Summary: Kagome's jii-chan has passed away and she falls into a depression. Will she get out of it or will she surrender to it? *One-shot* This is a song by Avril Lavigne so if you see this:
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With something between it, that is the lyrics.
Disclaimer: Don't remind me…
Losing Grip
By: Minu
A 15 year old Higurashi Kagome walked towards the well in the Sengoku Jidai, her enormous yellow pack slung on her back. She searched around making sure a certain someone wasn't watching. By the time the well was in sight she stopped and crouched down in a runners position.
'Okay, I can do this. On the count of five 1...2...3...4...'
"Five!"
She sprinted with all of her strength and bounded towards the well. Just as she reached it she pushed off the ground and leaped through the air high enough to even make an Olympic high jumper jealous. Her feet was sailing and she closed her eyes to wait for the time shifting.
One second went by…
Two…
"Oi wench, what the fuck do you think you were doing?!?!"
Kagome opened her eyes only to be glared down by golden eyes. She blinked and looked up and then down. Inuyasha had grabbed the top of her backpack and turned her around to be facing him; her feet dangled uselessly in the air.
A sigh. "Onegai Inuyasha, could you just let me go? I have a huge math test, and I want to get a good grade on it. Kami-sama knows I need it!"
Inuyasha just narrowed his eyes more and moved his arm so Kagome was out of the well. He dropped unceremoniously on the ground.
"Feh, what you need to do is stay on this side and find the Shikon no Kakera bitch. You just went back last week! How many of these 'tests' do you have at your school anyways?"
Kagome just closed her eyes and pinched the bridge of her nose. 'Remember, count to ten to control your anger.'
'One'
"Hey wench I'm talking to you! I know you're a stupid human and all, but you can at least pay attention to me."
Twitch 'Two'
"Feh, you humans are fuckin weak. Always complaining about everything and needing to rest every minute."
Another twitch. Knot forming in the shoulder. 'Three'
"And at least Kikyo was tougher than you. But what can you expect from a copy. And a poor excuse of a copy too. Kikyo was beautiful, smart, could actually DEFEND herself, and she wasn't a bitch all the time."
"FOUR FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT NINE TEN!! SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT!!!"
The prayer beads glowed eight times before Inuyasha found himself in a two foot indentation in the ground. His back made a sickening crack noise and he howled in pain.
"Bitch!! What the hell was that for?!?!"
"Would you stop comparing me with Kikyo already!! Everyday your going around going 'Kikyo this' and 'Kikyo that'. It's getting sick and pathetic! The girl is nothing but dirt and bones now, so get over your infatuation and move on. She hates your guts, she's trying to drag you into hell! You'd think after the first time you'd get it, but noooooo, you have to be a stupid whining puppy who follows her every step!"
Kagome's hand flew to her mouth after what came out. 'What came over me?!?! I've never said anything like that before'
She stared at Inuyasha's place on the ground and stood up slowly. The low growl coming from Inuyasha wasn't exactly giving her a good feeling so she started moving away from him.
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Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
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Inuyasha got up from his hole in the ground and stared at her with cold narrowed eyes. He slowly walked towards her, a predator approaching his prey. His foot hit her pack and he picked it up with his hand and threw as hard as he could towards the village.
Kagome winced when she heard a faint 'thud' noise far away. She immediately started to run for the forest when an arm shot out and grabbed her shoulder. Claws dug deeply in her shoulder and she gave a small cry. Another hand wrapped itself tightly around her throat and lifted her up.
"Bitch, you're in deep shit now."
The anger in his voice made her cringe and she couldn't help looking away from his eyes. He gave her a rough shake and she looked at him again.
"You look at me when I talk to you."
Her eyes showed fear, and she couldn't help the tears forming in her eyes. His claws in her shoulder was causing her to bleed and her once white shirt was starting to turn red and pink.
"Don't you ever talk about Kikyo like that. You may be a part of her, but you will never compare to her. Her life actually had a purpose. Yours don't. You're just here because you can sense the Shikon no Kakera. That's all you're good for. The tajiya can fight and defend herself, the Bouzu has the Kaazana, hell, even the kitsune can use kitsune-bi. But you, all you're good at is getting in trouble or kidnapped. That. Is. Why. You. Are. USELESS."
He drew the last word slowly so it could sink in her. With a flick of his wrist he sent her flying. He meant for her to fall a few feet away from him, but she ended up sailing through the air and crashing into a tree. A loud gasp escaped her lips as she crumbled to the ground.
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Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
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She stayed in that position until she heard footsteps fade away into the distance. Her arms slowly pushed her from the ground but her back burned and she let herself dropped. A sob started to work its way in her, but she swallowed it down for later.
A small bird cried out in the distance and she knew that if she didn't get up, she was sure to be killed by some youkai. Gritting her teeth, she jerked herself up to her feet. Spots danced in front of her eyes, but she ignored them. All she wanted to do was get through the well, go home, and sleep.
So with a hand to her shoulder, she dragged her feet towards the well.
After a few falls, she actually made it to and through the well. Now all she had to do was climb. Easy right?
Wrong.
The second her foot touched the ladder, her back laced with pain and she arched her back with a small shriek.
'Come on Higurashi. Get some balls and climb the ladder.'
As soon as she reached the top of the ladder, she was panting and her shoulder wound was oozing more blood by the minute. Swinging her feet over the lip, she slipped off and made a slow pace to the house. Her hand pressed against the wound to stop the bleeding, but it was no use. She pulled her hand to look at it and got a huge feeling of déja vu.
'Ah, the same thing happened with Kikyo when she came back to life. Now when I start yelling "why did you betray me?", I'm going to freak out.'
A bitter smile crossed her face and she gave a sharp bark of laughter. Her mind was racing with what Inuyasha said, and her heart ached more. That really was what she was. Useless. In that world and here. She had no place to fit in. She was barely here and people probably wondered if she was dead. And there, the place was filled with youkai's galore and she can barely keep herself alive.
The house loomed in front of her face and s chill went down her spine. The place looked too still and too quiet. A bad feeling started to form in her stomach and tightened. She got to the house as quickly as she could with her back, and practically busted through the door. The sight that filled her would be imbedded in her mind forever.
