Please Don't Chapter 2: Let me care
Disclaimer I do not own FF 8
I sigh as I go about my day, Seifer locked up temporarily so that he may not tempt again. Also my heart eased by words of a friend who's gone through this. In her case it took both of them hurting each other in the same day for either of them to get better, or least to the point they didn't long to end there life. I'm not suicidal and I'd never do something that extreme but I did realize something deep with in me. Something that my quick emotions over rid.
I love Seifer, and though I may worry for him, and get frustrated, I accept he's suicidal tendencies. It's a part of him, and even if he loses control and does it again I'll be here. For him to get over that, I will accept it. I cannot turn my back on him when he needs someone. Though I wish he'd get help when he feels the tendencies coming on.
Oh Seifer it upsets me because I care about you very much, and I'm either concerned or worried, but I don't want you to stress over it. I just want to try to help you. And I'll give you my best not to yell at you when you get in these moods. Seifer dear I understand more then ever, won't you let me care for you?
"Rinoa, RINOA!"
I look up at an annoyed Quintis, it surprised me how much a woman like her could stay annoyed, and yet still love life. I sigh and suppress my thoughts as I sit up.
"Yes, Quintis?"
"Are you going to stare at that screen all day?" Quintis asks me. "What is your problem anyway?"
I force out a laugh, "nothing."
Nothing? Yeah I know it was a lie but some people you don't tell the truth. If I told he about Seifer and how I felt she'd rust me to the infirmary. I don't know why but she's always looking for reasons to put me away. Like it's a fun game to her. Right now, that would be bad, I needed to stay at my best for Seifer.
"You sure you don't need some help?" Quintis asks again.
"Quintis, I'm not up to your game of fifty questions." I snap back at her.
I get up and leave the room before she could say anymore. She was the one that needed the help not me. That woman had a whole case load of problems that needed immediate treatment. I stifle a chuckle at the thought of Quintis were she belongs. She was an insane person in sane persons clothes.
I walk down the hallway at a breakneck pace. I wasn't headed any where in particular, I just wanted to head some where. Maybe I should call Seifer's sister. She had been great to me these last few days, despite herself having a worse time then me. Lets just say I learned Seifer's sister was one woman never to be reckoned with. To the point of I hope she knows when I ask her to do things, I hope she knows she don't have to do them. I do not want to get on her bad side.
I wave to Zell as I pass him in the hallway. As of usual he didn't look at me he just continued on his way. Who knew what really bugged him, but he did stop and say my boyfriend was gay once or twice. I push the button on the elevator to go down. Nerves are short around here. It was so heavy and depressing to see everyone down, but what can you do?
One person and to many problems. I really have to learn that I can't fix everything, nor can predict the future.
Once of the elevator I'm greeted by Stellar, Seifer's sister. Squall stood not far off looking like the world was about to end. He did Stellar wrong, and he accepted anything she was going to dish out. I couldn't help but to pity them both and hope for a quick resolution. Be it good or bad.
"How are you?" I ask Stellar kindly.
"Okay I guess."
Okay I guess, short for I want to kill the next person who crosses my path and offer there guts to Hyne. Don't get me wrong Stellar is a kind woman, she really hates to hurt people, but when push comes to shove she'll shove. Surprisingly I can find that a refreshing pace in a friend... Well, Stellar is more like my sister then a friend. I do not consider her my friend at all. She's my sister, and she knows me better then most.
"Figure out what to do yet?"
"No but that bitch Quintis won't be doing anything like that again as soon as I get to her."
"Upstairs class room, and how's Seifer?"
"Fine, you should be getting a message from him soon."
Me and Stellar walk down the corridors chit chatting about Seifer, Squall, and what Stellar was going to do to Quintis. Can't say I blame her. As I talk to her all my concerns and all my fears seems to ease. Some say they get scared around her, but I actually feel so comfortable around her. Something about her just seems so normal to me. Call me odd or call me odd.
