Don't Wanna Lose You Now
By: Lina-Kun
Song: Don't wanna lose you now by The Backstreet Boys
Rating: PG
AUTHORS NOTE: I am slowly figuring out what are the continuation Song fics. I think there are three in this certain story. So yes I think this is the second. Yippy. A sequel well sort of. I don't think some of the lyrics are correct but I couldn't find the cover thing to write them down so it was all by ear. Oi. Anyways..I do not own slayers or the characters or any other anime for that matter. .Damn! Anyways read and enjoy. It's a cliffhanger. *Laughs evilly*
Warnings: the characters may be OOC in some parts.
I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Xellos walked through the empty halls every night. Even with all the work he was given he still could not get Filia out of his mind. It had been years since he had really truly seen her face. Sure there was the odd occasion when he was able to get a glimpse of her. But that man was always with her when Xellos actually had time to visit. So he buried his love for the golden dragon in the deepest part of his heart.
Never thought that I would be left behind
That I was stronger then you
Baby
How could she after all he had sacrificed? How could she go and find someone else, leaving him like a dusty old rag. It hurt him. His heart would sting whenever he saw the two together. She never did care for him, he was just there to take up time. The thoughts of this seemed to swell in his mind as he walked. It was so unfair to him that she could go and do that.
Girl if only I knew what I've done
You know
so why don't you tell me
He shook the idea out of his head how could he be mad at her. After all he had been the one to break his promise and rip her heart in two. He remembered this with shock.
"I never meant to hurt her, but I had no other choose. She couldn't go on living in a lie, which I had created," he said sadly
His feet seemingly dragged across the floor as he walked threw the empty halls. "But I still want her"
And I
I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care
He entered the room at the end of the hall and approached Zelas.
She raised an eyebrow "what do you want Xellos. I didn't call for you"
"I was wondering if you would allow me to take a leave, Lord Zelas?" he asked respectfully
"Xellos you come in here and waste my time, just to ask me if you can go on a break?!" she exclaimed quite irritated
Xellos nodded "except it would be a permanent leave"
"WhAT?" Zelas almost fell out of her chair. She was now incredible irritable.
"Why would you want to leave permanently Xellos?!" she asked
Xellos couldn't reply, what could he say to her? There was no way she would let him leave if he told her the only reason was so that he could be with Filia.
"Well? I'm waiting?" she said
"I will not lie to you. I would like to leave because I want to be with Filia" he said
Zelas looked at him oddly "you want to be with a Golden Dragon and the one that hates you to boot?" she laughed, "Why would you do something that stupid Xellos?"
"Because I love her," he said straight forward
Zelas stopped laughing and looked at him concerned "what is happening to you?" she asked "is it possible that you could actually love this girl"
Xellos nodded. He was expecting here to attack him in rage, but she seemed to be taking it very much differently.
She to a long drag on her cigarette and then motioned him to leave the room. "I commend you on telling the truth" she said "now get out of here before it's to late"
Xellos smiled and walked out of the room.
Don't want to lose you now
Baby
I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you now
Oh no
Or ever again
Xellos watched Filia as she cleaned the store. She was incredible elegant in her movements. You wouldn't be able to tell that she was walking, it seemed as though she was floating.
Xellos who was hidden in the shadows of the room grinned at her. She seemed more beautiful then ever. But when he went to reveal himself his heart stopped. What if she hated him again? What if she didn't ever want to look at him again? He just couldn't take the thought of her wanting to be with another man.
But pushing aside all of the disgruntled thoughts he walked out of the shadows and towards her.
"Filia" he said the words in his mouth seemed almost unknown
Filia stopped doing what she had before and froze in place. She breathed for a minute, then turned to face the owner of the familiar voice. Her eyes focused on the form.
"Xellos?" she asked. She knew it was him but just needed to confirm it.
He smiled at her. Her eyes started to cloud over and become glossy. She turned back around so she couldn't see him. So he couldn't see her crying.