There laid her grandfather on a stretcher, two paramedics covering his still form with a sheet. Her mother was crying hard into a tissue in her hand, the other hand rubbing Souta's head. Souta was burying his face in her mother's dress, his hands gripping the material so tight, it started to wrinkle.
"Okaasan?"
Her mother jerked her head towards Kagome, tears making rivulets down her face. Her eyes were clouded and her hand on Souta tensed.
"Kagome… Your jii-chan has passed away…"
A moment of silence passed and everyone stared at the bleeding girl at the doorway.
"Oh."
With that word, she passed out and the last thing she could her was her mother's heartbreaking sobs.
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A week passed since Kagome's grandfather passed away. The funeral was held two days after the passing, and many people were there to give their blessings to the family. His body was burned and the ashes were buried by the Goshinboku tree with a plaque over it.
The house was filled with an air of sadness and the most emanated from Kagome. She stayed in her room and never came out. Her mother would leave a tray of food outside, but it was never touched. Souta went back to school after the funeral, but Kagome stayed home. She didn't feel like putting up a mask for everyone else, and she didn't want anyone feeling pity for her.
After she was released from the hospital (she made up an excuse and said on the way home she was attacked), her mood deepened more into depression. Her mother was worried about leaving her in her room, and she knew something happened in the Sengoku Jidai. Call it mother's intuition, but she knew it dealt with Inuyasha. But Kagome would say nothing. Just stare at the wall with a blank stare, and never move.
Kagome's mind was in turmoil. Her thoughts fleeted from Jii-chan to Inuyasha. Next she would worry about her Mother to her school work. Then the whole cycle would start again, adding more things to worry about. The Shikon no Kakera still needed to be found, and everyone must be worried. Well, almost everyone.
While her mind was turning, she got up and started to pack her new bag (the other is still stuck in the past). She barely noticed that she stepped into the shower, after stripping, until the warm water hit her bare skin. She shivered in response and continued to wash her hair and body.
After changing into a light blue sundress with dark blue rose prints and a dark blue cardigan, she sat in front of the mirror and glowered. Her skin was even paler compared to Kikyo's and ashen. Her longer hair (it's been a year or two since the jewel was broken) was sleeked back and hanging to her waist. But what surprised her the most was her eyes. The lids were half closed and they were blank, as if her body was just a hollow shell. Which, it actually was.
Her bag was not as huge as it usual was because she didn't care what was in it. She walked down the steps into the living room, out the door, and heading towards the small well house. She ignored her mothers calls and jumped through the well.
The swirl of blues usually made her 'oooh' and 'awe' at the magnificence, but today it was just another annoyance in her life. Soon though, she was staring up at the clear blue sky of the Sengoku Jidai.
She slowly climbed up the vines, wincing when her tender back was pulled taut, and jumped onto the soft ground. She groaned when she felt a new batch of blood soak the bandages on her body, but ignored them at the sight before her.
Kikyo was in the arms of Inuyasha who was holding her tenderly. The were sharing a deep kiss and he pulled her closer to him.
Kagome's eyes widened at the sight and then relaxed to the usual half-lidded, blank stare. A smile crossed her lips when one of the hanyou's ears twitched towards her.
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Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
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Inuyasha pulled away from Kikyo and turned towards Kagome. Kikyo turned towards the center of Inuyasha's attention and gave the girl a glare. Kagome just stared at the two and said something that might have made the two think she went crazy.
"Ohayou Gouzaimasu Inuyasha, Kikyo-sama."
And with that she brushed past the two and headed towards the village. Inuyasha blinked twice and switched his gaze from Kagome to Kikyo and back.
Kagome just ignored the two lovers and concentrated and working her way to Kaede's hut without passing out. Her stomach was releasing sharp pains each step she took and her heart was doing the same.
'He didn't even miss me while I was gone. He just paired up with Kikyo and lived happily ever after. Too bad I can't say the same.'
She entered the hut without hesitation and blinked at the scene in front of her. Miroku, Sango, and Shippou were laughing at some joke made, and Kaede was grinning from across the hut while mixing herbs. They didn't even noticed that she entered and continued with their joke telling.
Her eyes turned colder as she stared at each person. Everyone was getting along fine without her. So, she was right. She had no where to belong to. No one that she can truly call her 'friends'. Her heart shot more pain and she clutched it tightly with her hands. If only she could rip it out and throw it through the door. Then she wouldn't have to feel anything.
Shippou was the first to notice her, for her scented wafted towards him and he looked up in shock. His mouth hung wide open, until he flew through the air and wrapped his arms around Kagome's torso. Miroku and Sango turned around and gasped in surprise.
"Kagome-chan!"
"Kagome-chan?!?"
"Kagome-sama?!?"
They all gathered around her and started to bombard her with questions. Her head was spinning after she answered everyone's questions. She just made up lies and said that her brother grew ill and she had to stay home. They wouldn't care if her jii-chan died. They really didn't seem to pay attention or care that her brother was sick.
As soon as this thought raced through her mind, something in her snapped and she let out a surprised gasp.
"Kagome-sama, doushita ka?"
"Hai, I'm fine Miroku-sama. Just happy to be back, that's all. It's good to see everyone again."
They all gave her nods and Shippou launched into a whole monologue about what happened when she was gone.
He climbed up onto her shoulder in the middle of talking and made hand gestures of what Inuyasha did to him. Her attention to the kitsune dimmed as she surrendered to her thoughts. To the reasons why she let out the gasp.
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Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
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She didn't care anymore.
She didn't care if she died, or what Inuyasha did to Shippou, or what Inuyasha did period. Her whole body turned numb as if someone shot Novocain through her veins.
She didn't care.
Her eyes glazed over as she started to tremble. Her fingers kept flexing into fist and then relaxing. Miroku and Sango continued to watch the kitsune animatedly talk, smiling at its enthusiasm. Kagome eyes grew distant as her gaze ticked towards them and her eyes stayed there, growing colder and darker.
Miroku shuddered and sat up straighter. Something was making him uncomfortable. He focused his attention on Kagome. He nearly backed away in fear when he saw her eyes.
They revealed nothing.
