Think you know who I am? Heh. Guess again. Only a few know the truth behind my existence… This is my story…
Morrighan
Siblings: 1 younger sister (Tenshi-chan)
Best friends: Tenshi-chan (imouto-chan), Angelic Angel (Angel-chan), Hiiro, Shinigami, Crimson Goddess (Megami-san), the Funky Demon Goddess of Sweet Tarts (FDG of ST),
Status: a Goddess of War (formerly deceased; now immortal)
Aliases: Meio-chan/Seraphina
My Past Life~
I was the blood cousin of Tenshi-chan (real names *classified*), but my biological family died when I was very little, so I was adopted and raised by another family. Because of that, I had no idea that I had been adopted and had a cousin living in unknown whereabouts. After being chosen at a young age by an agency working for the government to be trained in infiltration and reconnaissance, I underwent lots of intensive training dealing with every skill that a person of my profession would need. Every mission (all details *classified*) assigned to me was completed flawlessly, and many potentially tragic incidents were avoided. I was their top specialist (whether or not if they themselves did not acknowledge it, it was the truth), and they couldn't afford to lose their little "brainchild". This was all done in secret, and I lived two totally different lives: one as a top reconnaissance and infiltration specialist, and the other as a "normal" girl going through school.
In some ways, you could say that I was the perfect candidate for the job. No one would suspect the daughter of a semi-wealthy family to be a top infiltration and reconnaissance specialist. It was also incredibly easy to slip in large amounts of money (did you think that I did all of this insane stuff for free??), various types of state-of-the-art equipment, and weapons into the house without anything seeming amiss. Thank the Goddess we only had a small staff taking care of the house at all times! I have no idea how they would have reacted if they had found one of the guns stashed in my room, but I would've been worse than dead. At school, my "high" social status attracted the attention of many people, but my normally cold demeanor repelled any unwanted attention. But it was such a lonely existence… Missions soon became a total bore. They seemed to have no point or purpose, and I lost my motivation to complete them. I felt like a tool for the organization, and the deception was really starting to get at me. Not even my closest friends knew who I truly was!! Almost everything they knew about me was a pure lie! The only people who really knew who I was were the very people who trained me!!
A meeting of pure chance (divine intervention: it's impossible for things to happen by chance) at my favorite haunt changed everything. I would have willingly committed suicide if I hadn't met him; anything seemed possible after that. Then came the realization that I had gotten myself into a situation that would warrant my immediate execution…
My last mission took place two weeks before the senior prom… I had been sent to a nearby base to get as much information as I could on the organization's movements and plans and sneak out without being detected in time for prom. Two days of gathering and sending information, and I was captured at nightfall. Someone (whoever it was had better be rotting in Hell right now) from within the very agency I worked for had tipped them off; I would have gone totally unnoticed in normal circumstances. I escaped a day later, and I was shot in the arm, adding on to all the wounds that I sustained from all the physical torture the enemy put me through. Wounds or no wounds, I really didn't care; I had to get back to the agency. I had never failed a mission in my life, and wasn't about to start. When I made it back the same day, I was immediately rushed to the nearest hospital. It was already too late. I fell into a coma that lasted for ten days. He actually came and watched over me while I was still unconscious… He was the first person I saw when I woke up… I'll never forget the look in his eyes…they were filled with so much pain and sadness… I didn't understand why an innocent would care for someone who was so tainted… He didn't want me to die, "we still need to graduate", he said. He was everything I wasn't and never would be… I was the darkness and he was the light… I whispered, "aishiteru" into his ear and then everything went pitch black…
My Current Life~
My next memory is of judgment; I was allowed into Heaven as an angel with wings because I died an "honorable death". But why let someone who had sinned so much, rise? The things I had done were far from saintly. It may have been that my sudden change of heart saved me from eternal damnation, but did I deserve so much?
