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[ note: if you feel i am vague in some parts, its intentional! lol sometimes Heero is just as clueless into what is occurring as you are. still have that desire to know all? i implore you to read the other characters blogs! heh heh ]
10/13/AC 197 [ unforeseen ]
false rhapsody of sleep, smearing over. its density tapering off. ponderosity pressing on my parts. clammy skin. my head cradled between slender fingers. another body crowning my own. a succubus's embrace. a tender conveyance of attention in physical nature to my face. a contrived chimera, unwound. my comatose state enervated, as my lids nimbly receded. cordial confrontation, his breath faltering. bodies drowning the the darkness, our meshed entities. shame swept away, his form lining every contour of the physical manifestation of my life. failing at the subjugation of stoic squirm. i was composed undignified, but i could not subdue my body's screams. his eyes declare a truce of trust, his voice lightly resonating, a hushed prayer.
"what would you have me say?" he beseeched. a voiceless song. he managed somehow to draw closer, his mouth at my ear. bestowing his breath, sweltering my ear. a soldier's hidden gentleness, affection torn from an angel's wing. "i like that you ignore my flaws? that i like the way you look at me? or the rare moments when you smile? that i love it that you're the strong one?" a brief pause. "because without you everything falls apart?" his questions, were my answers. he drew back slightly, to moderate my response. i was overcome. words still cannot describe it entirely. was this only a masquerade, or had his guise fallen. was that my justification. or my retribution? no matter what it truly was. it will suffice, i will make it so.
"duo ..." i implored. a soft rendering. my features were lax, and his face loomed over mine. his dispositation gave way, lips daubed my cheek. i twisted under his weight, uncontrolled. his mouth smudging onto my lips. plenteously engulfing my mouth, a firm pressing. my arms secured over his back, entwined us. my legs coiling around his. my hands triggering his topple, our bodies in full engagement he was completely ensnared. desire smoldering. fundamental differing set aside. intentions juxtaposed, will set two lovers souls in motion. i was strangled by our coveting, but i did not gasp. a crippling end to our communication, i did not try to speak. the poetry that comes from the squaring off between us will wait. doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication. i found the beauty in the dissonance. is it allright to be bound by your form? you adorning my body. this sense of compassion between supposed brothers, no. my lover. clutched by the still of the night, it is there that my heart is longing.
should i be ashamed that i wanted to cry? that i wanted nothing more to weep into your hair, amassed in my palm. is it wrong that my loins were aching. my lust enpowering, i was alive. i was human . he was listless, nestled in my arms. before he slipped into unconsciousness, i would like to have another kiss. another flashing chance at bliss. another kiss. another kiss . another time. i clutched on to him tighter. a sudden trepidation for losing him, stirred my emotions. my attachment would not yield. do not fret now. mother? to the mother i never knew, are you happy for me? father? i must of had one. does your son get your approval? i closed my eyes. and for once i thought i was happy.
open your eyes. an audible clatter. sleep recoiling. i cracked one eye open. everything had occurred. we were still entangled. his body strewn over mine, face lax with sleep. i smiled. enclosing his chin between my curled index finger and thumb, smoothing it over his lips. a knock at the door, in which enabled my awakening, repeated. i was disinclined to vacate the bed, but was forced, exerted by circumstance. being excessively careful, i slid from our lock. he did not stir. i was thankful for that, as i crossed the room, and entered the hall, trying to shake sleep from my eyes. uncaring of myself being only clad in sleep attire. i reached the door, my hand groped for the knob. opening it perilously wide. adjusting my vision, affixing it on the visitor.
"heero ...?" she spoke conscientiously. i was rendered senseless. but was able to speak her name. relena was simply there. i had to grow accustom to my added height over her since last we met. her locks cropped short. adorned in a blue dress, with a white blouse bellow. fashionably lean, she was no longer a girl. which let to the realization we both had aged considerably. her eyes were glistening. my mouth opened to speak, but my voice faltered. i looked at her apologetically. she stood complaisant of my next action. she smiled sadly. but my response was something i could not convey. he enraptured me from behind, snaking an arm around my waist, resting his chin on the curve of my right shoulder.