No, they didn't reveal nothing, they were nothing. No feelings, no nothing. It was like she was possessed by something. But she couldn't be, they would all be dead now right?
Shippou started jumping up and down on Kagome's shoulder and that was when her expression changed. Her eyes showed pain and she screamed. Sango jumped up in surprise and hurried towards Kagome. Shippou screamed also and fell off of Kagome. Miroku as raced towards Kagome.
The hut entrance all of the sudden was filled with Inuyasha's from, Kikyo no where to be found. He had Tetsusaiga out of its sheath and transformed into a fang.
Kagome fell to the floor, clawing at her shoulder. Kaede heard the noise and hurried as fast as her body could take her. She the just noticed Kagome's presence and paused. The girl was on her knees on the floor, writhing in pain. Shippou was crying his eyes out for hurting Kagome and Miroku was trying to comfort him. Sango had her arms around Kagome, asking Kagome what was wrong. Inuyasha was looking around the hut for who might have attacked the girl.
Kaede made her way to the girl and slowly kneeled next to her. The girls chin was resting on Sango's shoulder and her hooded eyes stared at a spot in the hut. What surprised Kaede was that the look she was giving changed from the on of pain to one of nothing.
Inuyasha made his way to the group and stared at Kagome's back. He smelled a heavy scent of blood and it worried him.
"Oi, Kaede-baba, check her back, I think she's bleeding."
The old lady nodded and moved her hand to reach to remove the girls dress out of the way.
The next movement surprised everyone.
Kagome jumped out of Sango's arms and slapped Kaede's hand away from her.
She scooted herself away from the group and sat on her legs staring at everyone else. What surprised them even more was that she had no emotions on her face. The expected her to be surprised, in pain, scared, or anything. But all they saw was the nothingness still.
She didn't care.
She stood up in painful motions and wrapped her arms around herself. They all stayed pinned by her gaze and tried to reach out to her. She shook her head and backed away more. She didn't trust them anymore. They weren't friends. They were just people she knew. After gaining composure of herself, she straightened up and gave everyone wary glances.
"Minna-san, we should go looking for the Shikon no Kakera know. I'm sure you couldn't get many without me able to detect them, so let's get going. We've wasted enough time."
Everyone gawked at her except Kaede. She kept a straight face and gave Kagome a concerning stare. After letting out a sigh, she nodded at her.
"She's right. Maybe you should go now. If that's what Kagome-sama wants."
She nodded, and waited for everyone's reactions. They all gave small nods and went to gather their things. Inuyasha stayed where he was and gave Kagome a withering stare. 'Maybe,' he thought, 'I can get her to break this mood she's in.'
"Feh, about fucking time wench. I've been waiting this whole time (…a week…) to look for some shards. Damn time you got your shit together, bitch."
He gave a smirk and waited for her to sit him.
She didn't even flinch. Instead she walked pass him to grab a bow and some arrows. He turned around to get her to face him when he felt a hand on his arm. Kaede gave it a tug and pulled him outside the hut. He gave her a glare that could kill, but she brushed it off.
"Inuyasha, can you tell me if anything happened to Kagome before she left?"
He just glared at her until he remembered what he said to her.
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"Don't you ever talk about Kikyo like that. You may be a part of her, but you will never compare to her. Her life actually had a purpose. Yours don't. You're just here because you can sense the Shikon no Kakera. That's all you're good for. The tajiya can fight and defend herself, the Bouzu has the Kaazana, hell, even the kitsune can use kitsune-bi. But you, all you're good at is getting in trouble or kidnapped. That. Is. Why. You. Are. USELESS."
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His gaze softened a bit as those words finally sank into him. That must be why she's dead to the world. HE took her spirit and fire away from her. Now he felt ashamed for what he did.
"I might have said a…. few things…."
"Well then Inuyasha, I suggest you fix it before we truly lose her."
With those words she went back into the hut as everyone else filed out. Inuyasha of course led the way, Sango and Miroku behind him, and Kagome and Shippou last.
Shippou shyly walked closer to Kagome and laid a hand on her leg. She looked down at him with cold eyes.
He gulped nervously before he broke into tears. "OH KAGOME-CHAN!!! I'M SOOOOOOO SORRY!!!!! I DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT YOU!!!!!! I WAS JUST SO HAPPY YOU WERE BACK AND *sob* I MISSED YOU!!!!!!!!!"
Kagome just stared at the crying kitsune and stopped. Shippou stopped his wailing and stared up at her. The three ahead noticed the two were lagging behind and paused.
Shippou started to fiddle with his fingers nervously at the way Kagome was staring at him. Finally, Kagome knelt down and picked the kitsune up in her arms. She cuddled it to her chest and rubbed her cheek against the top of his head. He wrapped his arms around her neck and tried to get closer to her, trying to comfort her in her state.
The trio ahead let out their breathes, not knowing they were even holding them. Finally Kagome started to walk again, Shippou tightly in her arms. They continued the journey, not knowing what was ahead.
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The youkai they were fighting was an ugly, ugly thing. It's skin gleamed dark blue, and horns stuck out of its six arms. The head was as big as two elephants on top of each other, and that size was only one-third the size of its body.
They've been fighting it now for a good ten minutes, and their strength was running low. The thing was mostly defending, and made it hard to make a scratch.
Kagome stood at the side, an arrow poised in the bow. Shippou was behind her, cowering in fear, but still ready to shoot some kitsune-bi. Sango was limping in front of the hell demon, Hiraikotsu ready to be thrown again; Kirara was transformed and ready to pass out. Miroku was grimacing, knowing he couldn't use the kaazana to suck the demon, since it was too big; but he used his staff to try and beat it down. Inuyasha was the worst off. His face was contorted in anger and he was breathing heavily.
The demon gave a toothy grin at them and swung his arm to know Inuyasha down. But just as his arm was going to make contact, he reversed so that it was going after Kagome.
"Shit."
Inuyasha sprinted towards Kagome and Shippou. He jumped as high as he could protecting Kagome from the dust the arm created with his sleeve.
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Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
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As soon as their feet touched the ground, Kagome ripped herself away from Inuyasha's arms. She missed the look of hurt that passed his eyes, but he quickly shook it off. He had a youkai to kill.
