song credit: "Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely" – Backstreet Boys

Love Will Find a Way

Chapter 5

        Sheridan was on the plane to Europe. She didn't know where in Europe she was going to stay; all she knew is that it wasn't going to be Paris. //Too many bad memories...// She thought back to Jean-Luc and how he used her. //Will I ever find love the way I love Luis?//Just then, a song came up on the airplane's radio station.

//Show me the meaning of being lonely...

So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe; Walk with me and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free; I can feel the sun
Your every wish will be done, they tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
If only guilty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control, are you with me now?

Your every wish will be done, they tell me

There's nowhere to run, I have no place to go

Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel
The things you never show?

You are missing in my heart...
Tell me why can't I be there where you are...//

        Tears fell from Sheridan's eyes as she remembered all her moments with Luis. //I had no other choice...//

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        "WHAT?????" Luis yelled. He sank to the floor, on his knees. "Anyone but Sheridan!"

        "Uh, Luis? Are you okay?"

        "DOES IT LOOK LIKE I'M OKAY?"

        "Okay... sorry..." Sam walked away. Luis started to cry. Now it's not very often that Luis cries, so...

        "Sheridan killed my father... Oh, my God... I have to go find her!" Luis said, standing. [But wait!] He composed himself and went to find Sam. "Sam, what's the story?"

        "Well, I forced it out of Julian. Apparently, it was a freak accident; One night, Sheridan went and picked up a letter opener. She was really young then, about your age when it happened."

        "So she killed him..." [God, it hurts to say that,] "...when she was a child?"

        "Yes. She took the letter opener and hid, and your father walked by her and it was sticking out; it pierced him and it killed him."

        Luis shook his head. "Sam... I have to go. Okay?"

        "Okay, Luis." He left.

        *I don't know why, but I think Luis has got a thing for Sheridan...*

        Luis drove straight to Sheridan's cottage. He pounded on the door. "SHERIDAN!" No answer. "Sheridan?" he asked, a little softer. He didn't want to scare her, but he had to talk to her. Did she really kill his father? Why did she keep it from him all this time?

        "Luis," a voice said.

        He turned around and Ethan was standing there. "Ethan, where's Sheridan?"

        "She... left."

        "Left? When is she going to be back?"

        "I don't know."

        "Well, when did she leave?"

        "Like an hour ago. Luis... there's something in there for you. She told me to tell you that." Ethan held out the key to the cottage, and Luis opened the door. He gasped.

        "Ethan, the cottage is empty," Luis said.

        "I know."

        "Where is she?"

        "Like I said, she left."

        "But there's nothing in the cottage... Ethan, what do you mean when you say 'left'?"

        "She packed a suitcase and went to the airport kind of left."

        "Oh, my God! Ethan, where did she go?"

        "I don't know! She didn't tell me! But look, there's a note for you somewhere around here. If you read it, maybe it'll say something."       Luis spotted the note, grabbed it, and opened it.

        "So?" Ethan asked.

        Luis read the letter. It hurt him so much to hear that Sheridan loved him. Once again, he was torn. "She didn't say where she was going," Luis said, deflated.

        "Luis, can I ask you something?"

        "What?"

        "Are you... and Sheridan..."

        "What about us?"

        "Is there anything going on between you? Because Sheridan was pretty upset while she was packing."

        Luis looked at Ethan sadly. "Ethan... I don't know what I'm going to do without Sheridan," he confessed.

        "Wow. You really do love each other."

        "All I know is that I love her, and I don't know how I'm going to live without her. I need to find her. I have to talk to her. Tell her... tell her I forgive her."

        "For what, Luis?"

        "Killing my father."

        Ethan gasped. "So... it wasn't a dream?"

        "What wasn't a dream?"

        "Never mind."

        "Are those the nightmares that Sheridan had when she was little?"

        "Yes." Just then, Ethan's cell phone rang.

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            Sheridan was walking the streets of London when she bumped into a familiar face. "Ted? Oh, my gosh! Hi!"

        The man looked at her for a minute. "Sheridan?" he asked, incredulously, after a while. "Is that you?"

        "Yes, it's me."

        "Wow! I haven't seen you in ages!" He hugged his former girlfriend. "How have you been?"

        "Not good. Ted, listen. Do you think I can stay with you for a while?"

        "Well, I'm going to have to ask my mom, but I think she'll say okay." Ted Evans looked at her and said, "Sheridan, what's the matter? You look like you've been crying."

        "I have... It's a long story, I'll tell you later." They walked to Ted's flat when they heard screaming.

        "What was that?" they asked, in unison.