"heya. miss relena" he pronounced with twinge of genuine amiability.
"duo, why have you neglected your assignment?" she retorted. i was struck with that emptiness again. becoming hollow. she could have at least humored me. not throw it blatantly in my face. i tensed, duo's support alleviating some of the distress. with my crestfallen inclination, i was faintly aware of the silence that swelled. i bowed my head and urged her entrance. in sync we stood aside, with her back to us, we exchanged perplexed glances. i took comfort that he was there. if this was a crime, here was our first witness. he and i both took stance upon the couch. i could not look at her. our past was thick, my attachment of her had not faded. she stood poised beyond the coffee table. ridden with feminine grace.
"why have you come?" i inadequately inquired. an emotional coil suppressed.
"when duo failed to report back to headquarters with information, i became concerned, and i became worried for you, so i sought you out to ensure your well-being." her words stung. my demeanor stiffen, as i tried to conceal my true disposition. just what am i to people, besides a threat. am i truly that expendable. i rose, docile. and proceeded to walk past her. perhaps too close, receding into the bedroom. as i sat on the edge of the matress, i heard the door shut. i hunched forward, elbows on knees, chin placed on my clasped hands. at some point duo climbed back within the sheets as my mind was afflicted with undesired thoughts.
"i do not understand. why would she come?" i questioned. wanting him to soothe my frail nerves. nothing of the sort. his foot under the covers, repelled my body, somewhat. i was perturbed by his action, and stared at him blankly. he snickered. then with a grin toying on his lips, taunted.
"you talk too much."
"i think that you have that reversed" i stated. trying not to let the jest alter my features. i crawled back under the bedding, and lied adjacent to him. he inched closer to me. tossing a sheet over our heads. proceeding to firmly fastened my arms around himself. i leaned my head on his provided shoulder. no offered solace for my irresolution. no words at all. i exhaled loudly, trying to remind myself not to ruin this. his presence did settle my anguish to indifference. grievously i mused. you are going to have to hold on alittle bit tighter. i might just slip away.
commence. [ 10:36 p.m. ]
[ note: if you feel i am vague in some parts, its intentional! lol sometimes Heero is just as clueless into what is occurring as you are. still have that desire to know all? i implore you to read the other characters blogs! heh heh ]
10/13/AC 197 [ unforeseen ]
false rhapsody of sleep, smearing over. its density tapering off. ponderosity pressing on my parts. clammy skin. my head cradled between slender fingers. another body crowning my own. a succubus's embrace. a tender conveyance of attention in physical nature to my face. a contrived chimera, unwound. my comatose state enervated, as my lids nimbly receded. cordial confrontation, his breath faltering. bodies drowning the the darkness, our meshed entities. shame swept away, his form lining every contour of the physical manifestation of my life. failing at the subjugation of stoic squirm. i was composed undignified, but i could not subdue my body's screams. his eyes declare a truce of trust, his voice lightly resonating, a hushed prayer.
"what would you have me say?" he beseeched. a voiceless song. he managed somehow to draw closer, his mouth at my ear. bestowing his breath, sweltering my ear. a soldier's hidden gentleness, affection torn from an angel's wing. "i like that you ignore my flaws? that i like the way you look at me? or the rare moments when you smile? that i love it that you're the strong one?" a brief pause. "because without you everything falls apart?" his questions, were my answers. he drew back slightly, to moderate my response. i was overcome. words still cannot describe it entirely. was this only a masquerade, or had his guise fallen. was that my justification. or my retribution? no matter what it truly was. it will suffice, i will make it so.