"Kaze no Kizu!!"
The attack hit the arm of the monster, detaching it from the body. It landed with a cloud of dust and was wiggling around. The demon let out a sick howl and grasped the spot where the arm was cut off from.
The thing turned its six eyed gaze onto Inuyasha, and grabbed him with one of its arm from behind him.
Inuyasha started to try and wiggle out of the tight grasp but only succeeded in making the grip tighter. He gave a strangled cry as he felt his rib bones started to cave slowly inward.
'Oh Kami-sama, don't tell me this is the end.'
An arrow streaked across the sky, glowing a pinkish-purple glow. It struck the demon in the middle of its forehead and a ripple was sent through the air.
Kagome stood still, watching as her miko powers vibrated through the air. She wouldn't let a demon kill Inuyasha that way. Sure, she didn't care what the hanyou did, but she couldn't just stand there and watch the person she once loved die.
The demons grip on Inuyasha loosened, and he fell to the ground. At first he didn't move at all. But the was proven wrong when he gasped for air and laid his arm across his ribs.
And in this one moment they stared at each other, realizing what the other meant to them.
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But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
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The youkai, long forgotten, got up and locked it's gaze onto Kagome who stood out in the open unprotected. It opened it's mouth and started to suck in his breathe deeply, causing everything to be sucked in.
Miroku held onto Sango around the waist, and stuck his staff deeply into the ground. Inuyasha used Tetsusaiga and Shippou held onto a tree. The only one unprotected was Kagome and she was already sailing in the air.
"KAGOME!!!!!!"
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Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
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Inuyasha tried to grab her hand but it was too late.
The demon closed his mouth and gulped, happy with its accomplishment. It patted it's stomach for an extra effect.
All was quiet in the area. Birds stopped chirping, animals weren't heard rustling in the bushes, the wind stopped blowing.
Miroku and Sango stared wide eyed at the demon that sucked up their best friend.
Shippou stared wide eyed at the demon that sucked up his other Mother.
Inuyasha stared at the demon that sucked up his love.
"YOU DAMNED MOTHER FUCKER!!!! YOU ARE GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT YOU DID YOU SON OF A BITCH!!!!"
They all attacked at once, even Shippou taking a part in the action. Tears were streaming down his face, Sango crying also. Miroku silently prayed for Kagome's spirit and attacked as hard as he could. But the thing that was most stunning was Inuyasha's face.
His eyes were hard and set, gleaming with the urge to kill. But the image clashed with the tears coming down his face. He never cried. Ever. But now he realized, the person who cared about him the most, the person who loved him the most, and the person that he loved the most was forever gone. Never to come back again.
The demon realized it mistake, but wouldn't back down. It swung at all of them, knocking them down in one blow. They wouldn't stay down though. They had anger and adrenaline on their side and they were going to kill the damn bastard if it was the last thing they do.
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Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
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As they attacked, the thing grew weaker as did their bodies. Bleeding from various spots, they continued attacking, never stopping.
The demon saw their tiredness and decided to finish them off with his sucking attack. As his mouth opened he also let out a gurgled sound as his stomach churned. It clutched its stomach and leaned down to the ground. And with one last scream, the thing exploded in a brilliance of light that left everyone else shielding their eyes.
After the scattering of gut and etc., everyone looked up and gasped at what they saw in the middle of the carnage.
Kagome's eyes were closed and her hands were at her chest as if she was praying. Her body glowed the same color as the Shikon no Tama. Her hair framed her face and moved gently as if a wind was blowing through it. She opened her eyes and they weren't in their usual nothing state. Instead they seemed to shine, like as if her powers gave her life.
She walked through the monster's remains and walked up to Sango. She touched her shoulder and then they were both engulfed in the light. Sango's wounds started to heal themselves as the powers of a miko truly emerged.
Kagome did the same to Shippou and Miroku, leaving trails of her essence on them. She walked up to Inuyasha and paused briefly to look into his eyes. She noticed the tears falling and gave a small smile.
Both of her hands grasped his cheeks and she wiped the tears away with her thumbs. When she was done, she lifted up onto her toes and gave him a soft kiss on the lips.
Everyone stood surprised at the action, but then relaxed as Inuyasha wrapped his arms around Kagome, pulling her tight, as if, if he let go, she would somehow disappear. They were both engulfed in the light and stood there like that until Kagome pulled out of his grasp gently. She smiled wistfully at him as the light dimmed from her.
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Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
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Her body jerked back as wounds started to open up on her body. The same wounds everyone else had. She absorbed them into her body and at this rate, if she kept bleeding like this, she would die in a minute, tops.
Everyone ran to her still body, crying out in anguish. Inuyasha grabbed her and dragged her into his lap, cradling her close to him. She opened her eyes a tiny slit and watched as everyone was crowded around her worried. A smile graced her features as she held a hand up to them.
Sango, Miroku, and Shippou grabbed her hand, squeezing tightly to it. Maybe, they could take away some of the pain, but the Gods were cruel, leaving her here to die.
"Minna… know that….I.I.I'll al…ways..be with..yo.u.."
They all started to cry in sorrow, their tears like crystal drops falling from the skies.
They let go of her hand as she reached up to touch Inuyasha's cheek. He held her hand against his cheek, nuzzling it.
"I..Inu…yasha… I kn..ow yo..u don't fe..el the sa..me for me… but I… l.l.love you…"
And with those last words, her hand fell slack against his cheek.
Inuyasha sat still for a moment before whispering, "Kagome, my Kagome, wait for me wherever you are. I'll always love you with all my heart, and never forget you."
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If you don't care then I don't care we're not going anywhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere
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The End.
A/N: I hope everyone likes it. Please read and review and any comments are welcomed, good or bad. This is too the song by Avril Lavigne called 'Losing Grip'. If you would like the song and lyrics, just leave your email address in a review and I'll send it to you.
Also, this fic is sad and angst because today I found out my grandmother has died. And I put my own feelings into the part where Kagome's jii-chan died. And if this fic is just plain sucky, well it's because it's 1:57 A.M. where I am, and I might be out of it. Review if you want, it doesn't really matter.
