SHAPE OF MY HEART
By: Lina-Kun
Song: Shape of my heart by the Backstreet Boys
Rating: PG 13
AUTHOR NOTE: MMMMAAAAWWWAAAAAHHHHAAAHHHAAA I finally found the last part. that and I'm lazy so I didn't post it till now. This is the final part of the three part song fic thingy.or whatever. The first part is a whole different story line because it's like a prequel. So if you haven't read that I'd advise that one. Cause this one is so sappy it started to make me laugh at the end. Anyway read it and tell me what you think.
Warning: Characters may be way OOC and this is you SAP ALERT. .
Baby, please try to forgive.
Stay here don't put out the glow.
Filia ran as fast as she could down the street after Xellos. He had just showed up she never meant for him to see any of that. It was his fault! She stopped in front of the entrance to the forest. No it was her fault as well. He tried to keep his promise, but he had a job to do. She was the one who had kept him all to herself. Selfishly she also placed all the blame on Xellos. When all he did was love her and try to make her happy.
She was the one who was getting proposed to not him. She had been the one to break his heart. He had come back to her and she had discarded him, and went for the nearest single man. Maybe for revenge. She didn't know the thought of everything he could say to push her away this time started to take over her guilt ridden conscience.
"Xellos where are you?" she asked entering the forest.
Hold me now, don't bother
If ever minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man
That I've become.. Oh yeah
Xellos stood leaning on the tree beside the lake. This was his fault, for leaving her. Maybe she would be happier with her new husband then she could ever be with him. He had nothing really to offer her. The other man probably could provide her with every thing she ever wanted. He was a nothing in her eyes.
"Xellos?"
Xellos turned to see Filia standing a distance behind him.
"you haven't left yet" She said "I have no where to go" he replied "why are you here?"
Filia wanted to run over to him but she didn't know how he would react. Probably just run away from her. Yet the yearning to be held by him again was growing ever more intense.
"I don't deserve to be here anymore" Xellos said
"why?" asked Filia
"how can I look at a women that I loved, when she's engaged to someone else" he said walking away.
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
"your wrong Xellos" Filia said looking at his back "I'm not engaged"
Xellos stopped dead in his tracks "your not?" he asked in and unbelievable tone
"How could I?" she said
Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness is tragic
So help me, I can't wake this boy
Xellos turned and looked at her. Her eyes filled with sadness as she thought silently. The tears drained from her blue eyes in rivers. The tears seemed to glow on her face as they reflected the moon.
He looked at her "what do you mean?" he asked
This wasn't fair that she would have to call of her engagement just because he was there. Or maybe she would have married the man anyway if he hadn't shown up. She just didn't want to be lonely, that was all. She never wanted to be alone ever. She was desperate. And he would not take advantage of her again with his lies.
Touch me now don't bother
If every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become.. oh yeah
Xellos turned again and started to walk to walk away from her again.
"Xellos please stop!" Filia cried
Xellos tried to drowned out her crys. He would not stop he would just walk out of her life forever and she would never have second thoughts again.
"Xellos, don't do this to me again!" she yelled
Xellos stopped 'again' the word ruptured his mind with questions. Was he doing this for her of to hurt her because she was with that other man? He shook his head.
"Xellos don't go not again" Filia fell to the ground He wasn't being fair to her. Her heart was braking for the second time by the same man.
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
It was her fault thought that he was walking away. She never let him in. she had always put up the barrier of hate that sheltered her love for him. Maybe he was being selfish, he always got his way she had to grow up with others telling her everything she did even how to act in the presence of other.
He was free; he was just playing her like a puppet. He wanted to get his way. His way. To break her heart again. To never let her rest peacefully until it was fulfilled that she was forever tortured by not getting his love. It wasn't fair. This time he wasn't going to win.
I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know were to start
But to show you the shape of my heart
"Filia what happened?" He asked not turning around to see her face.
"what do you mean?" she said wiping the tears from her face.
"with you and.him?" Xellos asked
"Entim?" Filia asked
"I guess" Xellos said
"I..couldn't do it" she said looking at the ground.
