Part 12

Cloud Nine Lounge
Heaven

Xander sat watching the eulogies said on a big screen. When he arrived, he was planning on having a few heavenly drinks and going back to his cloud condo. He didn't know that he would be able to watch his friends give their last words to him. Before the ceremony began, two angels sat at his side as he watched…Jenny Calendar and Joyce Summers.

They watched as each person went up. They laughed as Dawn spoke of the first time she met and fell for Xander. They sat in silence as Buffy gave hers.

"I'm proud of you Xander," Joyce said as Buffy finished. "It took a lot of courage to do what you did that day…and every other day you were with Buffy."

"And what's that," Xander asked.

"Protected her," Jenny replied. "You always did what you could to keep her safe."

"How my daughter never realized what you've done for her is beyond me," Joyce said.

"I remember," Joyce continued. "When I found out that Buffy died…I tried to find out what happened. But she just kept saying it was only for a minute. So I went talk to Giles…"

****Flashback****

Sunnydale High Library…

"Mr. Giles?"

"Joyce," Giles replied from his office. "How can I help you?"

"I wanted to talk to you about Buffy."

"What about," Giles said gesturing towards the main table.

"How did she die?"

"How did you…" Giles started.

"When Buffy told me about how there was two slayers I asked her about it. All she told me it was for only a minute. What happened?"

Giles sighed.

"The year you both first moved here, there was a vampire king known as The Master. He tried to kill Buffy, but she always managed to survive, until the night of the prophecy. She was destined to die by his hand that night. She didn't want to go at first, but she changed her mind and went alone. As prophesized she did die. The Master took her blood and she drowned in a small pool of water."

"And how did she survive?"

"Xander," Giles replied proudly.

"Xander?"

"Yes…when he found out she was going to die, he got Angel and went to The Master's lair to help her."

"But he could have been killed."

"I tried to calm him down but he wouldn't have it. He went and found her lying in the water. Lifeless. He gave her CPR and brought her back to life."

"Why didn't she ever tell me?"

"Well, you didn't exactly take the news of her being slayer well…the fact she died would have been worse."

"He saved her?"

"And I'm sure many times after that."

"And she's not dating him? How dense is my daughter. A guy does that proves he really loves her."

"I try not to meddle in with their love lives."

****End Flashback****

"You saved my daughter that night Xander."

"And in turn saving the world," Jenny replied.

"You're more brave and kind than most people…and for that I thank you," Joyce said.

Later on that day, Xander was watching his friends at the post funeral party at Buffy's house on his television. He saw Spike follow her to the backyard.

"Figures Deadboy 2 would try to swoop in while she's vulnerable again."

Buffy's backyard…

"Leave me alone Spike."

"I can't," he replied.

"I just want to be alone…go away."

"I have to tell you something," he replied.

"I swear if you say 'I love you,' I will kill you," Buffy said coldly.

"Its about the wank…er…Xander."

"What?"

Spike gestured to the bench and they sat.

"Something happened with him…a while back…back when Angelus was running around. Thought you should know how much he really cared."

"What Spike?"

Spike began to tell her of the night she was in the hospital. When Angelus paid her a visit as Xander stood guard, watching over her. Spike told her as Xander stood him down, not allowing him to go near Buffy.

"He could have killed Xander."

"Yeah," Spike replied. "I think Angelus was scared for the first time in his life."

"I wasn't scared," Angel replied. "I was going to kill Buffy when she recovered. In front of him, letting him watch as I killed the woman he loved would have been torture. I wouldn't have killed him because living with that pain would have killed him in time."

"Why didn't you tell me," Buffy asked as she stood to face Angel.

"I couldn't. I was always threatened by Xander. I knew if you found out what he's done, you would have left me for him."

"You selfish bastard," Buffy said.

She ran into the house to her room, locking the door behind her.

Late that night…

Buffy tossed and turned, trying to get to sleep, but sleep never came.

She walked to her window and looked out into the dark night.

"I miss you Xand."

"Miss you too Buff," a voice said from behind her.

She turned to see Xander standing there in the clothes she last saw him alive in, with a bright light engulfed behind him.

"Xander?"

"Yeah Buff…its me."

She ran to him and hugged him.

"I love you," Buffy said.

"Love you too Buff. Always have…always will."

"I don't want you to leave."

"Me neither…it was just my time. You have to be strong Buffy."

"I don't know if I can. I've lost so much…you were always my rock."

"You still have Dawnie. And Tara and Willow. Giles, hell even Spike…just don't turn to him like you did before."

"I won't."

"I have to leave now," Xander said. "I just wanted to see you one more time before I left."

"Save a spot for me up there?"

"I promise."

Xander leaned in and kissed her one last time. A bright light filled the room, and as it faded, Xander vanished.

"Goodbye," Buffy whispered.

The End