Disclaimer: Smallville and its characters do not belong to me. I wish they did but I am too broke to afford them.
A/N: Due to a review from "Missing you" I thought why not right a sequel to it. Which would be Clark's POV. Anyway review, review, review, when I read them I write faster. If I don't see any I still write but I take more time to post. An if you read my other stories and are wondering why I am posting new ones when my old ones are not done yet…The answer is I do not have a clue why this things happen to me. Sometimes the show spoils me and it takes me longer to come up with a concept that is not rehashed too much. . Anyway you are here to read a story not the philosophy behind it. So READ, ENJOY and REVIEW
PG-13
Sayonara.
Found and Lost. (Sequel to Missing You)
Chloe!" I say with a strangled voice. I can't believe it. How could I have been so blind? I should have noticed this. Or maybe I did but I brushed it off as impossible. Lois Lane is Chloe Sullivan. Why not? I mean they are the same height. They had similar bone structure but that could be explained by the fact that Lois was Chloe's cousin. Right? I could have sworn that She had told me about her cousin Lois. The eyes and the hair that is what always threw me, and the wardrobe, Chloe would not be caught dead in Lois's power suits.
The proof is in front of me though. Chloe is standing right there. With dark brown hair and she is looking at me. Anxious. Oh my god! I missed her so much. I did not know it till she was gone. I walk to her and take her in my arms, happy, to feel her close to me, to breathe her in.
" Oh Chlo! I missed you so much, I looked everywhere for you but you were gone. I could not believe it when I could not track you down. I missed you" I can feel her tears on my shirt and I know that she missed me too. I have so many questions for her. I can't believe it that I did not see this. Lois and Chloe. The same person. I let her go and look at her. Her raven mane is much shorter. Like she used to wear them in High school. It makes her look young and feisty not that with the long hair she is not. Lois is feisty and sarcastic. She can hurt my feelings just like that. I should have seen this. I mean from the moment I laid eyes on Lois I was attracted to her. And the more I got to know her the more I fell for her. In a way I thought that she reminded me of Chloe. A Chloe dedicated to journalism, with no friends or family. A Chloe who spend too much time on her wardrobe but character wise they were both the same. And Know I understood why. They were the same person all along.
I smile at her. She is looking at me she is expecting questions. I have a few. But I am so happy to see her. I can't help lifting her and twirling her. I hear her laugh. It 's the first time in ten years that I have heard her laughter. It's so carefree. She gives me one of her famous grins. She is glowing. Lois rarely smiles. She missed me too. I feel like my heart is going to burst. I have so much to tell her. I need to tell her how I feel about her. Chloe. How I feel about Lois. I mean I have been in love with Chloe for a while now well since high school and I did not know it till she left. And when I got here I started to fall in love with Lois. And now to think about it I am in still in love with her. Yeah! I love her still.
I put her down and take her to the couch.
" Chloe…I can't believe this. Why? How? When? Why now?" I am asking. She stops smiling and I feel bad for asking. It must have taken a lot of courage to come here and see me and here I am bombarding her with questions.
" Well Clark, It is hard to explain." She starts. I look at her and smile. I squeeze her hand gently to let her know to continue.
" I guess I could tell you about it. I could never resist the Kent charm. But I need caffeine first." That was another thing I thought Lois and Chloe had in common their love for caffeine and the fact that they could not function without it. Lois smokes too on top of that. "Stop comparing them," I say to myself. I get up and head to the tiny kitchen in my loft and start the coffee machine.
"Your place look good, She says coming behind me. What did you do? Transport the "Fortress of Solitude" piece by piece to Metropolis."
"Actually I did." I grin at her and she smiles back. She walks over to my coffee table and notice my picture frames. She looks at the first one. It's one of Lana, Pete, her and I in our graduation gowns. We look happy and ready to face the world. The four musketeers, we were inseparable at the time. Who would have thought that was the last time I would have seen Chloe. Next to it there was another picture of her and I. I was holding her and she was grinning. We looked like a couple in love in that picture. At the time I did not even know that I had feelings for her.
"So how is Pete?" She asked me out of the blue. She fingers the second picture gently.