Soon after, I met Tenshi-chan (she flew into me while on a practice flight), who had just been admitted for similar reasons as mine (she died in a school shoot-out). It was then we found out that we were actually cousins, and since then, the two of us have become as close as sisters, hence the "imouto-chan" nickname. Entering the Celestial Academy was the first turning point in my new "life". There we met Angelic Angel, or Angel-chan, as we now call her, and the three of us began our studies to become a Goddess of some sort. Angel-chan really liked studying love potions, so she went off to become a Goddess of Love. Excelling in weaponry and tactics, I pursued the station as a Goddess of War. But the things I had been taught in my past life influenced me into studying even further to become a War Goddess who was to be only called upon in the most dire of situations. Two centuries later (I could have made it in just one century, but Ares-baka didn't want another deity of war to be running around, so he kept delaying me for ages, literally), I graduated from the Celestial Academy and was renamed Morrighan, Goddess of War. Imouto-chan couldn't focus on just one element, so she talked with the head of the school and was allowed to drop the Celestial Academy after just a century of study. Instead, she became an Eternity Angel, and does various types of missions for Gods and Goddesses. Angel-chan remained in school with me, but she didn't graduate when I did, so she's still studying to this day. But even I'd have to admit that it might take a while. She'll only graduate if Aphrodite allows her to…
How I Met the G-Boys…
Hiiro: I watched over him the day Odin Lowe took him in, and have watched over him ever since. I've always been drawn to his inner self, his kindness that has been suppressed and nearly eradicated by his training. He is my Chosen. Each immortal chooses a mortal to put forth their will in the mortal plane every-so-often, and it was my "turn", if you will, to choose one. Heh. But the choice I made is so ironic… That day when he accidentally killed imouto-chan's charge, Sarah and her dog Mary (imouto-chan had a guardian angel mission at the time), along with other civilians, during a mission to destroy a military base, I knew how much it affected him. For a second, his emotionless mask fell and his eyes reflected so much pain and agony… He lost his humanity that day. I knew I was partially to blame for this transformation in him. His heart hadn't fully recovered from what had happened all those years ago, and his gut feeling was holding him back so much… I don't know how long I cried as I watched what followed his grievous mistake. I would have done anything within my power to free him of his pain, but nothing can change the courses outlined by Fate. Whenever I tried to interfere, Fate would always render me unable to use my powers, and I was forced to watch and wait. That always infuriated me to no end. When I felt up to the challenge during the Eve Wars (as they were later called), I would appear on Earth just to watch him. I'm not sure if he actually spotted me among all the people around him, but I know he was aware that someone was watching over him.
It wasn't until after the Eve Wars did we meet face-to-face under imouto-chan's guidance (she had met him on a mission). She had noticed that when I watched over all five G-Boys with her and Angel-chan (whenever she got a break of some sort from the Celestial Academy), I seemed to pay the most attention to him, and had gone out of her way to introduce the two of us to each other. I introduced myself as "Meio-chan", and I told him about my "life" as an infiltration and reconnaissance specialist, just like imouto-chan had. I omitted that I had died centuries ago, and that I was a Goddess. During that meeting, I couldn't help but notice the odd looks he gave me when he thought I wasn't watching. Did he suspect that I was the one watching over him? Or did he think that we had known each other before? I know the answer to that question…but I am not at liberty to say… Regardless, it's still been impossible to get an answer out of him…
Duo: I was walking down a street with Hiiro and imouto-chan one day when I was shoved into a certain braided boy. Muttering a quick "excuse me", I continued on until I heard him call out, "Hey babe! What's your number?" Big mistake. I hate it when people call me that. Spinning around, I proceeded to give him a piece of my mind and would have continued berating him if it weren't for imouto-chan's innocent, "Duo-kun, what did you do to make ane-chan so mad?" And before he could say anything in his defense, I fired off an explanation as to why this idiot had been on the receiving end of my annoyance. After clearing things up, introductions were made and the mishap was put behind us. Then imouto-chan had the audacity to "accidentally" push me into a nearby water fountain. Panicking, I grabbed onto the closest object I could get my hands on (which happened to be Hiiro's arm) to keep myself from falling into the water. No such luck. I fell in anyway, taking poor Hiiro in with me. It really didn't take a mad scientist (pun very much intended) to figure out that I was ready (literally) to bring up Hell's demons from their confines (I don't think Shinigami would have minded), and unleash them on my imouto. But before I could do anything, Hiiro actually started laughing! This shocked Duo so much that he fainted and fell in with us! Our situation was just so hilarious that imouto-chan and I started laughing as well, and the rest is history…
Trowa: Like all the other G-Boys, I met him through watching over Hiiro. It really wasn't hard to relate to the way he lived his life; I had pretty much lived the way he did until that fateful meeting millennia ago. He's extremely lucky to have Catherine as a source of support and kinship; not everyone is blessed with such things.
