.3 weeks later in Cameron.

'Dear Diary,

I just got the most horrific news. 3 weeks of being in a coma you think he'd come to. He didn't. God, I don't know what to do. I just cant believe it. Jason's gone. No more. He's never coming back. The one person who I was close to in my family just gone. Disappeared. In one flash. Jesus, why did this have to happen. He was only 28 years old. God damn, my brother. My own flesh and blood. The only other sibling I had. I cant live like this. I really cant. Knowing I got out of that car accident scot free while he died. I've officially decided I'm not moving here to Cameron. I'm packing up my things and going back home to Sacramento. If I cant be with my brother I might as well go somewhere where it has meaning. Being close to him. We grew up there, it's the only home we've really known. I'm catching a nine o'clock flight out to Sac. and heading back to my apartment. Vince is giving me another 3 weeks off.
This whole ordeal is just overwhelming and Vince honestly doesn't think I can handle being back out on the road. I have to get the rest of my things packed.

Eternally,
Marie'

As I closed up my journal I put it in my suitcase. I grabbed the rest of my clothes and put them on top of the journal. After finishing up packing I did a double check around the house to make sure I have everything. Knowing that I did I grabbed my things and took them out to Jeff's car and put them in the trunk. After getting everything inside I headed back into the house. I plopped down on the couch and dozed off. I had a good 4 hours before my flight and I could really use the sleep. I've been up since 1 am since I heard about Jason.

.at the airport.

"I really wish you stay a little longer," Jeff pleaded.

"Jeff, I've made my mind up. Leave it at that. I want you to go back out on the road. Get traveling again. Get back into the swing of things. I'll be fine. I'm going to spend some time with my mom and work my way back into this. I'll be cool. Trust me. Being home is the best thing for me," I explained.

"I know. It's hard on me to Marie. You can't let this get to you. It's not only affecting you it's affecting all of us. Whether you know it or not," Jeff sighed.

"I told you I'm fine. Just leave it alone Jeff. Seriously, I really don't want to leave like this. In a fight. Can you please leave it alone. God damn Jeff. I swear," I said starting to raise my voice.

"Okay okay. I'll leave you alone........ for now." Jeff said.

"Oh bite me!" I mumbled.

.ding ding.

"We are now boarding flight 0510 to Sacramento California. We are taking boarding passes one through thirty. Thank You." said the lady over the intercom.

"Well, I'm fifteen. I'll call you later Jeff. Love you. Take care. Tell everyone I say Hi." I said.

"I will. Come back soon," Jeff said.

Jeff helped me grab my things. I put my carry on around my shoulder and hugged Jeff. I kissed him on the lips and went to pull away as he pulled me in closer. I could tell he didn't want to let me go. But he had to. I needed to get away. Go back home to Sacramento.

I boarded the flight I sat towards the back as to not get noticed. I really honestly don't want to be seen The flight attendant could tell I didn't want to be noticed so she tried to keep people as far away from me as possible. The flight wasn't booked. there were only about 60 people on the flight I had small talk with one of the attendants and got a little more sleep. It was a long flight and I didn't want to bother my mom by making her come all the way out to the airport to come get me. So I had my friend Joe pick me up. As I walked out of the boarding gate I immediately seen him and ran to him and gave him a hug. I began to cry in his arms.

"Shhhh... It'll be okay Marie. I miss him too. It'll be okay," Joe whispered into my ear as he hugged me and softly combed my hair with his fingers.

"I know. I just miss him so much Joe." I cried.

"Come on. Lets go back to my place and we can talk about it there. This really isn't the place. Come on," Joe said as he grabbed my carry on and put his arm around my waist.

We walked all the way to Baggage Claim like that. I sat down in a chair while Joe picked up my bags. It's easy to tell which ones are mine because they have WWF patches on them and my stage name Jade in a patch underneath it. The car ride was silent. Joe only lived 30 minutes away from the airport so it was a short ride. When we got to his house it was way to late to talk. And way to late to call Jeff. Joe brought my things in and showed me to my room. I told him thanks and closed the door behind him. I got changed and went to bed.

"I've never seen you more happy," Jason said.

The nightmare of the car crash was in my dreams that night. It played over and over of what my brother said to me. While showing the car flip and my brothers voice replaying like a ghost. I tossed and turned. I couldn't sleep. It was useless trying to sleep. I got up out of the bed and walked to the closed door and opened it. I made my way through the dark and found Joe's room. I stumbled over a few shoes and felt around for his bed. I found the covers and crawled in. I got closer to Joe and put my arms around him and closed my eyes. I felt his arm wrap around my back and pull me in tighter.

The next morning I woke up in Joe's bed. I rolled over and felt for him but he wasn't there. He must've been gone for quite sometime because his side was cold. I got up and searched around the house. He wasn't there. So I decided I would take a shower. After I got out I put on a clean pair of clothes and grabbed my cell. I dialed Jeff's number and waited for him to pick up. He didn't.

"Hey Jeff. It's me, Marie. I'm just calling to let you know I made it into Sacramento fine. I didn't call last night because I it was late. So I hope your not mad at me. Well, give me a call when you have time." I said into the phone leaving Jeff a message.