"why not?" He exclaimed turning around
"because I don't love him in the way that I love you" she said
Xellos stood there shocked
Looking back on the thing I've done
I never want to play the same old part
Kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
"I gave it up" he said
Filia stood back up walking towards him slowly. "you gave what up Xellos?" she asked
"I gave up everything for one look at you" he said now facing her
"you mean.Zelas?" she said now inches from him
Xellos nodded "I gave up my rank as he General and Priest so I could be with you" he paused "but when I came back and he was there with you proposing I couldn't I mean.I don't know what I mean"
"your heart broke" she said sadly
Xellos looked at her "I did it to you didn't I?" he cried in realization Filia looked away from him
"I'm sorry Filia"
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Xellos lifted her face so he could look at her. She didn't resist.
"I didn't mean to hurt you" he said "I'm sorry"
Filia shoke her head "no Xellos, I was being selfish" she said starting to cry again.
Xellos smiled at her "you were never being selfish Filia"
"you gave up everything for me Xellos, and as soon as I saw you were gone I went looking for another" she explained
"it doesn't matter to me Filia, its in the past" He said softly wiping the tear away. Filia looked at him "are you sure?"
Xellos nodded
"Xellos do you love me?" she asked
Xellos looked takenaback by the statement "of course Filia" he said happily
"good" Filia backed up
Xellos raise an eyebrow.
Filia dug in her pocket for a second them pulled out the velvet cloth. She unwrapped the cloth to reveal the ring Entim had given her.
She got down on one knee
"What are you doing Filia?" Xellos asked
"What does it look like?" she said
Xellos looked about ready to laugh.
"Xellos will you.." Filia started to blush "I cant' do it" she said
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of
Show you the shape of my heart.
"Here" Xellos lifted her to her feet then took the ring from her.
"Filia will you marry me?" he asked perfectly
Filia looked at him for a minute. It was real this time he was really asking her to marry him.
"Of course Xellos" she said as he slipped the ring onto her finger. She didn't once look at the ring. He eyes were fixed on Xellos. He wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Are you sure you can handle me?" he asked
"I'll try" she said wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him.
By: Lina-Kun
Song: Shape of my heart by the Backstreet Boys
Rating: PG 13
AUTHOR NOTE: MMMMAAAAWWWAAAAAHHHHAAAHHHAAA I finally found the last part. that and I'm lazy so I didn't post it till now. This is the final part of the three part song fic thingy.or whatever. The first part is a whole different story line because it's like a prequel. So if you haven't read that I'd advise that one. Cause this one is so sappy it started to make me laugh at the end. Anyway read it and tell me what you think.
Warning: Characters may be way OOC and this is you SAP ALERT. .
Baby, please try to forgive.
Stay here don't put out the glow.
Filia ran as fast as she could down the street after Xellos. He had just showed up she never meant for him to see any of that. It was his fault! She stopped in front of the entrance to the forest. No it was her fault as well. He tried to keep his promise, but he had a job to do. She was the one who had kept him all to herself. Selfishly she also placed all the blame on Xellos. When all he did was love her and try to make her happy.
She was the one who was getting proposed to not him. She had been the one to break his heart. He had come back to her and she had discarded him, and went for the nearest single man. Maybe for revenge. She didn't know the thought of everything he could say to push her away this time started to take over her guilt ridden conscience.
"Xellos where are you?" she asked entering the forest.
Hold me now, don't bother
If ever minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man
That I've become.. Oh yeah
Xellos stood leaning on the tree beside the lake. This was his fault, for leaving her. Maybe she would be happier with her new husband then she could ever be with him. He had nothing really to offer her. The other man probably could provide her with every thing she ever wanted. He was a nothing in her eyes.
"Xellos?"
Xellos turned to see Filia standing a distance behind him.
"you haven't left yet" She said "I have no where to go" he replied "why are you here?"
Filia wanted to run over to him but she didn't know how he would react. Probably just run away from her. Yet the yearning to be held by him again was growing ever more intense.
"I don't deserve to be here anymore" Xellos said
"why?" asked Filia
"how can I look at a women that I loved, when she's engaged to someone else" he said walking away.