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With something between it, that is the lyrics.
Disclaimer: Don't remind me…
Losing Grip
By: Minu
A 15 year old Higurashi Kagome walked towards the well in the Sengoku Jidai, her enormous yellow pack slung on her back. She searched around making sure a certain someone wasn't watching. By the time the well was in sight she stopped and crouched down in a runners position.
'Okay, I can do this. On the count of five 1...2...3...4...'
"Five!"
She sprinted with all of her strength and bounded towards the well. Just as she reached it she pushed off the ground and leaped through the air high enough to even make an Olympic high jumper jealous. Her feet was sailing and she closed her eyes to wait for the time shifting.
One second went by…
Two…
"Oi wench, what the fuck do you think you were doing?!?!"
Kagome opened her eyes only to be glared down by golden eyes. She blinked and looked up and then down. Inuyasha had grabbed the top of her backpack and turned her around to be facing him; her feet dangled uselessly in the air.
A sigh. "Onegai Inuyasha, could you just let me go? I have a huge math test, and I want to get a good grade on it. Kami-sama knows I need it!"
Inuyasha just narrowed his eyes more and moved his arm so Kagome was out of the well. He dropped unceremoniously on the ground.
"Feh, what you need to do is stay on this side and find the Shikon no Kakera bitch. You just went back last week! How many of these 'tests' do you have at your school anyways?"
Kagome just closed her eyes and pinched the bridge of her nose. 'Remember, count to ten to control your anger.'
'One'
"Hey wench I'm talking to you! I know you're a stupid human and all, but you can at least pay attention to me."
Twitch 'Two'
"Feh, you humans are fuckin weak. Always complaining about everything and needing to rest every minute."
Another twitch. Knot forming in the shoulder. 'Three'
"And at least Kikyo was tougher than you. But what can you expect from a copy. And a poor excuse of a copy too. Kikyo was beautiful, smart, could actually DEFEND herself, and she wasn't a bitch all the time."
"FOUR FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT NINE TEN!! SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT!!!"
The prayer beads glowed eight times before Inuyasha found himself in a two foot indentation in the ground. His back made a sickening crack noise and he howled in pain.
"Bitch!! What the hell was that for?!?!"
"Would you stop comparing me with Kikyo already!! Everyday your going around going 'Kikyo this' and 'Kikyo that'. It's getting sick and pathetic! The girl is nothing but dirt and bones now, so get over your infatuation and move on. She hates your guts, she's trying to drag you into hell! You'd think after the first time you'd get it, but noooooo, you have to be a stupid whining puppy who follows her every step!"
Kagome's hand flew to her mouth after what came out. 'What came over me?!?! I've never said anything like that before'
She stared at Inuyasha's place on the ground and stood up slowly. The low growl coming from Inuyasha wasn't exactly giving her a good feeling so she started moving away from him.
******
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
******
Inuyasha got up from his hole in the ground and stared at her with cold narrowed eyes. He slowly walked towards her, a predator approaching his prey. His foot hit her pack and he picked it up with his hand and threw as hard as he could towards the village.
Kagome winced when she heard a faint 'thud' noise far away. She immediately started to run for the forest when an arm shot out and grabbed her shoulder. Claws dug deeply in her shoulder and she gave a small cry. Another hand wrapped itself tightly around her throat and lifted her up.
"Bitch, you're in deep shit now."
The anger in his voice made her cringe and she couldn't help looking away from his eyes. He gave her a rough shake and she looked at him again.
"You look at me when I talk to you."
Her eyes showed fear, and she couldn't help the tears forming in her eyes. His claws in her shoulder was causing her to bleed and her once white shirt was starting to turn red and pink.
"Don't you ever talk about Kikyo like that. You may be a part of her, but you will never compare to her. Her life actually had a purpose. Yours don't. You're just here because you can sense the Shikon no Kakera. That's all you're good for. The tajiya can fight and defend herself, the Bouzu has the Kaazana, hell, even the kitsune can use kitsune-bi. But you, all you're good at is getting in trouble or kidnapped. That. Is. Why. You. Are. USELESS."
He drew the last word slowly so it could sink in her. With a flick of his wrist he sent her flying. He meant for her to fall a few feet away from him, but she ended up sailing through the air and crashing into a tree. A loud gasp escaped her lips as she crumbled to the ground.
******
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
******
She stayed in that position until she heard footsteps fade away into the distance. Her arms slowly pushed her from the ground but her back burned and she let herself dropped. A sob started to work its way in her, but she swallowed it down for later.
A small bird cried out in the distance and she knew that if she didn't get up, she was sure to be killed by some youkai. Gritting her teeth, she jerked herself up to her feet. Spots danced in front of her eyes, but she ignored them. All she wanted to do was get through the well, go home, and sleep.
So with a hand to her shoulder, she dragged her feet towards the well.
After a few falls, she actually made it to and through the well. Now all she had to do was climb. Easy right?
Wrong.
The second her foot touched the ladder, her back laced with pain and she arched her back with a small shriek.
'Come on Higurashi. Get some balls and climb the ladder.'
As soon as she reached the top of the ladder, she was panting and her shoulder wound was oozing more blood by the minute. Swinging her feet over the lip, she slipped off and made a slow pace to the house. Her hand pressed against the wound to stop the bleeding, but it was no use. She pulled her hand to look at it and got a huge feeling of déja vu.
'Ah, the same thing happened with Kikyo when she came back to life. Now when I start yelling "why did you betray me?", I'm going to freak out.'
A bitter smile crossed her face and she gave a sharp bark of laughter. Her mind was racing with what Inuyasha said, and her heart ached more. That really was what she was. Useless. In that world and here. She had no place to fit in. She was barely here and people probably wondered if she was dead. And there, the place was filled with youkai's galore and she can barely keep herself alive.
The house loomed in front of her face and s chill went down her spine. The place looked too still and too quiet. A bad feeling started to form in her stomach and tightened. She got to the house as quickly as she could with her back, and practically busted through the door. The sight that filled her would be imbedded in her mind forever.
