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[ note: if you feel i am vague in some parts, its intentional! lol sometimes Heero is just as clueless into what is occurring as you are. still have that desire to know all? i implore you to read the other characters blogs! heh heh ]
10/14/AC 197 [ implication ]
incessant impelling tactions. depleting my repose. "wakey. wakey" he disclosed, tone abated. still seemingly subdued by sleep, our interval widening. i abruptly captured his wrist in my fingers. his bondage bestowing coy divertissement. in segnity, my lids parted, proceeded by an oscitation. i am still mesmerized by the deposited features occupying his face, i am reduced to a mere aesthete. is that superficial of me? a smile tightened his lips. "good morning sunshine." i groaned. turning away from him i became aware of my erection. in attempts to conceal my ailment, i rose from the mattress, meandering to the bathroom. over imposing a somnolence that had already left my senses. lightly nudging the door over. enclosed in the walls, i flicked on the light. gingerly, i began to peel my material confinements. bowing my back, rotating the shower knob, stepping under the spray. the liquid enveloping body. to my daunt the water did not deter my aroused extension.
bemused by the impending risk, influenced by sex-starved convets. my red right hand. i clutched the inflamed endowment, hopefully enabling expedient masturbation session. my hedonistic fondling incited unsought utterances of amatory. during this i must have lided my eyes for i did not see his arms coming. the instigator, himself. his arms firmly enwrapped me in the shower curtain. i was stupefied. he maintained his hold on my chest. i could not see anything but the moisten plastic curtain. what could he see? a low dry scream emitted from my mouth. "what'cha doing in there heero?" his frolicsome voice, a mocking question. he knew. he knew what i was doing. i became resilient. and squirmed urgently, in till i broke free from his hold. careening into the slippery tiled wall, practically loosening my footing. my body was heaving, as i inhaled sharply, trying to regain my composure, which could never fully be restored after this incident. his laughter erupted from the other side of the flimsy divider. i was impeded, utterly abashed. i would have inaugurated a supplication, but my voice was unfathomable. body ephemerally immobile. stop. anything to stop his laughter. saccharin laughter. my hand searched wildly for an object. briefly i latched onto the bar of soap, before hurling it at him. i heard it collided into the wall.
"hey, that almost got me! besides, you'll need that to wash your hands ." he pronounced. he left me, laughter squandering. i finished my shower. my bare feet slapped against the linoleum, i draped a towel around my waist. and ceased all motion. how could i face him? plagued by insecurities. disgusted with myself. i do not recall initiating the first foot fall. i prompted myself to the closet. purposely evading all direct eye contact. after slipping on my boxers, under the damp towel, tugging it off, and then discarding the absorbent cloth. i mustered an adequate amount of confidence, and angled my head towards him. a grin blatantly plastered on his face. he extended one index finger then stroked it with his other. condemning me further by clicking his tongue. his deride of me soon diminished. all becoming impartial, though as we made our way to school, i spied that smirk endured.
i was sullen during our commute. conversation was practically nonexistent. my reverie was abound. slowing my pace, becoming detached. in till his hand firmly seized my wrist, and laboriously began to pull me along. i had to accelerate my stride. duo tarried before the threshold of our first class. awaiting my entry. i affirmed the request, scrupulous penetrating the cavity, as the last toll of the tardy bell echoed through the hollow halls. i faded out of cognizance, upon taking my seat. but a profound twang summoned my attention. a female body spawled before my desk. vestige was duo's foot, slowly retracting back under its rightful position. he leaned forward and leered at the misfortunate girl. "my leg's never been quite the same since the war." he indicated. relena angled her face at him, perturbed, chagrined. i stood and approached her solemnly, positioning on my haunches i began to gather her few books. i gazed upon her face momentarily, in consequence, i offered my hand. her fingers clasped my palm and we rose together. promptly yielding her accumulated items in her hand. she hesitantly acquired them, and i proceeded to my seat. i recaptured the desk adjacent to duo's. observant of his blithe. before i was able to speculate, i heard our instructor.
"duo, would you care to explain why you and mr. yui were again tardy?"
duo answered.