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
"your wrong Xellos" Filia said looking at his back "I'm not engaged"
Xellos stopped dead in his tracks "your not?" he asked in and unbelievable tone
"How could I?" she said
Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness is tragic
So help me, I can't wake this boy
Xellos turned and looked at her. Her eyes filled with sadness as she thought silently. The tears drained from her blue eyes in rivers. The tears seemed to glow on her face as they reflected the moon.
He looked at her "what do you mean?" he asked
This wasn't fair that she would have to call of her engagement just because he was there. Or maybe she would have married the man anyway if he hadn't shown up. She just didn't want to be lonely, that was all. She never wanted to be alone ever. She was desperate. And he would not take advantage of her again with his lies.
Touch me now don't bother
If every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become.. oh yeah
Xellos turned again and started to walk to walk away from her again.
"Xellos please stop!" Filia cried
Xellos tried to drowned out her crys. He would not stop he would just walk out of her life forever and she would never have second thoughts again.
"Xellos, don't do this to me again!" she yelled
Xellos stopped 'again' the word ruptured his mind with questions. Was he doing this for her of to hurt her because she was with that other man? He shook his head.
"Xellos don't go not again" Filia fell to the ground He wasn't being fair to her. Her heart was braking for the second time by the same man.
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
It was her fault thought that he was walking away. She never let him in. she had always put up the barrier of hate that sheltered her love for him. Maybe he was being selfish, he always got his way she had to grow up with others telling her everything she did even how to act in the presence of other.
He was free; he was just playing her like a puppet. He wanted to get his way. His way. To break her heart again. To never let her rest peacefully until it was fulfilled that she was forever tortured by not getting his love. It wasn't fair. This time he wasn't going to win.
I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know were to start
But to show you the shape of my heart
"Filia what happened?" He asked not turning around to see her face.
"what do you mean?" she said wiping the tears from her face.
"with you and.him?" Xellos asked
"Entim?" Filia asked
"I guess" Xellos said
"I..couldn't do it" she said looking at the ground.
"why not?" He exclaimed turning around
"because I don't love him in the way that I love you" she said
Xellos stood there shocked
Looking back on the thing I've done
I never want to play the same old part
Kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
"I gave it up" he said
Filia stood back up walking towards him slowly. "you gave what up Xellos?" she asked
"I gave up everything for one look at you" he said now facing her
"you mean.Zelas?" she said now inches from him
Xellos nodded "I gave up my rank as he General and Priest so I could be with you" he paused "but when I came back and he was there with you proposing I couldn't I mean.I don't know what I mean"
"your heart broke" she said sadly
Xellos looked at her "I did it to you didn't I?" he cried in realization Filia looked away from him
"I'm sorry Filia"
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Xellos lifted her face so he could look at her. She didn't resist.
"I didn't mean to hurt you" he said "I'm sorry"
Filia shoke her head "no Xellos, I was being selfish" she said starting to cry again.
Xellos smiled at her "you were never being selfish Filia"
"you gave up everything for me Xellos, and as soon as I saw you were gone I went looking for another" she explained
"it doesn't matter to me Filia, its in the past" He said softly wiping the tear away. Filia looked at him "are you sure?"
Xellos nodded
"Xellos do you love me?" she asked
Xellos looked takenaback by the statement "of course Filia" he said happily
"good" Filia backed up
Xellos raise an eyebrow.
Filia dug in her pocket for a second them pulled out the velvet cloth. She unwrapped the cloth to reveal the ring Entim had given her.
She got down on one knee
"What are you doing Filia?" Xellos asked
"What does it look like?" she said
Xellos looked about ready to laugh.
"Xellos will you.." Filia started to blush "I cant' do it" she said
Looking back on the thing I've done
I was trying to be someone
Played my part kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of
Show you the shape of my heart.
"Here" Xellos lifted her to her feet then took the ring from her.
"Filia will you marry me?" he asked perfectly
Filia looked at him for a minute. It was real this time he was really asking her to marry him.
"Of course Xellos" she said as he slipped the ring onto her finger. She didn't once look at the ring. He eyes were fixed on Xellos. He wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Are you sure you can handle me?" he asked
"I'll try" she said wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him.