There laid her grandfather on a stretcher, two paramedics covering his still form with a sheet. Her mother was crying hard into a tissue in her hand, the other hand rubbing Souta's head. Souta was burying his face in her mother's dress, his hands gripping the material so tight, it started to wrinkle.
"Okaasan?"
Her mother jerked her head towards Kagome, tears making rivulets down her face. Her eyes were clouded and her hand on Souta tensed.
"Kagome… Your jii-chan has passed away…"
A moment of silence passed and everyone stared at the bleeding girl at the doorway.
"Oh."
With that word, she passed out and the last thing she could her was her mother's heartbreaking sobs.
~~~~~~
A week passed since Kagome's grandfather passed away. The funeral was held two days after the passing, and many people were there to give their blessings to the family. His body was burned and the ashes were buried by the Goshinboku tree with a plaque over it.
The house was filled with an air of sadness and the most emanated from Kagome. She stayed in her room and never came out. Her mother would leave a tray of food outside, but it was never touched. Souta went back to school after the funeral, but Kagome stayed home. She didn't feel like putting up a mask for everyone else, and she didn't want anyone feeling pity for her.
After she was released from the hospital (she made up an excuse and said on the way home she was attacked), her mood deepened more into depression. Her mother was worried about leaving her in her room, and she knew something happened in the Sengoku Jidai. Call it mother's intuition, but she knew it dealt with Inuyasha. But Kagome would say nothing. Just stare at the wall with a blank stare, and never move.
Kagome's mind was in turmoil. Her thoughts fleeted from Jii-chan to Inuyasha. Next she would worry about her Mother to her school work. Then the whole cycle would start again, adding more things to worry about. The Shikon no Kakera still needed to be found, and everyone must be worried. Well, almost everyone.
While her mind was turning, she got up and started to pack her new bag (the other is still stuck in the past). She barely noticed that she stepped into the shower, after stripping, until the warm water hit her bare skin. She shivered in response and continued to wash her hair and body.
After changing into a light blue sundress with dark blue rose prints and a dark blue cardigan, she sat in front of the mirror and glowered. Her skin was even paler compared to Kikyo's and ashen. Her longer hair (it's been a year or two since the jewel was broken) was sleeked back and hanging to her waist. But what surprised her the most was her eyes. The lids were half closed and they were blank, as if her body was just a hollow shell. Which, it actually was.
Her bag was not as huge as it usual was because she didn't care what was in it. She walked down the steps into the living room, out the door, and heading towards the small well house. She ignored her mothers calls and jumped through the well.
The swirl of blues usually made her 'oooh' and 'awe' at the magnificence, but today it was just another annoyance in her life. Soon though, she was staring up at the clear blue sky of the Sengoku Jidai.
She slowly climbed up the vines, wincing when her tender back was pulled taut, and jumped onto the soft ground. She groaned when she felt a new batch of blood soak the bandages on her body, but ignored them at the sight before her.
Kikyo was in the arms of Inuyasha who was holding her tenderly. The were sharing a deep kiss and he pulled her closer to him.
Kagome's eyes widened at the sight and then relaxed to the usual half-lidded, blank stare. A smile crossed her lips when one of the hanyou's ears twitched towards her.
******
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
******
Inuyasha pulled away from Kikyo and turned towards Kagome. Kikyo turned towards the center of Inuyasha's attention and gave the girl a glare. Kagome just stared at the two and said something that might have made the two think she went crazy.
"Ohayou Gouzaimasu Inuyasha, Kikyo-sama."
And with that she brushed past the two and headed towards the village. Inuyasha blinked twice and switched his gaze from Kagome to Kikyo and back.
Kagome just ignored the two lovers and concentrated and working her way to Kaede's hut without passing out. Her stomach was releasing sharp pains each step she took and her heart was doing the same.
'He didn't even miss me while I was gone. He just paired up with Kikyo and lived happily ever after. Too bad I can't say the same.'
She entered the hut without hesitation and blinked at the scene in front of her. Miroku, Sango, and Shippou were laughing at some joke made, and Kaede was grinning from across the hut while mixing herbs. They didn't even noticed that she entered and continued with their joke telling.
Her eyes turned colder as she stared at each person. Everyone was getting along fine without her. So, she was right. She had no where to belong to. No one that she can truly call her 'friends'. Her heart shot more pain and she clutched it tightly with her hands. If only she could rip it out and throw it through the door. Then she wouldn't have to feel anything.
Shippou was the first to notice her, for her scented wafted towards him and he looked up in shock. His mouth hung wide open, until he flew through the air and wrapped his arms around Kagome's torso. Miroku and Sango turned around and gasped in surprise.
"Kagome-chan!"
"Kagome-chan?!?"
"Kagome-sama?!?"
They all gathered around her and started to bombard her with questions. Her head was spinning after she answered everyone's questions. She just made up lies and said that her brother grew ill and she had to stay home. They wouldn't care if her jii-chan died. They really didn't seem to pay attention or care that her brother was sick.
As soon as this thought raced through her mind, something in her snapped and she let out a surprised gasp.
"Kagome-sama, doushita ka?"
"Hai, I'm fine Miroku-sama. Just happy to be back, that's all. It's good to see everyone again."
They all gave her nods and Shippou launched into a whole monologue about what happened when she was gone.
He climbed up onto her shoulder in the middle of talking and made hand gestures of what Inuyasha did to him. Her attention to the kitsune dimmed as she surrendered to her thoughts. To the reasons why she let out the gasp.
******
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
******
She didn't care anymore.
She didn't care if she died, or what Inuyasha did to Shippou, or what Inuyasha did period. Her whole body turned numb as if someone shot Novocain through her veins.
She didn't care.
Her eyes glazed over as she started to tremble. Her fingers kept flexing into fist and then relaxing. Miroku and Sango continued to watch the kitsune animatedly talk, smiling at its enthusiasm. Kagome eyes grew distant as her gaze ticked towards them and her eyes stayed there, growing colder and darker.
Miroku shuddered and sat up straighter. Something was making him uncomfortable. He focused his attention on Kagome. He nearly backed away in fear when he saw her eyes.
They revealed nothing.
No, they didn't reveal nothing, they were nothing. No feelings, no nothing. It was like she was possessed by something. But she couldn't be, they would all be dead now right?