Quatre: My first face-to-face meeting with him came immediately after the "fountain incident". Coincidentally (or not), he was walking down the street with two men of the Maganac (one of them was Rashid), having arrived on the colony for a business meeting. I honestly think he was thoroughly startled by our…interesting…predicament (I mean who's heard Hiiro really laugh? We were sitting in a fountain, too!). Being the gentleman he is, Quatre offered to take us to his mansion on that particular colony to dry off and change into clean, dry clothes. Imouto-chan and I accepted (Hiiro didn't seem to care), and Rashid and the other Maganac (I think it was Abdul) fished poor Duo out of the fountain. Quatre called one of his limos, and the ride to his mansion was uneventful, and I was introduced to him by imouto-chan (Hiiro wasn't very willing to talk) along the way. I wonder if Quatre was able to pick up the subtle changes in Hiiro… And as for me, no mortal empath can pick up an immortal's emotions unless the immortal wants them to…
Wufei: If there ever were something such as dislike at first sight, it would definitely apply when I met Chang Wufei. Strong-willed and rather opinionated about women, clashing with him wasn't difficult. Meeting him while in the company of Hiiro, sparks flew when he made a derogatory comment about "weak women". Naturally, the two of us began arguing, and needless to say, it got pretty ugly within the first minute; we were throwing (very obscene) insults back and forth, with no apparent end to it. Being who I am, short tempered and all, I usually take first impressions as the deciding factor in how I judge people. Already, you can probably see why this was such a problem. It wasn't until just recently did I find out why he acted like that. With Shinigami's permission (and some of imouto-chan's persuasion), I was able to meet his deceased wife, Meilan. Eventually, his tragic past was revealed through her, and I deeply regretted the things I had done. I nearly started crying when she finished… Her story was so much like mine… Damn that God of War for causing all this suffering… No one deserves such pain…
Zechs/Milliardo: Imouto-chan kicked him outta Hell. Literally. I was quite happy, actually. I even helped her persuade Megami-san and Shinigami to let him back into the mortal plane. I couldn't allow Ares-baka have his way with the situation building up in the mortal plane and I didn't want the people to be thrown into another war so soon because it would prove that the previous wars had been meaningless. Milli-boy's return to the mortal plane was rather well timed; he quickly became a key player in the crisis, and the coup d'etat failed. If I ever meet him in person, there isn't a bit of doubt in my mind that he would recognize me for who I really am…
Since then, I often go down to the mortal plane to visit, occasionally accompanied by imouto-chan (when she doesn't have a mission), and/or Angel-chan (when she gets a break from the Celestial Academy). It's been getting easier and easier to get Hiiro to talk about his past now. Even though I know the details of his past far better than he thinks I do, it's still interesting to have it recounted in first person. It's a sort of release, relieving demons of the past, if you will. I often find myself telling him more and more about my past life…but always remembering to keep the fact that I died a secret. Sometimes, I feel like I'm talking to someone I've known forever…
I don't know what would happen to me if the Higher Gods found out about my feelings for my Chosen… It's forbidden for an immortal to fall in love with a mortal, but I often wonder if this constantly broken rule is truly what Destiny and Fate wish… Some immortals have committed sins far severe than the one I've placed myself into, but no punishment has been inflicted on them… There are always consequences… But is there anything wrong with wishing for the continuation of past relationships? Or am I just being selfish? Or is it something ordained by Destiny and Fate? I suppose I will never know…
With everything settling down in the mortal plane, there isn't the need for me to partake in any major issues. I've also promised both imouto-chan and Meilan, not to pick on him (Wufei) anymore. I've picked up the hobby of writing fanfiction to pass the time… And as far as I'm concerned, Ares-baka isn't going to be able to start any wars in the mortal plane without my knowledge. And even if he is successful, I will always try and stop them from progressing into something more threatening.
I think of myself as a dark angel… I hate deceiving people, and yet I'm still forced to, even in this eternal "life". I can't help but feel guilty for lying to the G-Boys about my identity. Having split personalities with their own names is also false… It's a cover-up for when I become aggravated enough to begin reverting into my Goddess form (or vice versa). Seraphina doesn't exist. I don't want them to suspect that I am way out of the ordinary, but my conscious always nags at me, and I always feel so guilty… I also condone the act of taking away life. Goddess of War or not, I seriously despise the idea of killing. "One's victory is someone else's sorrow"… I only became a Goddess of War because fighting was all I really knew how to do. Ares-baka teases me about this a lot, but he really doesn't understand… He was born into immortality, and I was not. I had died before I gained immortality, and he hadn't grown up living a lie… Ares-baka loves war because it's war. He has almost no regard for the amount life that is destroyed, and the consequences of that loss. It's no wonder we disagree about everything. Our beliefs counter each other in every way. And there is no way in Hell or Heaven that my feelings about the matter will change. The God is a stuck up, pain-in-the-ass. He is the God of senseless War. I am the Goddess of meaningful War, and in some senses, I'm also a Goddess of Peace…
Hiiro, if you or any of the other G-Boys are reading this, you know who I really am now, and I'm truly sorry for deceiving you all. It was not by choice, but by the will of the Higher Gods. I hold no power over whatever my elders decide. But if I could have made a difference, I would have wanted everyone to live a normal, happy, peaceful life. But of course, Fate and Destiny wouldn't have allowed me to do so…