Disclaimer I do not own FF 8
I sigh as I go about my day, Seifer locked up temporarily so that he may not tempt again. Also my heart eased by words of a friend who's gone through this. In her case it took both of them hurting each other in the same day for either of them to get better, or least to the point they didn't long to end there life. I'm not suicidal and I'd never do something that extreme but I did realize something deep with in me. Something that my quick emotions over rid.
I love Seifer, and though I may worry for him, and get frustrated, I accept he's suicidal tendencies. It's a part of him, and even if he loses control and does it again I'll be here. For him to get over that, I will accept it. I cannot turn my back on him when he needs someone. Though I wish he'd get help when he feels the tendencies coming on.
Oh Seifer it upsets me because I care about you very much, and I'm either concerned or worried, but I don't want you to stress over it. I just want to try to help you. And I'll give you my best not to yell at you when you get in these moods. Seifer dear I understand more then ever, won't you let me care for you?
"Rinoa, RINOA!"
I look up at an annoyed Quintis, it surprised me how much a woman like her could stay annoyed, and yet still love life. I sigh and suppress my thoughts as I sit up.
"Yes, Quintis?"
"Are you going to stare at that screen all day?" Quintis asks me. "What is your problem anyway?"
I force out a laugh, "nothing."
Nothing? Yeah I know it was a lie but some people you don't tell the truth. If I told he about Seifer and how I felt she'd rust me to the infirmary. I don't know why but she's always looking for reasons to put me away. Like it's a fun game to her. Right now, that would be bad, I needed to stay at my best for Seifer.
"You sure you don't need some help?" Quintis asks again.
"Quintis, I'm not up to your game of fifty questions." I snap back at her.
I get up and leave the room before she could say anymore. She was the one that needed the help not me. That woman had a whole case load of problems that needed immediate treatment. I stifle a chuckle at the thought of Quintis were she belongs. She was an insane person in sane persons clothes.
I walk down the hallway at a breakneck pace. I wasn't headed any where in particular, I just wanted to head some where. Maybe I should call Seifer's sister. She had been great to me these last few days, despite herself having a worse time then me. Lets just say I learned Seifer's sister was one woman never to be reckoned with. To the point of I hope she knows when I ask her to do things, I hope she knows she don't have to do them. I do not want to get on her bad side.
I wave to Zell as I pass him in the hallway. As of usual he didn't look at me he just continued on his way. Who knew what really bugged him, but he did stop and say my boyfriend was gay once or twice. I push the button on the elevator to go down. Nerves are short around here. It was so heavy and depressing to see everyone down, but what can you do?
One person and to many problems. I really have to learn that I can't fix everything, nor can predict the future.
Once of the elevator I'm greeted by Stellar, Seifer's sister. Squall stood not far off looking like the world was about to end. He did Stellar wrong, and he accepted anything she was going to dish out. I couldn't help but to pity them both and hope for a quick resolution. Be it good or bad.
"How are you?" I ask Stellar kindly.
"Okay I guess."
Okay I guess, short for I want to kill the next person who crosses my path and offer there guts to Hyne. Don't get me wrong Stellar is a kind woman, she really hates to hurt people, but when push comes to shove she'll shove. Surprisingly I can find that a refreshing pace in a friend... Well, Stellar is more like my sister then a friend. I do not consider her my friend at all. She's my sister, and she knows me better then most.
"Figure out what to do yet?"
"No but that bitch Quintis won't be doing anything like that again as soon as I get to her."
"Upstairs class room, and how's Seifer?"
"Fine, you should be getting a message from him soon."
Me and Stellar walk down the corridors chit chatting about Seifer, Squall, and what Stellar was going to do to Quintis. Can't say I blame her. As I talk to her all my concerns and all my fears seems to ease. Some say they get scared around her, but I actually feel so comfortable around her. Something about her just seems so normal to me. Call me odd or call me odd.