"duo ..." i implored. a soft rendering. my features were lax, and his face loomed over mine. his dispositation gave way, lips daubed my cheek. i twisted under his weight, uncontrolled. his mouth smudging onto my lips. plenteously engulfing my mouth, a firm pressing. my arms secured over his back, entwined us. my legs coiling around his. my hands triggering his topple, our bodies in full engagement he was completely ensnared. desire smoldering. fundamental differing set aside. intentions juxtaposed, will set two lovers souls in motion. i was strangled by our coveting, but i did not gasp. a crippling end to our communication, i did not try to speak. the poetry that comes from the squaring off between us will wait. doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication. i found the beauty in the dissonance. is it allright to be bound by your form? you adorning my body. this sense of compassion between supposed brothers, no. my lover. clutched by the still of the night, it is there that my heart is longing.
should i be ashamed that i wanted to cry? that i wanted nothing more to weep into your hair, amassed in my palm. is it wrong that my loins were aching. my lust enpowering, i was alive. i was human . he was listless, nestled in my arms. before he slipped into unconsciousness, i would like to have another kiss. another flashing chance at bliss. another kiss. another kiss . another time. i clutched on to him tighter. a sudden trepidation for losing him, stirred my emotions. my attachment would not yield. do not fret now. mother? to the mother i never knew, are you happy for me? father? i must of had one. does your son get your approval? i closed my eyes. and for once i thought i was happy.
open your eyes. an audible clatter. sleep recoiling. i cracked one eye open. everything had occurred. we were still entangled. his body strewn over mine, face lax with sleep. i smiled. enclosing his chin between my curled index finger and thumb, smoothing it over his lips. a knock at the door, in which enabled my awakening, repeated. i was disinclined to vacate the bed, but was forced, exerted by circumstance. being excessively careful, i slid from our lock. he did not stir. i was thankful for that, as i crossed the room, and entered the hall, trying to shake sleep from my eyes. uncaring of myself being only clad in sleep attire. i reached the door, my hand groped for the knob. opening it perilously wide. adjusting my vision, affixing it on the visitor.
"heero ...?" she spoke conscientiously. i was rendered senseless. but was able to speak her name. relena was simply there. i had to grow accustom to my added height over her since last we met. her locks cropped short. adorned in a blue dress, with a white blouse bellow. fashionably lean, she was no longer a girl. which let to the realization we both had aged considerably. her eyes were glistening. my mouth opened to speak, but my voice faltered. i looked at her apologetically. she stood complaisant of my next action. she smiled sadly. but my response was something i could not convey. he enraptured me from behind, snaking an arm around my waist, resting his chin on the curve of my right shoulder.
"heya. miss relena" he pronounced with twinge of genuine amiability.
"duo, why have you neglected your assignment?" she retorted. i was struck with that emptiness again. becoming hollow. she could have at least humored me. not throw it blatantly in my face. i tensed, duo's support alleviating some of the distress. with my crestfallen inclination, i was faintly aware of the silence that swelled. i bowed my head and urged her entrance. in sync we stood aside, with her back to us, we exchanged perplexed glances. i took comfort that he was there. if this was a crime, here was our first witness. he and i both took stance upon the couch. i could not look at her. our past was thick, my attachment of her had not faded. she stood poised beyond the coffee table. ridden with feminine grace.
"why have you come?" i inadequately inquired. an emotional coil suppressed.
"when duo failed to report back to headquarters with information, i became concerned, and i became worried for you, so i sought you out to ensure your well-being." her words stung. my demeanor stiffen, as i tried to conceal my true disposition. just what am i to people, besides a threat. am i truly that expendable. i rose, docile. and proceeded to walk past her. perhaps too close, receding into the bedroom. as i sat on the edge of the matress, i heard the door shut. i hunched forward, elbows on knees, chin placed on my clasped hands. at some point duo climbed back within the sheets as my mind was afflicted with undesired thoughts.
"i do not understand. why would she come?" i questioned. wanting him to soothe my frail nerves. nothing of the sort. his foot under the covers, repelled my body, somewhat. i was perturbed by his action, and stared at him blankly. he snickered. then with a grin toying on his lips, taunted.
"you talk too much."
"i think that you have that reversed" i stated. trying not to let the jest alter my features. i crawled back under the bedding, and lied adjacent to him. he inched closer to me. tossing a sheet over our heads. proceeding to firmly fastened my arms around himself. i leaned my head on his provided shoulder. no offered solace for my irresolution. no words at all. i exhaled loudly, trying to remind myself not to ruin this. his presence did settle my anguish to indifference. grievously i mused. you are going to have to hold on alittle bit tighter. i might just slip away.
commence. [ 10:36 p.m. ]