Written when I realized just how close I am to Frodo. I scare myself badly.
Note: NOT after seeing the movie. I wrote it the day before. I'm frightened to death...
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Where are you when the night shadows fall?
Sam? Samwise?
Gone.
They have all gone.
Or have I gone?
Where am I?
What am I doing?
Where am I going?
Sam?
My arms ache - I have lifted the world in them.
Why so much pain?
Why so...
My heart aches.
No - no, there is no heart there.
My heart has withered in the wastelands.
Sam?
Oh, merciful Elbereth!
Is there no balm in Valinor?
Am I condemned to this misery forever?
Forever and all days?
All days.
Here at the end of all days.
Of all things.
I shall never be healed.
Sam?
All the earth is bleeding slowly into the Sea.
Shall I cross the Sea?
Have I crossed the Sea?
I see the world as if from across the Sea.
The Sea!
Maybe I shall find Valinor.
Maybe even I shall find it.
Farewell...
Or have I already fared as I shall for all days?
Yet again, all days.
I am lost in the midst of all days.
Sam?
I am clothed in darkness.
Where is my light?
Is there a light?
Has there ever been a light?
Perhaps there will never be light.
My light has gone; it took to flight.
I fly in the heart of all darkness.
My heart is all of darkness.
Sam?
I feel a subtle power.
I am in its power.
There is no other power but this.
It binds me.
One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them!
Have I been brought hither?
What has carried me?
I have been stolen away.
I am far away now.
I can never return.
Sam?
Do you know what is in my heart?
Are you my heart?
Is there still a heart within me?
You are my heart now.
You are all that I have.
All that is in my heart.
I have no heart.
Where are you?
What are you doing?
Where are you going?
Sam?
Sam, don't leave me to the darkness...
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© SoF 2002