Just as I hung up my cell and put it away Joe walked in. He had a bag of groceries in his hand. He must've gone out to get me something edible.

"Didn't have any food. Completely empty," Joe laughed.

"Oh well. I'm not hungry really," I sighed. "Would you mind taking me back to my place?"

"No. Not at all. Just tell me when." Joe answered.

"Now," I said.

"Okay, let me put these down." he replied. I went to the room and grabbed my things.

Joe dropped me off and told me to call him. I didn't. I didn't call anyone for a week. I didn't even come out of my apartment. I went into a state of depression. I never moved from the apartment. I stood inside. Watching Raw and Smackdown to keep up. I never returned any of Jeff's calls or Joe's. I got a lot of sleep but was constantly tired. I was always sleeping.

.week later.

"GET UP!" Joe said shaking me furiously in my bed.

"Jesus Joe. Remind me to get my key back. What are you doing here?" I whined.

"Getting you out of this hell hole apartment of yours. I haven't heard from you in a week, time for you to get up and over this thing Marie. Now get up and get in the shower. I'm going to be here waiting for you It's nearly 1 in the afternoon. I'm going to take you out to lunch. So hurry it up," Joe demanded as he pulled me up and walked over to the TV room.

An hour later I was dressed and ready to go out to go eat lunch with Joe.

"Where in the blue hell are you taking me??" I asked.

"The Old Spaghetti Factory. I have a table reserved for us outside. Then we're heading out to Downtown Plaza. So be prepared to do some walking." Joe said.

During lunch Joe made me laugh and made sure I had a good time. Not thinking about anything but that moment. It was working too. I didn't once think about Jason or Jeff during the time I was with Joe. After lunch he took me to the Plaza mall for me to go shopping.

"I want you to pick out a nice dress," Joe said as we walked into Jessica McClintoc.

"Why?" I asked with a puzzled look on my face.

"I'm taking you out to diner tonight and it's going to be formal. There's also going to be dancing so be prepared," Joe said.

"Joe, why are you doing this?" I asked.

"Because I cant stand seeing you depressed. You need to start living again. And when are you going back out there with the Federation? It really needs you," Joe said.

"I don't know when. I guess when I feel like it," I shrugged. "Well, while I pick out a dress why don't you just go out and shop for yourself. I'll call you when I'm done. Okay?"

"Yeah. That's cool. Have fun," Joe said as he left the store.

The sales lady immediately went to work on helping me. We practically tried on every dress in the store. We stopped when we got to the red spaghetti strap dress. It was satin material. When I put it on, the dress clung perfectly to all my curves and was ankle length with a slit in the back. We decided that that was the dress. Next she sent me to the shoe department to pick out some shoes. I found the perfect red heels. They were comfortable enough for me to dance in. Once I purchased the dress I headed out to the jewelry store. I bought diamond earrings with red jewels in them and a matching necklace and bracelet.

Joe dropped me off at my apartment and told me he'd pick me up in four hours. Plenty of time. I put all my other bags from shopping down in my room. I pulled the dress out of the bag and laid it nicely on my bed. I pulled out the shoes too. Once I put all my things away and took the tags off I got into a bath. I put lavender bath crystals in the water and climbed in. I spent a good 45 minutes in there. It's best to let the scent soak into your skin. After I got out I put my curling iron on and got my make up out. I slipped my slip on and sat down on the couch and watched a little
news. After the news finished I got up and got ready. By time I finished up I had at least a half hour before Joe would come.

.ring ring.

"Hello?" I answered.

"My god, I thought I'd never get a hold of you. How are you doing with everything?" replied a familiar voice.

"Good good. I'm doing a lot better then I was two weeks ago, Jeff. Which was total hell. How's everyone doing?" I said.

"Good. How come you haven't called?" Jeff asked.

"It's not just you. I haven't called anyone. Joe literally dragged me out of my bed this morning and made me get up and get going," I laughed.

"Oh," Jeff said sounding a little jealous.

"Don't worry. We're just friends," I said.

"Oh okay. Hey, I just thought I'd call. I'll talk to you later. Bye. I miss you." Jeff sighed.

"I love you," I said.

"I love you too," Jeff answered.

.knock knock (10 min. later).

"My god Marie, you look amazing," Joe smiled.

"Thank you. Took me all the time to get ready, but it worked huh?" I laughed.

"Damn Skippy. I'm glad your coming with me," Joe said.

Joe landed up taking me to Vince's. It's a nice Italian restaurant. His company was having a little party. We were having a blast socializing with his friends and dancing. Of course not dancing like how I usually do at a club. But you know slow dancing. At times I wished Jeff was there with me instead of Joe. But this
was just as much fun. We didn't get back from the party until 1 am.

.next morning.

I went out to the Safeway to go pick up some food and a few magazines. As I was standing in line I read the National Enquirer Headline 'WWF SUPERSTAR JADE CHEATING ON FELLOW SUPERSTAR JEFF HARDY WITH OLD HIGH SCHOOL BOYFRIEND'. What the hell?? I looked at the photo's. They were taken the night before at the party. They had pictures of me dancing and laughing with Joe. How could this have happened?? Has Jeff seen this?