(A/n thank y'all for reviewing and please keep it up!
Roxy: I haven't explained the James thing very well and this chapter does just that… sorta
James does like Lily, but he doesn't have the patience to wait for her right now. Moreover, James has noticed Lily before this (as you will see in later chapters) but I haven't found a place to work this in yet.
Lily isn't over Josh yet…. And he still has a major role to play later (we might even meet him?!) so I can't have her completely over him, but then again she's trying to convince herself she is. Confusing I know. But it will get less as I get further into the story. Okay?
And lastly the backstabbing thing: Lily accuses Amanda of backstabbing her because at this point Lily thinks Amanda set Jo and Josh up behind her back because Amanda didn't want Lily and Josh together, but as with all the other questions; more on that later.
Lethal: Thanks! I wouldn't consider my stories great… but then again; I'm not the reader…. Hope I can keep it up! And the Sirius thing? Well that's my surprise for later…
ThistleMeg: lol, I frequently argue with the characters so I don't mind! Talk to them all you want!
Now on to the story
Once again thanks for the reviews I love everyone for it… anyways… I know everyone hates when a writer does this, but I feel I have to. So before I'll post the next chapter I'd like 50 reviews. Okay?
Summary: this chapter is a glimpse into James' life…. Something much needed seeing as even I am kinda confused about James and what's going on inside that little *James begins beating me repeatedly for saying he has a little brain* brain of his. So here he is… completely… well not completely uncensored and letting us c the real him!
Disclaimer: I don't own squat… enough said.)
Just Another Heartbreak
Chapter 6: Inside James
James Potter was easily the most popular boy in Hogwarts, easily. With his unruly black hair, chocolate brown eyes, and a smile that could melt any girl's heart, he had quickly established his place as the president of the Marauders, the pranking group of the school. The Marauders consisted of James' best friends, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, and Arabella Figg. Sirius was the handsomest boy in the school, and second in popularity to only James. Remus rivaled Sirius and James in looks, but he was by far the most caring of the group. Peter was the odd one. Although he was fairly cute, and nice, he wasn't as easy going as the rest of the group. No one really knew why he was James, Remus, Sirius, and Arabella's friend, but they had their reasons and would have trusted him with anything. Arabella was the only girl in the group, but to the guys she was one of them. There wasn't a thing they could do that she couldn't, besides the obvious.
James couldn't remember a time when girls hadn't been falling at his feet, and although he pretended to love it, he wished that for just one day he could have some time to himself. The constant prattling of the girls of Hogwarts was slowly, but surely driving him insane, something he couldn't risk with his father as minister. Nevertheless, James had learned early in life to accept everything in his life and be grateful for what he had, but he sometimes still wished he wasn't James Harold Potter III. Few people knew this about him, but the ones that did, tried to help him the best they could.
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James walked into his transfiguration class, late, as usual, and took a seat close to his secret crush, Lily Evans. He doubted she had noticed him, she wasn't one to become completely wrapped up in boys and forget her schoolwork or friends. And lately she'd had a lot of both. However, today he noticed her glancing up at the disturbance and giving herself a half grin. Maybe she had noticed him after all. But his Attention didn't stay long o Lily, a note came flying onto his desk, and he began to read what tonight's escapade would be:
James-
It's a full moon, remember? WE can't do anything to Snape, or anyone! By the way, when is the potion going to be done?
Siri-
How many times do I hafta tell you? In the first week of February!
Oh
That's it?
I guess. Bella's looking pretty cute today.
Here we go again.
Well she is!
So? Remember marauder rule number 33?
Uh… no?
NO DATING ARABELLA!
Oh, I motion to abolish rule number 33.
You're the only one.
So? I over rule everyone.
Not
Too
Not
Too Too Too
I'm not having this argument with you. It's a waste of ink
So? (Too!)
There is something seriously wrong with you.
My condolences
Thank you
Welcome
That was sarcasm
So?
Is that all you say?
So?
Ha ha very funny… NOT!
I thought it was.
So?
Hey!
So?
Sirius didn't fell like fighting back, but he made a mental note to annoy James more than usual.
James glanced up at McGonagall, who was telling the class how hard it was to become Animagi, James tuned out. He knew how hard it was to become Animagi, after all he, peter, and Sirius had been trying for the past three years, and finally they had gotten the potion right, now all they had to do was wait a couple months and he could become an animal! He grinned at the thought of it.
"Mr. Potter would you mind telling me what is so happy about the thought of the potion not working properly?" Professor McGonagall interrupted his thoughts.
"I was just thinking-"
"Don't hurt yourself, James." Peter cut in, grinning good naturally.
"Don't worry, Pete, anyways as I was saying. I was thinking that even with the possibility of the spell going wrong, aren't the rewards worth the risk?" James prided himself on being able to come up with an answer, or in this case, a question as soon as he needed.