"well, you see heero ..." he divulged. removing his inert hand from under the desk, then began to wave it in the air. forming an obscene gesture. i could not conceal my swelling embarrassment, imbuing on my cheeks. i sharply conducted my body to face his. i struck him with my open palm on his upper arm, exerting with excessive force. he laughed like a child delighted by a nonsense rhyme. then flaunted a cryptic smile.
at lunch, again i was unable to locate duo's whereabouts. i abandoned my efforts. and confiscated a trivial placement at an unoccupied table in the cafeteria. allocated my text books and binder on the manufactured plateau. sitting in complete languor, disinclined to deem these string of recent occurrences. light tread of footsteps, approaching my disposition. she materialized before me. her movements seemed to defy gravity, such delicate poise. her structure must have been crafted from light bones of a bird. "i never got to thank you." she affectionately notified. i gazed at her. words could not form. she grew uneasy, and meekly inquired, "may i sit down?" i nodded and straighten my posture. she set her frail figure upon the plastic mold of the chair. i averted my eyes. silence seeping through us. finally, rushed, she spoke. " did i do say something wrong yesterday?" her question practically an apology by her tone.
"no." i lied. while affixing my sight upon her. her lips pulled into a deplored smile. i lowered my eyes. did i cause her this grief? is this damage my rendering. my features must have twisted into a grimace. she spoke my name with dull doubt. i shook my head from side to side. "it is nothing." another false statement. moments later, the bell sounded, and i stood. i gathered my things, and began to walk away. my vision caught her fingers slowly curled into a wave of farewell. i nodded.
for the remainder of the day my mind was reeling. if i was so dispensable why was my vice marring anyone who comes in contact with me. was i just imposing a lie on myself? so i can indulge in self-pity with ease. i could only conclude that i was failing. as i sought to form invisible bonds with other human beings, i placed them in harm's way. why must i be so inadequate. i waited for him after school. with this stigma burned on my bleeding heart, encircled in thorns. i waited. greed. how loathsome of me place him in peril so i would not be alone, so i could be suspended in his rapture. will i taint him? i want lose myself. only he can bestow it. everything for him. only him. forgive me duo.
he found me, delayed. without looking at him i stated in a whisper. "you left me alone with her." i wanted to confide my dismay, my fears, my guilt. i was broken, and so desperately wanted him to mend me. but i was rudely reminded his lack of concern the day previous. i mused the thought that i would make him fix me. without justification i obtained a grasp of his forearm, unscrupulously. leading him to my apartment. he completely complied, expect with one feeble protest.
"not so rough!"
once secured within those hallowed walls. my composure was cracking. all my inquires, not refuted. the truth impending, in its complete horrid nature. my apparent inadequacy. human nature was something i could never be suitable for. i backed away from him, cue my destruction. this is were i fall apart. "what's wrong?" blank emotion. will you piece me back together? no. i cannot ask that of you. i still wish you would, though. i want to be complete. "what can i do?" he entreated voice faltering, bitter remorse. will you always be there? i do believe it is working. you cannot fix me, can i become part of you? i cannot promise that i will not ask for much. his eyes fell. steady footfalls, i surrounded him. he was transfixed. i seized his waist with my arm, ensnaring his to my body. forcibly pressing his form against mine. my mouth seized his lips. jaggedly contorting my body against his for my own erotic endeavors. pulling away briefing to inhale, i nudged my head into his face, smearing my lower lip against his cheek. enclosing my lips over his once more, already wet with his saliva. i drove his body into the closed door. as my hands groping his back, trailing over his chest, then firmly grasping onto his hips. drawing his pelvis to my crotch. thunder, a rapping. no. not yet. i was almost ... i was almost apart of him. i abruptly pulled back as the door shook for the second time with a knock. painstakingly evident that someone was on the other side. my breaths were rapid, as i distingushed relena's voice.