I got this feeling your not going to stay
It's burning within me
The fear of losing, of slipping away
Just keeps getting closer
Xellos looked at her, she had recognized him but just as soon as she did she turned away. Filia's whole body seemed to shake.
"Filia what's wrong?" he asked
Her mind was racing 'he's here' she thought 'he's finally come back. But he will leave again. He promised the first time and I can't take another promise broken!'
Whatever reason to leave this faith
I was always beside you
And I Wish I didn't need you so bad
Your face
Just won't go away
"Filia?" Xellos was now even more concerned she wasn't talking to him. She wouldn't answer anything he asked her. She must have really hated him for leaving her. Even when she wasn't with him though, he still loved her. And seeing her this way was starting to break his heart. She had given up on him. She was in love with another. He decided to leave her be. It would be best. Xellos wanted her to be happy and if that meant she was to be in love with another then he wouldn't stand in her way.
Xellos quickly teleported out of the room, the thought of being with her simply started to vanish as grief started to take hold.
He stood by the tree raking his mind for answers.
"Isn't she in love with me?" he asked himself "this isn't the way things are suppose to be!" he cried
He closed his eyes firmly not even allowing himself to see a bit of light, but the only thing he could picture was her face. She was crying and it was because of him. He had to set thing's right that was the only way.
Don't want to lose you now
Baby
I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you now
Oh no
Or ever again
Don't want to lose you now
Don't want to lose you
Filia looked at Emin with sadness. He looked back at her confused "what's wrong Filia? Don't you like it?" he asked
Filia looked at the ring he was offering to her.
"Oh no, it's beautiful but you see I.." Filia looked away. Here she was hurting another.
"If your not ready Filia I can wait. Take as long as you want I'll still be here when you decide your ready" He stood up from his kneed position.
Filia smiled at him "yes I think I need some time to think. There's some business that I need to tie up before I reply" she said 'there's something I need to know'
I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this change
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger then you
Xellos walked into the store. The sign on the door said that it was open but he didn't see anyone anywhere.
He knew he shouldn't enter the house without being invited in but the old him didn't care. He walked right into the kitchen and saw Filia with another man. In the mans hand was a velvet cloth that held a diamond ring.
Filia turned to the intrusion. Xellos stood in the door behind Emin, his eyes where wide open. He looked up at her from the ring.
Emin turned to see Xellos standing there, looking at Filia.
Xellos turned around and walked out of the kitchen. Filia started to go after him but Emin pulled her back. He was smiling, though his eyes were filled with tears.
Don't want to lose to loneliness
Girl I know we can win
Don't want to lose to emptiness
Oh no
Never again
"Is he the reason you couldn't say yes?" Emin asked Filia looked at him then lowered her head.
Emin let go of her hand "Filia do you love him?"
Filia looked at Emin "I..I don't know for sure"
Emin shook his head "I know what your thinking" He said "there's reasons"
Filia looked at him confused "what do you mean?" she asked
He smiled "here" he said handing her the velvet cloth that held the diamond ring "I want you to have this"
Filia looked the ring in her hands "but I can't take this" she said
"Take it. You need it more then me," he said happily wiping the tears away "he won't have a ring on him"
Don't want to lose to loneliness
No way baby
Girl I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you emptiness
No no
Or ever again
Don't want to lose your love
Filia smiled at Emin "why?" she asked
Emin looked at her "I love you" he said "and if I didn't let you go I would regret it for the rest of my life. Filia I want you to be happy, even if it's not with me"
Filia hugged him "thank you" she said
"What are you doing your wasting time, go get him before he's to far" Emin yelled as she rushed out of the house.
