Schuldig was kneeling in front of me. He was looking intently at the cuffs that bound my arms up to the wall. He snickered softly as though someone had said something humorous.
He smirked at me and signaled for Farfello to leave my glass cage. All of the walls around me were made of glass or plastic except the one I was chained to. All I could see was black. They had made the room so dark that all I could see was black and the one bright light that hung from the ceiling.
"Do you want to know a secret, pretty boy?" Schuldig asked me.
Did I want to know one of his secrets? No... He always had messed with my head before. With Oka... Now he probably wanted me to hate Nagi... I couldn't hate Nagi, though. Even if I tried, I couldn't do it.
When I thought of the reason I was in this room was because of Nagi I still couldn't bring myself to be angry with him. No matter how much I tried... Maybe I was just naive but it didn't matter. Nagi wasn't someone I wanted to hate, anyway.
"No? Well, little Angel, I have no intent of making you hate Nagi. It's more fun if you are obsessed with him. No, I just want to tell you a little secret..."
"Shut up... Please, just shut up," I begged as I forced my legs to move closer to my body until they were against my chest.
"Well, until you want to know the secret I'll just have to ask you some other things. Tell me, were you a virgin until Nagi?"
I lowered my head and let out pain-filled gasps. Of course it wasn't enough for them to abuse my body, they wanted to play with my mind too. It was impossible for me not to remember the kidnappers molesting my child body. It was before they told me that Papa wouldn't pay... I had been crushed...
Manx told me it was better if I just forgot. Why couldn't I just forget? I had suppressed those memories for such a long time beforehand. Why did I have to remember them now? Why was it that being with Schwarz reminded me of all my pain that I was in the process of hiding.
'Because you know you can't hide from the darkness...' Schuldig whispered in my head.
"Stop it...please..." I begged as I moved away from Schuldig as he approached me.
"So those men took away your virginity when you were a child? I must say, you were pretty... I understand why they couldn't help themselves. I'm having enough difficulties as well..."
"Then do it!" I snapped as tears started to fall from my eyes. "Do it and shut up! Just leave my head alone..."
"So you want to make a trade? If I don't play with your mind I get to sleep with you? I never expected the naive baby of Weiss to become a prostitute."
Schuldig put his hand against my blood-covered face and slowly trailed it down to my lower back. He was going to do it...wasn't he...? Oh God, he was going to do it...
'Please! Someone!' I thought silently. 'Help me!'
Schuldig moved his hand away and licked the blood off it in a very Farfello like way. He smirked at me as he stood up, snickering. I started shaking completely; I was so afraid.
I was afraid of what they could do to me. I was afraid of what they would do to me. Most of all, I was afraid of what they might do to Nagi...
"You sure are childish," Schuldig muttered. "You fear for others more than you fear for yourself...and you're afraid of words. Don't worry though, pretty Omi, I'll be sure to tell you the secret before you aren't able to think on your anymore. Crawford will be glad to know that you've almost reached the point where you'll do whatever we command you. Just remember, take orders from no one besides Crawford and I."
With that said he walked out of the room through a door behind me as he snickered. I was loosing my sanity, he was right. I knew that soon I would be no more than a dog that took orders from its masters. With Schuldig constantly whispering in my head that I was useless and belonged to them and Farfello constantly assaulting my body... I was surprised that I had even lasted this long.
Weiss! I'm sorry! Nagi...please...forgive me... The point of the dark is to consume the light... If I ever was part of that light...the darkness would take over soon enough...
He smirked at me and signaled for Farfello to leave my glass cage. All of the walls around me were made of glass or plastic except the one I was chained to. All I could see was black. They had made the room so dark that all I could see was black and the one bright light that hung from the ceiling.
"Do you want to know a secret, pretty boy?" Schuldig asked me.
Did I want to know one of his secrets? No... He always had messed with my head before. With Oka... Now he probably wanted me to hate Nagi... I couldn't hate Nagi, though. Even if I tried, I couldn't do it.
When I thought of the reason I was in this room was because of Nagi I still couldn't bring myself to be angry with him. No matter how much I tried... Maybe I was just naive but it didn't matter. Nagi wasn't someone I wanted to hate, anyway.
"No? Well, little Angel, I have no intent of making you hate Nagi. It's more fun if you are obsessed with him. No, I just want to tell you a little secret..."
"Shut up... Please, just shut up," I begged as I forced my legs to move closer to my body until they were against my chest.
"Well, until you want to know the secret I'll just have to ask you some other things. Tell me, were you a virgin until Nagi?"
I lowered my head and let out pain-filled gasps. Of course it wasn't enough for them to abuse my body, they wanted to play with my mind too. It was impossible for me not to remember the kidnappers molesting my child body. It was before they told me that Papa wouldn't pay... I had been crushed...
Manx told me it was better if I just forgot. Why couldn't I just forget? I had suppressed those memories for such a long time beforehand. Why did I have to remember them now? Why was it that being with Schwarz reminded me of all my pain that I was in the process of hiding.
'Because you know you can't hide from the darkness...' Schuldig whispered in my head.
"Stop it...please..." I begged as I moved away from Schuldig as he approached me.
"So those men took away your virginity when you were a child? I must say, you were pretty... I understand why they couldn't help themselves. I'm having enough difficulties as well..."
"Then do it!" I snapped as tears started to fall from my eyes. "Do it and shut up! Just leave my head alone..."
"So you want to make a trade? If I don't play with your mind I get to sleep with you? I never expected the naive baby of Weiss to become a prostitute."
Schuldig put his hand against my blood-covered face and slowly trailed it down to my lower back. He was going to do it...wasn't he...? Oh God, he was going to do it...
'Please! Someone!' I thought silently. 'Help me!'
Schuldig moved his hand away and licked the blood off it in a very Farfello like way. He smirked at me as he stood up, snickering. I started shaking completely; I was so afraid.
I was afraid of what they could do to me. I was afraid of what they would do to me. Most of all, I was afraid of what they might do to Nagi...
"You sure are childish," Schuldig muttered. "You fear for others more than you fear for yourself...and you're afraid of words. Don't worry though, pretty Omi, I'll be sure to tell you the secret before you aren't able to think on your anymore. Crawford will be glad to know that you've almost reached the point where you'll do whatever we command you. Just remember, take orders from no one besides Crawford and I."
With that said he walked out of the room through a door behind me as he snickered. I was loosing my sanity, he was right. I knew that soon I would be no more than a dog that took orders from its masters. With Schuldig constantly whispering in my head that I was useless and belonged to them and Farfello constantly assaulting my body... I was surprised that I had even lasted this long.
Weiss! I'm sorry! Nagi...please...forgive me... The point of the dark is to consume the light... If I ever was part of that light...the darkness would take over soon enough...