Shippou started jumping up and down on Kagome's shoulder and that was when her expression changed. Her eyes showed pain and she screamed. Sango jumped up in surprise and hurried towards Kagome. Shippou screamed also and fell off of Kagome. Miroku as raced towards Kagome.
The hut entrance all of the sudden was filled with Inuyasha's from, Kikyo no where to be found. He had Tetsusaiga out of its sheath and transformed into a fang.
Kagome fell to the floor, clawing at her shoulder. Kaede heard the noise and hurried as fast as her body could take her. She the just noticed Kagome's presence and paused. The girl was on her knees on the floor, writhing in pain. Shippou was crying his eyes out for hurting Kagome and Miroku was trying to comfort him. Sango had her arms around Kagome, asking Kagome what was wrong. Inuyasha was looking around the hut for who might have attacked the girl.
Kaede made her way to the girl and slowly kneeled next to her. The girls chin was resting on Sango's shoulder and her hooded eyes stared at a spot in the hut. What surprised Kaede was that the look she was giving changed from the on of pain to one of nothing.
Inuyasha made his way to the group and stared at Kagome's back. He smelled a heavy scent of blood and it worried him.
"Oi, Kaede-baba, check her back, I think she's bleeding."
The old lady nodded and moved her hand to reach to remove the girls dress out of the way.
The next movement surprised everyone.
Kagome jumped out of Sango's arms and slapped Kaede's hand away from her.
She scooted herself away from the group and sat on her legs staring at everyone else. What surprised them even more was that she had no emotions on her face. The expected her to be surprised, in pain, scared, or anything. But all they saw was the nothingness still.
She didn't care.
She stood up in painful motions and wrapped her arms around herself. They all stayed pinned by her gaze and tried to reach out to her. She shook her head and backed away more. She didn't trust them anymore. They weren't friends. They were just people she knew. After gaining composure of herself, she straightened up and gave everyone wary glances.
"Minna-san, we should go looking for the Shikon no Kakera know. I'm sure you couldn't get many without me able to detect them, so let's get going. We've wasted enough time."
Everyone gawked at her except Kaede. She kept a straight face and gave Kagome a concerning stare. After letting out a sigh, she nodded at her.
"She's right. Maybe you should go now. If that's what Kagome-sama wants."
She nodded, and waited for everyone's reactions. They all gave small nods and went to gather their things. Inuyasha stayed where he was and gave Kagome a withering stare. 'Maybe,' he thought, 'I can get her to break this mood she's in.'
"Feh, about fucking time wench. I've been waiting this whole time (…a week…) to look for some shards. Damn time you got your shit together, bitch."
He gave a smirk and waited for her to sit him.
She didn't even flinch. Instead she walked pass him to grab a bow and some arrows. He turned around to get her to face him when he felt a hand on his arm. Kaede gave it a tug and pulled him outside the hut. He gave her a glare that could kill, but she brushed it off.
"Inuyasha, can you tell me if anything happened to Kagome before she left?"
He just glared at her until he remembered what he said to her.
~~~~~~
"Don't you ever talk about Kikyo like that. You may be a part of her, but you will never compare to her. Her life actually had a purpose. Yours don't. You're just here because you can sense the Shikon no Kakera. That's all you're good for. The tajiya can fight and defend herself, the Bouzu has the Kaazana, hell, even the kitsune can use kitsune-bi. But you, all you're good at is getting in trouble or kidnapped. That. Is. Why. You. Are. USELESS."
~~~~~~
His gaze softened a bit as those words finally sank into him. That must be why she's dead to the world. HE took her spirit and fire away from her. Now he felt ashamed for what he did.
"I might have said a…. few things…."
"Well then Inuyasha, I suggest you fix it before we truly lose her."
With those words she went back into the hut as everyone else filed out. Inuyasha of course led the way, Sango and Miroku behind him, and Kagome and Shippou last.
Shippou shyly walked closer to Kagome and laid a hand on her leg. She looked down at him with cold eyes.
He gulped nervously before he broke into tears. "OH KAGOME-CHAN!!! I'M SOOOOOOO SORRY!!!!! I DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT YOU!!!!!! I WAS JUST SO HAPPY YOU WERE BACK AND *sob* I MISSED YOU!!!!!!!!!"
Kagome just stared at the crying kitsune and stopped. Shippou stopped his wailing and stared up at her. The three ahead noticed the two were lagging behind and paused.
Shippou started to fiddle with his fingers nervously at the way Kagome was staring at him. Finally, Kagome knelt down and picked the kitsune up in her arms. She cuddled it to her chest and rubbed her cheek against the top of his head. He wrapped his arms around her neck and tried to get closer to her, trying to comfort her in her state.
The trio ahead let out their breathes, not knowing they were even holding them. Finally Kagome started to walk again, Shippou tightly in her arms. They continued the journey, not knowing what was ahead.
~~~~~~
The youkai they were fighting was an ugly, ugly thing. It's skin gleamed dark blue, and horns stuck out of its six arms. The head was as big as two elephants on top of each other, and that size was only one-third the size of its body.
They've been fighting it now for a good ten minutes, and their strength was running low. The thing was mostly defending, and made it hard to make a scratch.
Kagome stood at the side, an arrow poised in the bow. Shippou was behind her, cowering in fear, but still ready to shoot some kitsune-bi. Sango was limping in front of the hell demon, Hiraikotsu ready to be thrown again; Kirara was transformed and ready to pass out. Miroku was grimacing, knowing he couldn't use the kaazana to suck the demon, since it was too big; but he used his staff to try and beat it down. Inuyasha was the worst off. His face was contorted in anger and he was breathing heavily.
The demon gave a toothy grin at them and swung his arm to know Inuyasha down. But just as his arm was going to make contact, he reversed so that it was going after Kagome.
"Shit."
Inuyasha sprinted towards Kagome and Shippou. He jumped as high as he could protecting Kagome from the dust the arm created with his sleeve.
******
Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
******
As soon as their feet touched the ground, Kagome ripped herself away from Inuyasha's arms. She missed the look of hurt that passed his eyes, but he quickly shook it off. He had a youkai to kill.
