"All Or Nothing" is copyright it's authors and is performed by the group O-Town. Despite the fact that it is performed by a media manufactured "Boy Band" it is still a very nice song with rather well written lyrics. I have, however changed a couple of lines and even removed one for continuity purposes. Alright, now for the usual disclaimers. This story contains suicidal thoughts, harsh words, extreme angst, and both str8 and slash situations. If you do not like any of these, please refrain from reading it. All characters and settings are copyright J.K. Rowling, save the ones you don't recognize. With that out of the way, on with the story…..

All Or Nothing

A quiet, moonlit spring night. He sat in the rose garden, awaiting Cho's arrival. It was nearing 10 O'clock, she was an hour late. With a sigh, the fifth year slowly stood and began towards the castle. He knew exactly where he'd find her.

She was where he knew she'd be. Sitting in the window sill of the Astronomy Tower, staring out into the dark. As he gently wrapped his arms about her shoulders from behind, she jumped, turning to look up at him with sad, vacant eyes.

I know when he's been on your mind,

That distant look is in your eyes.

I thought with time you'd realize,

It's over,

Over.

It's not the way I choose to live,

And something some where's got to give,

As sharing this relationship gets older…

Older…

His voice was soft as he spoke to her, dazzling emerald hues meeting her sad, lonely gaze. "You're thinking about Cedric again, aren't you?"

She looked away at his words, suddenly not having the strength to meet his eyes. She fought desperately at the tears threatening to flow and the sobs trying to escape the confines of her chest. After a few moments, she regained her composure and managed a single, choked word. "Yes…"

His fists clenched at his sides so tightly that his knuckles turned white and blood trailed down his fingers from the half moon cute his fingernails had made in the soft flesh of his palm. He fought to contain himself. He wasn't sure if he was enraged, hurt, or what. All he knew is that he was sick of this.

You know I'd fight for you,

But how can I fight someone,

Who isn't even there?

I've had the rest of you,

Now I want the best of you.

I don't care if that's not fair…

His words were soft as he fought the strong pangs of jealousy that threatened to consume him. "I don't know if I can do this anymore, Cho. I mean… I have you, here, with me, in my arms, and you're always somewhere miles away. I feel like you're cheating on me. I've tried talking to you about it, and all I got was that you're sorry and that you were just thinking. He's gone Cho… Cedric is dead. He isn't coming back."

It was those last words that finally drove her over the edge, the flood gate breaking and tears spilling from her eyes. Harry was right, Cedric was gone forever, and something deep inside of her knew that, and longed to move on… but there was still that part of her that refused to let go. She was conflicted, and she didn't know how to handle it. "I… I know he's gone, Harry…. "

"Then why do you insist on doing this to me?! I have all of you but the one thing that I'm SUPPOSED to have! Your heart is off somewhere six feet under with Cedric!" :: yes, it may have been cold, but at this moment, he didn't care. Since a month after Cedric's death, he and Cho had been together. At the beginning, Harry knew it was going to take Cho some time to get over the fact that Ced was gone, but honestly, wasn't a year enough?

'Cause I want it all,

Or nothing at all.

There's nowhere left to fall,

When you reach the bottom.

It's now, or never.

Is it all,

Or are we just friends?

Is this how it ends?

You leave me here,

With nothing at all.

"Harry, I… I'm sorry…. " She was shaking at the severity and harshness in his words. For her, it hadn't seemed like a day had passed since the last day of the Tri-Wizard Tournament, when Harry had brought Cedric's lifeless body back to the school. She couldn't help it really. Cedric had been her first real love, and that isn't something easily forgotten. This is not to say she didn't love Harry, but the first true love is the one that all other loves will be based on in the end. They are also the hardest to move on from.

At her words, he nearly growled. He was so sick of hearing those words come from her lips. His voice raised as anger consumed him. " Don't give me that tired bull. Honestly Cho, how sorry can one person be. It's all I ever hear from you. I'm the one that should be bloody sorry!! I mean, for crying out loud! I'm sharing you with a ghost. A MEMORY!" As he said this he turned her face to look at him, his fingers digging painfully into her chin. "Most of the time I keep my mouth shut, I hide it, but, it's killing me and I am REALLY beginning to tire of it! How long do you honestly think I am going to stick around when you treat me as if I don't even exist?!"

There are times it seems to me,

I'm sharing you with memories.

I feel it in my heart,

But I don't show it…

Show it..

And then there's times you look at me,

As though I'm all that you can see.

Those times, I don't believe it's right…

I know it…

I know it….

She looked at him now, and it was quite clear by the look in her eyes that she did love him, and if Harry hadn't have been blinded by jealousy, anger, and, above all, pain, he would have seen that. "I… I'm sorry Harry… I… it won't happen anymore.. I promise. I love you, so much…" Her hand moved to gently touch his arm. "I never realized how much this was hurting you. P…Please.. Give me another chance…" she begged, completely willing to put all of her pain and conflict aside just to make him happy. She was willing to sacrifice her soul, heart, and quite possibly her mind, all for the sake of having him near.

" Don't make promises you can't keep Cho." and he pushed her trembling hand off of his arm. "I've given you chance after chance, all of them beginning with those words. Not once have you kept that promise to me. NOT ONCE!"

Don't make me promises,

You never did know how to keep them well.

I've had the rest of you,

Now I want the best of you.

It's time to show and tell….

"It'll be different this time Harry. I swear. I'll do anything. I really never meant to hurt you…." Fresh tears were streaming down her face now. She didn't want to lose someone else she loved so much.

'Cause I want it all,

Or nothing at all.

There's nowhere left to fall,

When you reach the bottom.

It's now, or never.

Is it all,

Or not even friends?

Is this how it ends?

You leave me here,

With nothing….

"Do you still love him Cho? Do you still love him the way you used to? And do you love me even remotely as much?" He looked at her intently. This was it. The deciding moment. It was time for her to lay all of her cards out on the table and see if she got the aces.

Cause you and I…

"W… what??" she looked into his eyes with hurt, shocked eyes. Was he really asking her to do this?

Could lose it all,

If you've got no more room…

"Do you still love Cedric like you used to?"

No Room inside…..

Her voice was a choked whisper as she looked down and uttered a single word. "Yes."

For me in your life….

He was expecting her to say that. Without a word, he began out of the astronomy tower, his hands clenched once more into bloody fists. He only stopped when he felt her gentle hand wrap around his forearm. His voice was a low growl as he spoke. "Let go of me…. "

Cause I want it all…

Or nothing at all…

There's nowhere left to fall…

It's now… or Never….

"Harry.. Wait…" her voice was pleading. "Please… don't leave me like this. Don't leave me here all alone…. I'm sorry… PLEASE!!!" Her words were choked sobs as she still clung tightly to his arm.

Is it all,

Or nothing at all?

There's nowhere left to fall,

When you reach the bottom..

It's now or never.

Is it all,

Or not even friends?

Is this how it ends?

And then he turned on her so ferociously that she stumbled backwards as he yanked his arm from her grasp. "DON'T EVER COME NEAR ME AGAIN! IT'S OVER!"

You leave me here…..

And with that, he left the astronomy tower, as Cho crumpled to the floor in tears. Everything she had just walked out the door, and she was powerless to stop it.

With nothing at all…