Baby
I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you now
Don't want to lose you
Oh No
Or ever again
Don't want to lose you now
Filia rushed down the street looking everywhere. Emin's words echoed in her mind 'do you love him?' She didn't know for sure if she loved him. She had loved him once but that was before. 'He left me after he promised he wouldn't' she thought as she panicked
"Xellos where are you!" she cried
By: Lina-Kun
Song: Don't wanna lose you now by The Backstreet Boys
Rating: PG
AUTHORS NOTE: I am slowly figuring out what are the continuation Song fics. I think there are three in this certain story. So yes I think this is the second. Yippy. A sequel well sort of. I don't think some of the lyrics are correct but I couldn't find the cover thing to write them down so it was all by ear. Oi. Anyways..I do not own slayers or the characters or any other anime for that matter. .Damn! Anyways read and enjoy. It's a cliffhanger. *Laughs evilly*
Warnings: the characters may be OOC in some parts.
I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Xellos walked through the empty halls every night. Even with all the work he was given he still could not get Filia out of his mind. It had been years since he had really truly seen her face. Sure there was the odd occasion when he was able to get a glimpse of her. But that man was always with her when Xellos actually had time to visit. So he buried his love for the golden dragon in the deepest part of his heart.
Never thought that I would be left behind
That I was stronger then you
Baby
How could she after all he had sacrificed? How could she go and find someone else, leaving him like a dusty old rag. It hurt him. His heart would sting whenever he saw the two together. She never did care for him, he was just there to take up time. The thoughts of this seemed to swell in his mind as he walked. It was so unfair to him that she could go and do that.
Girl if only I knew what I've done
You know
so why don't you tell me
He shook the idea out of his head how could he be mad at her. After all he had been the one to break his promise and rip her heart in two. He remembered this with shock.
"I never meant to hurt her, but I had no other choose. She couldn't go on living in a lie, which I had created," he said sadly
His feet seemingly dragged across the floor as he walked threw the empty halls. "But I still want her"
And I
I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care
He entered the room at the end of the hall and approached Zelas.
She raised an eyebrow "what do you want Xellos. I didn't call for you"
"I was wondering if you would allow me to take a leave, Lord Zelas?" he asked respectfully
"Xellos you come in here and waste my time, just to ask me if you can go on a break?!" she exclaimed quite irritated
Xellos nodded "except it would be a permanent leave"
"WhAT?" Zelas almost fell out of her chair. She was now incredible irritable.
"Why would you want to leave permanently Xellos?!" she asked
Xellos couldn't reply, what could he say to her? There was no way she would let him leave if he told her the only reason was so that he could be with Filia.
"Well? I'm waiting?" she said
"I will not lie to you. I would like to leave because I want to be with Filia" he said
Zelas looked at him oddly "you want to be with a Golden Dragon and the one that hates you to boot?" she laughed, "Why would you do something that stupid Xellos?"
"Because I love her," he said straight forward
Zelas stopped laughing and looked at him concerned "what is happening to you?" she asked "is it possible that you could actually love this girl"
Xellos nodded. He was expecting here to attack him in rage, but she seemed to be taking it very much differently.
She to a long drag on her cigarette and then motioned him to leave the room. "I commend you on telling the truth" she said "now get out of here before it's to late"
Xellos smiled and walked out of the room.
Don't want to lose you now
Baby
I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you now
Oh no
Or ever again
Xellos watched Filia as she cleaned the store. She was incredible elegant in her movements. You wouldn't be able to tell that she was walking, it seemed as though she was floating.
Xellos who was hidden in the shadows of the room grinned at her. She seemed more beautiful then ever. But when he went to reveal himself his heart stopped. What if she hated him again? What if she didn't ever want to look at him again? He just couldn't take the thought of her wanting to be with another man.
But pushing aside all of the disgruntled thoughts he walked out of the shadows and towards her.
"Filia" he said the words in his mouth seemed almost unknown
Filia stopped doing what she had before and froze in place. She breathed for a minute, then turned to face the owner of the familiar voice. Her eyes focused on the form.
"Xellos?" she asked. She knew it was him but just needed to confirm it.
He smiled at her. Her eyes started to cloud over and become glossy. She turned back around so she couldn't see him. So he couldn't see her crying.