"Kaze no Kizu!!"
The attack hit the arm of the monster, detaching it from the body. It landed with a cloud of dust and was wiggling around. The demon let out a sick howl and grasped the spot where the arm was cut off from.
The thing turned its six eyed gaze onto Inuyasha, and grabbed him with one of its arm from behind him.
Inuyasha started to try and wiggle out of the tight grasp but only succeeded in making the grip tighter. He gave a strangled cry as he felt his rib bones started to cave slowly inward.
'Oh Kami-sama, don't tell me this is the end.'
An arrow streaked across the sky, glowing a pinkish-purple glow. It struck the demon in the middle of its forehead and a ripple was sent through the air.
Kagome stood still, watching as her miko powers vibrated through the air. She wouldn't let a demon kill Inuyasha that way. Sure, she didn't care what the hanyou did, but she couldn't just stand there and watch the person she once loved die.
The demons grip on Inuyasha loosened, and he fell to the ground. At first he didn't move at all. But the was proven wrong when he gasped for air and laid his arm across his ribs.
And in this one moment they stared at each other, realizing what the other meant to them.
******
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
******
The youkai, long forgotten, got up and locked it's gaze onto Kagome who stood out in the open unprotected. It opened it's mouth and started to suck in his breathe deeply, causing everything to be sucked in.
Miroku held onto Sango around the waist, and stuck his staff deeply into the ground. Inuyasha used Tetsusaiga and Shippou held onto a tree. The only one unprotected was Kagome and she was already sailing in the air.
"KAGOME!!!!!!"
******
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
******
Inuyasha tried to grab her hand but it was too late.
The demon closed his mouth and gulped, happy with its accomplishment. It patted it's stomach for an extra effect.
All was quiet in the area. Birds stopped chirping, animals weren't heard rustling in the bushes, the wind stopped blowing.
Miroku and Sango stared wide eyed at the demon that sucked up their best friend.
Shippou stared wide eyed at the demon that sucked up his other Mother.
Inuyasha stared at the demon that sucked up his love.
"YOU DAMNED MOTHER FUCKER!!!! YOU ARE GOING TO PAY FOR WHAT YOU DID YOU SON OF A BITCH!!!!"
They all attacked at once, even Shippou taking a part in the action. Tears were streaming down his face, Sango crying also. Miroku silently prayed for Kagome's spirit and attacked as hard as he could. But the thing that was most stunning was Inuyasha's face.
His eyes were hard and set, gleaming with the urge to kill. But the image clashed with the tears coming down his face. He never cried. Ever. But now he realized, the person who cared about him the most, the person who loved him the most, and the person that he loved the most was forever gone. Never to come back again.
The demon realized it mistake, but wouldn't back down. It swung at all of them, knocking them down in one blow. They wouldn't stay down though. They had anger and adrenaline on their side and they were going to kill the damn bastard if it was the last thing they do.
******
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
******
As they attacked, the thing grew weaker as did their bodies. Bleeding from various spots, they continued attacking, never stopping.
The demon saw their tiredness and decided to finish them off with his sucking attack. As his mouth opened he also let out a gurgled sound as his stomach churned. It clutched its stomach and leaned down to the ground. And with one last scream, the thing exploded in a brilliance of light that left everyone else shielding their eyes.
After the scattering of gut and etc., everyone looked up and gasped at what they saw in the middle of the carnage.
Kagome's eyes were closed and her hands were at her chest as if she was praying. Her body glowed the same color as the Shikon no Tama. Her hair framed her face and moved gently as if a wind was blowing through it. She opened her eyes and they weren't in their usual nothing state. Instead they seemed to shine, like as if her powers gave her life.
She walked through the monster's remains and walked up to Sango. She touched her shoulder and then they were both engulfed in the light. Sango's wounds started to heal themselves as the powers of a miko truly emerged.
Kagome did the same to Shippou and Miroku, leaving trails of her essence on them. She walked up to Inuyasha and paused briefly to look into his eyes. She noticed the tears falling and gave a small smile.
Both of her hands grasped his cheeks and she wiped the tears away with her thumbs. When she was done, she lifted up onto her toes and gave him a soft kiss on the lips.
Everyone stood surprised at the action, but then relaxed as Inuyasha wrapped his arms around Kagome, pulling her tight, as if, if he let go, she would somehow disappear. They were both engulfed in the light and stood there like that until Kagome pulled out of his grasp gently. She smiled wistfully at him as the light dimmed from her.
******
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
******
Her body jerked back as wounds started to open up on her body. The same wounds everyone else had. She absorbed them into her body and at this rate, if she kept bleeding like this, she would die in a minute, tops.
Everyone ran to her still body, crying out in anguish. Inuyasha grabbed her and dragged her into his lap, cradling her close to him. She opened her eyes a tiny slit and watched as everyone was crowded around her worried. A smile graced her features as she held a hand up to them.
Sango, Miroku, and Shippou grabbed her hand, squeezing tightly to it. Maybe, they could take away some of the pain, but the Gods were cruel, leaving her here to die.
"Minna… know that….I.I.I'll al…ways..be with..yo.u.."
They all started to cry in sorrow, their tears like crystal drops falling from the skies.
They let go of her hand as she reached up to touch Inuyasha's cheek. He held her hand against his cheek, nuzzling it.
"I..Inu…yasha… I kn..ow yo..u don't fe..el the sa..me for me… but I… l.l.love you…"
And with those last words, her hand fell slack against his cheek.
Inuyasha sat still for a moment before whispering, "Kagome, my Kagome, wait for me wherever you are. I'll always love you with all my heart, and never forget you."
******
If you don't care then I don't care we're not going anywhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere
******
The End.
A/N: I hope everyone likes it. Please read and review and any comments are welcomed, good or bad. This is too the song by Avril Lavigne called 'Losing Grip'. If you would like the song and lyrics, just leave your email address in a review and I'll send it to you.
Also, this fic is sad and angst because today I found out my grandmother has died. And I put my own feelings into the part where Kagome's jii-chan died. And if this fic is just plain sucky, well it's because it's 1:57 A.M. where I am, and I might be out of it. Review if you want, it doesn't really matter.