"To some it may be. But others it might not be." McGonagall had barely finished before the bell rang, sending a mad rush of students into the corridors. James was one of the last ones out of the classroom, and this was how he liked it. The longer he stayed in class, the less time he had to see the girls swarming him, begging him for a chance to get into his bed. Of course James, as any 16-year-old guy would, liked the idea of girls begging to sleep with him, but in a way, it upset him. These girls didn't stand a chance of anything but one of his weekly girlfriends, yet they swooned every time he walked by. He had no idea of how many girls had lost their virginity to him, never to be seen again, and yet more seemed to swarm him every day. However, the idea phased him for only a moment, until he saw Sirius waiting for him in the doorway.
"So Jamesie, "James winced at the nickname, "Who is the wonderful girl who occupied your thoughts all through class? And don't say no one, because even I could see through that look."
"Who says a girl was anywhere near my thoughts?"
"The grin on your face."
"Maybe I just thought of a way to beat the Slytherins, even if they do have our plays."
"Liar."
"And you aren't?"
"Did I ever say that?"
"You implied it."
"That wasn't an answer to my question."
"I'm your best friend why?"
"Because you wanted to be know as the best friend of the handsomest boy in Hogwarts."
"I think I just felt sorry for you."
"Nah, I like my idea better."
"I'm sure you do."
(James' note: at this point James would like to explain that he and Sirius have never once (up until this point) had a normal conversation about anything. And he believes that Sirius isn't capable of carrying on a conversation in such a manner.)
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"I know someone who likes you" Even before she had finished her sentence, James knew what she was trying, in her own subtle way, to tell him. Lily Evans had a crush on James Potter. He couldn't help but play along though.
"Do I know they like me?" Lily grinned at James, god he loved her smile, it was everything he could do to keep himself from grabbing that perfect little waist and-
"Nope." Lily snapped him out of his thoughts.
"Who is it?"
"That's for me to know."
"And me to find out." Lily shook her head so that her red curls bounced everywhere, that feeling was taking over his body again, and this time he wasn't sure he could resist. James was used to getting every girl and everything from them that he had wanted, and now to find a girl that liked him, but wouldn't fall at his feet was a bit unnerving.
He began to ask if it was one of the few girls whose names he could place with a face, but he was cut off before he cold finished with Lily's casual "Nope" and another smile. This time he couldn't resist, he grabbed her and began tickling her. At least this way he could be close to her without her noticing… too much.
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A few weeks later James found himself looking at white lily necklace. Everything reminded him of Lily. The name obviously, but not only that. The glass, because it was strong until a point, but when it passed that point it was fragile, and could break at the slightest shift in pressure. The past weeks Lily's friends had been coming up to him at various times and explaining bits and pieces of her life to him. Slowly he had begun to piece together a picture of what her life had been like up until this point. Lily had never really had a place where she could go to be sure of being loved, and her father's temper had never been kind to her. Brian Evans was a great person, and a great father, but he was also an undercover agent for the Scotland Yard which put a lot of pressure on him, which in turn put pressure on Lily. Petunia had never had the outrageous Evans temper, but Lily and her father certainly did and when both were upset, it was best to stay out of the way. But the past couple years both had seemed to cool. Lily learned to control her temper, and she avoided her father when he was in a foul mood. Both had improved life at the Evans' home, but even small improvements couldn't help the fact that Lily was still scared of her father, and felt that she had only ruined his life. You see, when Lily was born, neither of her parents were married, or intended to ever be so. Especially not her father. But that changed when Brian and Marcie had realized they had a child on the way. A wedding was quickly arranged after Lily's birth and the three became a family. James could only imagine what this had done to the already sensitive Lily. Nevertheless, Lily had done what she did to everything that might stand in her way: change to fit, and act like nothing had happened. She worked that way. If someone disliked her, she would do everything she could to make them like her, if someone hurt her, she would forgive them without another thought, all without care of what it did to her. James admired Lily for this, but he, like many of her friends and maybe even Lily herself, had realized what her parents had ignored. Lily was at the breaking point.
"Sir, are you going to purchase that?" A Saleslady interrupted his thoughts.
'Uh, yes I am. Can you gift wrap it?"
"Of course." James smiled. The woman treated him with respect although he wasn't exactly the type of person she would prefer to be selling the necklace to. James had entered the store in his sweats, only because he hadn't felt like looking good for no one.
"May I see some identification?"
"Yes." James withdrew his wallet and looked reluctantly at the name. As soon as the sales lady saw it, he would be asked a trillion questions about whether or not he was completely satisfied. All because of a name. A cursed name that had haunted him all through life, and always would. He hated it really. Potter, so blah, so common, so indifferent…
"Mr-Mr. Potter! I didn't recognize you is there anything-"
"No, just the necklace." James replied firmly.
"Right away, sir!" And within moments, James was holding onto a small square package containing the necklace. Now if only Lily would like it.
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(Alright, I know we aren't up to the same part we are in Chapter 5, but this is going to have to do. Do you guys like the idea of doing James POV ever six chapters of so, or would you rather me work it into the stories? There isn't really one way its easier for me, so you can decided. I know that I still have left a lot of things undone, and a lot of answers unanswered, but I am going to try to answer them in one of the upcoming chapters. So keep asking questions, and I promise I will eventually answer them, sound good? Thanks again to every one and remember 50 reviews! (that's only 21 more…) so R/R!!!!
~Lily