I got this feeling your not going to stay
It's burning within me
The fear of losing, of slipping away
Just keeps getting closer
Xellos looked at her, she had recognized him but just as soon as she did she turned away. Filia's whole body seemed to shake.
"Filia what's wrong?" he asked
Her mind was racing 'he's here' she thought 'he's finally come back. But he will leave again. He promised the first time and I can't take another promise broken!'
Whatever reason to leave this faith
I was always beside you
And I Wish I didn't need you so bad
Your face
Just won't go away
"Filia?" Xellos was now even more concerned she wasn't talking to him. She wouldn't answer anything he asked her. She must have really hated him for leaving her. Even when she wasn't with him though, he still loved her. And seeing her this way was starting to break his heart. She had given up on him. She was in love with another. He decided to leave her be. It would be best. Xellos wanted her to be happy and if that meant she was to be in love with another then he wouldn't stand in her way.
Xellos quickly teleported out of the room, the thought of being with her simply started to vanish as grief started to take hold.
He stood by the tree raking his mind for answers.
"Isn't she in love with me?" he asked himself "this isn't the way things are suppose to be!" he cried
He closed his eyes firmly not even allowing himself to see a bit of light, but the only thing he could picture was her face. She was crying and it was because of him. He had to set thing's right that was the only way.
Don't want to lose you now
Baby
I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you now
Oh no
Or ever again
Don't want to lose you now
Don't want to lose you
Filia looked at Emin with sadness. He looked back at her confused "what's wrong Filia? Don't you like it?" he asked
Filia looked at the ring he was offering to her.
"Oh no, it's beautiful but you see I.." Filia looked away. Here she was hurting another.
"If your not ready Filia I can wait. Take as long as you want I'll still be here when you decide your ready" He stood up from his kneed position.
Filia smiled at him "yes I think I need some time to think. There's some business that I need to tie up before I reply" she said 'there's something I need to know'
I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this change
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger then you
Xellos walked into the store. The sign on the door said that it was open but he didn't see anyone anywhere.
He knew he shouldn't enter the house without being invited in but the old him didn't care. He walked right into the kitchen and saw Filia with another man. In the mans hand was a velvet cloth that held a diamond ring.
Filia turned to the intrusion. Xellos stood in the door behind Emin, his eyes where wide open. He looked up at her from the ring.
Emin turned to see Xellos standing there, looking at Filia.
Xellos turned around and walked out of the kitchen. Filia started to go after him but Emin pulled her back. He was smiling, though his eyes were filled with tears.
Don't want to lose to loneliness
Girl I know we can win
Don't want to lose to emptiness
Oh no
Never again
"Is he the reason you couldn't say yes?" Emin asked Filia looked at him then lowered her head.
Emin let go of her hand "Filia do you love him?"
Filia looked at Emin "I..I don't know for sure"
Emin shook his head "I know what your thinking" He said "there's reasons"
Filia looked at him confused "what do you mean?" she asked
He smiled "here" he said handing her the velvet cloth that held the diamond ring "I want you to have this"
Filia looked the ring in her hands "but I can't take this" she said
"Take it. You need it more then me," he said happily wiping the tears away "he won't have a ring on him"
Don't want to lose to loneliness
No way baby
Girl I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you emptiness
No no
Or ever again
Don't want to lose your love
Filia smiled at Emin "why?" she asked
Emin looked at her "I love you" he said "and if I didn't let you go I would regret it for the rest of my life. Filia I want you to be happy, even if it's not with me"
Filia hugged him "thank you" she said
"What are you doing your wasting time, go get him before he's to far" Emin yelled as she rushed out of the house.
Baby
I know we can win this
Don't want to lose you now
Don't want to lose you
Oh No
Or ever again
Don't want to lose you now
Filia rushed down the street looking everywhere. Emin's words echoed in her mind 'do you love him?' She didn't know for sure if she loved him. She had loved him once but that was before. 'He left me after he promised he wouldn't' she thought as she panicked
"Xellos where are you!" she cried