"He is fine. He is back in Smallville getting ready to get married."
" Oh!" She answers a little sad. She smiles at me again as if she is brushing off the thoughts that had just crept into her mind. "Who is the lucky lady?"
" Lana" I answer. I look at the different display of emotion go on her face. Surprise, sadness and joy replaced again by surprise. Her mouth curves into a tiny "o" and she looks so cute.
" I always thought that Lana and you would end up together never Pete and her." She says and I could swear that she sounds a little hurt making that statement. And part of my heart is overjoyed by the thought that she might still have feelings for me and the other part is jealous wondering if she is sad because she had feelings for Pete.
" Lana and I called it quits the summer after graduation. After you left, things got a little tense between us and we noticed that we made better friends anyway. Pete and Lana got together like about two years ago. I am actually very happy for them." I smile at her, to show her that it does not bother me.
"So are you seeing anyone?" she asks tentatively. Is she asking me out? I have to calm myself down. You have not seen Chloe in more than ten years and the ten months that you have been working with Lois let you know that the girl you knew is definitely not the same person. She has a wall around her most of the time. Don't make a fool of yourself Clark.
" No." I answer. I could say more but I think that it is best if I keep to the minimum. I still want to know about what happened to her. Why the name change? Why the new identity? Not that I did not do the same with me wearing unnecessary glasses and all. I give her the coffee and look at her. " I want to know what happened Chlo."
"It's a long story Clark. It is just that when I got here, I was depressed and I needed a change. My cousin had died, my dad was dead, and I had lost so many people I cared about. I wanted to be someone else. I enroll at Kansas State and I started writing under the pen name Lois Lane in memory of my cousin. It just stuck. I changed my hair color and wore contacts to suit more my new name. People were more willing to hire Lois than Chloe, so I said good-bye to her and became Lois full time."
" That still does not explain why you never wrote to us or called us. Nobody knew what happened to you. I did not know if you were alive or dead and it killed me inside." I knew I'd made a mistake by saying that. Chloe's eyes became icy and her face impenetrable.
" You have no idea what I had to go threw Clark. Don't pretend that you cared that much. You had Lana and Pete with you. I had to deal on my own. My dad had died and I was all alone. When I came here the one person I thought would stillbe here with me was dying. I was loosing my family. I had lost it them. I was alone. So I made my choice never to let anyone near me again. I did not want to get hurt again." She half screamed
" You had us, Chlo, you had us." I said taking a few steps towards her to take in my arms. But she backed away and looked at me shaking her head.
" No, I did not. Pete was having problems dealing with his family and you…you were so caught up with Lana that you did not notice anything. I mean it wasn't till I was gone…" She faltered, a tear falling along her cheek. " You missed me, only when I was gone. I was alone and I was in trouble and I had no one to turn to. So I made the choice to let everything go. Forget you, how I felt for you. Smallville everything. Let the past behind, things that didn't mean anything anyway. I wanted to be someone else Clark. So I became someone else. The truth is I am happy being that someone else. Till you showed up and messed it all up"
" Chloe…I don't understand." I really didn't. I knew that Gabe Sullivan had died a few weeks before graduation; we had all been there for Chloe. She had taken it better than we thought she would. She had moved in with my parents and I and I even thought that her and I had gotten even closer. I didn't think she showed any sign of being depressed, I did not know about her cousin though. I guess people can go in the deep end when they loose family in small period of time. I want to reach out to her. I want to hold her and protect her and never let her hurt again.
" Listen Clark. I can't do this" She puts the coffee mug down and heads towards the door. I walk in front of her and block her way. I lost her once I am not ready to loose her again.
"Chloe …"I whisper. She looks up to me her green eyes full of unshed tears.
"Clark…Chloe is dead. I am Lois." She says walking around me and opening the door. I take her hand in mine. Trying to keep her from going out.
"Chloe…I love you," I let out in a husky voice. I hold my breath hoping that she does understand that it is not in a brotherly way.
"Clark, Chloe loved you so much but she is gone. I am Lois and I don't feel that way." At those words she shrugged my arm off and left my apartment. I let the door close letting the truth sink in. I found her, and lost her all in one night