.::Author's Notes::.
.:: Yup, here it is, the second part of the Eidolons' story. This one, as I promised to one of my readers, is going to feature Shiva. So read it, Post your comments, and have a good time!::. Rina
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN NEITHER FF9 NOR IT'S CHARACTERS
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The Ice Queen. The Winter Lady. The Crystal Fairy. Humans use all these terms to name me. But my one and only name is Shiva. I don't understand why they don't simply call things for their name. No. They always have to complicate things. But it's all right, I guess. That's their nature, and we Eidolons are not allowed to argue.
I still remember how I was when I was just a little child. As all Eidolons, I was raised by Her, until I was old enough to come to Gaia. I did not want to leave Her, but I must. She told me to "be good" and find a Master, to serve and protect. And left. She disappeared from my life just as suddenly as she had entered it. I still miss her. I will always do. I care not if the others say that the best thing to do is forget. "To be forgotten is worst than dead", Lady Freya Crescent said once. And I want not to make Her feel sad.
My, my, I'm starting to sound like Ramuh. For being an Eidolon, I'm not an adult yet, as I'm 1754 years old. Everything I am has been changing. From the way I looked, to the way I speak. Sometimes, I wish I was like Carbuncle again. Do not take me wrong, I'm happy with what I am. But I still think something it's not right.
It's part of growing, Ramuh says. It is really wise, because of its age. However, Fenrir is even wiser, although it's about half Ramuh's age. Less than that, I believe. I think that is because Fenrir is more practical.
I know, because of my age, that I must have had several Masters. I'm really grateful that I don't remember them. When we Eidolons choose a Masters, we create a very deep bond with him or her. Something that is even more intensive than a friendship, yet it's not love. I'm afraid describe it I can not, as it's impossible for humans to understand it. The fact is that if when we lose our Masters, we remembered them, we would suffer. Humans live so little.I think that's why they try to live their lives with such intensity. I think She has the same feeling we have about their lives toward ours. She has been alive since the beginning of all things.
The day I met with Garnet, or Dagger, since it's the same, was a glorious day. For me, of course, not for her. She was scared, really scared. So was I. She had lost everything she had. So had I. But yet she was going to start a new life. And with her, so was I. She needed me as much as I needed her. After all the Summoners death, I felt that I was not needed anymore. For a minute, that felt great, but after a while things changed. All because something Fenrir said. I found it by chance, and cheerfully told it my feelings. And with it's deep voice, it answered: "if you are not needed, then why are you alive?". I was shocked, but most of all, confused. I suddenly remembered the boat. "They may be still alive!" I repeated again and again, as I flew following their scent. And that's how I found her.
However, she only used me after a long while. She was scared once again, but this time of me. When I was summoned for the first time, about 11 years after the day I joined her soul, you can not imagine my surprise to find that I was called by a stranger. But I was not allowed to argue, so I followed her orders. That feeling truly contrasted with the relief I felt when I returned to her, and this time, being accepted.
Now, I have fought a lot by her side. My spirit became stronger, same as her's. At the moment, my only fear is that she will die soon. In only about 80 years, she will leave me. But I don't have to worry about that now. If I let my fears blind me, I will forget to live. She needs me now. And as long as she does, I will be with her. Because, as Fenrir also said, "You are only truly alive when you are needed".
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Even more.
.::Author's notes::.
.::Woo hoo, the first chap is over! Hope you like it!! Wondering who this mysterious "She" is?? Then continue reading!!! AND PLZ READ AND REVIEW!!!!! Ja ne, mata minna-san!!!::.Rina
.:: Yup, here it is, the second part of the Eidolons' story. This one, as I promised to one of my readers, is going to feature Shiva. So read it, Post your comments, and have a good time!::. Rina
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN NEITHER FF9 NOR IT'S CHARACTERS
~*~*~
The Ice Queen. The Winter Lady. The Crystal Fairy. Humans use all these terms to name me. But my one and only name is Shiva. I don't understand why they don't simply call things for their name. No. They always have to complicate things. But it's all right, I guess. That's their nature, and we Eidolons are not allowed to argue.
I still remember how I was when I was just a little child. As all Eidolons, I was raised by Her, until I was old enough to come to Gaia. I did not want to leave Her, but I must. She told me to "be good" and find a Master, to serve and protect. And left. She disappeared from my life just as suddenly as she had entered it. I still miss her. I will always do. I care not if the others say that the best thing to do is forget. "To be forgotten is worst than dead", Lady Freya Crescent said once. And I want not to make Her feel sad.
My, my, I'm starting to sound like Ramuh. For being an Eidolon, I'm not an adult yet, as I'm 1754 years old. Everything I am has been changing. From the way I looked, to the way I speak. Sometimes, I wish I was like Carbuncle again. Do not take me wrong, I'm happy with what I am. But I still think something it's not right.
It's part of growing, Ramuh says. It is really wise, because of its age. However, Fenrir is even wiser, although it's about half Ramuh's age. Less than that, I believe. I think that is because Fenrir is more practical.
I know, because of my age, that I must have had several Masters. I'm really grateful that I don't remember them. When we Eidolons choose a Masters, we create a very deep bond with him or her. Something that is even more intensive than a friendship, yet it's not love. I'm afraid describe it I can not, as it's impossible for humans to understand it. The fact is that if when we lose our Masters, we remembered them, we would suffer. Humans live so little.I think that's why they try to live their lives with such intensity. I think She has the same feeling we have about their lives toward ours. She has been alive since the beginning of all things.
The day I met with Garnet, or Dagger, since it's the same, was a glorious day. For me, of course, not for her. She was scared, really scared. So was I. She had lost everything she had. So had I. But yet she was going to start a new life. And with her, so was I. She needed me as much as I needed her. After all the Summoners death, I felt that I was not needed anymore. For a minute, that felt great, but after a while things changed. All because something Fenrir said. I found it by chance, and cheerfully told it my feelings. And with it's deep voice, it answered: "if you are not needed, then why are you alive?". I was shocked, but most of all, confused. I suddenly remembered the boat. "They may be still alive!" I repeated again and again, as I flew following their scent. And that's how I found her.
However, she only used me after a long while. She was scared once again, but this time of me. When I was summoned for the first time, about 11 years after the day I joined her soul, you can not imagine my surprise to find that I was called by a stranger. But I was not allowed to argue, so I followed her orders. That feeling truly contrasted with the relief I felt when I returned to her, and this time, being accepted.
Now, I have fought a lot by her side. My spirit became stronger, same as her's. At the moment, my only fear is that she will die soon. In only about 80 years, she will leave me. But I don't have to worry about that now. If I let my fears blind me, I will forget to live. She needs me now. And as long as she does, I will be with her. Because, as Fenrir also said, "You are only truly alive when you are needed".
~*~*~
Even more.
.::Author's notes::.
.::Woo hoo, the first chap is over! Hope you like it!! Wondering who this mysterious "She" is?? Then continue reading!!! AND PLZ READ AND REVIEW!!!!! Ja ne, mata minna-san!!!::.Rina