distance between us seemed to stretch even further.
He smiled. ¡§Believe.¡¨
Then he faded.
And I woke up; it was nothing more than a mere dream.
¡§Believe¡K¡¨ I turned my face to the foggy window once more, hearing the rain splatter.
¡§Believe.¡¨
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(Misao)
Kaoru was out of the hospital the next day. I was thrilled. Everyone was, including her sempai, Sano. But she wasn¡¦t the person whom she used to be.
Everyday her smile grows a little less bright, and the spirit within her faded pass time. We all know the reason though; it wasn¡¦t as if she¡¦s like this for no reason.
Himura.
Yes, it¡¦s always about him. God, why must he die? Kaoru did nothing to deserve this. She deserves so much more. I can imagine how her smile would be when they grow up, married. But that¡¦s impossible now, isn¡¦t it?
Sometimes I think life was a bit too harsh on her. I mean, by just looking at her¡Kyou feel as if it¡¦s end of the world. Hopeless. Blank.
If I have a lifetime wish, I wish Himura would be alive again, to save our dear Kaoru. I wish I could reverse the time.
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(Kaoru)
I wonder how much time had passed since I was like this. Once I looked at myself in the mirror, I screamed. I thought I¡¦ve seen a ghost.
I didn¡¦t tie my hair up; it was all tangled up, it made my appearance ghastly. And I¡¦m as white as a sheet. I found no lights in my eyes. Even the blue began to fade.
See what life had done to me?
My friends had tried to cheer me up, and they made me tried to forget him. But how can I? After so much we¡¦ve been through together, how can I?
I tried to go on, really I tried. But everywhere I look, every time I stopped and think. I¡¦ll always thought of him. I can¡¦t help it. What do I do Kenshin? You told me to believe, but to believe in what?
¡§Snap out of it Kaoru!¡¨ Misao said one day, I guess she couldn¡¦t contain herself anymore by seeing me like this.
I didn¡¦t say anything.
¡§Kaoru,¡¨ Misao breathed in sharply, ¡§I know you miss him, we all do. But, what would you think if Kenshin sees you like this? I¡¦m sure that he wanted you to be happy.¡¨
I laughed bitterly, ¡§Happy? Happy? See Misao? I could never be happy, I was not meant to be. I¡¦m dying Misao, I wish all of this could end.¡¨
Misao stomped her feet angrily, ¡§Where¡¦s the cheerful Kaoru that I¡¦ve known before? Where did the smile disappear to?¡¨
I closed my eyes wearily; ¡§Leave me alone Misao,¡¨ I said quietly.
But she wouldn¡¦t give up. ¡§Kaoru,¡¨ she started, ¡§I just wanted to get some sense into you.¡¨
¡§I said leave me alone!¡¨
Heavy breathing.
Misao raised her hands in defeat and frowned, ¡§Fine, you know what, FINE.¡¨ She turned to the door when she stopped and faced me slowly, her eyes saddening. ¡§Go on, Kaoru. Kenshin wouldn¡¦t be happy to see you like this. You know he wouldn¡¦t.¡¨ then she left.
I was left alone again, thinking silently.
Could Kenshin see me right now? Could he? What would he feel if he sees me like this?
Thousands of questions swirled in my mind as I tried to make sense in them. As if on cue, my mind snapped.
In that dream, her realizations came true. Life is an excuse that we all hide behind. It is a lie that people use to deny that the fact that life isn¡¦t the most important thing.
I looked over to the picture frame of Kenshin and me together. I walked to it and traced my finger along his face. Smiling, the tears dropped onto the glass and rolled down. He was wrapping his arms around me and we both looked so happy.
¡§Believe Kaoru, believe that someday we¡¦ll meet again.¡¨
Yes. I¡¦ll believe. I¡¦m going to move on.
For Kenshin, for Misao, for all of my friends. And last of all, for myself.
I stood up sternly and went over to the mirror; I wiped my tears away with my sleeve and stared at my reflection in the mirror.
I smiled a bit; there was so much to be fixed.
On the other side of everyone, the only thing wanted and denied was, happiness.
~A month later~
The wind caressed my face softly as I stood in the park, alone. It was the season of spring, where one should leave the past behind and started a new life. Like me.
My smile returned, and my happiness is gaining each day. Simply of the fact that I believe. I still hold onto that promise.
Flowers bloom over the grass, covering them, like a blanket. Birds sang and the sun shone brightly. The world continues to revolve, as my life will continue to go on.
¡§Kenshin¡K¡¨ I breathed in softly as another wind picked up, causing the papers in my arms to fly. Later scattered on all over the place. I bent down quickly and began to gather them, when suddenly; someone helped me. Gathering up the last of the papers, I stood up abruptly and patted the dust off my shirt. I cleared my throat, and I looked up.
And smiled.
Because I saw the all too familiar lavender eyes gazing right at me.
Now that my story is done, would you take one last listening?
Don¡¦t be afraid to feel, in the end, you¡¦ll figure out what you need to know.
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OMG!!! Can you believe it?! I¡¦m finished!!! Noooooooooo! Hehe I know the end might be confusing for you, but that¡¦s just the way it is. The rest of them leaves to you to imagine your own! Lavender eyes¡K*sighs* how sweet. Thanks to ALL of your reviews minna-san!!!!! Oh and please read my other story ¡¥Rain of Blood¡¦!!