"no one's home!" he continued to yell in his mock asian accent. "try down the hall." we were alone once more. he threw himself up against the wall. his lower lip quivering with pout. even crossing his arms. i laughed quietly at his frustration. recalling his mock of me this morning, i discontinued our engagement. one ill turn deserves another.
commence. [ 11:10 p.m. ]
[ note: if you feel i am vague in some parts, its intentional! lol sometimes Heero is just as clueless into what is occurring as you are. still have that desire to know all? i implore you to read the other characters blogs! heh heh ]
10/14/AC 197 [ implication ]
incessant impelling tactions. depleting my repose. "wakey. wakey" he disclosed, tone abated. still seemingly subdued by sleep, our interval widening. i abruptly captured his wrist in my fingers. his bondage bestowing coy divertissement. in segnity, my lids parted, proceeded by an oscitation. i am still mesmerized by the deposited features occupying his face, i am reduced to a mere aesthete. is that superficial of me? a smile tightened his lips. "good morning sunshine." i groaned. turning away from him i became aware of my erection. in attempts to conceal my ailment, i rose from the mattress, meandering to the bathroom. over imposing a somnolence that had already left my senses. lightly nudging the door over. enclosed in the walls, i flicked on the light. gingerly, i began to peel my material confinements. bowing my back, rotating the shower knob, stepping under the spray. the liquid enveloping body. to my daunt the water did not deter my aroused extension.
bemused by the impending risk, influenced by sex-starved convets. my red right hand. i clutched the inflamed endowment, hopefully enabling expedient masturbation session. my hedonistic fondling incited unsought utterances of amatory. during this i must have lided my eyes for i did not see his arms coming. the instigator, himself. his arms firmly enwrapped me in the shower curtain. i was stupefied. he maintained his hold on my chest. i could not see anything but the moisten plastic curtain. what could he see? a low dry scream emitted from my mouth. "what'cha doing in there heero?" his frolicsome voice, a mocking question. he knew. he knew what i was doing. i became resilient. and squirmed urgently, in till i broke free from his hold. careening into the slippery tiled wall, practically loosening my footing. my body was heaving, as i inhaled sharply, trying to regain my composure, which could never fully be restored after this incident. his laughter erupted from the other side of the flimsy divider. i was impeded, utterly abashed. i would have inaugurated a supplication, but my voice was unfathomable. body ephemerally immobile. stop. anything to stop his laughter. saccharin laughter. my hand searched wildly for an object. briefly i latched onto the bar of soap, before hurling it at him. i heard it collided into the wall.
"hey, that almost got me! besides, you'll need that to wash your hands ." he pronounced. he left me, laughter squandering. i finished my shower. my bare feet slapped against the linoleum, i draped a towel around my waist. and ceased all motion. how could i face him? plagued by insecurities. disgusted with myself. i do not recall initiating the first foot fall. i prompted myself to the closet. purposely evading all direct eye contact. after slipping on my boxers, under the damp towel, tugging it off, and then discarding the absorbent cloth. i mustered an adequate amount of confidence, and angled my head towards him. a grin blatantly plastered on his face. he extended one index finger then stroked it with his other. condemning me further by clicking his tongue. his deride of me soon diminished. all becoming impartial, though as we made our way to school, i spied that smirk endured.
i was sullen during our commute. conversation was practically nonexistent. my reverie was abound. slowing my pace, becoming detached. in till his hand firmly seized my wrist, and laboriously began to pull me along. i had to accelerate my stride. duo tarried before the threshold of our first class. awaiting my entry. i affirmed the request, scrupulous penetrating the cavity, as the last toll of the tardy bell echoed through the hollow halls. i faded out of cognizance, upon taking my seat. but a profound twang summoned my attention. a female body spawled before my desk. vestige was duo's foot, slowly retracting back under its rightful position. he leaned forward and leered at the misfortunate girl. "my leg's never been quite the same since the war." he indicated. relena angled her face at him, perturbed, chagrined. i stood and approached her solemnly, positioning on my haunches i began to gather her few books. i gazed upon her face momentarily, in consequence, i offered my hand. her fingers clasped my palm and we rose together. promptly yielding her accumulated items in her hand. she hesitantly acquired them, and i proceeded to my seat. i recaptured the desk adjacent to duo's. observant of his blithe. before i was able to speculate, i heard our instructor.
"duo, would you care to explain why you and mr. yui were again tardy?"
duo answered.
"well, you see heero ..." he divulged. removing his inert hand from under the desk, then began to wave it in the air. forming an obscene gesture. i could not conceal my swelling embarrassment, imbuing on my cheeks. i sharply conducted my body to face his. i struck him with my open palm on his upper arm, exerting with excessive force. he laughed like a child delighted by a nonsense rhyme. then flaunted a cryptic smile.
at lunch, again i was unable to locate duo's whereabouts. i abandoned my efforts. and confiscated a trivial placement at an unoccupied table in the cafeteria. allocated my text books and binder on the manufactured plateau. sitting in complete languor, disinclined to deem these string of recent occurrences. light tread of footsteps, approaching my disposition. she materialized before me. her movements seemed to defy gravity, such delicate poise. her structure must have been crafted from light bones of a bird. "i never got to thank you." she affectionately notified. i gazed at her. words could not form. she grew uneasy, and meekly inquired, "may i sit down?" i nodded and straighten my posture. she set her frail figure upon the plastic mold of the chair. i averted my eyes. silence seeping through us. finally, rushed, she spoke. " did i do say something wrong yesterday?" her question practically an apology by her tone.
"no." i lied. while affixing my sight upon her. her lips pulled into a deplored smile. i lowered my eyes. did i cause her this grief? is this damage my rendering. my features must have twisted into a grimace. she spoke my name with dull doubt. i shook my head from side to side. "it is nothing." another false statement. moments later, the bell sounded, and i stood. i gathered my things, and began to walk away. my vision caught her fingers slowly curled into a wave of farewell. i nodded.
for the remainder of the day my mind was reeling. if i was so dispensable why was my vice marring anyone who comes in contact with me. was i just imposing a lie on myself? so i can indulge in self-pity with ease. i could only conclude that i was failing. as i sought to form invisible bonds with other human beings, i placed them in harm's way. why must i be so inadequate. i waited for him after school. with this stigma burned on my bleeding heart, encircled in thorns. i waited. greed. how loathsome of me place him in peril so i would not be alone, so i could be suspended in his rapture. will i taint him? i want lose myself. only he can bestow it. everything for him. only him. forgive me duo.
he found me, delayed. without looking at him i stated in a whisper. "you left me alone with her." i wanted to confide my dismay, my fears, my guilt. i was broken, and so desperately wanted him to mend me. but i was rudely reminded his lack of concern the day previous. i mused the thought that i would make him fix me. without justification i obtained a grasp of his forearm, unscrupulously. leading him to my apartment. he completely complied, expect with one feeble protest.
"not so rough!"
once secured within those hallowed walls. my composure was cracking. all my inquires, not refuted. the truth impending, in its complete horrid nature. my apparent inadequacy. human nature was something i could never be suitable for. i backed away from him, cue my destruction. this is were i fall apart. "what's wrong?" blank emotion. will you piece me back together? no. i cannot ask that of you. i still wish you would, though. i want to be complete. "what can i do?" he entreated voice faltering, bitter remorse. will you always be there? i do believe it is working. you cannot fix me, can i become part of you? i cannot promise that i will not ask for much. his eyes fell. steady footfalls, i surrounded him. he was transfixed. i seized his waist with my arm, ensnaring his to my body. forcibly pressing his form against mine. my mouth seized his lips. jaggedly contorting my body against his for my own erotic endeavors. pulling away briefing to inhale, i nudged my head into his face, smearing my lower lip against his cheek. enclosing my lips over his once more, already wet with his saliva. i drove his body into the closed door. as my hands groping his back, trailing over his chest, then firmly grasping onto his hips. drawing his pelvis to my crotch. thunder, a rapping. no. not yet. i was almost ... i was almost apart of him. i abruptly pulled back as the door shook for the second time with a knock. painstakingly evident that someone was on the other side. my breaths were rapid, as i distingushed relena's voice.
"no one's home!" he continued to yell in his mock asian accent. "try down the hall." we were alone once more. he threw himself up against the wall. his lower lip quivering with pout. even crossing his arms. i laughed quietly at his frustration. recalling his mock of me this morning, i discontinued our engagement. one ill turn deserves another.
commence. [ 11:10 p.m. ]